Hey there my gorgeous readers... I'm very sorry for not updating in a while, but I've had some things going on in my life that at one point I thought I was going to be homeless, but thankfully I sorted everything out and saved my house which makes me extra awesome lol.
Anyway I know you all want Pucas to break up and I'm working on it... just trying to figure out the best way for Peyton to find out what's going on. I wrote the last chapter already which was going to be Peyton finding out, but since you all don't want to wait that long I'm trying to change it so please bare with me and be patient on that front.
So here is chapter 7... Please ENJOY!
It was Monday morning and I was heading into my office when I see Rachel sitting on the couch by the door. I shut the door behind me and place my coffee on my desk. I take my seat and swing it round to face Rachel "Hey Rach, what's up?" I ask. I haven't spoken to her since she called me and I was outside of the house I met Lucas at.
Rachel stood up and walked closer until she was by the chair opposite me. She took a seat in that and crossed her right leg over her left leg "Where bestfriends right?" She questions sitting back in the chair. I nod "And you wouldn't ever lie to me right?" Where was she going with these questions?
"Rachel... I-I"
"Just answer the question Brooke" She cuts in and I just nod again "So then why did you lie about your Great Aunt falling... why did you lie and tell me you were out of town visiting her?"
"Rachel... I don't..." I go to say, but she cuts in again.
"Don't bother lying to me Brooke" She warns narrowing her eyes at me "I thought we were bestfriends and here you are lying to me"
"We are bestfriends" I tell her taking a sip of my coffee "I guess I was just worried you'd think less of me... Nathan did"
"Wait..." She crosses her arms "What does Nathan know that I don't" She asks "Where were you this weekend Brooke?"
"I erm... Rachel you have to understand that I didn't mean for this to happen" I explain before revealing the truth to her, she was right I shouldn't have lied to her. I should have been honest and I wanted to... I was just scared she'd think less of me just like Nathan did. I didn't want Rachel to judge me "I wasn't planning this or anything... it just got out of hand and I tried to stop it, but I cant... I love him Rach"
"Whoa Brookie" She leans up from the chair and puts her elbows on the table "What's going on?" I hesitate to answer her so she carries on "You can tell me Brooke I won't judge. I promise"
Tears immediately came to my eyes "I love him Rachel... I really do and I don't know what to do... I want to be with him, but I can't right now and I'm lying to my friends just to spend time with him... everything seems to be falling apart"
"Brooke" She says my name with ease as she takes my hand from across the desk. A tear escaped my eyes sliding down my cheek "Who do you love?"
I took a deep breath trying to control my voice. I felt it start to get shaky so I wait a second or two before I answer. Rachel just looks at me waiting for me to answer her. She squeezes my hand. I take another deep breath and say "Lucas... Rachel I'm in love with Lucas"
"I knew it" She muttered looking away from me. She moved her hand and a smile formed on her face. I don't think she was directing that comment to me, but she stood up and walked around my office and then she looked back over at me "And you were with him on the weekend" I nodded tears still sliding down my face "I knew you liked him. You use to always talk about him and when we all went to Brown together and you introduced us I saw the light in your eyes. You've been in love with him forever Brooke"
"Was I that obvious?" I ask wiping my face with the tissue on my desk "Because apparently Peyton didn't pick up on any of that"
"You want the truth?" She questions and I nod spinning my chair around to face her entirely "I only put up with Peyton because she was your friend. I never liked her and when I learned she was dating Lucas I hated her even more because I could see how much it killed you every day, but then as the years went by you got pass it so I thought... I didn't see the hurt as much as I did back then. Peyton thinks she better than you Brooke... she takes everything from you and throughout the years I noticed that. She knew you liked Lucas and just because you didn't force yourself on him doesn't mean she should have. She was meant to be your friend and she choose Lucas regardless of your feelings" She tells me and I listen knowing it was the truth. I didn't use to always talk about Lucas. Peyton even told me once that she could see how much I liked him, but yet she jumped on him the moment she could. And at first Rachel was right it did hurt every day and I couldn't be around Lucas as much back then, but then I did find a way pass it and now my feelings have come back all because Lucas kissed me back in that cab on my birthday.
"But what I'm doing still doesn't stop me from feeling guilty just because Peyton know I liked Lucas and still dated him and got engaged with him. I feel so guilty Rach and now when I see them together I can't help, but feel sick" I tell her "What if he doesn't call off the wedding? What if I actually have to stand up there beside Peyton and watch as they say their vows? Watch as the priest announce them husband and wife"
"I'll tell you one thing Brooke... Lucas settled from Peyton. I see it in him every day. His loved you for a long time, but I guess since you never showed you felt the same way he had to do something right? I guess he could wait around forever" She says sitting back on the couch putting her feet up "I don't judge the both of you for doing what you've both wanted for a long time and I also know that Lucas is not going to marry Peyton"
"How do you know that?"
"Because he loves you a lot more than he could ever love her" She says like it was that simple "I know you don't want to hear this Brooke, but just give it time" Rachel then got up and grabbed her jacket and bag she looked at her watch "I have to go now Brookie, but call me later"
"Okay" I get up and pull her into a hug "Oh and Rach" She stopped at the door and turned to look at me.
"Hmm..."
"Thank you"
She gave me a smile "Anytime B" She then left and I sat back down in my chair and thought about what Rachel had said and how much sense she made.
-x-
LPOV
The weekend I just spent with Brooke was amazing. She felt so comfortable around me and I loved that. I honestly at first didn't think she would turn up, but then when she did my heart raced. I've never felt like this with anyone other than Brooke and even though I'm still engaged with Peyton I can't help, but think about Brooke everyday all day.
I wanted to break off the wedding with Peyton and live my life with Brooke, but I didn't want to hurt her. I know I've already done that by sleeping with Brooke twice, but when I sleep with Brooke it's different than sleeping with Peyton. She makes me feel better. She makes me feel more than I've ever felt with anyone else. Ever since the camp we Brooke and I met at I took a liking to her. We spent all our time together once we met and the entire summer I spent with Brooke and learning new things about her. I got to know her and my heart melted every time she would smile at me.
Then when we had to leave I thought I'd never see her again even though we both applied for Brown there was a chance either one of us wouldn't get in, but then when the semester started I spotted Brooke out of everyone in the crowd as we waited in line to be assigned out dorm rooms. I noticed her laughing with Rachel. I noticed her dimples showing and remembered why I nicknamed her Dimples at camp. Then after that we hung out throughout studying at Brown and I instantly fell in love with her, but then she showed she never felt that same well at least that's what it looked like and Peyton came into the picture and everything changed.
But now all my feelings for Brooke have come back and I even told her that I love her because I do. I truly do love her and I want to show her. I want to call of the wedding and I want to commit to her, but I also don't want to hurt Peyton. So right now I'm torn and I don't know what to do.
"Mr Roe... you have Miss Sawyer on line 3" Sara my secretary says as she came into my office.
"Okay thank you Sara" I smile at her "Put her through for me"
"Okay sir" She exits the office and I pick up the phone and put it to my ear waiting for Peyton's voice to appear.
"Hey baby" He perky voice came through the speaker
"Hey Peyt" I reply "What's up?"
"Not much just wanted to hear my fiancés voice" She sounded happy. If only she knew what was really going on "Have you had lunch yet babe?"
"Erm... nah not yet, but I was thinking of going to see Brooke... something about the colour scheme for the wedding" I lie. I was going to see Brooke, but not because of the wedding.
"Oh okay" She sounded upset, but then she perked up a little "Well anything for the wedding right baby"
"Right?" I agree "Well Peyton I have to go. I have a meeting before meeting with Brooke"
"Okay well see you at home babe" And then she hung up. She didn't seem as upset as what I thought she would. I just blow her off for Brooke... I would have been upset if I was her.
-x-
I was sitting in my office when I saw Lucas walk throughout the floor to my office. I saw he had food in his hand. A bag form Denny's my favourite place to eat. He knocked on the door before entering. I saw a smile appear on his face as I was still clicking at the computer "Hey you" He says sitting down in the leather chair opposite me. He pushed a strawberry milkshake towards me "For you"
"Thank you" I reply taking a sip "Erm... Luke what you doing here?"
"Well Peyton thinks I'm here to do with the wedding, but I'm really here because I missed you" He answers making my face flush. I could feel my cheeks going red.
"Its only been like 16 hours since we saw each other" I respond taking another sip of my milkshake.
"Yeah well those have been long painful hours away from you" He looked so cute sitting there with a little pout on his lips. If I was being honest I missed him too, but I wouldn't risk going to see him at his office. I guess it was just a good idea that he lied to Peyton before heading over to here because who knows what would have happened "Anyway I want to see you again"
"You're seeing me right now Luke" I joke with a slight laugh and then I hear my phone ring. I look at it beside my milkshake and see Peyton's name flash with our picture. I then look at Lucas as my ringtone played "Its Peyton" I tell him.
"Answer it" He advises
"And say what?" I ask "Oh hey Peyton I'm here with your fiancée sneaking around and how are you today?" I say sarcasm dripping from my words.
Lucas rolls his eyes with a small sigh "She already knows I'm here Brooke... I told her"
"Oh okay" I pick up my iphone and press the answer button "Hey Peyt"
"Oh yeah hey Brookie, I was just calling to see if you wanted to come shopping with me tomorrow. I still have some things to do with the wedding"
I look at Lucas and see him watching me carefully "Erm... I'm not sure I can... I have a lot to do at work" I lie. The truth is I don't want to do anymore of the wedding shopping. It makes me feel sick just thinking about it. I've had enough of trailing around the shops with Peyton all excited knowing I was sleeping with her fiancée. Knowing I was truly in love with her fiancée. I couldn't do it anymore. I couldn't do it anymore... I could pretend I was happy about the wedding when I'm not and I don't think I ever was.
"Oh okay" I hear the disappointment in her voice and I feel bad all over again. I was hurting her every moment of every day, but I just kept reminding myself that I have to be selfish once in a while and this was that once.
"I'm sorry "
"Nah its fine" She tries to hide the disappointment "I'll just ask Haley or something. I know she loves wedding shopping"
I rolled my eyes. Even though Nathan and I were cool after what happened at the cabin I still don't like Haley and after I tried so hard to get Rachel to lighten up about her. Rachel was right Haley is and always will be a backstabbing two-faced bitch that you cannot trust.
"Okay well I have to go... Lucas just got here... I'll speak to you later Peyton" I tell her. Wanting so bad to get off the phone.
"Okay well I'll speak to you soon. Bye Brookie" And with that I hung up putting my phone beside my milkshake slumping in my chair, closing my eyes and letting out a loud sigh. Everything has gotten more complicated than I wanted it to get. I didn't choose for this to happen, but I guess I did choose to sleep with Lucas so I have to deal with the consequences whether I liked it or not.
"I'll do it Brooke" I hear Lucas's voice as I open my eyes and see him looking at me.
"You'll do what Luke?" I ask sitting up in my chair and placing my elbow on my desk putting my chin in my hand.
"I'll talk to Peyton" He replies moving closer to me "I'll cancel the wedding and end things with her. I want you Brooke and I hate to see you hurting because of me"
I sit up in surprise. Was he being serious? He'd actually call of the wedding for real to stop me from hurting, but I couldn't help, but think of Peyton and how she'd hurt if she found out the truth... If she found out everything... But I love him.
"But what about Peyton?" I question. He stands up and walks around my desk and pulls me up by taking me hand. I stand in front of him and see his eyes twinkle. My heart melted.
"I know Peyton will hurt Brooke, but I love you and I want to be with you" He tells me and I can't help, but smile.
I wrap my arms around his neck and brings his face closer to mine "I love you too Luke" I then place my lips onto his. The feeling giving me butterflies, fireworks going off in my head. I've met my true love and I believe its Lucas Roe.
So there you have it Rachel now knows so it's only a matter of time before Peyton finds out too and when she does nothing will be the same again lol. Hope you liked the chapter and let me know what you think... You know what to do.
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