AN: Again I own nothing but Chyler! Sorry its so short covering old ground here so not as much is needed but it will get longer and thank you to my Beta!
7-7-07
Today is supposed to be lucky. I'm not so sure about that but what I am sure of and what I have learned is this love has the ability to free you and to chain you.
Leland is a great boyfriend funny easy to be with and laid back. I should be able to hold myself apart from John and love Leland deserves to be loved but I can't. John is there on the edges of my life. Always looking at me as though I've hurt him. I don't know how to fix things and our problems are still problems. I like Leland, he's sweet and thoughtful. He bought me stuff to sketch with, so my fashion line can be more than talk.
Chyler sat down with her sketch pad and pencils. She'd taken the aisle seat, John hated that. She smirked. He'd sit by her anyway. He sat down next to her.
"Brat." He muttered.
She laughed that bubbly sound he liked. She turned in her seat so she could face him. "Be still I'm going to sketch you."
"Haven't done that in awhile…"
"I miss it."
She started out shaping his eyes. That comfortable silence passed between them. Chyler sighed, finally able to relax a little.
"I know you hurt your shoulder at the house show last night, how is it?"
"Fine." He bit out.
"What crawled up your butt? I'm the one who can't sleep for shit."
"Why can't you sleep Pretty Baby?"
"Dreams…"
"About?"
"I'm drawing here…go back to shutting up."
He laughed. "Ok then."
8-15- 07
I should never go home. It only leads to hastily made and down right crappy marriage proposals and sex on pool tables…How the hell am I supposed to hide the felt burn on my ass that Le didn't put there? And another fucking thing: John suddenly decides he has to marry me. Which wouldn't be so bad if he hadn't asked me in a hotel hallway out of the blue and post coitally on a pool table come on now dude…Wwould some actual thought and maybe some flowers kill you? Plus he just confused the fuck out of me! He wanted the break, not me! I'm with someone else…God I can't do this…it has me all twisted up! Enough for now I'm getting a headache!
