I am lying in bed crying when I hear my phone ring, I roll over and see that it's Nancy.
Derek: Nanc
Nancy: Der I don't know what's going on with you two and I don't want to, but I saw clothes all over the front step, and I can't get Addie to move. She's lying on the closet floor crying, she's not moving and barely speaking. What the hell happened?
I feel myself break down: Nanc it's not good I'm sorry
Nancy: Derek please she's asking for you come home
Derek: I can't Nance I can't
Nancy: Derek I have to go home, the kids need me and I don't want to leave her right now like this. I've never seen her like this, it's not good Derek. She won't even talk to me and she won't let me help her.
Derek: Nance she'll be fine just check on her in the morning
Nancy: NO DEREK NO. I know that things haven't been great with you two and I don't know what the hell happened nor do I want to know. But Derek Shepherd I'm tired of picking up the pieces, everytime you broke her heart when your work became more important then her I was there. Now swallow up your damn pride and go help your wife.
You used to talk to me like
I was the only one around
You used to lean on me
The only other choice was falling down
You used to walk with me like
We had no where we needed to go
Nice and slow
To no place in particular
Before I had the chance to respond she hung up the phone. I put the phone down and replayed what she said over and over in my head. What was she talking about everytime I broke her heart, my work has never been more important then Addie. I looked over at the clock it was 11:30pm, I crawled out of bed thinking I should at least go check on Addie. I get into the car and make my way to the house. As I'm walking up the stairs I remember the day we moved it.
Flashback:
Derek: Were home
Addison smiled as she looked at him grabbing his hand as she ran up the stairs: Home
She went to open the door when Derek stops her pulling her close to him wrapping her arms around his neck she smiled up at him as he leaned down and kissed her softly on the lips before picking her up: Were doing this right
Addison laughed as she felt herself being swooped up and carried over the threshold her arms wrapped tightly around his neck. He stopped in the entrance way kissing her deeply before placing her feet back onto the ground.
Derek: I love you Addie always and forever
Addison smiled back at him: I love you to
We used to have this figured out
We used to breathe without a doubt
When nights were clear you were the first star that i'd see
We used to have this under control
I found myself smiling at the memory as I walked up the stairs, picking up her wet clothes carrying them inside as the memories of last night came flooding back. Seeing Addie standing on the stairs holding onto the railing screaming how we don't quit. I slowly made my way up the stairs to the bedroom I could hear her soft sobs coming from the closet as I made my way over to her.
Derek: Addie
We never thought we used to know
At least there's you
And at least there's me
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back?
To how it used to be
I lay on the floor sobbing as I hear footsteps coming up the stairs I can't even move and I don't care anymore. I want to stay in this closet and never come out again. Then I hear his voice, I can't even move to look at him, I'm so weak.
Derek: Addie
I used to reach for you
I got lost along the way
I used to listen
You always had the just right thing to say
I look down at her and my heart breaks I slowly found all the anger and hurt that I had in me fade looking down at my broken wife. I knelt down beside her moving the hair from her face and saw so much pain looking in her eyes. I picked her up off the ground cradling her in my arms, as we both cried.
I wrapped my arms around his neck instinctively as I cried harder into his chest. I felt safe in his arms and I didn't want this feeling to ever end.
Addison: I'm so sorry I'm sorry so sorry
Derek: shhh
We stayed in that closet for hours just holding onto one another crying over the last 13 years and the last 11years of our marriage.
I used to follow you
Never really cared where we would go
Fast or slow
To anywhere
