Sorry it took so long... no excuses just an apology =) while I was writing this I thought about my lovely reviewers and I decided that I wasn't going to ask for anymore reviews and take it that you are all happy with what I'm writing and if you want to review then go for it. ; ) Enjoy my lovely bunnies.

Ps this is more of a filler chapter.

I woke up today with the worst feeling in the world; optimism. For some reason my body didn't think it was going to be an awkward day but my mind did.

I inhaled deeply and got up out of bed and headed to the shower. I stood underneath the hot water letting the little droplets create small red marks on my back and thought about my escape route, just in case things got a bit more you know weird. As I thought more about it the more I realised I was going to need to park very close to the school and that meant having to get there very early. I hopped out of the shower and skipped gleefully to my closet. Need something that easy to run in. I went for a pair of blue jeggings that I would fold up into 3 quarters, a plain white dress top and a pair of white plimsolls.

I tied my hair up, but left my bangs down, and smiled it really did look good up. I applied my usual black eyeliner around my eyes and put on my mascara. I placed my vanity mirror down on the dresser and looked at myself in my full length one. As I turned side to side my hair flicked out showing too much of the back of my neck, as you can tell I am quite insecure about the back of it. I frowned to myself pulling out my hair tie. Sighing I brushed it out allowing it to dry naturally and go wavy. I ran down stairs and left another note for my dad, who I haven't actually seen for quite a while, he's probably out on a business trip.

I grabbed my keys and headed out to my car. I'm really surprised at myself I am going to get to school early. I drove down the road signing along to my theme song for Seth; it's a good day by Kay Starr. He always happy and I can imagine him actually waking up and actually talking to the sun. I smiled to myself as I pulled into the parking lot.

I went and sat with my IPod in homeroom. I leaned back in my chair and closed my eyes and just listened to my music. The sound of harmonious voices was cut off by someone pulling out my headphone. I opened one eye and saw a grinning Seth and Jacob standing over me. a grin broke out across my face, guess I was happier to see them than I thought.

'Hey guys' I said, just then Quil walked in saw me and crossed his arms.

'Where have you been young lady!' oops I think I may have upset him...just a little though 'I have been worried sick about you! You could have at least called' he even had his finger wagging as well. I hung my head to hide my smirk. I looked at him through my lashes.

'I'm very sorry Quilly... I won't do it again, I was very confused about something and it required some thinking time' I pulled my best innocent 'I'm sorry' face and blinked at him a few times. He pulled me into a hug.

'It's okay baby, momma Quil is here to help you now' I looked up at him and raised an eyebrow. The other two just shared a confused look.

'Erm Quil...have you now or in the past ever had a record of mental history?' he actually looked offended as if what he had done nothing wrong other than hug me.

The day has practically flown by and it's already lunch. I walked into the cafeteria and looked around for a small spare table so I could sit alone, but as my luck would have it, I couldn't find one so I just went for the big table. Sitting here all alone felt uncomfortable so I pulled out my new best friend Mr I. Pod and began listening to some happy songs. Here comes that feeling of optimism again. I felt a pull behind me so I turned around to see Paul looking terrible. Why the heck does he look terrible for I was the one who saw him change into a freaking wolf! His eyes were bloodshot and he had bags underneath them. It looked as if he hasn't slept for days. His hair was a complete mess and he hadn't shaved in a while either. I gulped lightly as he approached me, he looked like a complete crazy person.

'Hey' I squeaked. My eyes quickly stole a glance at him. His face lit up like a kid on Christmas and he was grinning from ear to ear. He wrapped his arms around me in a big bear hug and picked me up holding me tightly and inhaling deeply through his nose.

'Paul. Can't. Breath.' He chuckled 'sorry, I'm just really glad to see you' he put me back on my feet but didn't let go. I leaned my head back to look up at him while he looked down at me with the same expression that Sam wore when he looks at Emily and how Jared looks at Kim. I blinked once! And then his lips were on mine and the stupid thing was my lips were responding.

I pulled back and saw the disappointed look on his face briefly before I noticed a shocked and hurt look on Scotty's face. As much as I tried to pull free from him, Paul wouldn't let go. I finally broke free and ran to Scotty.

'Sco' he cut e off by placing a hand over my mouth and one on my arm. He stared down at me with cold hate blazing in his eyes.

'Come with me now' he ordered. Before I could say anything he had dragged me out to the back of the school.

'WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU'RE PLAYING AT? YOU ARE MY GIRL! NO ONE ELSES YOU ARE MINE. NO ONE ELSE IS ALLOWED TO TOUCH YOU!' I stared at him wide eyed. What the hell is wrong with me what is wrong with him? Why is he yelling at me? The Scotty I left behind before wouldn't ever dream of raising his voice to me. His face changed to a neutral looking expression and his tone was scarily calm.

'I suppose I can forgive you this time, but if that fucker ever comes near you again then he is dead. You got that?' his eyes bore into mine again. I gulped and nodded. 'good' then he grabbed my arm so tightly I could have sworn I saw the bruises come up almost instantly, he yanked me closer to him and his lips came crashing down on mine, I didn't want to kiss him back but his lips were hard and forceful and they prised my already swollen lips open. When he was done he just looked at me in disgust and said 'you are my property and you will act like it!' He turned and walked away from me leaving me in a stunned silence.

'Hey asshole! I am no one's property! I am a human being and no one will ever own me so if you think that you can just...' I was cut off once again but this time with a hard slap round the face. I couldn't breathe he had hit me. His face was so close to mine, his breath fanned across my face.

'That's what happens when you disobey me now go home and wait for me to come over' I just nodded again and obeyed his order. As soon as I got home I went right to my room and curled up in a ball and sobbed until my throat became hoarse. I hated feeling like this, I am a strong girl and I promised myself no more abusive relationships. This isn't England and I don't have to put up with this. I am going out and I don't give a shit about what Scotty said.

I grabbed a small jacket and my plimsolls I put them back on and walked out of my house. I took a short cut through the woods and ended up at the beach. I walked along the shore for a bit letting the water wash over my bare feet. I headed up a little bit and sat on the sand with my knees up to chest looking out to sea letting the orange sunset and calm waves soothe my nerves and let my mind go blank. I sat like this for what felt like minutes. I tilted my head back and closed my eyes. I was only vaguely aware of the person sitting next to me.

'What's up Seth? You ok?' I asked softly. He placed his arm around my shoulders and I snuggled into his chest. 'It's a beautiful sunset isn't it' I let my slight English accent that I had picked up leak into my words. When I was alone or just extremely comfortable I let myself sound like I am two Lj's mixed in together, one English and one American.

'What happened today Lj, after Scot pulled you out of the cafeteria?' my hand flew to my face and my fingers gently grazed over my cheek.

'H...He slapped me' I admitted feeling defeated. Seth started to shake and tremble a lot. 'Seth?' It took him a minute but he replied.

'Yeah?'

'Why did you stop talking to the others before me? I know what we were closer but you were living here with them'.

'Don't worry about it Lj, all that matters is that your back and we can talk again'. I knew he was convo dodging but I wasn't in the mood to bring up the past...the past hurt...the past was bad. He pulled me in a little tighter and then he stood picking me up with him.

'C'mon it's getting late time to go' he said quite loudly I thought he was shouting out into the woods so I'm guessing we aren't alone here. To be honest I'm not bothered by it at all.

Seth turned and started walking ahead of me. I held one shoe in each hand and ran as fast as I could and jumped up onto his back. I grinned to myself, I was a damn good jumper and proud of it! I felt the vibrations of Seth's laughter through his back. He carried me all the way back to the front of the woods and then put me down.

'Thanks Seth, I missed you so much' and I wrapped my arms around his waist and squeezed him tightly. He hugged me back.

'Me to short stuff, me too. Erm hate to break up this lil moment but where's your car?'

My cheeks flushed a tiny bit pink. 'heh..Well I walked here' and I gave him a big cheesy grin. His jaw dropped open.

'In that case then' he had evil smirk he picked me up and threw my over his should and started running, really fast. I was creaming laughing and kicking the whole time.

Eventually he put me down and I hugged him and said my goodbyes. I walked into my house and noticed that something was off. I walked up to my room with a horrible feeling that I wasn't alone. I walked into my room and threw my bag and jacket down.

'I thought I told you to stay here and wait for me' I spun around and was greeted by another slap and a punch to the stomach this time. I lay here on the floor gasping for air.

'Why do you keep hitting me? Seriously?' he glared at me

'You only speak when I have spoken to you' and with that I felt his foot kick me in the back. There was only one way to stop all this hitting and that was to pass out so I rolled my eyes back into my head as best I could and made my body go limp. I waited for 5 minutes and he left I opened my eyes and walked right to my large mirror and checked out the damage. I had another red hand mark on my face and a bruise forming on my stomach and I couldn't see my back.

I was worried about how much noise was made and hoped to god that I didn't wake up my dad. He needed to sleep he has been doing so much work lately. I tiptoed across the hall and slowly opened my dad's door. I put my head in slightly and noted that he was sleeping. I smiled to myself. Good I didn't wake him. I walked back to my room and put on my sweats and one of my dad's old shirts and went to bed.

I lied back and pulled the blankets up high, thinking about the good old days when it was me, mom and dad just out on a family trip to the beach.

*memory*

We all sat on the beach. Mom was getting the sandwiches out of the cooler and setting up lunch while dad was helping me make a sandcastle.

'Look momma, daddy found some shells for my sandy castle!' I squealed with delight as my dad produced the shells.

'You mean your sandcastle princess' he said while laughing. There was a flash. My mom had taken a picture using her new camera.

She giggled 'sorry it was such a Kodak moment' my dad went over to her and pulled her into a tight embrace and kissed the top of her head. I ran over to join in with the hug. There we all sat one small but happy family, on a beach enjoying ourselves.

I hope you enjoyed it and I'll try to update faster with the next chapter.

Sunny x