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Still Alive but I'm Barely Breathing ( A Nick Jonas Story)
Recap
(Romola's P.O.V)
" listen you don't have to be sorry about anything. I'm glad you told me and remember nothing was your fault." nick said. Wow he is amazing I'm really happy I have him. He so sweet and kind and he protects me. Every time Taylor bothers me he is always there to save me. I didn't even notice how beautiful his eyes are. He's so-so cute! Before I know it I start leaning in and he is to. We get closer and closer and….
(Nick's P.O.V)
I start leaning in too. I want to kiss her so bad! but I cant. Nothing good will come from us being more then friends. I never been this open with someone before, I mean I like it but I'm afraid at the same time to be too open. I back away from Romola trying to control this strong urge I'm feeling.
"Did you love him?" I ask trying to change the subject quickly.
"Um yes I did, I honestly did" Romola replied.
" Do you believe he loved you?"
"Well I think so, I mean everytime he would do something he would
always feel so bad and beg for my forgiveness but who knows that could have been an act" she replied
" I don't believe it was an act" I say
"What do you mean?" she questions
"Well I mean look at you, your very pretty and nice and smart. If it wasnt for me you would probably be one of the popular girls in school. What's not to like ? He just needed help"I say to her. I cant believe I just confessed all that. Romola just sits there staring at me for a couple of seconds which is making me feel like I should'nt have said anything.
"You really think all those things? And I dont care about being popular and in fact I dont even want to. Those girls are mean and superficial. I'd rather be with you than be "popular". she said smiling at me.
"Yeah I do think all those things and thats the one thing I dont understand about you" I said
"What?" Romola asked
" Why are you the only one that can stand to be around me?" I asked her.
"Nick your not a bad person or anything, frankly I have no idea why you dont have a ton of friends. There's nothing wrong with you at all. That's the thing I dont understand about everyone else" she says back to me while staring into my eyes. Uh-Oh here comes that feeling again. The feeling of wanting to kiss her. I'd better get out of here before I do something that's going to complicate my life even more than it already is. I look at my watch and see that it's getting late.
"I should go, its getting late" I say reluctantly
"Oh ok maybe we can hang out again tomorrow?" she says
"Yeah tomorrow! Thats sounds good" I says eagerly
" Ok how about I'll call you tonight with details?" she says
"Sounds good" I say halfway out the door
"Bye Nick" she says. Then I feel her arms around my neck as I wrap my arms around her waist, she then gives me a kick peck on my cheek. After that I could feel myself blushing as I leave her doorstep.
(Romola's P.O.V)
Wow Nick and I really connected tonight! I think I'm falling for him. I mean when we almost kissed ...almost. Man I really wanted to kiss him but he seemed like he kinda didnt want to. Maybe he just thinks of me as a friend? Either way I knew before he left I had to kiss him somehow even if it was only on the cheek. Nick is so sweet and he thinks I'm pretty and smart! I couldnt believe he thought all that about me. I really am starting to like him, I hope he is feeling the same things I'm feeling. Well I'll find out soon because tomorrow if he can come over again no one is going to be home so maybe if tomorrow goes like today did we will kiss.
(Nick's P.O.V)
I just got back from Romola's house. Thankfully no one is home yet so I can slip silently into my room without being bothered tonight. Hopefully Joe and Kevin go out again so I can go over to Romola's house. I love not having to be home alone while they go out all night and drink then the whole night I'm thinking about what there going to do to me the next day. well It's 10:00 not that late but I'm getting tired. I think I'll go to sleep until Romola calls me with tomorrows plans.
(12am)
I am awoken by a loud door slam which causes me to jump. I can hear kevin from downstairs talking to Joe very loudly or should I say singing like idiots.
"It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I neeeddd you noowww" Kevin and Joe both sing and I can tell they are drunk but I cant help but laugh at their stupidity.
"Dudee, man ,Buddy umm K-Kevviinn I just um just wanted to say that I -I nnneeedd yoouu nnoow I dont know where I am." Joe slurs
"Its okkay bro bro I'm righht here standing to your sidee" Kevin manages to say while laughing
"WTF? Are these?" Joe says while pointing to the stairs
"No no those are good their on our side. They make...uh help us to move to the topp parrt of ...tthe houssse." Kevin says
" I dont trust em!" Joe said
"Heeyy Jooe? Wheres our-our little Nickkyy poo" Kevin slurs.
"I dont knnow Keevin lets go and try to um try to haha find hiim" Joe manages to say. Crap! I thought I was safe tonight. I get back into bed and try to pretend im sleeping but as I cover myself I see Romola's bracelet on the floor. How did it get here? Damn I never gave it back to her after I picked it up from her room. Right as I go on the floor to pick it up Kevin and Joe burst through the door.
"WHY ARENT YOU IN BED!" Kevin screams
"OOO what is this you have here" Joe says and he grabs it out of my hand.
"You going to answer me ?" Kevin yells again
"I woke up when I heard the door" I say quietly
"Who's is this?" Joe says while holding the bracelet
"Umm I found it" I say thinking quick on my feet.
"He's lying!" Joe yells
"No I'm not!" I yell back. wrong choice should not have yelled
"Thats it your dead!" Kevin says while he grabs me by my shirt
"Wait! " Joe calls out
"What?" Kevin says
"There's a name on the bracelet" Joe says while examining the bracelet.
"R-o-mola? Who the F**k is Romola?" Kevin yells. Holy crap they can NOT find out who she is! What if they find her and hurt her? I cant let that happen
"I know you dont have a girlfriend. Who would want you, your damaged!You really think a girl would want someone who is an outcast ? Someone who is bruised and has scars? If any girl would be interested in you its probably because she thinks of you as a charity case, couldnt blame her though since that is what you are" Joe says. This is one of the rare times that Joe doesnt curse at me but this hurt me more than any name he could call me. He was right I am damaged. What girl would want to have to deal with that. I'm just a walking charity case, but Romola doesnt think this way she doesnt see me like that. She has scars too she knows how it feels to be hurt by someone thats is supposed to only give you love. She is the only one who understands.
"Well if he isnt going to answer I guess well just have to have some fun with him" Joe says while smirking. Kevin grabs my shirt and take me into his room with Joe following right behind us. I get thrown onto the bed , Joe gets ontop of me and starts punching me in my stomach and arms. While I'm getting the crap beaten out of me I see Kevin fumbiling in his draw to find something. Once Joe stops punching me I can see clearly what Kevin has in his hand and its a ...a knife? Is he really going to use a knife? Am I going to die tonight? Kevin starts walking towards me with the knife and Joe is still holding me down. all I could do was lay there and wimper.
"So Joe what should we do ? " Kevin asks Joe
"Well Kevin maybe we should slice his throat?" Joe says while laughing
"Ouick and easy? Sounds good but maybe we should do something thats going to take more time" Kevin says , staring at me with devilish eyes.
"haha look how scared he is Kevin! Your such a F**ken p**sy" Joe taunts me
"Haha looks like we need to toughen him up" Kevin says as I feel the cold blade run across my throat. This is what I have always wanted. I have always said I wanted to die because it was my way out but now something was different. I dont want to die ...
Kevin quickly pulls the knife away as Joe gives me one more punch in my stomach then throws me into the hallway. I crawl to the bathroom because that last punch was the worst one and I started coughing up some blood. After I clean myself up a little I decide I cannot stay in this house anymore. Kevin almost used a knife on me! Maybe next time he'll really use it and I can not take that chance.
