Cas immediately realized that he'd gone too far.
"Yes. I'm sorry."
"Damn well you are!"
"I shouldn't have asked. It's none of my business."
He didn't want her to be mad at him, and somehow he felt it wasn't just because he was scared she could leave. He wanted her to, well, like him, which was every definition of wrong.
Meg did seem to cool off again.
"Well at least you know that. Most of your feathery friends don't."
"Whom of my brothers did you meet to let you think that?"
"Well for starters there's your pal Lucifer, but I guess he doesn't count as an angel anymore." Meg laughed. "But he was still as sassy as most of you."
'Sassy', what a weird word, but Cas could understand why she chose it. He wondered if she'd use it to describe him, too.
"I know what you mean. He has always been like that. Even in heaven." He smiled, thinking back.
"Heaven, huh? I wonder what that's like", Meg said, meeting his eyes. Cas had to look away, suddenly realizing that Meg would never be able to go there. It made him sad.
"It's exciting for souls, I guess. For angels it's just...normal."
"Pff..'normal'! I bet it's crowded." That surprised Castiel.
"Why would you think that?" he met her eyes again, but this time she looked away immediately.
"I don't know. It's just how I thought of it. Hell's pretty lonely, so I figured heaven would be the opposite."
"Ha. Interesting thought, but no. There are a lot of souls there, true, but heaven is unlimited. It grows; and every soul get's its own heaven, filled with whatever they want."
"Huh, really? Never would have imagined that. So what's in your heaven? What does it look like?"
Cas had to smile again.
"Mine? Oh no, only souls get their own piece of heaven. Angels don't have personal heavens."
"What? But that's unfair!" She turned on the bed and put both her legs up on it to face Cas. She seemed very excited.
"If we did, why would there even be angels? We would be the same as all the souls there. Besides: Instead of having their own heaven angels can fly into every heaven they want."
"Hmm. It makes sense." Meg moved closer to Cas. He pulled his legs up into a tailor seat. Their knees were almost touching now. Cas felt a tickling in his stomach.
"So, what's your favorite heaven then?"
"I often visit an old men's garden. It somehow calms me."
Meg seemed unimpressed.
"Ugh, sounds lame."
"That's what most of my brothers say, too." He paused, unsure if he should ask.
"What would your heaven look like?"
"Mine? I never thought about that." She didn't seem offended, so more words tumbled out of Castiel's mouth.
"Whatever it would be, I think I would visit you."
"I bet you would! Otherwise you'd miss out a freaking awesome party!" She was smiling again, and Cas was happy to see her happy.
"Believe me, I've seen a lot of 'freaking awesome parties' up there. You'd really have to get creative!"
Meg's mouth dropped. "You? At a party? Clarence! I didn't expect that!"
"Why does everyone keep thinking I'm immune to fun?!"
She broke out into a full body laugh.
"I hate to break it to you, honey, but normally? You really are immune to fun!"
Like bells her laughter echoed from the walls of the small room. A choir of bells; more beautiful than any piece of music Cas had ever heard. And he couldn't help but join her. Together they sat in his room, his cell; two supernatural creatures, supposed to hate each other, both broken by the human world and hunted by their own kind, laughing as if their world wasn't falling apart.
Note: Oh gosh, I didn't think of this to get so long! I'm not even close to where I want this story to end! I guess you'll get more than I planned. Hope that's okay.
This chapter kind of marks the point from where it will be more like actual fanfiction. I kept really close to what could have really happened during Cas' time at the sanatorium, but since this is, after all, a fanfic about two close characters, I'll go a little away from what Meg's and Cas' relationship on the actual show is. I hope I'll be able to keep the characters as close to the original as possible, but especially with Cas it is really difficult for me to lighten up his speech a little. So please be kind to me and since I'm extremely unsure about all of that please, please keep on reviewing! It help's so much! :)
Wow that is a long note...:D sorry for that. Keep on reading, more stuff coming soon! Thanks & bye!
