CHAPTER SEVEN

Preparation

It had been almost a week since Dougie and Harry had left but it seemed like so much longer to Danny.

He missed them both, he didn't know how he could but he actually did miss Harry.

He still couldn't believe his reaction, he couldn't believe Dougie's either.

Danny thought they were his friends, they should be there for him not run away from him when he needed them most.

He needed their support, he needed to know it was okay to be the way he was because this was one part of him that he could not change.

Danny had tried, he'd kept quite, tried to push it aside, deny it, he'd tried being with Jane but nothing could make it go away.

He loved Dougie, that was one of the few things in his life that was certain.

Danny tried to think of something else, he needed to get on with his life, Dougie wasn't coming back.

It was early in the day, not yet 9:00, Tom and Danny needed to get early this morning.

McFly, or what was left of it anyway was holding a press conference today, the news was not yet out whether or not McFly had really broken up.

The last thing Danny wanted to do was this bloody conference but he cared about his fans, they had supported McFly but, would they support him know if they knew it was all his fault the band had broken up?

Would they support him if they knew he was gay?

Or would they turn their backs on him like everyone else?

It didn't matter to Danny anymore, nothing really mattered anymore.

Danny dug through his dresser and closet trying to find something appropriate for the occasion, he finally found something and put it on.

He walked over and stood in front of the mirror for a moment, he practiced smiling but it all looked so fake but Danny guessed it was alright, a press conference to discuss the end of McFly wasn't exactly a happy occasion.

What if everyone saw through his fancy clothes to see what Danny really was: scared, lonely, depressed, ashamed, guilty all because of one small, three letter word... gay.

How would they explain what happened if they didn't mention the only reason McFly had broken up, Danny was gay?

Danny had never felt so solely responsible for anything in his life, he really was the only one to blame.

Danny out on the last finishing touch, a watch Dougie had given him for his birthday and made his way downstairs to the bathroom.

The door was closed and the light was on so Danny assumed Tom was in there.

He knocked on the door "Yeah, come in." Tom answered in a funny voice.

When Danny opened he realized it was because Tom was brushing his teeth.

Tom had no shirt on, exposing his muscular upper body, Tom had a star tattoo on the left side of his chest, Danny remembered going with Tom when he got that.

The funny thing was that Tom was gorgeous but Danny wasn't attracted to him at all, he'd never been attracted to any other guy, just Dougie.

Tom lifted his wrist to look at his watch "We're going to be late!" Tom squealed as he quickly finished his teeth and then grabbed his bottle of hair gel and spiked his hair up a little.

"Okay, it's all yours." Tom said as he rushed out of the bathroom to finish getting dressed.

Danny quickly brushed his teeth and made sure he looked alright, but he couldn't get rid of the dark circles under his eyes, he hadn't been sleeping well since that night.

He flicked the light switch and made his way to the kitchen where Tom was waiting for him.

"Come on, we've got to pick Gio up on the way." Tom said as he rushed around the kitchen searching for his keys, he stopped and turned to Danny "It's going to be fine, mate, no one else has to know."

He finally found them.

"Then how are we going to explain?" Danny asked.

"Um... honestly, I haven't quite figured that out yet but, I will. Just try not to worry about it. I'll do all the talking. Come on lets go." Tom headed towards the door of the house.

Danny followed.

He hadn't left the house for days, he had no where to go.

The sunlight hurt Danny's eyes, he'd spent so long locked away in his room crying, he felt like the vampire in their music video for "Transylvania."

Why was it such a nice day?

Dark clouds, rain, thunder, that would suit the occasion.

Danny slipped into the backseat of Tom's baby blue mini cooper, leaving the front seat for Giovanna.

Tom was an awful driver, there weren't many things Tom didn't do well, he was one of those people who excelled at almost everything.

They made the short 10 minute to drive to Gio's flat and Tom jumped out "I'll be right back." he closed the door.

Danny watched as he made his way up the walkway and rang the doorbell, Gio answered and gave Tom a big hug and a kiss.

Danny looked away, he was so jealous of them, they'd been together since they were sixteen, they were the perfect couple.

Giovanna was a lot like Tom she was one of the kindest most understanding people Danny knew, she was just such a good person.

They really loved each other and Danny hated that.

Why could he not have that kind of love?

Danny heard the open and the two slipped into the car.

Gio turned back and smiled at Danny "Hey, how are you feeling?"

Gio knew what had happened , she knew everything but Danny didn't care because she was like Tom she could care less if Danny was gay, she accepted it maybe even supported it.

"I'm alright." Danny said trying to sound cheery but the fact that he was lying prevented him from sounding convincing.

He had never been much of an actor, he almost couldn't watch "Just My Luck anymore he thought his acting was horrible which made him laugh every time he watched it.

Tom started the car and pulled out of his parking spot in an erratic, jerky motion "Sorry."