No one's point of view.
As Edward ran at his full speed back to the house, he hadn't caught the glimpse of a large figure blocking his way, so instead he knocked into it
bouncing off the person - and landing on his ass.
"What the? --" Edward said, knocked out if his revere.
"You can't go in there" A familiar voice said, sternly.
"Emmett! Bella ! - she's in there. How is she? You have to let me see her"
The large man shook his head a look of pure determination on his face. While Emmett had only good intentions on sparing the feelings of his little sister
Edward wanted nothing more than to grovel at her feet - he wanted to get back the love he had once renounced.
"Edward, she's happy right now. Let her be; you'll only make her run off"
The piercing truth of his words stabbed through Edward's heart, but yet he still couldn't resist what his whole body and soul desired.
Every bone in him was dancing with joy his every limb was sparked in flames, and a feeling that he could not place flew through him. He decided to call the feeling
Happiness. For he had not felt it for over five years.
"Emmett? Are you out here?" A beautiful angelic voice called.
It was her voice, Bella's. Emmett watched Edward's face go from desperation to pure adoration.
Bella soon saw Edward's figure, stiff as stone as he stared at her his whole body crumpled and he dropped to his knees.
It took me all of five minutes to notice Emmett's sudden disappearance.
I walked outside wondrously, and mostly content. The whole family had taken me in there arms happily, they did not judge me on my past. In fact they actually
praised me for getting myself back together.
They knew perfectly well I was a twenty three year old, broke, ex- drug addict. And surprisingly they still loved me.
"Emmett? Are you out here?" I called out.
But suddenly , I stopped dead in my tracks - something felt so strange inside me. The tightening up of my chest, made me incapable of moving.
Was i simply being paranoid? The sudden adjustment that my eyes made to the dark, made me aware I was so not being paranoid.
There stood Edward Cullen - staring at me like a was a damn alien.
And abruptly he crumpled to his knees, staring helplessly at me. Like a lost little boy in a super market who just found his mother.
"Bella" He whispered, hoarsely. I had to say my dreams of him did no justice. he was more perfect and more beautiful than I had remembered.
He looked like a true angel, even in the clothes he wore - a tattered white shirt and loose stained jeans.
His eyes were pitch black. With blue, black circles around them. And yet including all that - he still looked like a God.
I bit my lip, contemplating what I should do. Without a doubt the old Bella would have fallen into his arms - weeping. Begging for him to take me back.
But the new Bella, was not that weak girl. I had been through enough to grow some thick skin - I had been beat up physically, mentally, verbally.
I've fucked, I've stolen, I spent weeks in jail, I've been disowned by my own mother. And yet what he did hurt me the most of all, now that's pathetic.
"Hello, Edward" I finally managed to say. He looked at me like I had just spoken a foreign language.
"Bella, love. I can't believe you're here. I've missed you so much. I --" His voice broke and faltered.
Immediately, he jumped to his feet, and glided towards me, looking dazed and confused.
I stared hard at his face as he lifted his left hand to caress my cheek. Involuntarily I felt a warm blush spread, where his cold fingers pressed.
His mouth opened, then closed. He repeated this same process twice over before words finally came out.
"I made the biggest mistake leaving you, i thought it would make your life better. But, I only made things worse. I was so stupid, so idiotic
to lie to you. I love you and I'll never forgive myself, but you have to know. I was thinking of you - every minute of everyday while I was gone"
Traitor tears made there way down my cheeks, and my first reaction was to slap his hand away. As i did so, his face portrayed all pain I felt when
he abandoned me - well he didn't necessarily abandon me - more or less dumped my ass in the middle of a drenched, dark forest.
But all the same, it still hurt.
I backed slowly away from him. Unable to pull off the charade i was hoping,
"I can't believe you!" I screeched, my voice was shaky and i felt on the verge of fainting. "How dare you tell me you love me , Because of
you my life is ruined! You fucking bastard!"
Before thinking, i smacked him hard across the face. Obviously, he didn't even flinch. But my right hand was now in writhling agony .
I fell to my knees, and covered my face with my hands - I would not let him see me cry over him, i wanted to keep my remaining dignity.
"You broke my heart" I whispered, tears still flowing freely from my eyes.
I didn't even want to think of how pathetic I seemed at this moment. It was too embarrassing of a thought.
This is what you get for just showing up here, you should have known better. Idiot. I scolded myself, angrily.
Edward knelt in front of me, his face looked like he was in pure misery.
Good, I thought He should feel like shit.
No, the other side of me argued. How could I have ever expected him to love me? I'm nothing special.
So? no ones truly special. You deserve better than to be screwed over by a fucking vampire.
Just shut up will you? I yelled loudly, at my thoughts. This was just yet another indication that i was loosing my mind.
"Bella, I 'am so sorry for everything I put you through. I had good intentions I swear. I didn't think you would -" Again, his voice faltered and
after a few quiet seconds he finished his sentence.
"...i just didn't think that would end up happening. I wanted you to have a chance at a normal, happy human life. A life like that couldn't include me.
I was always causing danger and mayhem around you. And i love you to damn much to loose you that way. So i left, I hope one day...you could forgive me.. Or at the
least understand where im coming from and why I did what I did. But - i never did stop loving you nor will I ever"
I couldn't lie, his words filled me with pure happiness, and for a second I was just floating in it.
I knew I had just allowed myself to easily be broken again, Edward removed the hard layer i shielded myself in, easily.
I was puddy in his words, and hands. I had just let my guard down for a simple second and already I belonged to him again
Body, mind and soul.
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