A/N: herro everybody! so this chapter was a bit difficult for me to write, but i hope its still good. enjoy :)


Chapter Seven

Kanda walked down the crowded school hallway on his was to his English class. Kanda's day had been going pretty well, that is, as well as a day would get for the generally angry teenager. So far no one had bothered him, even while walking down the hallway there was a small bubble around the samurai that people stayed clear of. He hasn't seen the bright red hair of the usagi and the moyashi didn't even acknowledge his existence during their Calculus class. Kanda was thoroughly enjoying his day.

That is, until someone had to crash into him.

"Watch where you're fucking going" The samurai snapped. He looked down to see white hair and silver eyes. He scowled and then continued his tirade. "Oi, moyashi, there's no reason for you to have two eyes if your not even going to use them. Walk into me again and I'll cut them out, got it?"

"Sorry Kanda." Allen said quietly and continued walking down the hallway.

Kanda looked at Allen's retreating figure with confusion, but after a moment decided to forget the entire affair and continued on with his day. He could care less about the sprout.


"Are you sure that's all you want, hon?" Jerry asked with concern.

"Yeah, I'm not that hungry today" Allen smiled reassuringly at the school's chef as he collected his food. Usually when Allen got his food, the cart would only hold about half of what was ordered and he was forced to pile plates on top of each other, but today all the plates were able to fit on the cart with ease.

Lavi, Lenalee, and Kanda were already seated and eating when they saw Allen walking through the cafeteria with his food. Lenalee smiled and waved at Allen, but she was ignored as Allen sat down at an empty table far away from them. Lenalee's eyebrows pulled together in confusion and hurt.

"Hey guys, have I done something to upset Allen?" She asked worriedly.

"No, he's been like that for a while now," Lavi glumly responded and stopped eating. "I saw him in the hall earlier and I was about to give him a hug but he noticed me and almost ran in the other direction." Lavi pouted, "Why won't he accept my love? He's turning into Yuu!".

"Stop calling me that, baka usagi!" Kanda called out from the other side of the table.

"Has he done anything weird to you, Kanda?" Lenalee questioned, but Kanda ignored her and continued eating his soba. Lenalee's clipboard appeared in her hands. "Kanda! Answer me!"

Kanda groaned and finally put his chopsticks down.

"The idiot walked into me before. I told him there was no purpose for his eyes if he wasn't going to use them so I might as well cut them out. The sprout said sorry and walked away."

"Did you call him a moyashi, Kanda?" Lavi asked seriously, his green eye narrowed as if he was a detective who found a clue.

"What else would I call him?" Lavi frowned.

"This is really bad guys, Allen never lets anyone call him that without getting angry." Lavi paused to think for a moment. "Something must have happened to him this weekend."

"The only times I've seen him act weird though is when he talks about his Master. You don't think he had something to do with it?" Lenalee suggested.

"Wait a minute, I remember at the party he spaced out for a few minutes after he saved that guy from being killed by Yuu–"

"Shut up usagi!" Kanda protested, snapping his chopsticks together in a threatening way, but Lavi continued.

"– And then I walked with him for a few minutes afterwards and he seemed really out of it then, too."

Lenalee and Lavi turned their heads to look at the white haired boy slowly eating his food across the cafeteria.


Allen grudgingly walked into the theatre; there was already too much acting in his life and he didn't want anymore, especially not from them. He already knew his 'friends' were great performers being that they had fooled Allen into believing that he was accepted. Allen stumbled slightly, he realized he was the best actor out of all of them: he had even fooled himself. He got lost in the role of a friend and forgot that it was all fabricated.

Lavi and Lenalee smiled at Allen and pointed to an empty seat next to Lavi, indicating that they wanted him to sit there. Time to start the performance; Allen forced a smile as he shook his head and sat a few rows in front of them. Lavi and Lenalee stared dejectedly at the back of their friend's head.

"Come onto the stage my children!" Professor Tiedoll cheerily called out to the students. "Today, we are going to learn a fundamental lesson in acting," pause for dramatic effect, "trust!"

The class looked at their professor impassively.

"Trusting your fellow actors is incredibly important when you're on the stage. When you put your heart and soul into something, you need to make sure that those with you are doing the same. And if you get lost in the scene, you need people there to bring you back. Today, we're going to do a trust-building exercise. Everyone get into groups; someone will fall over and it will be everyone else's job to catch them."

Allen didn't move; he noticed that Lavi, Lenalee, and Kanda already standing next to each other. Lenalee called out his name and invited him to join their group, it seemed almost like she genuinely wanted Allen there, but Allen knew it was a lie. Allen produced his fake smile and politely declined, but then his features took on an angry appearance as he almost growled at his friends.

"Now you won't have to be in contact with the school freak." With that said, Allen turned and stormed out of the theatre, leaving his shocked friends immobile.

"I don't get it," Lenalee said with teary eyes, immediately blaming herself for Allen's melancholy. "Why is he rejecting us?"

"I don't know, Lenalee, but we need to talk to him and figure out what's going on," Lavi's voice was uncharacteristically sad.

"But Lavi! We've been trying all day and he just keeps distancing himself from us." Lavi realized something.

"Well, not all of us have tried yet." Lavi and Lenalee turned to face Kanda. He stood with his arms crossed over his chest, scowling at some random object and clearly not caring for the white haired boy's wellbeing.

"Kanda, can you go talk to Allen? Please?" Lenalee begged.

"Che. I don't give a crap about his problems."

Lenalee's clipboard magically appeared in her hands and she hit Kanda painfully over the head.

"Go talk to him! Now!"

"Che. Fine." Kanda grumbled and reluctantly walked out of the theatre to search for Allen.


Kanda couldn't find him anywhere. He looked all over the building and came up with nothing. He was thinking of where else the idiot would run off to when he suddenly remembered how Allen got lost and ruined his meditation some days ago. Kanda walked outside of the school to his usual meditating spot–it was the perfect place to be when you didn't want to be found.

That was where he found Allen leaning against the wall, staring absent-mindedly at some distant point.

"Oi, moyashi!" Allen jumped; He was too wrapped up in his own thoughts to hear anyone approach him. When he noticed that it was the samurai though, his face fell for a fraction of a second, but he managed to quickly readjust his features into a sickly sweet, fake smile. Kanda hated it.

"What is it, Kanda?" Allen asked him in a voice filled with innocence that was just as fake as his smile. Kanda glowered at the sprout; this attitude was starting to annoy him already.

"What the fuck is going on with you?" Contrary to the actual meaning of the question, which usually implies concern and worry, Kanda's voice was cold and angry.

"What do you mean?" Allen asked, feigning innocence once again.

"Don't fucking give me that. I can see straight through your stupid act." Allen's face hardened, his voice became icy and cruel.

"Why do you even care?" Allen spat as he turned his head away from the samurai and went back to gazing into the distance.

"Because you're acting fucking weird. The other two won't stop talking about it and it's getting on my nerves." Allen didn't seem to be paying attention, enraging the Japanese boy.

Kanda walked up to him. Trapping Allen between his two arms, Kanda placed both his hands against the wall next to the sides of Allen's head and leaned his own head forward to glare at Allen, leaving only a few inches between them. "Now answer me, moyashi," he growled. Allen narrowed his eyes as he responded.

"I know what you all think of me, that I'm just a freak. You said so yourself, Kanda. I don't need you guys to pretend to like me out of pity!" Allen's voice was cold and fierce, so uncharacteristically Allen.

Kanda faltered for a moment. Did the sprout really take him that seriously? He was just pissed off at the drunk pervert and Allen was in the way.

Kanda narrowed his cobalt eyes and leaned his face closer to Allen's.

"You fucking idiot." Allen looked up at Kanda with confusion. "You think I'm that shallow to give a damn about a fucked up arm and a stupid scar? And that the other two idiots are the same?"

Allen tried to look away from the samurai as he tried to comprehend what was just said, but Kanda's face was too close and blocked out everything else from his sight.

"Wait, so you don't think I'm a freak?" Allen asked with a small voice, he didn't understand. Kanda took his arms off the wall, moving away from Allen and walking back inside.

"Che. Just get back into the fucking theatre and stop with this crap, moyashi."

"It's Allen, BaKanda!" Allen protested as Kanda walked back into the building.

Kanda smirked; the moyashi was back.


Lenalee and Lavi stood on the stage, impatiently waiting for Kanda and Allen to come back. They already thought the possibility of Kanda actually being able to help the situation was very slim; his reputation of dealing with people wasn't that great. They were just about to give up on waiting and go look for Allen themselves when Kanda walked back through the theatre door, followed by a genuinely smiling Allen.

"Alle–" Lenalee started, but Allen cut her off.

"Before you say anything, I want to apologize for what I said earlier and how I've been acting. I made a horrible mistake and I hope you can forgive me."

"Apology accepted, moyashi!" Lavi called as he ran forward and put an arm around Allen's shoulders.

"It's Allen!"

"Yep, you're back!" Lavi smiled. "For a second I thought you were turning into Yuu's clone!"

"Go die, usagi!" Kanda yelled at Lavi. Then Lenalee realized something.

"Hey Kanda, how exactly were you able to get Allen back to normal?" She asked.

Kanda looked away and gave a "Che". Lenalee realized that she wasn't going to get any answers from him so she asked Allen.

"Kanda found me and then, um, he had, um…" Allen stumbled over his words and blushed a little; he was remembering how Kanda was virtually on top of him just a few minutes before. Lavi noticed the blush.

"Ooh! Did Allen and Yuu have a little heart-to-heart? " Allen and Kanda stared at Lavi.

"I'm going to kill you, baka usagi!"


wow, my tiedoll just gets more OOC with each chapter, and sorry if allen was OOC too, it was really hard to figure out how he would respond to this. would he pretend that everything was okay? would he lash out? i felt that combining the two was my best option.

it was kind of hard to keep Kanda IC also, like the smirk he gave when allen finally responded to 'moyashi' that seemed a bit OOC to me, but with Yullen especially i feel like i need to just drop a few hints of it every now and then so then when allen and kanda fully realize their feelings its not totally random.

reviews=love and chapter eight will be up real soon!