Later on that day

Joe had managed to put his arm around me sometime during the storm, and I managed to snuggle into his chest, oh and did I mention we both fell sleep like that. great. My head rested on his shoulder and my arm was on his chest, his arm was around my neck where his hand rested on my left shoulder and his other arm held onto my hand on his chest. I can't believe I fell asleep like that. I am such an idiot. "miley" Joe whispered in my ear "miley" he continued, his hand rubbing my hand with his thumb. I slowly woke up and looked up at him and realized what I was doing, I leaned off his shoulder and took my hand off his chest and sat up "uhm... sorry about that" I spoke and he sat up next to me "I'm not" he replied I looked over at him and he smiled at me, I smiled back. "well, the storms over, what do you want to do now?" Joe asked "I should probably get home, my sisters probably freaking out" I replied and he nodded "alright, well lets get you your clothes, then I'll drive you back" I nodded and we walked up to his laundry room he handed me my clothes and smiled "thanks" - "you're welcome" he spoke and just stared at me, I looked up at him "go" I laughed "oh right, sorry" he smiled and walked out of the room closing the door behind him. I began undressing and putting my own clothes back on, I picked up his shirt and smelled it, it smelled like him, I loved it. I smiled and picked up his pants too and opened the door and he was just standing there, I walked up to him until I was touching him "thank you" I spoke softly he grabbed his clothes away from my chest and smiled, then put a hand on my waist and pulled me into him a little bit. I just stood there staring into his dark brown eyes, hyptmotized, until he began leaning in. He was only centemeters away from my lips when I realized what I was doing and sprang away from him quickly "I'm so sorry" I spoke, my cheeks turning a bright shade of pink when I looked down "uh yeah, me too" Joe responded looking down and scratching the back of his neck "I should get home" I pointed to the door "uh, yeah, lets go" joe led me to the door and to his car. We both got in the car and he began driving me to my house, he pulled up and looked at me "there you go" - "thanks" I spoke and got out of the car walking up my driveway and into my house where my sister sat on the couch, she looked up at me and smiled "hey miles, have a good time?" she asked "uh.. yeah sure" I responded still a little dazed from what just happened, selena looked at me funny "you alright?" she asked, I looked up at her "if I tell you something, will you promise not to tell anyone?" I asked "yeah, of course, why? whats going on?" - "I almost kissed him" her eyes widened and a huge smile came onto her face "almost? why didn't you?" she asked "I can't! It's wrong, we're from two totally different worlds! And with everything that's happened, the last thing I need is a relationship" I spoke "miles, I'm almost positive you can handle a relationship right now. Thats actually the best thing for you right now, for you to let go a little, let your mind focus on other things for now" she responded "but i dont want to let go sel! I can't let them go, its just too hard" I looked down "It's okay miles, you don't have to right now. But just make sure all of this wont make things awkward between you two, he seems like a really nice guy, Id really hate to see all this go down the toilet cause you two almost kissed. Thats just crazy. Act like it never happened, and if the opportunity comes up again, damnit just kiss him" I laughed and nodded "sure thing sel" I smiled and hugged her "so... how'd it happen?" I smiled and began telling her the story

The next morning

I woke up to my alarm beeping at me, got out of bed, took a shower, then headed off to school. The usual. When I got to school I went up to my friends' table "morning guys" I greeted them all "morning" they all replied back. Joe walked up to me and whispered in my ear from behind "can we just forget what happened yesterday?" he asked, i turned around and looked at him "what happened last night?" I replied and he smiled "perfect, so you want to come over and work on the project a little more tonight? Since the storm kinda stopped us last night" he asked "uh... I can't today. I've got... things to do" I lied, joe looked at me and nodded suspiciously "oooookay" he responded "how about you work on it for a little bit, Ill make it up to you. Promise" I tried "uh... sure, I guess" he responded and walked off. My friends walked up to me after listening to the whole conversation "what happened last night? Victoria asked "nothing" - "then why does he want you to forget it?" chelsea asked "I don't know" - "yes you do" nicole spoke "just tell us!" Debby spoke "I-I can't" - "why not?" chelsea asked "because of the reason he wants ME to forget it, so no one else finds out" I responded "oh my god, you fucked him didnt you?" - "NO!" I quickly responded "foreplay?" - "no" - "wait, did you kiss him" Nicole asked, I stayed silent and looked down "oh my god! you did!" - "Almost! but I backed away" I quickly put in "almost? why didn't you?" I sighed, I already went through all of this with selena "because we werent supposed to! were just partners on a project. none of this was supposed to happen!" I spoke frustrated "what? that doesnt mean-" debby started "I know, that doesn't mean I'm not supposed to, and the next time the opportunity comes up just do it. I know, ive heard it all from sel" they all stayed silent "If anyone finds out I'm coming after all of you, because I KNOW selena wouldn't say anything" - "we won't" they all replied I nodded and walked off to the breakfast line, I can already tell todays gonna be a long day.

At lunch

I was walking out of the school to go get some lunch when joe ran up in front of me "did you tell your friends?" - "what?" I asked surprised "about what happened last night, they've all been eyeing me like they knew" I looked down "I..." I began to speak and looked up at him "no" I said looking to my left "you're lieing" - I looked up at him "no I'm not" - "you looked to your left, which means you're lieing. look me in the eyes and tell me you didn't" I looked up into his eyes "I-I can't" he sighed and ran his fingers through his hair "what part of forgetting don't you get?" - "well if you hadn't walked up to me in front of all of them and said that, then they wouldn't of asked, which means I wouldn't of told them" - "so you did tell them" I rolled my eyes "I though we already figured this out, yes! I told them. but whats the big deal? I made the first move, so shouldn't it be ME who told YOU to forget all of this?" - "I went the rest of the way, so no" - "what's the deal, why are you so mad about all of this?" - "I didn't want anyone to find out" - why?" - "I don't know" I looked at him suspisiously "there must be a reason why you didnt want anyone to know" - "well theres not okay?" he almost yelled, I just stayed silent "fine, whatever" I spoke and began to walk away he sighed "wait" - "what?" I turned back around almost in tears "I'm sorry. Its just, if my friends found out they would be hounding me non stop" I sniffled "then why the hell are you friends with them?" - "they're cool around me, they're literally the best friends I've ever had, but when it comes to me around girls, they become different" I nodded "I see... different" I turned around letting a tear finally escape my eye "miley" he began "no, it's fine. I understand" I said walking away again "Miley stop, are you crying?" I stopped but didnt turn around "does it matter?" I sniffled and wiped a tear away, I could hear footsteps then I felt his hand on my arm turning me around, I kept my head down "Miley I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make you cry" he began "it's fine, don't worry about it" - "no it's not. I made you cry" he said wiping away one of my tears "shit happens" I spoke pulling away from his hand "I've got to go" - "let me walk you" - "no" I replied quickly "I just want to be alone right now" I said backing away from him, turning around, then walking away letting more tears fall. I walked out onto the bike trail that goes through the woods, once I got far enough away from the school I collapsed onto the ground and sobbed "I miss you so much mom, I really need you right now" I spoke and broke down. 20 minutes later I hadn't moved, all the emotions from my parents death came back to me, then all this shit happens and makes it worse. Depression finally kicked in. I got up off the ground and made my way back to the school knowing lunch was almost over. I walked back into the school my eyes still red and puffy from crying so much, I walked through the cafe with my head down but everyone still stared at me and I ignored them and kept on walking. I got up to my next period classroom before anyone else and just sat down and stared off into space.