Hi well thanks to four reviews that this fanfic will live to see another day so I'm kinda glad. A special thank you to Heartlessful, Waya, an annonyous reviewer and Dark Rurouni Alchemist anyways im sorry this chapter is so short and I will not be restarting A Light In Darkness so I will be writing another chapter for that fanfic soon

Sorry for any spelling or grammer mistakes (my beta is gone and I don't want to bug her)

Disclamier: I don't own Bleach

Gin Makes Me Real

The feeling would never leave her. It followed her around like a loyal puppy everywhere she went. This feeling of lonlyness. She could be surrounded by people but feel desserted. This lonlyness created a gap in her in which it lived and breathed.

Rangiku was tired of wearing this mask. Always telling the people around her she was alright when she wasn't. Tired and most of all tired of throwing out fake emotions. Rangiku wasn't Rangiku. She let the people around her mold her into what they wanted to see. And what they wanted was perfect flawless gorgeous talted Rangiku.

They found her flaws before she even knew them and molded the claw over her flaws . Bearing them deep inside her to rot. Rangiku just played there game. Allowing them to dig there hands inside her and make her into what they see fit. They would never accept the real Rangiku.

Hell she didn't even know who the real Rangiku was. She got so used to the 'perfect' Rangiku she lost herself. But ever since Gin every single emotion wasn't planned.

Not Expected.

Not Thought of.

It Just Happened.

For the first time in a long time everything was real.

Gin made her real.

It was like waking up from a coma. Rangiku was actually slightly happy around Gin. She didn't have to impress or make anyone happy around him. She could yell at him and not worry what people will think of her. Rangiku was actually very envious of Gin.

Never have to fake smile.

Never have to get straight A's.

Never have to impress.

Rangiku craved to be Gin the only thing holding her back was the feeling of being wanted. She needed attention and loved the looks of envy and admiration.

"Knock,Knock"

Rangiku blinked a couple of times snapping back to reality. Once she came back to earth she noticed she was hucnched over a blank piece of papper and her pencil still in her hand. Rangiku let out a groan.

"Honey, you ok?" Rangiku's adopted mom asked

"Yeah mom"

Rangiu forgot to do her homework because of all her daydreaming.

"Oh and honey your boyfriends here"

Rangiku groaned agian and had to hold back the urge to bang her head aganist the desk.

To be honest she never really liked Aizen her 'friends' hooked her up with him.

"Coming"

Rangiku scooted her chair back and got up to look at least decent. She put on a little pit of make up on and grabbed her backpack.

"Another hectic day great but at least I have Gin" mumbled Rangiku but when those words left her lips she stopped dead in her tracks.

"What the hell am I saying!!"

"Honey, are you ok?"

"Yes mom I'm ok I'm perfectly fine!" Rangiku screamed

'...Just slowly losing my sanity'

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okay so tell me what you think please review (more reviews quiker updates) by the way I'm sorry it took me so long to update I'll be starting school soon and I have a horse to take care of and plus I'm just plain lazy. Also in the last chapter i forgot about that note so I'll have to figure somthing out for that.

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