My god everything hurts; from my head all the way down to my toes. I knew going out in the forest at night was a really bad idea, but I was so angry with my mother that I just needed to run and clear my head. I should have thought about it before I actually did it, now that I think about it; it was a stupid idea. I knew I was in major trouble when I heard someone behind me, for a split second I thought maybe it was Lexa or Costia and then I was struck in the back of the head and I knew it was someone from Ice nation looking for me. I have never fought to stay alive before and let me tell you I never want to do that again. I couldn't even make it home that's how bad I was beaten up. Ice Nation is ruthless when it comes to fighting. I think I killed him at the very end of the fight but I am not too sure because I think I also passed out. The only thing I remember after the fight was some how getting the energy to make it to the drop ship and then I woke up to Lexa finding me. I don't think I would be so glad to see anyone's face before. I saw her eyes and I knew I was safe and that I was going to be able to go home. I honestly thought I was going to die alone out in the drop ship. I should have known that Lexa would come find me but sometimes I can't help but think that I was going to die out there alone.

I was not too happy about my mother coming back but I also know that if they did not send for her I would be dead by now. I knew I was internally bleeding as soon as Lexa picked me up. I never had so much pain before and when Lexa and Costia had to take my clothes off for Marg to examine me I knew from the bruising that it was worse then I thought. I really don't know how my mother is not bawling her eyes out right now. I can literally feel everything she's doing. Even though she knocked me out I can still tell what she's doing. I think that might be because I have watched her do surgery more then once when we were on the Ark. I don't hear Lexa and Costia anymore so I hope they left the room, they do not need to see me like this. Though I hope my mother can save me because we just started this relationship and I am not about to give up now. I will fight to come back to them. I need to see Costia give birth to our son or daughter; wow that was weird to say, I guess I better get used to it. What if I end up in a coma, oh god I never thought of that, I would be in a coma and miss everything with Costia and the baby and I'm sure Lexa will kill the Ice Nation if I am in a coma and never make it out. Stop thinking like this Clarke, your mother is the best surgeon out there she will get you through this. Yeah she'll get me through this I should have nothing to fear. Why do I feel so cold all of a sudden?

"Crap she's loosing more blood then we can put back in her. Marg go get more people to help with blood. If you give too much it can kill you.", I heard my mother say to Marg. Shit this is worse then I thought. I don't know how I am going to come back from this. I am going to need a lot of help in the next few weeks or even months depending on what happens. Hopefully Lexa will let my mother stay here to help me get through all this; or at least let her come here every once in a while to help me.

"Abby we have found three other people to help. Should I got get Heda and Hedatu?", I heard Marg ask my mother. Do not say yes to that mother; if you say yes to that, it can only mean that I am about to die.

"No, I can get this under control. If I can't within the hour then you can go get them.", my mother said to Marg who didn't answer her so I can just assume that she answered the grounder way which is nodding their head. I am really not like this, I feel like I am not inside my body but yet I can feel everything that is going on and I can hear everything that's happening as well. I guess this is what it feels like to be in a coma, at least I'll get used to it for when I actually do go in a coma. Again with the negativity Clarke; stop thinking that way you're going to make it out of this in one piece. I want to know what's taking my mom so long with the surgery though, I mean I know I'm losing a lot of blood but I wonder if my injuries were really that bad. I know he stabbed me but I'm not sure where exactly he stabbed me. With my luck he stabbed me where one of my vital organs are. Ugh this needs to hurry up so I can see my beautiful girlfriends' faces again. I shouldn't be using that word just yet but I can't help but feel the need to claim them as my girlfriends. This is the happiest I've ever been and yet I'm in the worst situation of my life. I guess happiness really does give misery.

I think my mom is almost done with my surgery she seems to be slowing down with her movements. I really hope she keeps me awake and doesn't put me into a medically induced coma, I think that'll confuse Lexa and Costia so much. So much for thinking my mom was done with my surgery she must have just started up again. I feel pulling in a different spot though, so I guess he got me in more then one place. I am going to need a lot of pain meds after this. I don't even think I'm going to be able to move after this either, great I get to stay in bed for weeks. One good thing is that Lexa and Costia will have to wait on me hand and foot and I am going to like that a lot.

"Marg go get Lexa and Costia, I have to explain to them what is going on with Clarke.", I heard my mom say to Marg. I think now she's done because I don't feel any pulling anymore and I can feel her starting to stitch me up. "I know you are going to hate me for this but I am going to have to put you in a medical induced coma for you to heal properly. I am going to explain it to Lexa and Costia as best as I can." I heard her whisper in my ear as I felt water on my face; I'm assuming she's crying because she does not want to do this. And didn't I say I was going to be going into a coma. Why did I have to be right? Ugh I did not want this to happen.

"What is going on?", I heard Lexa's strong voice asked my mom. I really hope she isn't going to get angry with my mom for doing this. I wish I was awake to tell them that this is the right thing my mom has to do in order for me to get better.

"I took care of her internal bleeding, she had a lot of damage to a lot of organs. But I fixed her up and she is going to be fine. I do have to put her in a medically induced coma though. What that means is that I will give her medicine that will make her sleep for a while so that her body heals without or organs working harder with her being awake.", my mom explained to Lexa and Costia.

"For how long?", I heard Costia ask with worry in her voice. I really didn't want to upset them but I guess I didn't have much of a choice in the matter. Thank you Ice Nation for being dicks.

"I can't say, I will check her in a week and see how she is but it could be a week or even a month. It's all up to Clarke and her body.", my mother said to them. This is so not going to go well with Lexa; she is going to kill Ice Nation for this.

"You will stay here to help her.", Lexa demanded more rather then asked my mother. She needs to work on that not everyone will answer to a demand.

"I will need to, I have to give her the meds and check her vitals and everything. She is in for a long ride; there might be infections that she has to fight. Depending on how long she has to be in the coma for she might have to be taught how to walk again. The next few days are crucial though she has a fight she has to win. Knowing my daughter she will fight to come back to us.", My mother said to Lexa.

"Could we move her to the tower? I would like if she was with us in our room so we can talk to her and keep an eye on her.", Costia asked my mother with concern in her voice.

"Not yet, if we move her now it could kill her. Give her a few days to heal a little. As long as she is in good heal in the next two days we can move her.", my mom said to them. I know she is trying to help but I don't think leaving me in the healer's hut is such a good idea.

"We will just have to stay here with her until she is well enough to move. Costia stay here with Clarke and Abby, I have something to do.", I heard Lexa say the order Costia. Why do I have this suspicion that she is going to start a war with Ice Nation because of this.

"Alexia do not go looking for a fight, we have to be here for Clarke.", I heard Costia say in such a stern voice that I think I'm a little scared of.

"I am not looking for a fight, I need some time to my self. They almost kill her Cos; they still could kill her with what Abby is telling us. I will find who did this and kill them my self. But for now we have to focus on Clarke. I just need to clear my head I promise you I will not go looking for a fight.", I heard Lexa say as I heard her walking away from the bed. This is going to suck being in this bed for who knows how long. I just want to open my eyes and see my girls' beautiful faces.

"Can she hear us?", I heard Costia ask my mother. She sound so broken I just want to hug her and tell her that everything is going to be okay; even though I don't know that my self.

"She can, like I said think of her as she's sleeping. She can also feel us, so if you want to hold her hand you can.", my mom said to Costia with such a kind voice that I have never heard her use before not even to her patients or their family members. Maybe she's finally learning her place being on the ground. "Is Lexa going to be okay?", I heard my mom asked Costia.
"She will be well, she just needs to process everything.", Costia said to my mother as I felt her take my hand and kiss it. It feels weird being able to hear and feel them as if they're in my own head with me. Not being able to see them is annoying me though.

"Good, I feel like I have to say this. I do accept you three being together. I was just surprised earlier when Clarke told me that you three were together. I just want her to be happy and I can clearly see that you two make her happy. I can also see that you two care deeply for her and I couldn't ask for better partners for my daughter. Just please don't hurt her.", I hear my mom confess to Costia as her voice cracked with emotion.

"We will never hurt her Abby, we only want Clarke happy as well as you. I am glad you are supporting us though. It means so much to us. You should tell Lexa and Clarke when she wakes.", Costia said to her.

"I plan too. I just feel like this is my fault, if I had just answered her she wouldn't have run off and gotten beaten up.", My mother said to Costia sounding so guilty. Mom this is by far your fault; I'm the stupid idiot that ran off knowing Ice Nation was after me. If it's anyone's fault it's my own. Too bad she can't read my mind; stupid Clarke.

"Abby this is not your fault. Clarke should have known better then to run when Ice Nation is after her. It was her own foolishness that brought this upon her.", Costia said to my mother. Thanks Cos, make me feel even worse and even more guilty for leaving in the first place. The joy of facing reality I guess.

"Logically I know that but I just can't help but feel I had something to do with her leaving.", my mother said to Costia.

"Clarke, you better heal quickly so your mother can stop feeling guilty.", Costia said in a joking tone as my mother chuckled and so did Costia. I'm glad they're getting along and chatting. At least my mother is making an effort in getting to know at least one of the girlfriends'. Hopefully she'll get to know Lexa as well, I actually think they will get along very well. They're both very thick headed and stubborn buttheads. But they also know how to protect the people they love and they'd go above and beyond for them as well. They are both very strong willed people and that's what I love about them. Costia is a lot like me with a little bite of fierceness to her.