A/N: Thank you so much to my readers for being patient! Seriously, I love you reviewers so much and anyone else who is taking an interest in the random ideas I get into my head one day.
Oh and have any of you been following The Cannes Film Festival? I love how amazing On The Road and Cosmopolis are doing and that I've been RK spoiled these past few days. I'm just in a happy land right now : ) And go see Snow White and The Huntsman next week!
A week Later
Bella rewinded the same part of the video again. She hit the play button when it got exactly where she wanted it to and stared at the screen. Edward moved in closer to her as she did the same thing. Their lips met and for a moment, it seemed like they were the only two people in the world.
She really believed that she felt that way at the time.
At first, it was hard for Bella to think she got married at 18. She'd been watching the wedding video for a week straight it seemed like. Only stopping to make Charlie some food or hunt. It was pretty hard to stop watching, she had to admit.
The two people on the tv screen were in love. Truly and completely.
There were footprints in the back rooms and Bella looked in that direction. Jacob peeked his head in, wondering if it was okay to come in. She smiled and patted the seat next to her.
He sank into the couch aside her. "Hey," he said, turning his head to face the television. He noticed Bella and Edward's wedding kiss was playing and he sighed.
"What?" Her tone came out harsher than she meant it to but she didn't apologize.
"This," he said, pointing to the screen. "Again. How many times have you watched that since Alice dropped it off?"
"I don't know," she shrugged. "I just feel like I'm putting some missing pieces together when I watch it." she turned the tv off and slumped back.
He frowned and look at her. "You didn't have to turn it off."
She just shrugged. "Maybe it's time, you know? I should stop dwelling on it all. I don't remember it so I shouldn't keep thinking about it."
"Did anyone ever tell you about your 18th birthday party?"
The words were so random and out of the blue that her head could have spun it turned so fast. "Why?"
He ignored that question and asked again. "Did they?"
Bella swallowed and felt a burn in her throat, pretending she didn't. Her non-beating heart hurt just from what Edward had told her about that day. She wasn't ready to talk about it with anyone yet, let alone Jacob, who was in love with her. "Yes."
He nodded, wondering if she got the whole story. "How much of it?"
"The whole thing," Bella whispered, anxious to get off the subject. "Jacob?"
"Yeah?"
She turned to face him, seeing him eye to eye. "I know how you feel about me. Or at least I think I do. And…I'm not ready to think about that when I know there's someone else out there who loves me too and that I'm supposed to love him back."
Jacob sighed a long heavy sigh. "Okay." Bella's eyes widened, expecting more. "Nothing else. Just, know that at some point. You'll have to make a decision again, Bella. Whether it's going back to him or coming with me. Even a different option entirely - you're gonna have do something about all of this."
"I know," she grumbled, annoyed. She knew he was right.
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"Are you gonna call her?"
Alice bounced around the room, annoying Edward. He thought the term bouncing off the ceiling fit more accurately.
"No," he said for seemed like the millionth time today.
"Why not?"
"I haven't seen or heard from Bella in a week, Alice," he turned to face her. She stopped to face him, his annoyed look mirrored on her face now. "I don't think she wants to talk to me right now. You have to stop doing this."
"I'm only trying to help, Edward," she said with a pout.
"It hasn't worked so far," he whispered, sadness coming into his tone.
"It will," she said in a perky voice that almost sounded like she ignored what he said. "Trust me. Bella will come around."
"And what if I'm setting myself up for disappointment?"
She shook her head. "You won't be."
Edward laughed. "And how would you know that?"
Alice simply smiled and said, "I had a vision this morning."
"Are you going to tell me what it was or are you going to keep your annoyance to yourself, sister?" He had a playful look on his face but on the inside, he was falling to pieces thinking about being with Bella again. He didn't want to get his hopes up.
"Nope," she smiled brighter. "What would be the point of a surprise if you already knew about it?"
He smiled what used to be Bella's favorite smile in the world at his tiny sister. It was very rare he did this anymore.
"Can I at least get a hint?" he asked her, anxious. "So I know what I'm in for. When will it happen?"
"I'm not telling you," she made a loop while shaking her head side to side. "But be prepared to see your wife very soon."
She hopped out the door and left Edward alone to his thoughts. Rosalie was watching Renesmee so that was good. He got himself too excited; his hopes went up.
Hopefully not for nothing.
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The day went by pretty fast. Talking to Jacob made it obvious that he wanted to be with her still. She didn't believe Edward when he said that her best friend was in love with her. Now it was hard to believe she ever doubted it.
She stared out the window at Charlie's house, watching the houses around it. People were outside, greeting each hello even though it was night. They must be coming home from work.
Bella turned her head back to her father's living room, to where the recorded proof of her and Edward's love sat. She looked to the door and to the upstairs. Both were an option. One was following her heart to Edward, even though she didn't remember it. The other was staying here and missing out on things she could be doing.
Somewhere inside her, she knew which was the better option.
Bella walked out the back door, running as slow as she can but walking as fast as possible without being seen. There was something she needed to figure out and she knew she had to do it with Edward. She wanted to be that girl again. The one he was in love with.
And there was a part of her that wanted to be in love with him.
She reached the Cullen house faster than the last time. There was an unessarcasy sigh of relief when she reached it. The lights were on but Edward was nowhere in sight. Where was he?
The blond one, Rosalie, walked to the door when she saw Bella's shadow. Reaching the door, opening it, she said, "What are you doing here?"
Bella swallowed. This was her sister-in-law yet she still felt scared of her. "Is Edward here?"
"Yeah," she answered. "Why?"
"Can I talk to him?"
Rosalie sighed this time. "Haven't you broken his heart enough times already? Maybe the space will be better for you."
"He's my husband," Bella replied, saying the words out loud for what seemed like the first time. "I have the right to talk to him."
"Can we talk for a second?" Bella nodded as Rosalie lead her out the door to the porch. "None of us wanted to become like this, Bella. You were the only one who made the choice beforehand. While you were human."
"I know," she whispered. "But I didn't mean for this to happen."
"And I know that," the older vampire said back. "But what you don't know is what it's doing to Edward that this happened to you. He wanted more than anything in the world for you to not become like him. Imagine his feelings when he turns you and this happens. I know it's not the worst that could go wrong, but it definitely isn't a good thing."
Bella didn't feel like getting a lecture when she did nothing wrong. "What's your point, Rosalie?"
"Just...let Edward have time," she answered in a polite voice. "You may need yours but he needs his, too."
"Look," Bella found her voice. "I may not remember everything that happened between the two of us but I do know I loved him. I can't erase that. And he deserves a chance to show me he loves me."
Edward walked to the front porch of his parent's house, surprised at what he was hearing. Also really excited. "Hi."
Bella jumped, wondering how she didn't hear him coming. "Hi...Edward."
Rosalie smirked, seeing the nervousness on her new sister. She resembabled a girl who's crush just walked up to her. "I'm gonna go back in." With a wink in Edward's direction, she went back inside the house.
He half-smiled. "You came to see me?"
"Um, yes," she answered him. "Alice gave me a lot to think about since you and I last saw each other."
Alice. He made a reminder to himself to thank her for telling him something was going to happen. "Do you want to come somewhere with me?"
Bella nodded and Edward took her hand. She didn't object but instead watched him in concentration while they walked. He was much more handsome up close.
Edward stopped in front of a small cottage. He looked at her in antipaction. "Why did we stop here?"
"This," Edward started. "Is our home. Esme had it done for the two of us while we were on our honeymoon."
This is why she didn't tell me, Bella thought. She looked at the small house and couldn't help but smile. This was her and Edward's home.
"Wow," she breathed as he opened the door and led her inside.
"Do you like it?"
"Yes," she beamed. She started to walk around a little bit, letting go of her husband's hand. "It's gorgeous."
"So are you," he whispered. She turned her head. He almost forgot she hear his whispers now. Silently cursing himself, he recovered. "I'm sorry."
"No," she waved her hand to pass it off. "It's fine. We're married. You can say things like that, Edward."
He bowed his head then brought it back up to look at her. "Sometimes I feel like it used to be. You weren't able to hear when I spoke so low and I just said things about how I felt and you never noticed."
She was interested in that. "What kind of things did you say?"
"What I just said, how you don't see yourself the way I see you," he answered her. "I love you."
Without realizing it, they walked closer together and were now just inches apart. They both took a deep breath. "Edward..."
"I'm sorry," he tried to back away but her hand caught his arm.
"No, don't be," she whispered to him then spokein a louder tone. "I want to try, Edward. I want us to be a couple. I don't know how it's going to work. I barely know you but maybe you can fill me in sometimes. Maybe even..."
Edward didn't hear any more words. He lifted Bella up off the ground and spun her around. Her words trailed off as she wrapped her arms around him. The smiles were apparent on their faces as he laughed a happy laugh.
When the spinning stopped, he didn't put her down. Instead, she just held onto him for support and leaned her head into the crook of his neck. She was comfortable there. He pulled her closer to him and just breathed in her scent.
It took a few seconds for them to break apart and when they did, Edward slowly put her down. Bella adjusted her clothes he looked at her face, wondering what her thoughts were. Just like he always had.
"What are you thinking about right now?" he murmured to her. His eyes searched hers for any hint.
"You," she whispered. "I'm thinking about how we could make this work. I'm thinking about what your marriage proposal must have been like. How you possibly could convince me to get married at eighteen. Everything's rushing all at once."
Edward just smiled. "We have time to talk about all of those things."
She smiled back. "We do."
He took his arms off the side of her waist and smiled again. He was just happy to have her back. "Are you going back to Charlie's soon?"
"Yeah," she replied and he could tell a part of her didn't want to leave. "I should actually get going now. He didn't know I was leaving and he didn't even come home yet. I don't want him to get worried."
"Yeah," he agreed. "You should go, then."
She turned to leave, letting her hold on him go loose too. When she reached the door, Bella turned back with a huge smile. "I'll be back tomorrow."
Edward smiled her favorite smile back, hoping it could trigger something. "I'm gonna hold you to that."
"Okay," she smiled bigger as she walked out the door. Edward followed behind her, wanting to see her until he couldn't anymore. He felt like the happiest man alive.
In the corner of his eye, he saw movement and turned his head. Alice was walking back to the main house with Renesmee in her arms. She had a huge smile on her face. Told ya, she thought. Edward just smiled back, whispering a thank you.
A/N: Thoughts, anyone? Sorry I haven't been updating this week but my online world was a bit busy even this week with a little site I love called fanforum lol. I hope the update was worth the wait, guys! xoxoxo
