Yayay! Another chapter! Time for some Mark/Roger tension! My fave!

Disclaimer: Okay I think we've established Rent is all J-Lar's and NOT MINE! :'( *tear*


Ch 6: Not Me

I walk out of my house the following morning to get the newspaper, and find Roger standing on the front walk. He's dressed and all ready for school, Collins' car is parkes out in the street.

"R-Roger," I stutter, my heart plummeting into my stomch.

"Hey," he grins shyly staring at the ground. "Can we talk Mark?"

"Yeah, sure," I follow him to Collins' truck and climb in the passenger's side. He hops in the drivers seat and starts the car. We drive down the street in silence. The car turns onto the dead end street that leads to the cliff over-looking our town's small resevoir. It's completely empty at this hour on a Wednesday morning. Roger parks the car and gets out.I follow and we end up sitting on the hood of the truck.

"So, Mark, about the other night..." Roger ventures cautiously. "What-what happened exactly?"

"Well, we um...we kissed," I mutter obviously.

"Yeah we did, didn't we?" he chuckles lightly. "M-Mark, I am bisexual, did I tell you?" I look into his beautiful green eyes and I know what he's implying.

I look away. "Rog, I-I can't."

"Don't act like you didn't like it too!" he cries, a bit too loudly. The hurt in his voice is overwhelming.

"Roger," I try to find the best way to say this, "I-I screwed up. I can't lead you on like that. I was l-lonely, I missed Maureen." I omit the part about my promise to Collins, I don't need to hurt him anymore. "I-I'm not like that Roger, it's not m-me. I'm sorry." I look at him, searching his entire body for a response. He remains completely still, face unresponsive.

"I understand," he finally mutter in a monotone, emotionless voice. "I was being very forward, I didn't mean to make you feel uncomfortable. I just..." he sighs, "Nevermind. Let's just forget it, okay?" I can tell how much this hurts him, but I just can't deal with this, not now.

"Okay," I agree completely. "Roger, can we still be friends?" It's a stupid question, but I need to be sure.

He laughs, punching me on the arm lightly, "Of course we'll still be friends, stupid."

I melt under his touch, but snap out of it quickly. I offer a friendly smile instead. He returns it, but I can still detect the pain in his face.

He checks his watch, "Shit! I gotta get you home so you can get ready for school." He jumps off the hood of the car and gets back in. I feel the engine rumble beneath me. From in the car Roger gives me a look like 'You coming?'. I climb back into the passenger's seat and we drive back around the corner to my house. When we pull up to the curb out front my mom is standing on the front porch. When she sees me pull up she lets out a visible sigh of relief and waves me to come inside. I wave back and mouth 'One second'. She nods and goes inside.

"So I guess, I'll see you at school," Roger turns my attention away from the window. He smiles at me.

"Yeah," I open the car door and step out. Before I close it I lean back inside and say. "Rog...for the record, that was the best kiss I've ever had."

His smile drops into a tight line. Shit! What did I just say? I slam the door and step back, allowing him to zoom away. Turning, I walk back inside, cursing myself with every step.


I'm sorry! I hate to do that to them! I love them as a couple but I have to do this for the story. It'll get better I swear! Also I'm sorry this was so short, but I'm having a teensy bit of writer's block. This is all I could give for right now :(. I'll update ASAP! R&R please!