I was packing so much now days, Edward and I had to postpone in a week our trip to Forks.
I found Edward very distracting in the process of packing so I sent him away to pack his own stuff. Julie helped me instead.
She seemed sad but I didn't know if it's about me leaving, that guy, Tom, that she was seeing or something else.
I also didn't know if she wants to talk about it. I remembered how Angela used to ask me about things she didn't know if I wanted to talk about.
"Hey joules" I started, "is everything alright? It just seems like you're going through something. You don t have to talk about it if you don t want to "
"It's not a secret or something" she said, "I am just sad that you're leaving. I mean, my new roomate looks like that annoying party college hoe.
Her cleavage was so deep I felt like she's doing a favor for wearing a shirt at all!"
"Wait" I said, "you've met her already?"
"Yes, her name is Terisha Fitz, she knows you"
"You've got to be kiddin' me!" I said, "I am so sorry you are going to be with that witch!"
Julie groaned "My last hope was that you'd tell me she's not what she seems!"
"Sorry Julie" I said, "and sorry I'm leaving but "
"No" she interrupted me, "don't apologize. You and Edward are married you need your own space".
I smiled at her "Thanks, you're the best"
"I know" she said joking, "it is not easy to be so perfect" we laughed.
"Now let's return to packing, or this will never end" I gestured toward the boxes of clothes, CD's and books and other personal stuff.
I emptied the underwear drawer when I came across a small blue book. I have been using it to track me period.
I froze a little and then opened it, I couldn't believe it has already been two weeks since the semester started.
I was a week late, and I wasn't late a day in my life. This couldn't be, I can't be, we can't have...
"Bella is everything alright?" Julie asked. I was startled by her voice. She looked at my face and at the blue book in my hand.
She probably recognized its use.
"Bella" she said in a low voice, trying not to startle me again. "what happened? Are you late?" she asked.
I nodded. "sometime irregulars happen" she tried to relax me.
"Not to me" I told her "This is impossible" but was it? I saw too many supernatural to believe in the word impossible anymore.
Julie looked embarrassed "Listen, I have if you want a pregnancy test for... emergency"
"I need it" I told her instantly, "badly"
she nodded and left the room. I sat on the edge of the bed. The blue book fell out of my hand and landed on the floor with a thud.
Julie returned to the room with a little bright blue box. She handed me the box, "good luck ?" she said. I took it and entered the bathroom.
I was so nervous I was shaking. I sat on the closed toilet and read the instructions. Once, twice, ten times.
"Bella are you done?" Julie asked from outside the bathroom.
"I am reading the instructions" I told her, "Carefully, but it doesn't say what to do if the result is positive. I don t know what to do!"
I was on the edge of crying but crying was something I did more often when I was angry than anxious or sad.
"Sitting there longer won't help you be prepared" she scolded me, "Take the damn test so that you can know if there's anything to worry about at all"
I knew she was right so I took the test.
"I am counting two minutes" she told me. It uccored to me then, that she had taken that test before.
But I was busy worrying if the color of the device changes from blue to pink.
I sat there with my eyes closed for the two longest minutes of my life.
"Two minutes over" Julie said.
I looked down.
