I'm back! Again! With another chapter! Again! I'm hyper! Again! Yeah, ok, I'll stop…Or try to…LOL, I almost uploaded the document with my songs on it. XD.

Please read this author's note! (except 4 the review replies…well, not when ur reading urs…But I'm not saying u can't read other ppls rev. replies…You get the point…)

Ok, so, I know it's in-a-way a bit confusing with the events…I think. No one asked. But anyways…

First of all, the festival has already started. So Hotaru is selling her inventions, Ruka is helping with the play, Mikan is doing her SA RPG thing and whatnot. It's already mentioned in chap 4 (?) but you might not have understood it or maybe you forgot it or something…All I'm doing is the main part of the story. But if you want the festival to show, review me. Because there's only a few more days left (in the 'world' in the story) until my much anticipated chapter (AKA what happens after the festival). LOLz.

Second of all, I know the moods are changing so much and stuff…But it works (?) I guess, so…yeah.

Thirdly, I know my A/N's are too long…I like to talk and write, so it's a sort of computerized (?) talking? (XD.) It's a habit…And I'm trying to STOP IT!!! (Excuse my insanity…)

Fourth, don't be afraid to review. On the fifth chapter this story was up to 360 something hits, and then on the sixth chapter it became 458 the first day, 476 the second day, and 502 the third…Then the visitors were 250. That's 252 people (possibly) who came back to read my story… People! You want reviews, you get them. But review other people! I mean, seriously, come on! (Again, excuse my insanity.)

Fifth, it's going to be a bit more serious on Hotaru and Ruka POV, unless Ruka is with Mikio, Nanami or Haina. But even then it might be where he's deep in thought. Other POV's won't be that serious…Unless…something…that you'll have to figure out. :D

Sixth, I'm sorry! Gomen! The last chap and this chap might be a little cheesy (?), I dunno, but it's because…something…again. It's either cheesy, romantic (?), dramatic or confusing…And yes, I'm talking about the last chapter. But I'm not saying this one might not be…it sort of is. I'm thinking a mixture of the last three with a sprinkle of cheesy(?)

Seventh, Mikio, Haina and Nanami's info is all there. But I need to think of Nanami's alice first…

Review replies:

Joanie: Your reviews never cease to surprise me. :D Sue me…I know right? :D Funnniiieeeeee. When I realized after a few seconds of writing it, I totally ROTFLMFAO-ed. Haha. I'm trying to update faster, but whenever I go on the laptop it's like connected and then not connected. It's pissing me! *chibi me: cries* T.T Wah, but I'll deal! :D Talk about moody and hyper, eh? LOLz.

JJ-chan ():

On C1: Whheeeeeee!!! I admit it, I'm hyper (not really XD) but even more hyper when I get reviews! Yeah, in fics they either make her hopeless when it comes to love, or smart with other people's love lives but not hers. XD. Sometimes they make her so she thinks she's right about something about love (wow, that was long XP) but then she's wrong. Hehe. Oh, thanks! You too…But not belated. Happy advanced birthday, JJ-chan!!! O.O I said you were a supposed twelve year old on my profile. Guess I was wrong. XD.

On C2: Haha, yeah, I know. I always wanted to write that in a story…but one I would actually publish. Not just write and write and write but no one would know what I'm writing about. XD. I'm thinking about what would happen if he ran into the tree. XD. Yup. Obliviousness (wow, that's actually a word. XD) is a curse. Ah, well. I'm the author!–insert evil laugh here–

On C3: Yeah, I agree with you there. If it makes sense to review the chapter, then I do. (I think that sentence makes sense…) O.o I don't think that makes sense yet at the same time it does, O.O We're on the same page. I mean, seriously, the next language my mom wants me to learn is German! OMG, that must be so unnerving but in a way hilarious if you see stupid looks on your classmates or teacher's faces. O.o But you're lucky! At least none of you know the answer! (Well, sort of lucky, unless the teacher calls on you. O.o) I have to move to a French school this year, and I'm the one who won't understand a single thing! They don't even have FSL! Ah, French. Torture, pure, utter torture. T.T I wanna go on some kind of strike…LMAO.

On C6: Haha, lolz. Yeah, I decided to put some humor. XD. I didn't want it to be too heavy…result of that is different moods. LOL. Haha, in this fic, Kitsuneme isn't that laid back, 'cause he gets uptight sometimes. I know he's not really like that, but, yeah. Koko is the more laid back one, but sometimes Kitsuneme is like that too. When Koko involves Anna though, something like that happens. XD. I cracked myself up. For the update thing, I don't know how either. I guess I was born like that…? I can't do that typing thingy, I actually type a different way. And it's slower. But I've gotten so used to it. Habit. But I like this story so much that ideas keep me going faster than necessary…? Now if only my family's laptop could be connected all the time, I could update even faster. T.T But sadly, It's not like that…Glad I gave someone inspiration! XD. Hehe, I get it, but at the same time I don't. Guess I might be able to get it when I read the second chapter of Missing…? Anyways, you're welcome!!!

I almost forgot the disclaimer. O.O I do not own GA, or something else that's mentioned here. (Hehe.) I only own the plot, (I think so. I haven't seen anything exactly like this…or even the idea. O.O Tell me if you have. XD) Mikio Yamamoto, Haina Jikumaru and Nanami Miyuki.

Here's the 6th! (There might be another song in this chapter…)

BTW, pay attention to that thing underneath. And every other thing that has that same layout.

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As much as it hurts...

And as painful it is…

I'll handle it, for you…

I'll let you go...

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Because this is how my life goes, now.

HotaruPOV

When I was pretty sure I was out of his sight, I sped up, running. I felt his gaze on my back, and when he let me go, I saw a kind of sadness, yearning, in his eyes. And…something else. Something else that I didn't know, but immediately made me curious. It was like he was hiding something from me, but wanted to tell me. Like…Like he couldn't stand to be away from me. But…I didn't understand it…at all. He isn't making anything easier for me, in fact, he's making it more confusing than ever, and me, curious. What did he really feel, when he looked at me like that? I never saw that look in his eyes. He looked like he was mentally asking me something, pleading. And for some reason…I wanted to cry. But out of what? Because this time, it wasn't because of sadness…or was it? Was it out of sadness, but for a different reason? Was it out of heartbreak, but not because of Mikan? I was more confused than ever, us both, I could tell. But I can't take a chance and tell him. For once, Hotaru Imai, known to be an ice queen, is backing down on something. For once, I'm assuming instead of listing the facts to prove it. For once…I fell in love. And for once, for once in my life, I'm scared, afraid to be rejected, and afraid to take a chance. Because maybe I realized, maybe I assumed, maybe I didn't, love…it isn't something you can calculate. It isn't something you can control. It happens, and because it does, heartbreak, relationships, murders, wars, have happened. All because of love. Because it isn't something you might be able to get again. Once you realize, grab on, and never let go…And I'm not talking about family.

Heartbreak…It's horrible to experience. But if you really love the person…who loves someone else, if you really love that person, try to let go. Try to let go and face it, suck it up. Because loving doesn't mean scoring that person. It means that if you love that person, and if he, or she, doesn't love you back, you should accept it, and accept that someone else is that person's happiness. And as much as it hurts, withstand it, and live your life to the fullest. But I'm not like that. I've never experienced this, and I know, I'm not exactly an expert. I'm not strong, but weak. Because I know that if I was strong, I could endure this. But as of now, my heart isn't accepting anything. It still beats for you, and it hurts, it hurts so much that I've taken to running away from you. It hurts so much that I decided to isolate myself from a lot of people, more that I did before. It hurts so much that I cried. It hurts so much, because I loved you, and I couldn't do anything about it, anything at all.

Because I finally accepted it, not just realized it, so much so I could shout it out, yet not.

Yes, I finally accepted the fact.

I love you, Ruka Nogi.

But I know you can never love me back.

And that's the thing I will never in my life accept.

RukaPOV

I stood there, my hand still frozen where I had let her wrist go. I stared far longer at the direction she had walked, long after she was gone from my sight. I love her; I accepted it already, a long time ago. When one time, after a few weeks of being thirteen, she blackmailed me again. But when she looked back, she smiled a small smile, meant for me. And then, I didn't see someone cold, who didn't care for anyone at all. Not even close. No, I saw the caring person underneath. And even though it was for a brief few seconds, I saw. I saw who she really was, and I realized, for the first time, how beautiful she was. I realized that she was beautiful in her own way, inside, and out. I finally opened my eyes that day, and I was glad. Because I finally found the one for me, and I didn't have to compete against my best friend anymore. I finally saw a person, and I was probably one of the first few people who had seen her like this, if I wasn't the first. And I vowed, I would tell her one day. Because at a young age for love, I had actually found it, and I was wise not to let go of her. But now…now what am I doing? I'm distancing from her, no, she's distancing from me. But what was I to do? I could do nothing. I'm pretty sure that I could do nothing…but wait. Wait for her to tell me why she distanced herself, and wait, wait for the chance to tell her the words I so long wanted to tell her, and wanted her to hear. For now, I could do nothing but wait for the chance, and I've waited for so long, because it was never the right time, the right moment. But one of these days, I will tell her, and if I get rejected, and see she loves someone else, I'll watch her from the sidelines, even if it will turn out painful.

Because I love her.

And I always will, no matter what happens.

And when she tells me why she distanced herself, no matter how horrible the reason is, I'll tell her.

Once and for all.

In class the next day, KokoPOV…

Natsume must have sensed Ruka and Hotaru's auras, because he looked a bit worried, and confused. Of course, it's only a bit because Natsume isn't one to show his emotions, but still. And he faced me, giving me a look that I should read his mind, and so I did. They feel despair. They're confused and worried, he thought. That's what I sense off their auras I read Hotaru and Ruka's minds, my face contorted in curiosity. I'll wait until she nears me, and gives me a chance to tell her. I'll wait until she nears me, and listen to why she always ran away, was all that Ruka thought Hotaru, on the other hand, thought this: I'll be strong, and withstand the fact that you still like her. But from the way you're acting, I'd say you love her. They were more puzzled than ever. We have to fix this, and soon. I ripped a page out of one of my notebooks and wrote something on it. We have 2 fix this, I wrote. We need 2 meet w/ the othrs aftr class 's more than setting them up. it's whacked, lyk their going 2 commit suicide…not tht they will. I passed it to Kitsuneme, on my left side, because Hotaru might see it if I pass it to Sumire or Natsume. He immediately opened it, wrote something, and passed it back to me when Jin-Jin-I mean Jinno-oh, what the heck, I'll just call him Jin-Jin. It's not like he has the mind reading alice, like me. I opened it, and it said, then lets tell them aftr, duh. where 2? & wat r u talking abt? fix wat? wat happnd 2 h & r? I rolled my eyes, then clicked my pen and wrote back, dude, u r so uptight evr since yesterday. get ovr it man. & I dunno. we hav 2 ask them 2, duh. & I was talking abt those 2, yes. could u b nemore obvious? Nat sensed sumthing weird fr. them. they wer confused or sumthing. I tossed it to him and he passed it back, the note bearing the message, oh. I rolled my eyes and stashed the note in my pocket. Well, just have to wait until the end of class…And then I realized. Jin-Jin was calling my name…and I had missed half the lesson. Shoot. Better read his mind…unless he's good at guarding it. Prepare for a shock, Koko. Literally. Well, I have to take a chance…

After class, sakura tree, NatsumePOV…

I went beside Koko. "So?" I asked him. "What'd you get?"

"They're confused. We need to clear the confusion, not just set them up. We need to get the others." I nodded curtly.

"You're not much of an idiot as cat-dog makes you on to be." He shrugged and smirked. Sumire went beside us.

"Don't call me cat-dog…ever," she told me. I smirked at her. She ignored me. "So Koko, where do we go?"

"What?!?! You were listening all this time?"

"Doy. What an idiot…" Sumire shook her head.

"So, Sumi," he started off. But I interrupted him.

"Literally." I smirked. Then the others went with us.

"Ha, nice, Nat," Yuu said, chuckling. Kitsuneme smirked at his best friend.

"Lay off, Kit," Koko grumbled.

"You wanted to be pulp," Kitsuneme muttered.

"Grudge-keeper."

"You lay off. Who said I was holding a grudge? Bloody hell, Koko."

"Where are you living, in the Harry Potter movies?" Koko retorted.

"Not like you don't watch them," Kitsuneme shot back.

"Not like you don't." Kitsuneme smirked at his best friend's retort. Ah, upperhand.

"Who ever said that?"

"Damn."

"Fuck it. The hell. Clear it up. Basically, Kitsuneme likes Anna. Ok? And seriously, a fight concerning Harry Potter. You two are truly idiots." Sumire said throwing her hands up in the air dramatically.

"Drama Queen," Koko muttered.

"What, found someone else to 'love'? Daniel Radcliffe, huh? I want to murder you right now, Sumire," Kitsuneme mumbled.

"Yeah, go ahead, but Anna will get mad, won't she? And no, I'm not in love with Daniel Radcliffe," Sumire teased. Anna and Kitsuneme blushed. "I swear…" Kitsuneme muttered.

"Keep going, it's not gonna help you though. Now, as I was saying, where do we go?"

"And how did you know?"

"Um, hello, I can read."

"Sakura tree?" Mikan asked.

"Why not? I'll tell you guys everything there along with Kit. Let's go," Koko walked faster towards the direction of the sakura tree. Hm, seems Anna and Kitsuneme forgot what Sumire had said.

At the sakura tree AnnaPOV…

When we went there, Koko and Kitsu-chan told us what happened or what the other (Koko) told him (Kitsuneme). Koko was the one who talked the most. But as they were talking, all of a sudden three girls walked towards us. They were in the middle school uniform, so obviously they were in the middle school section, like us. One girl had light brown hair, almost elbow-length, in a ponytail and she had pink eyes. Another girl had elbow-length blonde hair with orange highlights and reddish-pink eyes. Her hair was in a side ponytail. The last one had waist length indigo colored hair in a black headband with a bow and blue-green eyes. Nonoko looked up. "Oh, hello. Do you need help with something?" Everyone looked at the three girls. The girl with indigo hair smiled. "Actually, we want to ask you something, so, yes."

"Oh, ok. Shoot."

"Well, you are all friends with two people named Hotaru Imai and Ruka Nogi, am I right?" We nodded. "So…do all of you know about Ruka's crush?"

"Are you another fangirl?" Natsume asked them suspiciously.

"Nope. None of us are. Actually, I'm friends with both Hotaru and Ruka, those two are friends with Ruka, so we were going to ask you to help us with something…" They sat down on the grass.

"Hmm…I'm suspicious, but, ok."

"Well, do you know about Ruka's crush?" We all nodded again. "We also know about his crush, Hotaru."

"Oh, I get it," Natsume said.

"Exactly," the blue-green eyed girl nodded. "That's it. And from what I could infer, apparently you have a plan to get them together, yes?" We replied with a nod. "Well, we do too. And I think we all agree that the more people in, the better."

"So, you're suggesting…?" Yuu asked, pushing his glasses up.

"Exactly. So, do you agree?" We all nodded.

"Then I suppose," the brown haired girl said. "You should know our names and alices. I'm Nanami Miyuki. Shape-shifting alice. Call me Nanami or Nami."

"Haina Jikumaru. Prediction alice. Call me Haina, or whatever name this idiot or Nami calls me. " She poked the indigo-haired girl. "She doesn't sound like the idiot she is now, but trust me, she's an idiot and will never stop being one, that's what I think." "So mean, Haina-chan." The girl pouted. "Anyway, I'm Mikio Yamamoto. I have the mind reading and chemistry alices, and you can call me Mikio or Miki."

"How about you guys? Obviously, Miki here knows all of your names. But Hai-chan and I don't…except for Natsume Hyuuga."

"I'm Mikan Sakura! I have the nullification alice. You can call me Mikan, and some of my friends here call me Mi-chan, so that's okay, too!" Mikan said in a cheerful voice.

"I'm Kokoroyomi. I have the mind reading alice also, and you can call me Koko…but permy girl here sometimes calls me by my full name when she wants to make me deaf." Koko jerked his thumb towards Sumire. At this most of them laughed, except for Sumire, who hit Koko on the head. "I'm Sumire Shouda. I have cat-dog predisposition and you can call me Sumire or Sumi." Laughing a bit, Koko said, "yeah, or permy, permy girl, perms…Um, hmm…what are the other ones again?" Sumire put an arm around Koko's neck and tried to strangle him. Koko backed away. "Switching with you, Noko." Nonoko went to Koko's old spot. "I'm Kitsuneme. I have the flying alice. Call me anything Koko calls me…well, mostly."

"Anna Umenomiya! I have the cooking alice, and you can call me Anna."

"I'm Nonoko Ogasawara! I have the chemistry alice, and you can call me Nonoko or Noko."

"And I'm Yuu Tobita. I have the illusion alice. Call me Yuu."

"Well, guys, let me tell you this. We all have the same plan, which makes this a whole lot easier." Mikio smirked evilly. "And having two people able to read minds is better. Now, Koko, read my mind, then tell it to you-know-who."

KokoPOV

I know what Hotaru feels.

That single sentence appeared in my head, and I found myself smirking back at her.

This is going to be good.

Oh, you bet your life on it.

HotaruPOV

I buried my face deep within my pillows. Why does he do this to me? Why can't he just tell me what he wants to tell me? Why?

Maybe what you are too scared to tell him is the same thing he has no courage to tell you.

Mikio's words entered my mind. But it can't be. I won't believe it. It's all going to be a joke, if he ever says that to me. He'll have a good laugh, won't he? I thought bitterly. But then again, you're the one distancing yourself, and you expect him to be able to tell you something like this. If you won't give him a chance to actually talk to you, he'll never tell you what you sense he has to. As much as it hurts…I'll handle it, for you…I'll try, but I have to prepare myself, because one day you might be gone.

RukaPOV

I finally got out of my stupefied state. "Come on, Usagi. Let's go." Usagi ran beside me as I walk to my dorm thinking deeply. What was her message? I thought. What is she trying to tell me? I sank into my bed, arms behind my head. She can't tell me now…And as painful as it is…I'll let you go…For now, because you're not ready, but you will be.

R and H POV

And that's a promise I'll keep.

This is how my life goes now, confusions and all.

So I'll wait for a chance. But until then, being confused will be on a daily basis.

Wait for me, because I'm waiting for you.

HotaruPOV

And as I kept my face hidden in my pillows for the longest time, I turned around, my face facing the ceiling. A song clicked into my mind, and I sang it, because it was what I was feeling.

(Broken-hearted Girl by Beyonce)

You're everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could've been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

There were a few parts that weren't true…Like this one. He was everything I thought he was and more…

You're the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I'd love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you're the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can't erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I'll be there at the end of the day

Sometimes I did want to forget you…Because then I would be able to live my life not wanting to cry every second I know you still liked my best friend. But I think you've upgraded to loving her, even if Natsume has her already. I really would love to not forgive you, but I can't help it. Because, yes, I've thought it a thousand times, I love you. When I have those times, those times when I think I hate you, I know I don't, because I always forgive you right after. And I always try to handle the hurt I've bottled up inside my heart. I can't forget those few times, when no one was around, that I had cried. Before Sumire and Koko knew, it's true, I had cried because of you. But if I cried then, I predict that I will get hurt a lot more in the future. And as much as I want to stop getting hurt, as much as I want to be as emotionless as I pretended I was, I can't. This hurts more than any other thing I've experienced. And it's true. By the end of the day, it had already been a long time since I had forgiven you again.

I don't wanna be without you babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without you babe
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don't want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don't want a broken heart
And I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl…No...No
No broken-hearted girl
I'm no broken-hearted girl

I can't live without you, I admit it. But I can't live with a broken heart either. What am I doing here, trying my best not to breakdown for the eighth time? I don't want to love you in any way, but I do. I don't want to have to be the broken-hearted girl, but I am. And I don't want to be someone with a broken heart, but did I ever have a choice ever since loving you?

Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I've always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say you've got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you're not deserving me
And still you're in my heart
But you're the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I don't complain
Cause I've been afraid that you would've walk away
Oh but now I don't hate you
I'm happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I've been afraid, yes, afraid, that one day you wouldn't be there anymore. But are you trying to get me by your side while I'm gone, or are you enjoying the silence? I want to take this away, this love. You act like you have the most respect for me, but I bet it's only because I used to blackmail you. But still, you're the only one who stole my heart. And when I think I hate you for those few moments, I don't complain. I was afraid you would stray away from me, but no. It's the other way around. Sometimes I'm happy to say that I'll be there for you, but other times…it seems like a curse.

I don't wanna be without you babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take breath with out you babe
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don't want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don't want a broken heart
And I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No…No
No broken-hearted girl

I can't help it. Even if I'm away from you, I still need to have the image of you to go on with the day.

Now I'm at a place I thought I'd never be…Oooo
I'm living in a world that's all about you and me…yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away
Away With you
yeah yeah yeah, ohh ohh ohh

I wish that would happen. I wouldn't have to worry about my broken heart, and I could be in a world where there's you and me. If you only loved me back…

I don't wanna be without my baby
I don't wanna a broken heart
Don't want to take a breath with out my baby
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don't want to love you in no kind of way..No..No
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl..No..No..
No broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl No…no…
No broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl

I go on without you by my side, but you around me. What can I do to make up my mind? Do I talk to you, and risk breaking down more, following by questions I can't answer, or be away from you, never talk to you, but have myself breaking down fewer times than has already happened?

As the music in my head faded away, I hadn't realized that I was already crying silently. I forgive you again, Ruka. I forgive you.

I just thought of Nanami's alice that moment. LOL. And you guessed it, (maybe, lol) the other thing I don't own is Harry Potter. Mikan has the S.E.C.S alices, but she didn't tell them because Persona told her not to tell anyone…yeah, just pretend that's what it is. If I ever change this title or something, the alternate title will be 'as much as it hurts'.

Whoo hoo! The next chapter will be 'the day'. LOL. If you want one, two, three, or whatever number chapters after the next one, review me. This chapter was sort of cut short, but yeah…I decided to be evil (?).

ONE more thing: REVIEW PLEASE!!! Questions, comments, criticism, praise, encouragement and whatever else that you can think of is allowed. But sadly, to those who hate this story, (T.T) not that I know any, (LOL) NO FLAMES!!!