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Authors note: v and logan will get together eventually, just as i promised. but like I've said before, it will be awhile. remember that they didnt get together until the end of season 1 in the show. my season one will be slightly following that time line. however that doesnt mean that one or both of them wont finally give in to their feelings before that.

that having been said, a few important things will happen between the two in this chapter. which i both hope and believe you will all like.

I don't own Veronica Mars.


For Lilly


Veronica

When we left 'The Game Place' Logan stood outside the truck while I changed. Thank god for tinted widows.

I know it might seem like I dress this way just to freak him out, but I don't. Part of the reason I like working cases like this is because it reminds me of Halloween and I get to dress up, sometimes its nice to pretend to be someone else. And honestly, I could be wearing a turtle neck and sweats and Logan would still think It was to revealing.

When I was done changing into jeans and a t-shirt Logan got in the truck and we went over to the Kane's. We stayed for about an hour and then headed back home with like 100 home videos in tow.

When we got there we went straight to his room and started going through them, it wasn't easy at first, but it got better. We pulled out some of our own videos as well and started to put the memorial video together. Most of the footage ended up being from the homecoming dance/limo party last year. It showed the real Lilly and that was important to us and the Kane's. They knew that most of what they had was a muted version of her and they gave us full editorial privileges.

We decided not to got to school the next day. We had a lot of work left to do and I needed to work on the case so it was the best decision. By midnight we were both getting tired and were about to get ready for bed when he grabbed my hand.

"Hey V?" He looked serious again.

"Yeah?"

"Will you do something for me?'

"Logan you know I'd do anything for you, you just have to ask."

He moved so that he was sitting in front of me. "Don't do it, ok?"

Oh my god, I think he's gonna give me the sex talk? This will be interesting. "Don't do what Logan?"

"Don't have sex."

Yep, he is. "Logan I haven't, I already told you that."

"No Ronnie, I mean don't do it at all, at least not yet. I'm asking you to wait."

I wondered at first what brought this on, but I realized quickly that he was worried because Casey and I had been together for a while and actions speak louder than words. And Casey's reaction today had practically recited the first ten volumes of the encyclopedia Britannica. I was on the same page as Logan with this, the page being that Casey has definitely been thinking about furthering our relationship lately.

"Logan, I don't plan on having sex anytime soon, I promise. But what exactly do you want me to wait for?"

"I want you to wait for someone that you love, not someone that you like. And when I say love, I mean real love. Like can't live without that person, all consuming, heart wrenching love."

He looked almost sad it was strange. I mean we have serious conversations all the time but this one…this one felt like he was actually begging me to wait for someone in particular.

"Logan, I'm not sure I understand where this is coming from. You're not exactly the poster boy for abstinence you know."

He was still holding my hand and he kept picking it up and rolling it over in his hands. Logan Echolls was basically using my hand as a fidgeting device.

"I know that V, but you and I are different that way. You want your first time to mean something to you and I want that for you as well. And don't you dare tell anyone I said this, but honestly, I wish I had waited sometimes. Sex has become almost meaningless to me and I just don't want that to ever happen to you. So do you promise?"

"Yes Logan, I promise. I will wait for my all consuming, heart wrenching love of my life before I hand over my carnal treasure. Is that what you wanted to hear?" I was trying to be overly dramatic and he smiled at my attempt.

"Yes, yhat's exactly what I wanted to hear." I let go of his hand and got off the bed to go to my room and change but he stopped me before I reached the door. "Ronnie, one more thing."

I turned around. "Yes?'

"You can't love him more than you love me."

I smiled at him. "That wouldn't be possible Logan."


Logan

I don't know what made me bring it up.

Ok, that's a lie, I do know.

It was that look.

The one I mentioned before, the one Casey got and I'd recognized as one I'd had many times before. It had been bothering me all night. That look was one of my main issues with them dating. She might be a virgin, but he's not. Before her, there were a lot of girls.

He's one of my best friends, always has been and always will be, but I'm a guy and I know how guys think and Casey has been thinking about sex.

So I bit the bullet and had the sex talk with her. Veronica's a bad ass that's true, but when it comes to sex she is still naïve and I want it to stay that way. Its part of who she is, she's a marshmallow and that's part of why I love her.

And I was honestly afraid that she would confuse the fact that she liked Casey, for loving Casey and she doesn't love him. She's been my best friend since we were five and believe me I can tell how she feels about him. She likes him but that's it and sometimes I'm not sure if she even really likes him, likes him. I think she just enjoys being his girlfriend.

But Casey, he's another story.

I know how he feels about her, I've known for years, way before even Lilly figured it out and I dreaded him making a move on her for just as long. Because he knows that he's not going to be able to keep her, she's too independent. And although I know he'd never hurt her, he'll try to get as much as he can out of the relationship, both emotional and physical. And there's no way I would just stand by and let that happen.

So I was beyond thrilled when she promised she would wait. I knew she would, because she understands what I was saying.

And I know I hadn't needed to tell her, but I wanted to hear her say it. Because she could never love any other guy more than she loves me and I know its selfish but that will just make it harder for her to give in. No guy will ever measure up to her best friend, it just won't happen.

And in all honesty, and I can't believe I'm about to say this, but if it has to be anyone, I'd rather it be me.

Because Veronica deserves respect.

And no guy could give her the respect she deserves like I would.


Veronica

So I think I deserve my own action figure.

Not only did Logan and I finish the video, but I closed the case scoring myself a sweet commission and Wallace a limo party/homecoming date as well. I'm pretty damn proud of myself.

So now here I stand in front of my closet looking for a dress and I'm coming up short and the dance is tonight.

I pull out a yellow cotton dress and I swear I feel Lilly with me.

You are not a yellow cotton dress.

What am I?

You're like- you're red satin. You're strapless red satin.

I. Am. Strapless. Red. Satin.

So I picked up the phone.

"Hey Mac, pick up Meg and get over here, I need to go dress shopping."


Logan

Sometimes I just don't understand her.

Like for instance why she waited till the day of homecoming to buy a dress.

When Mac and Meg pulled up she ran down the stairs and out the door so fast she almost knocked me over as I was coming inside from my own truck. She gave me a hug and hopped in Mac's car and she was gone.

The only reason I knew she was going dress shopping was because she left me a note.

I can't believe we have resorted to 'post it' communication. We need more Logan and V time.

I was more amazed that she was up than anything. Last night had been a hard night for her, she'd done really well at the unveiling ceremony, she hadn't cried once. Celeste and Jake had loved the video, even with the less than appropriate moments. They knew who their daughter really was and even if they didn't always show it when she was here, they loved her and were proud of her. After we left the school and started to head home Veronica finally broke down. It was just the two of us, everyone else had gone home. And it wasn't just for Lilly it was for Duncan and her dad as well, she'd lost more than any of the rest of us had.

I know I've said it before but I'll say it again. Veronica Mars is a bad ass. But that's what makes it so hard when she finally lets you see her softer side, its unsettling. So we just went straight to bed, put in a movie and I held her until she was asleep. She's my best friend after all, its in the job description.

When I got up this morning she was still asleep so I went out and got us breakfast. Then I get back and she almost takes me out, not even stopping to eat. And that's something amazing in itself, that girl eats more than guys three times her size.

So now here I am with all this food and no one to eat it.

Aw screw it, I'm going to Dick's, maybe I can find out what's going on with him and Mac while I'm there. Because Ronnie hasn't been able to find out shit from Mac.

Which of course just makes me even more curious, I think Ronnie might actually be a bad influence.


Veronica

So I found the dress. It was the last one but it was perfect.

Both Mac and Meg were a little confused by my last minute shopping excursion so when they asked I told them.

"Its for Lilly, she always said I was red satin."

They didn't ask again and they didn't pry. Tonight was for Lilly, that was the way I was looking at things.

And in true Lilly fashion I wanted to know what the deal with Mac and Dick was. But she still wasn't budging, she kept telling me that there's nothing gong on, that I'm imagining things, they just had a fight and its over.

Well I can tell you that it's far from over, because they still haven't talked, at all. And I don't mean that they haven't been having long conversations, I mean that they haven't so much as even said hi to one another.

Something is going on and I will find out. Believe you me, I will.


Logan

Once again she is never going shopping alone again and when I say alone that includes shopping with Meg and Mac. They're no help either.

But I do have to admit that she is unbelievably beautiful in red satin. Lilly was right.


Veronica

I swear its like dejavu.

"How about I've never?" Logan offered.

I started to laugh. "Oh my god, its officially 2003 again."

He just smiled. "I was thinking in honor of Lilly."

Dick was the first to speak up. "Dude, I'm game."

Then Mac added. "Anything for the one and only Lilly Kane."

"Ok, who's gonna start?" I did not want it to be me.

Wallace grabbed a bottle of champagne and handed it to me. "I've never dressed up like an anime porn star."

Everyone except Georgia and Cole laughed, they were a little out of the loop.

"Oh haha, low blow Wallace." I took a drink.

Luke grabbed a bottle and held it up. "Well if this is in honor of Lilly, I do believe that I've never not had sex."

Everyone was silent for a second so I lightened the mood. "Logan, tell me again what that means."

He smiled at me. "It means drink up virgin." I lifted my bottle in a mock cheers to Lilly and took a drink, so did Georgia, Meg, and Wallace.

By about the fourth go around the circle I hadn't gone yet and I was beginning to feel a little tipsy.

Finally Casey, who was in the middle of accosting my neck with his lips, sat straight up and said. "Well I do believe that it's Veronica's turn. She hasn't gone yet at all."

I sat there for a second still thinking and then I remembered this night was for Lilly so I looked over at Casey. "Do you mind if we make a stop?"

"Yeah sure, why?" Everyone looked confused except Mac and Meg, they'd figured it out immediately.

"We need to do something."

When the limo stopped the three of us got out and I turned back around. "Georgia, you coming?"

"Sure Veronica." As she got out Logan and Casey tried to follow.

"No, you guys have to stay here, we'll be right back." They got back in looking confused.

We ran down the beach to the water and I looked back to make sure they hadn't followed. When I knew it was safe I unzipped my dress and took off my underwear; Meg, Mac and Georgia did too and we jumped into the water.

This is for Lilly, I thought to myself, oh and once again….thank god for tinted windows.


Casey

The minute the door closed we figured it out.

Logan looked at all of us, raised his glass and spoke for V. "I've never gone skinny dipping." It was just in memory of Lilly.

V, Mac, Meg and the new addition Georgia were fixing what Lilly had said they needed to, it wasn't closure but it was something.

When they got back to the car they were all soaking wet and god if she didn't look even more beautiful.

I love her, I really do. But I know I won't be able to hold on to her.

But that's not the sad part about this moment. No the sad part is that instead of me focusing on the beautiful and amazing girl in my arms…the only thing I could think of at the moment was how much I hate tinted windows.


Logan

Thank god for tinted windows. Because believe me if they hadn't been there, there was no way that a Lilly Kane tribute like that would have happened.

We got home around 7am the next morning and found that my mom had left us a note. She was meeting my dad on location and would be gone for two weeks, she left her keys for Ronnie.

You'd think it would upset me but it doesn't. I've spent half my life with my parents traveling without me, and no matter what I've always had V around to keep me company. And now that she lives here I never feel alone. Actually her moving in was probably the best thing that ever happened in this house. My dad is so worried about keeping up appearances that he hasn't even raised a hand to me in months and I'm extremely grateful for that.

We walked up to my room, sat on the bed, put in a movie and half way through it she'd ended up with her head resting on my chest and my arm around her holding her to me with her arm on my stomach.

I'm not a cuddler at all, but with Ronnie its different. She's not some fling that's only good for a few hours, she's my Veronica and she's the only person I actually like the prolonged physical contact with. And this was typical drunk cuddling for us. When Veronica drinks she gets touchy feely and likes to be held sometimes, so that's exactly what I did, its not like this was the first time.

But I must have fallen asleep because the next thing I remember is waking up to my phone ringing.

That's when I realized that I was still holding her. In our sleep we'd shifted and I had her pulled up against me face to face, my arms were still around her and our legs were entangled.

But I didn't let go and I don't know why.

And then I really shocked myself.

Because leaned in and kissed her.

It was an automatic reaction, I didn't even realize I was doing it until it was done.

And that's when she woke up.

I don't think she knew what I had done. At least I hope she didn't because I didn't even know why I'd done it.

But that wasn't the weird part. No the part that really caught me off guard was that I wanted to do it again.


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Authors note: to address some comments about casey. i love casey's character so he is not going anywhere. even when they break up, which they will, but not for awhile, he will alwyas be there. they will all stay the best of friends. but casey will always be waiting in the wings. you cant have a logan and veronica relationship without a few challenges after all.