Heyy! Oh my gosh it's been like a week since I last updated this, sorry, but I'm updating it now so yeah lol. And OMG I have to share something with you all. I just had a revelation while watching Gilmore Girls a few minutes ago and it was an episode during the time that Luke and Loralie(sp?) are dating and I realized that while they dated the two of them were completely the human older version of Dimitri and Rose lol. Or at least I feel like that haha. Cause Luke is all like responsible and reasonable and stuff, but he does lose his temper sometimes and the Loralie is all like care free and sarcastic and stuff ya know? Ok now on to the new chapter. You know what to do…REVIEW REVIEW REVIEW!;-]

About two hours later Tasha and I arrived at the mall in Missoula. I had know clue how much shopping she needed to do, but the mall was only going to be open for a few more hours so hopefully she'll be able to get it all done in that time frame.

"Dimka, do you want to get something to eat first?" Tasha asked as we entered the mall. The first thing we saw being the food court.

"Sure, why not?" I said.

We ended up getting some sushi and French fries. I know it's kind of a weird mix, but it's Tasha's favorite meal so I didn't object. When we sat down at one of the tables we stayed silent for a few minutes before Tasha finally spoke and what she had to say was beyond completely unexpected.

"Dimka?" She asked.

"Yes, Tasha?"

"Well I know that you are assigned to be Lissa's guardian after she graduates and I wouldn't want to compromise you, but…" She trailed off.

"But, what Tasha?" I was pretty sure I knew what she was asking, but still.

"Well…"

"Just spit it out Tasha."

"Would you be my guardian?" She asked.

"Was that really so hard to ask?" I asked her.

"Well, it wouldn't have been if I wasn't going to add something to that, but I am." She said, looking slightly embarrassed.

"What do you have to add?"

"Well, if you agree to be reassigned to me then… Well we could… We could uh…"

"Tasha. We could what?"

"We could have kids! Okay? Jeez!" She yelled at me and everyone around us turned and stared. Niice.

Wait what? Have kids with Tasha? I mean I'm friends with her, but after almost having sex with Rose I don't think I could picture myself with anyone but her ever again, which was bad. Very bad and things would never be able to work with Rose like that, but they could with Tasha. This is just too much to comprehend. Her asking me to be her guardian is one thing, but her asking me to have kids with her too takes it to a completely new level.

"Well?" She asked.

"I don't know Tasha."

"Okay, well think about it."

"I will." I said.

"Okay then, well how about we get some shopping done now." She said.

"Yeah, let's."

After that conversation I felt pretty awkward for the rest of the night. I mean I knew that Tasha and I were great friends, but I didn't know that she felt that way about me. I wasn't sure that I could picture myself with her like that. Not with my mind always focused on Rose in that way, but maybe going off with Tasha would be good for Rose and me. I mean if I went with Tasha, Rose and I wouldn't be around eachother like we are now. She would be able to move on from me and I could well, I would never move on from Rose, but at least I wouldn't be near her and seeing her everyday and just fueling my emotions for her. But would I be able to permanently stay away from her? Could I do that? I wasn't sure.

"Dimka?" Tasha said, pulling me out of my thoughts. "I want to get a gift for Rose, do you think she would like this?" She was holding a red dress with black embroidery up the side. Rose would love it.

"She'll love it."

"Okay then this it is. I'm done now, so we can get going. I know that I took a lot of sleeping time away from you. I'll go check out." She said.

We went back to the Academy after that and by the time I got to my room I was completely exhausted. I also had a lot to think about though. With that I decided to sleep now and I would call someone in the morning and ask them to take over my morning session with Rose so I could get more sleep then and think about things.

The next morning I called Janine and asked her to take over Rose's session for me and she agreed to. Rose was going to kill, but hey, I decided they could use a little quality time together. Little did I know that quality time with the two of them meant landing someone in the infirmary with a possible concussion. That someone being my Roza. Great.

Rose ended up not having a concussion, but she had a huge black eye, which will end up pissing her off even more. I was pretty upset that Janine had lost control of her temper and hit Rose in the face, but if she caused Janine to lose control than Rose must have been doing something to cause it.

"Janine!" I called when I saw her walking away from the infirmary, she walked over to me when she saw it was me. "What happened with you and Rose?" I asked.

"We were sparring and she was running her mouth and I lost control for a minute. I really didn't mean to do that. I wish I hadn't, I mean I doubt she really meant the things she said, she's just like that I guess. But the things she was saying was just really bothering me and I slipped up I guess. I feel terrible about it."

"I'm sure you do. Don't worry, at least it's only a black eye. Nothing serious." I said.

"Yeah, I know, but still. Well I've got to go, I'll see you later Guardian Belikov." And with that she left.

Rose's afternoon practice was canceled due to what happened with her mom so I had that time off. I didn't get a chance to really think about things that morning so I thought now.

I really wasn't sure if I would be able to be with Tasha in the way that she wants me. I mean I love her, but as a friend, nothing more. I can't love her as anything more than a friend because all of that goes to Rose and it always will, but just because I couldn't have what I do with Rose with Tasha that doesn't mean I couldn't have the relationship. I've already realized that Tasha can almost—almost—get my mind off of Rose, so that there is saying something, but Tasha has always been able to distract me from things, that's just the type of person she is.

I decided to make a pros and cons list of why going with Tasha would be good and why I should stay with Rose.

GO WITH TASHA

Pros:

1. She's been my best friend for years

2. She can take me away from Rose

3. I could have a kid, but do I want one if it's with her?

4. I wouldn't have to worry about getting arrested for kissing her, but would I want to kiss her?

Cons:

1. I wouldn't get to see Rose every day

2. I don't love her like that

3. I'd always be thinking about Rose

4. It wouldn't be fair to Tasha

STAY WITH ROSE

Pros:

1. I'M IN LOVE WITH HER!

2. I can't picture myself with anyone but her

3. I can't imagine going a day without seeing her or being near her or hearing her voice, I think it would kill me

4. I only ever want to be with her

5. She's amazing

6. We belong together

7. I never want to be away from her...ever!

8. I CAN'T be with anyone but her, it's impossible

9. We were made to be with eachother

Cons:

1. I'm seven years older than her

2. We both will be protecting Lissa

Okay so by the looks of that Rose wins out, but it just isn't that simple because I already knew that would happen before I started this. Why do things need to be so hard? And why couldn't this list have helped? Oh my God.

Okay so I hoped you liked this chapter. I was going to make it longer, but one of my friends is going to be at my house in a couple minutes so I can't write anymore. Well you know what to do…REVIEW REVIEW REVIEW!;-]