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CHAPTER VII - NOT ROMEO, NOT JULIET

*two months later*

"Damn it !" Jules cursed silently when a plate fell to the floor and crashed into several pieces. She knelt down to pick it up when Sam came home.

"Hey Jules, I bought something for you ….ouch … you ok?" he asked when he saw crashed plate a drops of fresh blood on a floor.

"Yeah, I'm fine. The plate was wet and it slipped from my hand. I cut my finger while picking it up. "

Sam stepped closer to cupboard and took plaster from first aid kit. He poured with hydrogen peroxide her wound and taped it by plaster.

"It was unnecessary Dr House" she smirked "What have you got for me?"

Sam pull out tiny bag and gave it to surprised Jules. Inside she found golden pendant with flower ornaments and small shiny zircons

"I know that maybe it's too girly for you but…"

"I like it .Thank you, Sam. Besides I should have some girl's stuff " she said bitterly "Sit down, I almost finished dinner."

Jules went to the cutting board and began to slice the tomatoes. Along her way she took from fridge her favorite Molson Canadian Premium Lager. She opened it and took big sip of beer.

Sam sat on a chair behind the counter and looked at her. She was slicing quickly tomatoes, then cucumbers. Like a machine . She was dispassionately, mechanically cutting vegetables and tossing them into a bowl without saying a word.

"Can you pass me new one?" Jules lifted empty bottle

"I think you got enough Jules" . Rhythmic sound of slicing cucumbers stopped and hazelnut eyes were furiously looking at him.

"What it suppose to mean Sam? "

Sam sighed and trying to choose words well said:

"Lately , you are drinking a beer quite often. After every shift you are drinking four or more beers. I'm worried about you."

"Oh , so I can't relax a bit?" her eyes began to closely follow the words that came out of his mouth.

"It's just you have never been drinking so much…"

Her hand tightened on the knife shaft. She picked it up and hammered in lying on cutting board onion.

"So I'm an alcoholic in your belief" she began to quickly chop vegetable

"It's not like that Jules" Sam shook his head "since you miscarried ..…"

She stopped to slice. Her hand with knife hung in the air and she hissed:

"I know what you want to tell me Sam. I have told you that I'm ok. " she looked at him with cold eyes and began slowly and clearly to articulate each word "I .GOT. IT .OVER. WITH.!"

Sam grabbed her hand gently and said softly:

"You're not , Jules. We have never talked about it. You are …..shutting down inside of you. If you don't want to talk with me, talk with somebody else." he took from his pocket a business card "It is a very good psychiatrist. She's a woman. Just talk with her Jules, please…."

She shook her arm from his grip and took two steps back . Her eyes blazed with anger

"You're sending me to shrink? "

Jules lifted hand with knife and tossed it to sink. Metallic sound of a knife thrown into the sink was whirring in the air. She took off her apron and put on her green sweater:

"I've lost my appetite " she said and slammed the exit door


"Boss can we talk ? " Sam came to briefing room while Greg was preparing files for debrief.

Parker looked at his subordinate

"Sam has become an early bird " he said and smiled "Jules has a good influence on you . What do you want to talk about? You want some day off to take Jules out?""

Sam glanced at Greg with sadness and sighed

I would like to talk with you in such a case, Boss." Sam sat on a chair "Unfortunately this is not so easy, Boss."

Greg stopped browsing the schedule for coming shift and looked worried at Sam .

"What's going on Sam?"

Sam put his hands on his knees and folded his fingers together.

"It's just…I.. " Sam was struggling with himself and stabbed his gaze to the floor "I'm worried about Jules since she came back to team after miscarriage…"

Boss put his hand on Sam's shoulder and said

"You shouldn't have to worry about her . She passed her the psychological and physical tests with flying colors. Jules is extremely strong personality. She handle with situation that emerged …"

Sam lifted his eyes on Greg

"I don't think so, Boss. Her attitude at work is impeccable, I can see that but when she is going back home…Sam hung his voice unsteady."

Greg moved his chair closer to Sam's and sat next to him. Sam crossed his hands on neck and leaned his head back.

"Talk to me Sam. What's wrong?"

Sam rubbed his head and blurted out a torrent of words from his mouth.

"Jules, can't get over miscarriage. Since she left hospital she is different. She is doing mechanically her daily chores. We are not talking too much, not to mention about the sex. It's like she is building some solid shield around her."

Greg sighed and tried to comfort Sam:

"Sam, even that she is a perfect member of SRU team, she is also a woman. Jules is…."

Team one hot call, gear up Winnie's voice interrupted the conversation.

Team members ran out of the changing room.

"We will finish our talk after call, Sam" Greg lift up from chair.

"Winnie what do we have?" Ed asked

"Woman locked herself at indoor pool with a hostage. It's at Finley's mansion at Bluebottle street. I will keep informing you."


SUVs drove up to the driveway to the house where someone held hostage.

"Jules try to gather some information from neighbors , Ed, I want to have eyes there. Sam you are Sierra one. Swimming pool is surrounded by trees, but try to find the Sierra position."

"Copy that" team spread out to their jobs.

"Boss we got eyes."

On the swimming pool blond woman was holding a gun . She was gesticulating and shouting at a man tied to a chair.

"Boss, I found a man saying that woman's name is Julia Wilkinson ."

"Good work Jules, Spike try to fish out some information about that woman." Greg had coordinated the actions "and connect me with the phone in the pool. Ed try to approach her as close as possible but that remain unnoticed. "

"Boss" Spike said "I think it's personal thing. A week ago Julia's daughter drown in Finley's pool. According to the testimony of Martin Finley , his daughter and Samantha Wilkinson were playing in the garden. He went to get ice cream for the girls and when he back Samantha was gone. His daughter told him that she went to swimming pool. Martin found her at the bottom of swimming pool. Girl could not be saved. Her funeral was yesterday."

"What about husband of Julia?" Greg asked

"Died in Iraq last month . He was a soldier and he was shot by terrorists. "

Greg took off his cap and rubbed his bald head. He picked up the phone and rang to the pool.

Parker had seen that she was struggling with herself to pick up the phone . After few rings she picked it up.

"Mrs Wilkinson, thank you for answering the phone. My name is Greg Parker and I am from Strategic Response Unit. Can we talk?"

Boss was observing the pool area in the preview monitor. Woman was definitely unstable emotionally.

"Go away! You don't understand what he had done to me!" She shouted

"Julia, can you explain me why…."

"What for? You're man , you won't understand what I feel! You will be defending him!" She yelled and threw the phone into the water.

"Boss I got a solution" Sam whispered

"Let me talk to her Boss" Jules asked "She don't want to talk with man, she is in pain now. Let me try to talk with her. I can do it Boss. I can make a connection."

Boss glanced at Jules and responded:

"Fine, just be careful. She lost her husband and daughter. She has nothing to loose now. Ed cover her."

Jules nodded and ran towards the swimming pool.

"Julia , hi can we talk " Jules softly asked crying woman .

"Who are you? Go away!"

"My name is Jules Callaghan and I'm here to help you. Can we just talk?"

Blond woman looked in truthful eyes of Jules and said.

"Ok, but he has to go out" Julia pointed his finger at Ed standing behind Jules.

Jules nodded to Ed to pull back behind the door.

"Julia I did what you asked for can You lower your weapon please?"

Woman lowered the gun barrel down.

"Thank You. Now, can you tell me why you tied this man and want to hurt him?"

"He killed my daughter! He let her to die in this cold water. He deserve to die!" her hands were shaking.

"Julia it was an accident.."

"Do you have children Jules?" Mrs Wilkinson inquired

Jules heart froze. She felt how cold sweat drops appear to her forehead.

"No, I don't have." she responded sadly

"So you have no idea what I am talking about. I lost my husband, now I lost my..our daughter. When my husband was leaving on a mission to Iraq, I promised Samuel that I would take care of our daughter for the two of us… And I let him down" Julia raised her weapon

'Jules she is escalating' Boss said worried

'I got the solution' Sam confirmed

'Boss, I can do it. Give few more moments' Jules asked

'Fine Jules, but if she will escalate more Sam is on the position. He's got Scorpio but it's you call Jules.'

'Thanks Boss' she whispered

"Julia you don't let him down, it was an accident" Jules turned to Julia

"It wasn't an accident. He shouldn't leave girls alone. He should had an eye on my Sammy, he should lock the door to swimming pool. He deserves to die! Besides " Mrs Wilkinson looked at Jules waving with loaded gun "there's no point for me to explain all of this to you. You don't understand me…You just don't know what is the feeling when you are loosing your baby!"

"Actually I do Julia!" Jules raised her voice a bit "Look at me Julia. Look at me."Jules pulled out from her pocket small black and white photo of an ultrasound. "I lost child as well . I have miscarried two months ago so I know how it is to feel emptiness in heart .Look at this. I'm not lying to you. There's my name on it…"

Julia lowered her weapon and looked at Jules photo.

'Jules you are getting too personal on it' Greg whispered silently

"Can you release Martin please Julia. He has a daughter waiting for him" Jules asked using of Julia's calm moment. "We can talk just between ourselves. My almost got the same names and we both love men that are named Sam. Julia please, will you release Martin?"

Julia has nodded and stepped back from chair. Jules untied shocked Martin and passed him to Raf. When she turned around Julia had directed gun to her own head

"I have nothing left…nowhere to go… " Julia was sobbing

"Julia , listen to me!" Jules said "I know what you feel..."

"No,no, no… " Mrs Wilkinson was shaking her head "You have job, man….you will have more children with him. My Sam is dead"

"Let me tell you something Julia. You're wrong. Miscarriage was my fault. I should earlier got to know that I'm pregnant. I should have stayed in truck while that call. But I didn't. And I lost my child. Every time I woke in the morning I am hoping that miscarriage was just a bad dream. But it wasn't." Jules was crying "You know what is the worst thing Julia? The fact that I have to admit to myself that Sam's father was right. I can't be perfect woman for Sam. I'm not feminine enough. We may make a good team together but I can't be ideal woman for him. If my body could not keep this pregnancy I'm not worth Sam's feeling. I feel so worthless…"

'Jules…' Sam's voice could be heard in headset.

"Julia, you can go to your daughter grave, and I have nothing more but this one ultrasound photo . " Jules was continuing her confession crying "Please Julia, give me the gun.."

Julia was staring at SRU officer that was shaking and crying. They both were in pain. She passed the gun to Jules and hugged her.

"I'm so sorry … " she whispered to Jules ear.

Ed came closer and took Mrs Wilkinson . Jules sat on a chair and was staring at ultrasound photo. After few moments she felt hand on her shoulder. It was Greg. She wiped her cheeks wet with tears and said bitterly :

"I want to quit Boss."


"Jules , to briefing room ! " Ed yelled at Jules that almost ran to her changing room. Winnie and Donna looked shocked at returning from call Team One.

"I said I'm fed up of it ! " she shout back .

Ed and Raf grabbed her by her legs and arms and carried her to briefing room

"Don't disturb us" Greg said to Winnie and closed the door to briefing room .

Everyone gathered around Jules. Only Sam was standing by the door. He was still under the influence of Jules confession.

"I don't want to be a part of this team. I am the weakest link, I allowed to my feelings affect on me" she was sitting on a chair helplessly "I can't be trusted anymore"

"Jules , you are heart of this team." Greg said softly

"Oh, come on Boss " she smirked bitterly "You know that I shouldn't have show my personal life during call..."

"Jules , you saved them both " Spike said "You're the best.."

"Spike, thanks but I'm way from being best. I'm flawed member of this team. You are putting your life in my hands. I just can't let to all of you to risk your life."

"Jules" Ed leaned to Jules "I know you are in pain after miscarriage. You know you can always talk to Sophie..."

Jules looked at Ed and said : "I know but it's just …"

"Jules, why you didn't tell me all of this earlier?" Sam said the first time since team left the mansion. "About your feelings? About General thoughts? Why?"

Silence remained in briefing room . It was so quiet that almost you could heart heartbeats of everyone.

"Would it change something?" she replied "It's not gonna go away Sam. This emptiness in my heart. Disappointment of myself. I can't do this anymore."

Sam couldn't say a sound. The words stuck in his throat

Jules stood up and put her gun and badge on table .

"Jules, I won't give you up that easy. We all don't " Greg looked at Jules "Take two weeks off. Think about it."

"It doesn't change anything Boss" she said "I won't come back."

"Think about it. " Parker suggested "I will put on your behalf papers for vacation. When they will expire, you will decide what to do."

"Fine" Jules rolled her eyes and walked to door

When she was passing Sam he grabbed her hand

"Jules, please don't go" his voice was almost begging "Marry me Jules..."


A/N : All I can say now is TBC :)