Ch. 7 A Painful experience
Kaylee's POV
Carlisle said that he was hurrying and would be right over. He told me to stay where I was. Like I could go anywhere I said to myself. I was still in the same position I had been before I called him. The only difference was that I was now on my side lying on the floor. It was becoming harder and harder to breathe. Ok Kaylee in…and out… In and out… I kept chanting to myself. It made it a little easier to breathe, but only a little.
I started to count the seconds by my unsteady breathes just so I could get my mind of the unbearable pain that was shooting through my body. After 167 "seconds" I heard Carlisle open the door downstairs.
"Kaylee! Sweetie where are you?" His voice sounded a little less than frantic. I didn't know if I had the strength to respond because all that came out was a very non-verbal ugggghh. Which no person would be able to hear let alone understand.
But to my dismay he did hear it from the fact that not even thirty seconds went by from the moment he called out for me to now with him looking down at me with the most concerned eyes I have ever seen. I wanted to tell him that I was fine, but at the exact moment that I tried to talk another sharp pain filled my whole body. I scrunched up my face from keep from screaming out in pain. I am not weak. I am not weak. I have felt worse. This is not as bad as before. And in truth it wasn't the worse pain I have ever felt because of my illness. Not the worse by far. But it still made the list of my most painful memories.
There was something different about this pain. There was the usual pain that I was accustomed to recognizing but then there was something more. It was almost as if there was this pull at my heart. A pull that didn't hurt per say but defiantly did not feel right. For some reason Jared's faced popped in my mind. No I was not missing him. That's ridiculous Kaylee. I scolded myself for even thinking that.
But while Carlisle poked and prodded me all I could think of to get my mind of the sharp pains the needles made in my skin and the pain that was inside of me was Jared. For some odd mystical reason when I pictured his face the pain cause from the sickness became less noticeable. It didn't go away but it was no longer the pain my brain was focused on. Whenever I thought of Jared the other pain that I couldn't name was on the forefront. It consumed me. If he was here I wouldn't hurt so badly. Him staying away is hurting me.
I sucked in a shocked breathe when I thought that. What was wrong with me? Was I going crazy now from the consent pain? On top of dying and always being lonely and in pain, now I had to go crazy too. Well great why not?
"Kaylee, how are you feeling? I gave you some morphine for the pain but I would like to take you back to my house where I have some emergency equipment set up so I can have a better look at you. I think it would be unwise if I just left you here."
I barely had the state of mind to respond but with the pain lessening I found I could respond. So I quickly said before I feel off into a state of half asleep "That would be for the best." I gave him a weak smile to try to encourage him that I was fine.
"Where are your parents Kaylee?" I racked my brain for an answer I know they told me they were going somewhere but where?
"Out." Was all I could say, he nodded and said that he would call them and tell them where I was going on the way over to his house. He then picked me up and then picked up his bag in a fairly easy motion. I was shocked. He didn't seem strong enough to carry me like this.
I was starting to feel too tired to actually care, but there was one question I wanted to ask. "Carlisle?"
He looked down on me with an amused expression on his face, probably because I was still fighting to stay awake. "Yes Kaylee?"
"Will Edward and the rest of you family be there?" Carlisle always chatted about his family and I was always eager to meet them. I told him that several times, and every time he asked if I would like to come over and meet them. I had wanted to so bad, even more so after I found out that he had an adopted daughter named Alice who was only a little older than myself. But each time when he offered I told him no. He had asked me why the first couple of times but since my answer was always the same he stopped asking.
"Yes Kaylee they will be. You can finally meet my family. I knew Alice is excited to meet you." He smiled down at me. He had told me several times how Alice and I would get along so well. Two peas in a pod he said.
"Until she learns that I am going to die." I said coldly. That was the reason I never actually meet his family. I didn't want to become attached to someone again while knowing my time was short. I knew that most people didn't care. I also knew if Carlisle's family was anything like him, which they were by the way Edward had treated me the one time I met him, that they wouldn't treat me any differently but I still couldn't will myself to cause that kind of pain to someone. No one ever wanted to lose someone they cared for, and anyone who cared for me would have to go through that pain.
I already hated myself for causing this pain on my friends back home, on my parents, on Carlisle who so desperately wanted to save me, on Edward who barely knew me, and to Jared and Paul who for some god forsaken reason felt the need to plant themselves into my life, and I even after staying away from people for so long felt drawn to the both. I felt like I had no choice than to be close to them. Mostly Jared… I mean Paul… Oh jeese Kaylee on top of the drama of dying you are mixing in boy drama too. Why the hell not. Might as well make it interesting.
I heard a sigh and looked up through drooping eyelids to see Carlisle smiling sadly down at me. "Kaylee they will love you and you need not to worry I still believe and so does Edward that you will live. Now please stop fighting the medicine and sleep you will feel better soon." I didn't have much of a choice because just then Carlisle placed me in the car and faster than I thought possible he started driving. Soon the sound of car's purring engine and the help of the powerful drugs he gave me knocked me out cold.
Jared's POV
I told Paul the truth. We would be close again and soon. He was going to phase any day now. I was sure seeing me today was going to push him over the edge. He even started shaking but then we heard Kaylee sigh in her sleep and he looked up to where she was sleeping and bam he was fine. I walked away after that. I hated that my best friend ex-best friend for the moment had a crush on my imprint. She was mine…
Just think about how Paul would leave her heartbroken if given the chance had me shaking so bad that I phased again not twenty yards from Kaylee's house. I instantly heard Sam's "inner" voice and he was focused on what had happened in the last fifteen-ish minutes that I had been with Kaylee and Paul.
After he had seen everything I suspected him to say something but he was thoughtful which was by far worse.
Oh come on Sam let me have it. I practically begged him. I bet you tell me in the next I dunno thirty seconds?
How many times do I have to tell you Jared, I am never going to bet anything with you, I need to talk to you come on over to Emily's. I grunted a replay and started running through the woods to her house when out of know where pain raced through my body. To say I was scared shitless was an understatement.
Uh Sam, what the hell is happening to me? I was grateful that he had yet to phase because if I was alone I think I might have gone insane.
Jared I need you to calm down and run as fast as you can to Emily's so I can figure out what's wrong with you alright? I told him ok and ran the last mile or so to Emily's I phased and pulled on my cutoffs quickly. The pain was far worse in human form and I found myself lying on the forest floor. I was having hard time breathing. I might have been able to deal with the pain while I was a wolf but the moment I turned back into the human me there was this new type of pain that I didn't have as a wolf. The other pain wasn't gone but it was not the pain my brain focused the most on. My brain and my body only really focused on this new much more annoying pain. It didn't hurt the way the other pain does but it still hurt.
I closed my eyes and started trying to get my breathing back to normal. All I could for some reason think about was Kaylee, he face just kept popping up in my mind. No matter how many times I pushed it away it still came back. Each time it came back it brought a fresh new wave of the new pain with it.
This pain seemed to surround my heart. It was constricting it making it hard to not just breathe but almost hard for it to even beat. I was more than relieved when I heard Sam's feet rushing to help me.
"Jared!" His voice was full of concern. I could tell even without opening my eyes that he was checking to see if I had any visible vampire bit marks that would kill me on my flesh.
"Sam… I n-n-need,"
"Jared what?" I looked up to him and I instantly knew what to say without knowing why,
"Kaylee." I soon as I said her name the pain got a little stronger. Just like every time I heard her laugh or saw her face in my mind. "Sam I don't know what's happening to me." My voice was barely a whisper. I was grateful though that the second pain that I had felt first was lessening but barely.
Sam helped me up and all but carried me into the couch in Emily's living room. I saw her rush into the room take on look and me and Sam her eyes and face even the half that was scarred and ruined looked sad and knowing. The same way Sam's had looked the moment after I said Kaylee's name.
"What is wrong with me? You both know just tell me, and tell me how to make it st-!" My sentence got cut off because at that moment it felt like my stomach was getting cut open. I looked down and was expecting to see blood all over but nothing was there. I moved my already shaking hand and touched my abs. They felt fine they weren't tender to the touch like I thought.
Then out of know where again I felt the same pain like someone was fricken cutting me! I looked up at Sam and he looked back at me puzzled.
"Tell me what it is you feel exactly Jared." I took in a shaking breath and was thankful for the moment that some of the pain had gone away.
"It's hard to explain." I started but by the looks Sam was giving me he didn't care, I had best try to explain. "Ok… Um where do I begin…" I looked up Sam for help and I was shocked when Emily chimed in.
"When did the pain start dear?"
I took a sigh of relief now that I knew how to start I felt more confident in explaining what I felt. "Well it started right after I left Kaylee. I got really angry and I phased in the woods by her house. Sam told me he needed to talk to me and to come here as fast as I can…" I winced when I felt a less sharp pain in the inside of my right elbow.
"Anyways, I was running here when out of nowhere I got this almost sick feeling not a "I am going to throw up sick" but more of a "something bad is going to happen" feeling… Does that make sense?" They both nodded so I continued.
"Then it turned into one of the worst pains I have ever felt. The only thing that could even compare and even that doesn't even come close was the days before I first changed. It felt like and still feels like but it is less strong now, but it feels as if my whole body is fighting itself. It is as if my brain has shut off and my body no longer knows what to do with itself so it's going catatonic. I feel like each part of my insides is slowly dying. Some parts feel as if they are twisting so tight that they may burst and other feel like acid has been dripped on them. It just feels so terrible. I still don't even know what the second pain is." I shut my eyes and let out a little whimper when I felt a sharp jolt get sent into my body.
"That just looked like someone shocked you Jared. Is that what it felt like?" It happened to my times then some more of the pain faded.
"Yea exactly like someone shocked me." Emily looked from me to Sam then back to me.
"Jared sweetie what did the second pain feel like?" That was both easier and harder to explain. Easier because I believed I knew what caused it and harder because it made no sense to feel this way.
"Well it sort of changed but still stayed the same." I tried to explain. Emily sat by my side and grabbed my hand and looked at me with the kindest eyes and said, go on.
I shut my eyes and began. "Well it started right after I phased back from a wolf into me. The wolf only felt the pain but even that was amplified as a human. Plus this new pain came too." I reached my hand into my hair and pulled at it lightly to get some of my frustration out.
"It was weird. At first I thought to first pain was worse but then my brain would not focus on that pain but instead it focused on the second pain. It was centered almost on my heart. It made it harder to breathe and as dumb as this will sound made it harder it seemed for my heart to beat. Every time I would picture Kaylee or hear her laugh in my mind it would get worse. This part of my mind wanted me to get up and find her no matter what. I wanted to find her and make sure she was safe and ok. For some reason I felt that what was happening to me was because of her. I can't explain it." I sighed not only was I tired from the pain that was no mostly gone other than the fact that I still felt like I needed to make sure Kaylee was ok, I was now also tired for the amount of talking I had done.
I wasn't shy or quite but I mostly just said a sentence or two here and there. Never as much at one time that I did now. It really made me tired. I opened my eyes to look at both Sam and Emily and to see what they were thinking about my "pains". I was almost positive they would look either worried for me or calm because they already knew what was happening to me. What I didn't expect was the look of pure terror in their eyes.
"Um I'm not going to d-die ri-ight?" I couldn't help but stutter through my sentence the look they both had was enough for me to doubt that I would live the rest of today.
"You ah should be fine. Did the pain around your chest go away? The pain that centered around Kaylee I mean?"
I looked at him wondering why that was the first question he asked but then I replied shocked, "Um pretty much I still feel like I want to see if she is ok but it feels more like it did when I was avoiding her. Like a pull towards her, it only a little stronger than that."
Sam shook his head looking very relieved then asked "And the other more painful feelings are they gone too?" I nodded a yes. They went all the way away, I was relieved.
"Are you going to tell me what happened to me?" I asked almost rude. I was cranky after all that pain.
"I don't think I have the answer you are looking for. All I can say is that I believe you were indeed channeling the same pain Kaylee was feeling. Being her imprint you can do that. It helps let you know when she is hurting. I don't understand why Kaylee would go through such pain but I do believe she knows why because if she didn't you would have also felt her being scared. Did you feel scared?"
"I uh at first did but then almost felt as if I was at peace with it. I thought I was going crazy or something because I was scared but I didn't feel like it."
Sam nodded his head, "It looks as if Kaylee is ok for now. I suggest that you go see her tomorrow. For now go home and get some rest. You don't have the energy to run patrols so I'll pick up your shift this one time. Jared I will warn you that you might feel this again. If you do don't hesitate to act on it and make sure Kaylee is ok. Do you understand? I know you do not like being imprinted with someone but the universe put you to together for a reason and if she gets hurt because you were to stubborn to act on something that is a pure as the air you breathe trust me when I say you will never forgive yourself."
I could tell Sam was being dead serious. He didn't take imprinting lightly and I knew he resented me a little bit for hating that I had been magically chosen to be Kaylee's lap dog. I mean granted it could be with someone far worse. She was so beautiful and her eyes just held so much emotion, and her lips were so… ok enough Jared. You will look after her but that doesn't mean that you have to be with her. Plus it looks like she likes Paul far more than she likes you. Get over it.
"Fine Sam I'll look after her. I am going home. Thanks for taking care of me both of you." I smiled fondly at Emily she really was like a second mother to me. "I'll be back tomorrow for breakfast and I'll do patrols all day to Sam if you want."
"No its fine there haven't been any vampires since the Cullen's so I think we will be safe if we just ran normal patrols. No need for us both to be too tired if something bad did happen.
"Alright. Then I guess I will see you guys later. And um thanks again." I smiled and waved to them I began to walk away when out of nowhere Sam stepped in front of me and said,
"I have told you this before Jared and this will be the last time I warn you, staying away from Kaylee will hurt. That is what the second pain you felt was. Your wolf most likely felt it mixed in with the pain. The longer you stay away from her the more you and the wolf will feel it. I am telling you this not to try to play match maker. I know how you feel about being destined to be with her but you need to know that the pain of an imprint does go both ways. She needs you too Jared, don't forget that. You are hurting both you and her by staying away from her."
I got angry when he said that so like any teenage werewolf I screamed back at him, "It's not like she has made any effort at all to see me! She is too busy hanging out with Paul! Who am I to try harder than her!" I was fuming and I know that Sam didn't deserve me to yell at him especially after him and Emily just got done taking care of me but I couldn't help it. I did want to talk to Kaylee but I just figured all she cared about was Paul. Girls always look at Paul before they look at me.
"Jared," Sam's voice was weary he hated it when I phased in his house. It has only happened twice but the damage was terrible. I took a deep breathe to attempt to calm down. Then when Sam believed I was calm enough he began again.
"Jared, she is new to everything here on the reservation. I do not understand why you imprinted with someone who is not in our tribe but you did, and even if you did she still would not understand why all of the sudden you wanted to hang out and be by her side all the time. Kaylee is even more un- knowledgeable. She met Paul first ok, so she feels closer to him. But you are her soul mate Jared and deep inside her soul recognizes that even if her mind doesn't. You have to show her that you want her or she will be feeling this pain of loss and longing for no reason, it would be enough to drive her crazy." He chuckled trying to lighten the mood.
I will admit I hadn't thought it through that way and it made sense that she didn't see me that way because she didn't know I imprinted but her soul did which was a relief knowing that I would strike out if I tried.
"Ok Sam I'm sorry for um blowing up on you. I'll I guess uhm find Kaylee tomorrow and I guess ask her out or something. Your right I don't think I want to fight from this imprint anymore. Can I run by her house tonight though to make sure she's ok? I won't go in I'll just look."
Sam shook his head and I knew he was about to say no but then Emily came back into the room and said, "Sam do you remember how it felt when we tried to stay away from each other. It nearly killed us both. Let him just check on her. You know full well that he won't be able to sleep until he does."
Sam sighed and looked into her eyes with such love that it frightened me. Would Kaylee be able to make me change my mind whenever she felt like it just because she was my imprint? No I wouldn't let myself become like that. I couldn't. Kaylee would be fine without me. Imprint or no imprint I am not getting involved in her life. And besides she is only here for vacation so it's not like even if I did act on the imprint she wouldn't stay. Sam was about to respond but I beat him to it.
"Never mind Sam, I think I will just go home. If I feel that feeling again maybe I'll check on her then, but I still rather not be tied down to her. Well got to go bye guys." I quickly ran out of the house. I didn't want Sam to give me any Alpha orders to make me go and check on her. I was dead set on ignoring this imprint. I believed I was strong enough to stay away from Kaylee and I was sure that I was also strong enough that only I would feel the pain from it.
So there is the chapter. Hoped you all enjoyed it. Next Chapter will be full of Kaylee and the Cullens
There will also be some fun Kaylee and Paul scenes next chapter xD
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