Hey guys.. So today I have to go to a wedding, which I don't really like.. So I couldn't let you hanging there.. I made a promise.. So enjoy the new chapter..
Chapter 7
All I ever wanted.. All I ever wanted was her.. Ashley.. I could never imagine that I would finally meet her.. I could never imagine that I would kiss her and the most important she would kiss me back.. And how she feels.. I wouldn't imagine having these feelings.. But I can't think right now if it is wrong or right.. Because for me it is right.. Not for Aiden though.. I don't know what I will do with him..
Ashley and I continued our kisses make out.. We didn't go any further.. I guess it was too much for both of us.. And from crying out loud. I only knew her a day.. Although I would love to be with her..
After meeting this girl I start to lose myself.. If you would ask me a day before I would say that I came here to be the first.. She made me lose my focus.. She made me want her.. In more than one ways.. But if I like Ashley that way, am I gay?
Questions and more questions.. I have to stop asking questions.. Questions are not good.. What is good is that Ashley is here with me, sleeping on the same bed with me.. And she is the most beautiful girl I ever met.. I feel strange about her.. From the one hand she is all I think and want and from the other hand there these questions I am afraid to answer..
Today is the open ceremony.. At last.. I really want for the Olympics to start.. I so want to go to that ice and know that Ashley is watching.. I will do my best for her..
I hear a knock at my door and I see that the clock shows 9am.. Oh, my God.. I was so lost in Ashley.. Ashley.. She is on my bed and someone is at my door.. Fuck fuck fuck..
"Ash? Ash.. please wake up.." I so didn't want to upset her sleep.. She is so cute..
"Hm.. no.."
"Ash.. please baby.. wake up.."
"Hm.. good morning to you too.." she opened her beautiful brown eyes looking at mine and tried to kiss me.. I so wanted to kiss her back but..
"Hey.. Ash.. someone is at my door.. You have to hide.." I saw the surprise look immediately on her face.. But I didn't know what to do.. Whoever that was he couldn't find Ashley here..
"Why?"
"Because.. Please.. Can you please go to the bathroom and stay there till I tell you to come out? Please.."
"Ok.."
She got up but it wasn't willing.. I didn't have to know that she was mad with the situation.. I could see her.. Before she opens the door to get inside the bathroom she gave me one last look and got in.. I from the other hand had to open mine..
"Hey babe.. why you didn't open your door?" Aiden said, standing there, full clothed. He leaned and gave me a peck on my lips.. How different his kisses are than Ashley's..
"I was sleeping Aiden.. And I was tired from yesterday.." tired kissing Ashley. But I could never get tired of kissing Ashley..
"Ok.. go get changed.. I will wait for you here.."
"What?"
"I will wait for you to change.. Alexei want us downstairs.. I don't know what he wants us.. I forgot to tell you yesterday with all these.."
"Aiden… Ok.. I will change and I will come and find you downstairs.."
"Spence.. I don't have a problem.. You can't hide something that I already have seen.. I have seen you naked you know.." Ashley.. she is in the bathroom and Aiden is here and she can hear us.. butterfly effect..
"Yeah, I know.. I just.. want to take a shower first and then do my make up and find something to wear. You will get bored here waiting for me.." Aiden stood up from his seat and come closer to me.. He put his hands on my face and kissed me again.. He wanted to go deeper but I can't.. I can't.. I pull off from his hands having my eyes looking down.. I was never ashamed of myself till now.. I have two people I care about and I am in the middle..
"What if you take the shower and I will be there helping you out.."
"NO" I said it louder that I was planning to..
"Spence.. why are you like this? And do you hide something?"
"Aiden, I am cranky when someone awakes me.. And if you leave now I may go to have a shower, without you, and I will find you downstairs in half an hour. Ok?"
"But.."
"I will find you downstairs.. Ok? Bye.." I peck his lips and close the door behind me.. Ashley.. she opened the door and just looked at me..
"Well I better get going then.."
"Ash?"
"It is ok. See you at the open ceremony.."
"Ash.. please don't leave.. I want to explain.."
"Spence.. It is ok.. I am not mad or anything.. Ok? I see you later.. bye.."
She just left me there, hanging from something that I really didn't have to hang.. I knew she wasn't mad but she clearly was sad.. Although I had to feel bad for Aiden, my boyfriend, I was feeling bad for Ashley.. I felt that I was cheating on her with Aiden.. how on earth did I come to this situation?
I got to the shower full of thoughts of Ashley and Aiden.. I didn't know what to do.. I couldn't break it off with Aiden.. He wasn't only my boyfriend but he was my pair as well.. Being a pair on ice you have to be synchronized. One wrong move and you will hurt yourself or you won't get the gold.. And if I was to break it off with Aiden I would lose my gold.. But if I wasn't break it off with Aiden I would lose Ashley.. eventually.. I really have to stop thinking..
After half an hour indeed I was downstairs to meet Alexei and Aiden.. There were other members too from the ice-skating team with their coaches.. I saw Jenna and she looked back at me.. I wasn't nice with her.. All these years I was pushing myself not to have friends but Jenna although I was that bitch she still didn't hold a grudge at me. But this time I think that I have to take the first move and for once to be the one to say hello..
"Jenna? Hey"
"Spencer? How are you?"
"I'm fine.. Thanks. You?"
"Nervous as hell but ok I think. How is your back?"
"Ehm? Ah, yes.. My back. Fine.. I suppose it was from the trip.."
"I am glad you feeling better. So Aiden and you are ready?"
"I really want to think so.. What about you?"
"Well, Sofia and I learned some new moves and I really hope I'll put a spell on the judges.."
"You are a good skater. Watch your loops and you will be fine"
"Thanks Spencer.. Good luck on ice"
"Yeah, you too.."
"We can get some coffee sometime. If you like?"
"Ok.. We will talk.. bye"
"Bye"
I am really glad I talked with Jenna. I missed talking with someone.. And Jenna was a great friend. As long as we were friends.. But ambitious took over me.. And I lost a friend and myself.. I want to start making things better.. Ashley made me think a lot of things.. Too many things..
"So my children.. I want ya to be prepared. Da?"
"We are ok Alexei. You will see"
"I hope dat for ya and for me. We start on February the 14th.. Pairs short program at 16.30. Then we are again on February the 16th. Pairs free skating. I want ya to do your best. The opening ceremony is today at 18.00. The American team will meet at 16.00. Be ready"
"Da Alexei" We said unison..
Two more days till I am on ice. Two more days.. Ashley's games start on the 16th so I will be there to watch her.. I have my ticket.. I will be there to see her for the first time.. Ashley.. I already missed her..
"So, babe.. What you want to do? Do you want to go for a walk?"
"Aid.. Sorry but I am not feeling ok. I just want to go to my room and rest.."
"What are you feeling? Are you sick or something?"
"No, no.. It's not that.. I just.. I am tired that's all.. Why don't you find some of the guys?"
"Are you sure? I can stay with you.."
"I am sure.. Ok? See you later" I kissed him and I left for my room. I wasn't tired. I was feeling ok. I just wanted to be with Ashley. If she still wants to be with me after this morning..
Hey, where are you? I am thinking of you.. Spence xx
I pressed the send button and now I was waiting for her to answer.. I kept looking my phone waiting for her.. Five minutes and she still didn't answer.. What I do? Send her another message say that I am sorry from this morning? Send her a.. she answered..
I am in my room.. Thinking of you too.. Ash xx
I am sorry for this morning.. I am really sorry Spence xx
It's ok. Don't worry.. Ash xx
I want to see you. Can I come from your room? Spence xx
I will wait for you.. Ash xx
Be there on five.. Spence xx
I took one last look on myself in the mirror and left my room to go and find the one person who occupied my thoughts all morning.. What you did to me Ashley Davies?
She opened the door and she was breathtaking.. Her brown curls were down, she had some jeans that were torn on her knees and a very short t-shirt that didn't hide her abs..
"Hey you"
"Hi"
"Do you want to come in?"
"I thought you would never ask.." once we were inside I took her in my arms and started kissing her.. I missed her kisses. I haven't had any from the last night and I needed to feel her.. She felt incredible..
"Hello, to you too.."
"What? I missed you all day.." she stepped away from me and she had me confused..
"Hey, what goes on?"
"Nothing.."
"Ash.. please tell me.. Is everything ok?"
"Actually no.. Spence? What is happening between us? I think that we established the kissing part. So what are we? Some good friends that enjoy kissing each other?"
"Ash.. You know.."
"Yeah, I know.. Aiden.. Why you kissed me Spencer?"
"Because I wanted to. Ok? I couldn't hold myself of not kissing you anymore.. Ash.. I have been thinking of you the last years.. You occupied my mind and I didn't even know you. I didn't even talk to you till the last two days.. I know it's too soon and everything but I can't take you out of my head.. You are there all the time.. Even when I talk with Aiden I think of you.. So.. please.. let us find together what we are. For now all I know is that I want to kiss you and for you to kiss me back. I want to hold you and for you to hold me back. I just want to be us.. No one else. Ok? And I'll see what am I going to do with Aiden.. ok? Now can you please come here and kiss me because I miss you already?"
"Spence.. I feel the same but I don't like this situation. I know it is difficult for you with Aiden and everything. But it is more difficult for me not to kiss you.. So it's just us and we find it together eh?"
"Yes.. Now can you please kiss me?"
"That I can do.. And something else. I recall you called me baby this morning?" oh, yes.. That.. I did..
"Ehm.. yes.. Sorry.. it's just slipped from my mouth.."
"I love being your baby" I smiled.. I so wanted her to be my baby.. I so wanted to be hers..
I stayed with Ashley for an hour kissing her till we couldn't breathe anymore.. I let my hands feel her body and I was amazed of how good she felt.. If we continued like this it would be difficult for us to stop.. And I wasn't ready to stop.. But we had to.. We have to meet with the others for the open ceremony.. I left her room, my lips red from our kissing and got to get ready.. I told her that I would wait for her downstairs.. I could wait for her.. I hope she could wait for me too.. Because I want nothing more to be Ashley's.. And I guess that is what they call love at first sight..
TBC
That was it for the day.. Next chapter.. well let's see.. I don't know either.. I guess we both will find out.. Thanks for reading and reviewing and putting this story on your favorites. It means a lot..
Reviews are always welcome..
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