A.N. I am soooo sorry! I have been so busy trying to get my other stories done that this one got pushed to the side… again. I feel really bad because you are all so awesome and I have gotten some great reviews. I am going to be putting the other story to the side and focusing on this one for now. Thanks for all the reviews!
Max P.O.V.
I had grown up in a lad with insane scientists that did painful tests on me and my family and yet I don't think my life could get any worse than it was now. I was currently sitting on the back porch of the Cullens house about to have "the talk" with my brother and sister. Ella looked slightly embarrassed while Iggy was just looking irritated.
"Ok, so first of all, do you both know what sex is?" I asked cautiously. I was really hoping they did because otherwise it would be even more awkward. Apparently luck was on my side because they both nodded.
"Ok then, that's helpful. The main thing I want to get across is that you should not have sex before you are married to someone. Your virginity is a very special thing that should not be given to just anyone. Plus, if you do have sex before marriage then you are risking countless diseases and heartbreak." I shut up, trying to be quick and to the point. I just wanted to get it over with. "Any questions?" I asked, hoping that they didn't have any.
Ella, whose face was now about the shade of a bright tomato, shook her head no. Iggy on the other hand grinned evilly. It seemed my luck had just about run out.
"Well, since you made us sit here just so you could tell us that, I figure I will make it worth the while, so yes, I do have some questions." I resisted the urge to groan as I mentally prepared myself for the onslaught of pointless questions I was about to get.
"If you must Iggy, then go ahead." I grumbled. He just grinned before speaking.
"So Max, does it hurt when a girl loses her virginity?" He asked, although by the look on his face I was pretty sure he already knew the answer.
"It will typically hurt a bit the first time because the hymen is being broken, but it is different for each girl." I was really starting to hate this.
"Hmmm, interesting. Let's see, does a girl get pregnant every time she has sex?" I could tell that he was having fun with this while Ella looked like she wanted to crawl in a hole and die.
"Not necessarily, if the males' sperm does not fertilize an egg then the girl will not become pregnant." I said calmly, trying to mask the inner turmoil I was feeling at the moment.
"That makes sense, but can a girl get pregnant during oral sex?" By the huge smirk on his face I was sure he knew the answer to this one too.
"No Iggy, a girl cannot get pregnant during oral sex." I mumbled, so not amused by this.
"That's good to know, now I just have one more question…. What's a boner?" Iggy was grinning and I heard Fang scoff, his form of a laugh.
I suddenly realized that Fang hadn't answered any questions yet. Now it was my turn to smile.
"You know what; I think that that would be the perfect question for Fang to answer." Both Iggy's and Ella's eyebrows shot up in shock. They had obviously not expected Fang to get involved. There was a short awkward silence as Fang tried to find the right words to explain it.
"Well… when a male is sexually aroused… umm… the penis prepares itself for sex by hardening." I could hear Fang let out a relieved breath of air. I was about to open my mouth to say something else when Iggy burst into hysterical laughter. Even Ella had a small grin on her face.
I waited until he calmed down before I continued. "I'm glad that you found that educational talk so amusing. Now, are we done?" I asked. I instantly regretted it when that same evil smirk came back across Iggy's face.
"Hmm, well, I just thought of one more question for the both of you…" I knew this was not going to be good.
"Ok, what is it Iggy?" He whispered something in Ella's ear before turning back to us. She now had that small grin back so it couldn't be that bad, could it?
"Have you two had sex yet?" He asked innocently. It was one of those moments where if I had been drinking soda it would have been spewed everywhere.
"No! Of course not, what would make you think that?" I practically shouted at him. He looked unfazed and just continued to smirk.
"I was just wondering, you don't have to get defensive. Did you know that many times, when someone gets defensive it is because they are lying?" I just stared dumbfounded and he and Ella stood up and began to walk away. Before they walked back inside, Iggy turned back to say one more thing.
"Thanks for the talk guys, I learned a lot." And with that, they walked away.
"I am never having kids." I mumbled under my breath and I could hear Fang chuckle.
Nothing else was said and we sat in silence for what seemed like forever. It wasn't an awkward silence, but I wouldn't consider it comfortable either. I finally made up my mind and broke the silence.
"I'm gonna go ahead and put everyone to bed, see you later." I mumbled before heading turning and heading inside without another word.
The house was surprisingly quiet but I could hear whispering upstairs. I sped up and hurried toward our room. What I saw when I got there shocked me. The kids, even Ella and Iggy, were already dressed for bed. What was even more surprising was finding Esme there talking to them and tucking them in. It was like Ann all over again!
I was the leader and had practically raised them since I was young, and then suddenly this woman, who should technically be the enemy, is putting my flock to bed. That did not set well with me.
"Hey Esme, thanks for putting them to bed but I can take it from here." I said with a fake smile. It had come out way harsher then I had meant but at the moment I couldn't find it in myself to care.
She turned to me and I could instantly tell she was a bit hurt but she quickly put on a smile and nodded politely before leaving the room without another word.
"Max, you know you don't have to be jealous, right? She was just trying to be helpful." Angel offered quietly, obviously noticing my irritation.
"Yes, I'm sure she was. And I'm sure she is just as nice and innocent as Ann was isn't she. You guys don't get it do you? We are being held here against our will! They are the bad guys! I don't need her doing my job." And with that I stormed out the door and down the steps.
Part of me knew that I was being irrational, but after everything that had happened with Ann, plus my over protectiveness of the flock, I couldn't find it in myself to care.
I made a beeline for the front door and was about to go out when Carlisle stopped me with a firm hand on my shoulder.
"You know I can't let you leave." He mumbled, just loud enough for me to hear. I just huffed before responding.
"It's not like I'm going to go anywhere, I just need to get some fresh air." I growled angrily, not in the mood to be disrupted.
He sighed and looked deep in concentration for a moment before hesitantly taking his hand off my shoulder.
"Just be careful Max." I didn't wait for him to say anything else before I stormed out the door and ran into the woods.
I suddenly realized that It probably would have been a lot easier to just jump out a window and fly away, so why didn't I? The answer to my question hit me like a ton of bricks. If I had just run off and disappeared, the Cullens would worry. Since when did I care about them?
I tried to convince myself that I did it so that the flock wouldn't worry but that was a load of bs. They were in bed, how would they even know? Plus, they would trust me to be careful and not do something stupid.
I quickly found a small clearing and took off into the sky. It felt good to spread my wings and fly freely. I would never take flying for granted.
I tried to think of anything and everything that had nothing to do with the Cullens. After about 45 minutes I was running out of things to think about and I found my mind wandering back to the Cullens more and more. With a deep sigh I grudgingly flew back to the meadow and landed.
I didn't want to go back to the house just yet so I quickly folded my wings and put my jacket back on before walking over and plopping down in the middle of the meadow.
I closed my eyes to rest for a moment but they sprung right back open when I heard quite rustling in the bushes. Human ears probably wouldn't have detected the sound but it was clear as day to me. I wasn't stupid and I knew that it wasn't an animal making the noise.
I was instantly on my feet glancing around frantically for the threat. I heard the rustling again and turned toward it to find Rosalie coming out of the woods. I let out a deep breath that I hadn't realized I was holding.
"You almost gave me a heart attack…" I mumbled before sitting back down. She hesitantly came over and sat beside me.
"I don't mean to bother and if you want me to go I can, I just wanted to talk to you for a sec." She seemed very tentative, as if I might attack any second. I just sighed and nodded, letting her know that I didn't mind.
"You know Esme didn't mean to make you mad, she just wanted to help." She mumbled, still cautious.
"It doesn't change the fact that I don't want her doing my job." I grumbled. There was a slight pause before Rosalie responded.
"She wasn't trying to do your job. She just loves kids so much. Sometimes I think she wants a kid more that I do. Before she was turned, she was pregnant… a baby boy. Being pregnant seemed to really bring out her motherly instincts. But she had a miscarriage, it tore her up. That day she went and jumped off a cliff. She didn't want to live anymore. Luckily Carlisle found her in time and was able to save her. They started a family together, and while Esme loves all of us and thinks of us as her children, it's not the same as having little kids, so having you and your family here has been great for her. I'm not saying that you have to let her get in your personal life or take care of your flock, I just wanted you to understand." Now I really felt bad.
Esme was sweet and kind and just wanted to help, but because I am selfish I couldn't see that and I ended up hurting her. I stood up to head home but I paused and turned to her.
"Thank you Rosalie, I can tell that you care about her a lot." And with that, I left. I had screwed up and it was time for me to fix my mistakes.
AN- Ok, so how was it? I really hope you liked it because I worked super hard on it. Anyway, I will try to update soon but it might not be for a while. I have been feeling really discouraged about my writing lately. I just don't feel like I am that great of a writer. I would really appreciate some honest reviews for this chapter. If it sucks then tell me! And if you like it then please let me know. And if you do review, then please write more than "I like it". Tell me what you like about it! Anyone who gives me a honest review (that is more than a few words) will get a preview of the next chapter so please review!
