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A/N These songs are the perfect way to describe Ginny's feelings right now I'm really sorry but there is very little Drarry in this chapter, I promise there's more on the way. Also, I'm not sorry for merging the two songs, they just worked so well together.
Blowing away the embers of the last letter she'd written to Harry she set down another piece of parchment. "I'll write a real letter to him now, now that I've calmed down." Sighing heavily and looking at the smashed up photograph of Harry and herself, "I'm sorry Harry, my temper got the better of me, I still love you.
Dear Harry,
Firstly, let me just say that I'm not going to apologise for the letter I sent to Malfoy, I do genuinely hate him and that will never change, but I am sorry that I can never be real friends with you while he is around, we'll still speak but I'll just politely ignore him, as he should with me.
Now onto the more pressing matter, us. I'd just like to know if it was me; didn't I give our relationship my all? I tried my best; I gave you everything I had, everything and no less. Sometimes I could have been a bit less demanding but sometimes I was afraid I'd lose you. If I was ever bitchy, or turned the tables and made it all about me, I'm sorry. I don't realise I'm doing it; I just get defensive and don't think before I speak, or write as the case is with that letter your boyfriend received.
I'm sorry, I did say when I last saw you that I thought you were cute and you are a cute couple in most of the newspapers but I don't know sometimes my temper gets the better of me and I can't control my mouth never mind my hand.
Maybe I got too used to having you around, to cuddle and to have you protect me but I wish you'd just hold me closer just once more and tell me that you love me, even if it is when you're saying goodbye, every time you said it was as special as the last and I know how Malfoy feels about you saying it to him and me but I'm sure he's calmed down considering he has you and I don't.
I know we had miles between us, I know I left you speechless but is it really over, I thought you loved me more than this. How can you just leave with me left here crying waiting for you. I thought you were a true Gryffindor but maybe not, this isn't bravery is cowardice. You escaped when it got too much, I don't blame you though, which sounds stupid, I'm supposed to be angry at you or at least a little but upset but I'm not, the only thing that's going through my head is confusion, questions about us, about you and about why we ended, I still don't fully understand.
But its fine, go on and take everything I gave you including my love. It's not like it actually ever meant anything to you did it?
You told me to write back so I did, I'm sorry if it's not what you wanted to hear.
Ginny x
Ginny sent the letter on Errol, hoping he'd smack Malfoy in the face when trying to land.
"Good Morning darling." Narcissa called to Harry as he wandered down the stairs from the bedroom he had begun sharing with his boyfriend. "Did you sleep well? Harry seemed puzzled by the kindness of Draco's mother; he'd never expected her to be so pleasant. "It was a fantastic night s sleep thank you Mrs Malfoy, I suppose anything is better than a cupboard under the stairs though." he said chuckling, Draco's mother chuckled along with him while Draco himself wrapped his arms around his boyfriend from behind, "Good Morning lover, good night s sleep?" Narcissa laughed louder, "I already did this Draco, its fine, breakfast is there and there's a letter for each of you, from the same person." They couple looked at each other not knowing who could be sending them both letters, and who knew Harry was staying at the manor.
Harry instantly recognised the handwriting but before he'd had chance to point out his observation Draco had already opened his letter and started reading. Harry read every word that Ginny had written, his heart sinking at the thought of Ginny waiting for him, he couldn't live without Draco, Ginny was no more than a friend and she knew that. Finishing his letter he looked up at his boyfriend to see an expressionless face. "It's nice to know what she thinks of me." He passed Harry the letter and waited for him to read it, by this time Draco's mother had left the room to do various other tasks around the home. "Draco, I'm sorry, she mentioned the letter in mine but never said what she'd said. She shouldn't have said anything of the sort and she is completely out of order." Draco let the tear that was in his eye fall to his cheek, while he knew of his father's disappointment he knew he wasn't getting out of Azkaban, but that wasn't what scared him, he was terrified of what the newspapers were saying if Ginny had done the interview and she was badmouthing him Harry could leave. "You know I love you don't you Harry, nothing will ever change that. Ginny was wrong nothing she said is true, I love you, my mother loves you and you're welcome here for as long as you'd like." Harry's heart dropped once again at the thought that Draco would honestly believe that he'd believe Ginny. "Draco, I know, I don't for a second believe anything Ginny has said and whatever comes from that interview will come our way but I'll be here for you no matter what, you have nothing to worry about." The couple hugged and Harry held Draco's chin up before kissing him. Draco still looked scared and Harry didn't understand why. "It's not you that I'm afraid will leave, nor is it my mother. It's me, sometimes when I get angry or everyone's speaking about me I disappear for days on end and nobody knows where I go." Harry laughed; he knew exactly where Draco ran to, as did his mother. Draco might have thought they'd never followed him but just before the war broke out again Draco went off for some piece and they followed, Narcissa and Harry had been closer since then, probably why she claimed that Harry was dead when Voldemort asked.
"Draco, both me and your mother know where you go, that's why nobody comes and bothers you, because we know where you are, that's why you're not all over papers, "MISSING MALFOY!" Draco, we leave you alone because we know you'll be back and that if anything happens while you're there then we'll be told by various sources. Draco knew that he should be angry that people spy on him when he's in his private place but he wasn't, he was reassured that his mother and his boyfriend we're looking out for him and they'd been closer longer than he knew.
"Sometimes Harry Potter I want to punch you, and other times I just want to hold you till my mother peels me off you." Harry laughed, and then turned to look at the letters on the table. He didn't know what to say to Ginny but it wasn't enough to send a letter but he couldn't stomach seeing her right now, especially after making Draco cry. "I'll go see what the newspapers are saying; do you want anything picking up?" Harry went to put his coat on but was soon joined by Draco, his mother came sweeping down the stairs and stopped to watch the pair putting on their coats and their scarves, "Mother, Harry and I are off to face the crowds, we shan't be late, and would you like anything picking up?" His mother gave him her shopping list and laughed when their eyes widened "I need things for the meal tonight." She kissed her son on the forehead and then proceeded to kiss Harry on the forehead too which made Draco smile, seeing the two most important people in the world getting along. "We'll see you later."
