So, I've been a bit blocked and this is what came out so don't hate me if it sucks lol. I hope you enjoy and please review!
"Sometimes love slips away. It runs to a place where we can no longer find it but we need it. We need it so bad it hurts but it just goes away and we don't know what to do anymore. Our lives become centered around this ideal of love and we strive for it but it never really strives for us. The worst part isn't never finding love. It's finding a love so simple that you never want it to end but you lose it anyway. It never comes back and it just hurts. The worst part is losing yourself to love and never finding who you are again because love just slipped away and it's just gone and so are you." Rachel sighed as she came to a stop in front of her next class.
"You miss her, huh?" Kurt asked sympathetically. He didn't care for their relationship, he did warn her, but he would rather them be together than hear her babbling on about it.
Rachel nodded her head solemnly. "Yeah, I thought it was getting better but then the weekend ended and now I have to see her in class, if she's even here."
"Oh, she's here. I heard about it in Adams Apples rehearsals. Apparently she's being a huge bitch and there's rumors going around that she's back on the juice." Kurt whispered conspiratorially, momentarily forgetting who he was talking to.
"Oh, um, I guess I should get going." Taking a deep breath Rachel pushed the door open and quietly put her things down.
"I've assigned partners so partner up! Schwimmer, take a seat. We're short today." Cassie barked from her position next to the mirrors.
"Great." Rachel mumbled and made her way over to a seat. Something's never change no matter how much you try.
Later that day.
Rachel sighed and plopped down on their beat up couch. "I thought love was supposed to be great. It's supposed to be like a fairytale that you tell to your kids and grandkids."
"I take it she hasn't come around?" Santana asked from her position in the kitchen.
"No!" Rachel yelled incredulously. "It's not even that she hasn't realized that she totally crazy, it's that she hasn't realized that bullying me isn't the way to go about life. If she doesn't want to see me that bad then she should talk to Carmen about getting me moved to another class."
"Well, maybe she does want to see you. Did you ever think about that? Maybe she loves you but she's scared. What if she doesn't know how to love and she's just waiting on you to make her love you." Santana suggested with a shrug.
Rachel huffed, she hated it when Santana was right but she'd be damned if she would admit it. "Then she should have talked to me about it instead of humiliating me. Maybe I should just give up. I'll get five cats and adopt a kid so I can tell them the stories of how their mother failed at love."
Santana scoffed and stirred whatever it was she was making. "Once upon a time, your mommy fell in love with a bunch of people and they all dumped me because I'm a clingy maniac. Yeah, great plan Berry."
"You're such a bitch!" Rachel spat back.
Santana giggled. "Whoa, kitty has claws! Seriously, just chill out. Love will come to you when it's ready. If you try to force it then you'll never be happy. It's like this chili; if I try to make it cook faster it won't taste nearly as good as it should. Just wait it out."
"When did you get so insightful and why are you making chili?" Rachel asked as she pulled herself off the couch to inspect the amazing smelling food.
"I've always been insightful. I just didn't give a damn before and I'm making chili because it taste great and it's cold outside. Want some?" Santana offered.
"Yes please." Rachel smiled sheepishly and held a bowl out in front of her.
"Just give it time." Santana told her as she filled the girl's bowl.
"I guess I just thought we would last but now she doesn't even talk to me unless she's insulting me and she doesn't even do that. I had this silly fantasy of growing old together and having kids and telling them the story of us but it's just a tragedy now. I don't know what to do anymore." Rachel said as she took the bowl and sat at the table.
"Like I said, just give it time. I was scared once. Don't you remember how badly I hurt Britt because I was so afraid of what was happening? I came around though and just because Britt and I aren't even together anymore doesn't mean that's how you and Cassandra will turn out. Just, stop thinking about it and eat some chili." Santana ordered as she took a bowl for herself. "Besides, you are a tragedy Rachel. At least your clothes got better."
