I know, I know, sorry for the delay!!! It wasn't my fault, Internet died yesterday and it didn't come back until today, I had to call the phone service to get my Internet checked.

Ok, moving on... I'm listening to 'I'm Only Me When I'm With You' by Taylor Swift. If you think about it, it's rather funny cause I listen to both Taylor Swift and, for example, AC/DC, that would be 'Our Song' and 'Hell's Bells'... Yeah, I know, I'm a weird person.

I made more silly drawings of some characters, do you want to see them? :D I suck at drawing, that's a warning, but I may put them on my account in deviantart

Enjoy and review.


"You know what I'm starting to think?" I said as we walked outside that room through the wall, but she just ignored me "Never drive faster than your guardian angel can fly."

"Why, aren't you having a nice time with me?" she smiled evily and then looked away again.

"I knew he was trash" I mumbled.

"He's not" Joanna said "His soul is cleaner than yours. If you judge people, you have no time to love them."

"Well, he certainly had time loving all of the girls he wanted."

"He just wanted sex, just like you did. Weren't you like him too? You thought about it, I heard you, and I know it anyway, I know all about you. You can't hate someone who was just like you were without hating yourself"

"I don't hate myself"

"You will when we are finished with this..."

She stopped walking and pointed to my left. I turned around and saw myself alone in a dark corner, his hand on his pocket. He took out something I couldn't see and then put it on his mouth.

"What did I put on my mouth?" I asked Joanna.

"More painkiller. You are getting addicted"

"No... I used them because I had something on my leg..." I remembered the walking-stick... No way I was addicted to painkillers, I was smarter than that.

"You don't need them anymore... Your mind does... Come on, I want to show you something else before we go"

I just followed her without really paying attention to anything else, I was thinking about a lot of things; I hated Lewis, I hated Harry, I hated Cecilia, right now I was mad at my mother, Tom was going to have to move because of me and Vicky wasn't too happy about that, my sister was still crying in another room and I was starting to develop an addiction. Ok, things could be better... I was not going to feel guilty about this, she was not going to break me, I was convinced this was not my fault, none of these would had happened if it wasn't for Harry and Cecilia, they were the ones who should be seeing all these things, not me.

When I looked up, I was Lewis sitting in the floor, in the middle of the altar, sorrounded by two guys with fancy suits and two girls that were wearing the same dress, which had to be my sister's bridesmaids. I knew one of them, that was Grace, the one who told Vicky about Lewis' huge mistake. My sister had introduced us a long time ago and I'd almost slept with her, but Tom kept me from doing that because he didn't want to be left alone between all the girls...Coward. Anyway, I was glad he did because that girl talks nothing but about herself, her ego was bigger than her head and I didn't have enough patience for a girl like that.

"I still don't understand" Lewis said, his voice trembling a lttle bit, his eyes full of tears "What happened? Nobody has told me anything!"

"It'll be alright, Lewis" one of the groomsmen said "You'll fix this"

"Fix this? How can I fix something unknown? I've been waiting for about two hours here! Why isn't she here? Do you think she may have changed her mind about us?"

"Or there's somebody else involved, if you know what I mean" the other groomsman said.

"No!" Grace said "She's not cheating on you, she'd never do that!"

"Then why aren't we already married by now?" Lewis ran his fingers through his hair and took a deep breath; I would have felt sorry for him if he wasn't such an idiot.

Grace and the other bridesmaid looked at each other for a moment and the tall guy caught their suspicious look.

"You know something, don't you? he said and the three of them were immediately looking at the two girls "I mean, you were with her before whatever happened, you must know and you have to tell us"

"I think it may have being my fault..." Grace said.

Lewis stood up and got a bit closer to her, his eyes wild with fury. "What did you do?"

"I didn't think I would cause any trouble, I swear! I didn't think at all!"

"WHAT DID YOU DO!!??" Lewis shouted, causing both girls to jump surprised.

"Lewis, calm down" one of the boys said.

"I kind of told her you had a crush on me first" Grace said very quickly "You know, when we first met"

"What? I've never had a crush on you!"

"Yes, you did! You said 'hello, why don't you tell me your name, I'll buy you a couple of drinks and then we can go to your table and talk for a while?' but I said no because I already had a date that night"

"Obviously you are too stupid and egocentric to understand what I was trying to do!" Lewis shouted furiously "I wanted you to take me to your table so I could talk to Vicky! I wasn't interesting in you at all! You blew me off so I had to find another way to get to her!"

"Oh, really? That's is kind of sweet" the other bridesmaid said.

"You have ruined my wedding just for that stupid missunderstanding!" Lewis seemed out of his mind. He looked at her for a moment, deep hate on his eyes, then turned around and left. I followed him as he ran through the hallways towards the room I'd seen earlier with Joanna. Danny, well me, but not me, was leaning against the door and he stared at Lewi with hate as soon as he saw him.

"What are you doing here?" Danny said without even trying to hide his anger.

"I need to talk to her" Lewis said "Please, Danny, let me see her"

"She's sleeping and we are leaving in a should do the same"

"I'm not leaving without her. Listen, everything is just a big missunderstanding, I can explain it"

"NO! Get the hell away from my family"

"You don't own her, she'sa big girl, let me in!"

"She's my sister and she's one's second choice"

Lewis tried to move him away from the door but Danny pushed him away and hit him on the face.

"That's for y sister, you are not ever going to hurt her again"

"I can fix this, please, I love her!"

"Well, she hates you, she told me she does not ever want to see you again, so do us all a favor abd get the hell away from here"

Lewis looked at him for a moment, secretly bedding him to let him see her at least one more time, but Danny's cold eyes showed no mercy.

"She really said that?" he mumbled.

"She did" Danny said.

"No, she didn't" I whispered then looked at Joanna "Hey, wait a minute, this is not fair, Grace is just so stupid, it was a mistake, he seems to deserve her"

"Love is your enemy and you'll keep the ones that are still a part of your life away from it if you can" Joanna said with Danny's same cold voice "There's nothing I can do"

Lewis let out some heavy tears in silence and I couldn't help feeling guilty and, somehow, it really was my fault. I watched him leave in silence, though I could here him sobbing. I, in a way, had ruined my sister's chance to get married, to be loved and to be hapy. I'd ruined her life.