I Love My Best Friend

Chapter 7

Why I Can't Love you

'I―I think… I love you, Sakura…' Sasuke repeated again and again in his mind as he raised his hand and gently damped it on Sakura's cheek. He let his eyes remain closed while they stayed there in that special moment. He felt a sensation flow through his body; a longing. Sakura gently closed her eyes too, not feeling that kiss Sasuke was giving her. Sweet sensation flowed through both their bodies. He never thought he would like this feeling a lot, it was as if time stopped and left them alone in this world, somehow, at this time, the world wasn't cruel anymore until his lips roughly separated from her by force. Someone had forcefully pushed Sasuke away from her and they both realized it and opened their longing eyes. As Sakura opened hers, she took sight of a dark-haired guy who was gasping for breath, his hands clenched into a fist with his horrid, fearless eyes glaring at Sasuke. She turned to look at Sasuke who was thrown away a few yards away from them, his nose bleeding. He quickly stood up, wiping his blood off his ruined face. Shin had punched him right in the face.

Sakura stood there, her jaw dropped in surprise. She quickly ran towards Sasuke, pushing her hand to Shin's chest, trying to push him away. She looked at Shin with eyes so daring and pained as she turned her back and helped Sasuke stand up, while she glared at Shin. Both their eyes were flaring with rage. Sakura raised both of her hands and walked up to Shin, pushing him away, but he just won't budge, he pushed Sakura away from him and moved forward, his eyes intently set on Sasuke.

Sasuke was perfectly standing up, giving Shin a slight smirk. His eyes were equally glaring at him, turning to blood red, "What the hell did you that for, you git!?"

Shin looked at Sakura and pointed at her, giving Sasuke a hard stoic face, "What the hell did you do that for, you stupid brat!?" he shouted right back at him; pointing him about the sudden kiss he had given Sakura.

Sasuke stood in a cool manner and sunddenly laughed, "Why, Shin? Are you jealous? Tell me, now, do you have the right to stop us?"

Shin shook his head disapprovingly; he couldn't get what Sasuke was trying to tell him. His frown grew bigger, "I―I… Why? Do you think you have the right, too?"

Sasuke looked up at him and laughed some more, "I do have the right, just so you know."

"Wha―What do yo―you mean?" Shin had started to stutter, not knowing what to do anymore.

Sasuke pranced forward and walked beside Sakura, wrapping his arm around her waist, giving her a sweet smile; he knew he had just won this stupid argument, "I'm sorry, we haven't told you yet, did we?"

Shin looked at their direction, looking Sakura straight in the eyes, looking for an answer. He took a weak step forward; he knew that he had just lost, "What do you mean? What haven't you tell me?"

Sakura looked up at Sasuke, questioning him with her eyes. He wrapped both his hands on her waist and pushed her close to him, smirking, "We didn't tell you," he started and he looked back at Shin, his grin growing broader, "I'm Sakura's boyfriend."

Shin's dark green eyes mellowed and opened widely as he heard the very words that came out of Sasuke's mouth. He then looked at Sakura, ignoring Sasuke's hold on her waist and nervously laughed, thinking that Sasuke was just joking around with him; wanting him to lose it, "I―Is that true, Sakura? Is he really your bo―boyfriend?"

Sakura looked at Shin, her heart equally flattered and a tear flow down her cheek; she looked at the ground for several seconds then raised her head and looked straight at Shin's flustered eyes, "Why, Shin? Did you? Did you tell me when you and Chii got together?" she wiped her tear away and shook her head, "No. Then I think now that it's fair."

Shin shrugged. He shook his head frantically, having not accepted all of this. He looked in another way, he knew in his heart that Sakura was truly right. He fought off his tears but his eyes wouldn't allow him and streaks of tears ran down his flaring cheeks. He looked back at Sakura and Sasuke, ignoring the tears that were continuously pouring down his face, "So that's it."

Sakura looked away; she couldn't take seeing herself cry, not to add up Shin's pouring tears to her burden. She looked back at Sasuke and softly pushed his hands from her waist, whispering, "Can you take me back home, Sasuke?"

Sasuke nodded and took her hands in his, "Sakura, are you just going to run away?" they heard Shin mutter. Sakura looked at Sasuke and nudged his stride to a stop, even if it would hurt her, she wanted to hear what he had to say; she wanted to know why he kept bugging her about Sasuke being with her. She felt selfish, not telling him that she loved her but she, too, felt drawn away from him ever since she saw him with Chii.

"I'm not running away, Shin. You were the first one who left me," she whispered, trying to search for what Shin wanted to tell her within his filling eyes.

Shin looked at her and dropped down to his knees. Her words had hit him hard in his heart, he knew everything was his fault; he was the one who started all of this nonsense, "I never left you, Sakura…"

"Then what did you do, Shin?"

Shin looked at her with desperate eyes, "Sakura… I―I just… wasn't there, that's all."

Sakura gave off a small, painful laugh,"That wasn't what it showed me," she took a step forward, holding onto Sasuke's hand and pulling him.

Shin looked at the floor, hearing them stride away, "Are you that dense, Sakura?"

Sakura stopped and looked at him. 'Dense?'

He looked up at her, "Can't you see? Can't you see that I―I love you!?"

Sakura looked at Sasuke, she wanted his help. She wanted to get the hell out of there. She couldn't hide away what she had heard; she just wanted to pretend that she didn't even hear anything. She felt Shin stare and it made her shiver, and somehow Sasuke understood that she couldn't take anymore of this. He took a step forward and was about to pull her away when he saw Shin stand up and walked in front of them, grasping Sakura by the shoulders.

"Sakura! Can't you see? I've fallen so much in love with you! I love you, Sakura! I love you!" he shouted as his tears continuously pour down his cheeks and onto Sakura's muffled dress. He started shaking Sakura, not minding the fact that Sasuke was holding her hand as tight as he could and was about to pull her away. He just wanted her to tell him what she thought about all of his craziness. He wanted to end this, even if it meant that he had to get hurt.

Sasuke looked at Shin and tried pushing his hands away Sakura but stopped when he saw that Sakura was planning on saying something. He looked at her and let go of Sakura's hand and moved a bit from them, thinking he'd just wait in his car but Sakura got his hand and looked at him with eyes so pitiful, "Stay, Sasuke, I want you to hear this, too."

Sakura looked back at Shin and nudged his hands off her, she can't keep this up much longer, she knew that she would eventually lose it; she wanted this as fast as it could be, "Do you really want to know, Shin?" she started, searching his swelling eyes, "Why I can't love you?"

Shin let his hands drop and stared at her, waiting for her explanation, "Why, Sakura? Am I too old for you?"

Sakura frowned, giving him a serious daze, "I'm serious, Shin. You're the one who said that you wanted to know about this."

Shin shook his head, he wished that he was just dreaming all of this; he wished that this would just turn out a horrifying nightmare and when he wakes up, the pain would all go away, "Okay, Sakura. I really want to know… Even if it means I have to get hurt."

Sakura looked at Shin to Sasuke and back at Shin, she wanted all of this to end, and she wanted both of them to hear everything she had to say clearly. She frowned and looked down at the floor, "I can't love you, Shin…" she started as a whisper, but continued, "…it's because I love somebody else," she looked up and saw Shin flinched, "I've loved him since we were kids… every time I saw him… my heart felt like skipping a beat and every time he shouts my name, I feel like an angel was calling me," she gave off a faint smile, "I liked that books he reads, I liked the things he wear, I liked everything that he was… I can't love you, Shin… for I love somebody else. I love this person standing next to me. I've loved him since we were kids," she slowly turned to look at Sasuke and whispered, "That first time we met… that day, I can't forget… I love you, Sasuke…" she finished off as she looked Sasuke straight in his onyx eyes. She had told him this before, but she wanted to make it clear to him.

Shin was still in shock, his eyes off into a daze, he turned his head away from Sakura, not knowing what to do anymore; he only had one choice left in front of him. He wanted to do this right; he looked back at Sakura and bowed his head, looking directly at the floor.

Sakura looked at him and shook her head, this wasn't what she wanted to happen but she had to do it, "Do you understand now, Shin? Why I can't love you?"

Shin started whispering to himself, "1…2…3…4…5…" as he started to laugh.

Sakura and Sasuke looked curiously at him, wondering why the hell he was laughing.

Shin's laugh became harder and firmer as he raised his head up with a broad grin across him face. He looked at her, "…and you took what I said so seriously! I only treat you as a little sister," he took a step forward and put his hand on Sakura's head as he playfully stroke her hair, his laugh never ending, "I was only joking, you two. But I really need to go now, thanks for the humor," he finished as he slowly took his hand away from Sakura's soft hair and turned around and started to run away. He just ran and ran. He ran away, went to the farthest thing that would hide him from the park, he leaned against its wall and pinched the bridge of his nose, wiping his tears away.

He turned around and saw the soccer field he once played at, he slowly walked to the middle of it as it started to rain mildly, but after some time, the rain grew harder and harder; he didn't care, he just wanted to stay there, in the middle of the soccer field and dropped down to his knees, looking directly at the ground, "1…2…3…4…5… in five seconds… in five seconds… I fell," he whispered to himself as tears flowed down his cheek and mix with the rain. His heart ached but he knew that it was the right thing to do, he had to change the situation to the way it was. He dropped his hands to his side and started punching the soccer field ground as hard as he can endure.

Chapter Ended.