Jackie pov

It's been a few weeks now and Tobias is ignoring me, Eric and liz. I changed my appearance (still Jojo tho), I have a sleeve tattoo and a big tattoo on my back and a lip piercing and an eyebrow one too.

In the back of your mind your wondering if four and Kat are still together... yep they are still together. She is still giving me death glares everytime I walk by them... to be honest I still have feelings for him... I don't know why I do.

Everytime I see him... it feels like I'm falling in love with him but it'd hurts that he won't talk to me though. I know what your thinking falling in love with him while he is treating me like this but I can't help it... and plus he got more handsome and so did Eric and even Uriah I was surprised just over a few weeks he grown.

"Jackie?? Hello??" I jumped and I looked at eric. He and I became closer since well four been ignoring us. We gotten so close that I know I have a little feelings for Eric too... I know I'm a mess.. God help me. But I don't know if these feelings are like a like like or just a friendly thing.

" sorry Eric just thinking" he smiled a little. Eric changed to... his personality and his eyes are cold and it seems like he doesn't have a soul but he does... well he shows it to me and Liz only everyone else has the bitchy side of Eric especially if he has to do leader business... its actually hot...oh god jackie!!! No no bad jackie!!!

"About what?" I was sitting on the chasm and he was beside me like arm to arm so close that I can smell is cologne.

"Nothing just about you know four and now and the future" I looked at him and he looked pissed when I mentioned four...his jaw was clenched. After everything that happened eric and four started to not like each other... actually hate each other but they still work together though.

" why him?" He looked at me with his blue eyes and I shaked my head.

" I don't know" I said.

"Aww it's the lovebirds" we looked up at four and kat...

Of course...

Eric pulled me up and pulled me to him. His arm was around my waist.. I gasped at his warmth.

"What do you want kat?" He growled and glared at her.

" oh nothing" she smirked. She got worse with us and became more of well a slut.

"Come on Tobias let go" I looked at him and he sighs slightly and nods to her but before he left I bumped his shoulder he looked at me and frowns. I eyerolled and shaked my head glaring at him. I grabbed Eric's hand and pulled him somewhere else.

" do you still love him?" Eric said angrily but I heard some hurt in his words.

" I..." I bite my lips " I don't know... maybe.." he nods and looks away hurt... ugh. I didn't realized he is walking away.

I run to him and he heard me and turns around and that's when I hugged him. He was shocked but still hugged me anyway.

" eric..."

"Mmm" he said still hugging me with his head on mine.

" I know... I know you really like me" I said pulling away and look up at him. He was blushing slightly and coughed from embarrassed. I giggled.

" it's okay eric... I like you too" he looked at me and smiled slightly with his hands on my waist.

"But you like Tobias more..." I nodded slowly and he sighs... he kisses my forehead.

" I will always protect you and love you forever.. if you love him more and want to be with him in the future.. then um I don't mind if you are happy... that's all I want you to be happy. But if he hurts you in any way... ill hurt him more" he said looking at me.

Will he really protect me and still love me if I am a divergent? He thinks what Jeanine thinks that divergent are a threat to the system is true... but I never told anyone that I am a divergent.

"Eric..." i signed. He really does have feelings for me.. I can see it in his eyes. What am I going to do? I looked at him and smiled and kissed his cheeks he blushed.

" I need to tell you something... privately... promise me you won't tell anyone" I said.

"why??" He asked.

" or I'll die" he gulped and looked around but nods. He pulled me to his apartment.

We got apartments because we were leaders. I walked in and I heard the door close and lock.

I walked to the sofa and sat down and I saw on the table a file of divergents...

Do they know?? I opened it up and I looked into it and I saw me... they are already suspicious. I gulped I hold the file in my hands.

" jackie... you shouldn't be seeing that" eric grabbed the file from my hands.

" why??" I said looking at him.

" max and Jeanine think you are area divergent... its silly right?" He laughed but I fake smiled but didn't laugh though.

Shit... she knows...

"Jackie?" I gasped and gulped. I looked at eric. He looking at me to try to figure me out...

" no... you are divergent.. are you?" He looked deeply sad.

I bite my lips " are you going to kill me for max and Jeanine?" I felt my eyes full with tears.

" Jackie... please... you can't be" he started to cry in front of me... I know eric crying.

"I am so sorry eric" I started to cry too. He gasped and I expect him to put a gun to my head but he ran to me and hugs me tight.

" I am definitely not going to kill you... I can't lose you" I hugged him back. I pulled away and wiped his tears off. Damn these feelings I'm having... but he does really love me and I like him back but of course I love four more... nice.

"You won't and that is a promise" I said. He nodded and relaxed.

" the initiation is coming up soon again" I thought about my brother and sister.

" I know... I'm going to help you and four with them" he looked at me concerned.

" you sure?" I nodded and he nods but kissed my forehead again.

" we should go max wanted a meeting" I nodded and we left. Now all I thinking about is... Tobias or eric??

Four pov:)

I heard eric confess his feelings for jackie in the hallway. I never knew... but it make sense since he was protecting her alot.

Jackie... that's all it can think about now. I'm so stupid... I am only dating kat to make jackie jealous and to notice me... but I pushed her into Eric's arms.

I always loved jackie but back then I didn't know what i was feeling... I just hope one day she will love me only and forgive me.

" Tobias" kat screamed. I turned around her voice is so annoying sometimes.

" yes?" I said.

" you okay?

"Yeah I'm fine"

" okay well ... let's go to bed" I nodded. And yes she does stay with me.

What can in do to get jackie to forgive me? I know she does have feelings for Eric too... but I want to know who she loves more... but...

Am I to late for her forgiveness and love??

a/n

yeahh i think so. A little update more to come