It's here! I finally had time to write another chapter! I own nothing, everything belongs to lucky ducky Dick Wolf.

The word ran through my mind, pregnant. Olivia Benson my partner, my best friend, my girlfriend was pregnant. Millions of questions ran through my mind. How long? When did she find out? How do we tell everybody? And one that I really needed to know, due to age and what just happened, could she have a miscarriage?

"Elliot!" Cragen called out, bringing me back in to reality, "are you riding with?"

"Huh? Oh yeah!" I ran to the ambulance and got in.

The entire time we rode to the hospital, there was a lot of buzz but I stayed focus on Liv. I concentrated on her breathing. I put my hand to her stomach, even though I knew there's no way I would feel the baby. I moved her hair behind her ears and held her hand. I felt helpless watching her, my Olivia, hurt. I wanted to take away all that pain.

When we got to the hospital, they rushed her in as I stood there, once more feeling helpless. Cragen arrived and caught up to me.

"You okay?"

Really? Did he honestly just ask that? But I didn't say my thoughts aloud. "No," I whispered. He sighed.

"Come on, lets go wait inside."

I had been so focused on Liv I didn't know what was really happening with her other then she was in surgery. Munch and Fin eventually showed up and Novak texted me, asking of she was okay. I never replied though. Just sat in that hard, uncomfortable chair thinking. Thinking about Olivia, her pregnancy, what had just happened and how much I really hated hospitals.

After what seemed like forever, a young doctor came out with her dirty blond hair hanging low in a ponytail. Her face was kind and she had papers gripped tight in her hand.

"Olivia Benson's family?" She spoke with a soft tone.

"Yes." I finally spoke since I answered Cragen's question earlier.

"Hello. Well Im her doctor, Doctor Shepard. Olivia is going to be alright. The bullet however did tear through her shoulder but we did as best as we can in surgery, which was pretty darn good. I understand she is a police officer, correct?"

"Yes doctor, she was hurt on the job." I said, my voice weak as images of earlier raced through my mind.

"Then she will need to take time off for sure. Anyway, I also understand she was pregnant. I did some tests to see how that's going. Since she got hurt and her age it's possible she had a miscarriage. Also she told me she got a cheap pregnancy test so it very well could be wrong. She has asked for a Elliot Stabler to come in the room while I give the results." She waved the papers around, waiting for one of us to follow. I looked back at my captain and coworkers.

Cragen looked like a cross between shocked, worried and mad. Fin just looked at me, a little surprised. Munch just raised his eyebrows. I take it they figured I was the father.

"That's me." I stood up.

"Okay, then if you will just come with me."

"Of course," I said but Cragen pulled me back.

"A word detective?" He asked but without letting me answer pulled me anyway, "excuse me." He told Doctor Shepard.

"You and Liv…you're…dating?" He asked but it came out in more of a statement.

"Yes sir."

"How long?" His voice was low and I could tell he was a little mad.

"Two months. I know you're mad, but I have to go." I walked away towards the doctor, "Liv needs me."

Doctor Shepard led the way to Olivia's room. When we got there she was laying there, studying her fingernails, totally bored. We both hated hospitals with a passion.

"Liv!" I ran up to her and gave her a hug, while softly planting kisses in her hair.

"El." She whispered. I pulled back and kissed her forehead.

"How are you?"

"Fine I guess, not too much pain right now."

"Okay good." I grabbed her hand turned back to face the doctor.

"You have…the results?" She seemed scared to ask.

"Yes, Miss Benson are you ready?"

Liv sighed and squeezed my hand tighter, "no, but I have to…I need to know."

"Miss Benson…" She took a long pause and shot us a worried smile. "Im so sorry to say this but you are not pregnant. It was not a result of what happened today, there was something else wrong."

"Don't tell me." She whispered, "I…I don't want to know."

"However, it wasn't due to age either. So you could try again, but there are risks. Are you sure you don't want to know what happened? It could be a another risk if you do try again."

"No. I cant…I just…" I looked over to see a single tear run down her face. I hugged her again, pulling her tight and close in my arms. She buried her head in my shoulder and sobbed.

"Im so sorry Livy. I know how much you wanted a baby." I whispered into her ear.

And I did. She didn't come right out and say it but there were plenty of signs. I only thought about it as being another responsibility and how hard it would be with work. But when she told me, I quickly accepted it because I knew how happy she would be. I also knew that we would figure everything out. I actually suddenly wanted a baby too. But now, I felt devastated. Even though I only knew for a few hours that she was pregnant it still hurt inside. But I could tell she was feeling far, far worse.

"Ill leave you two alone." The doctor left, giving us a small smile.

"Liv, I know right now it doesn't seem like it, but it'll be okay. I promise, we'll get through this." She just starred at me in disbelief before responding.

"I hope." She whispered. I held her face in my hands and kissed her.

After I pulled back I looked at her and cleared my throat, "We will. Olivia, you are the strongest, bravest, amazing, person I know. It's going to be hell for a little while, but you'll make it. We'll make it. Liv, I will never ever leave you. You know that right?" I asked and then kissed her forehead. She looked at me a minute before answering.

"Yes, I know. I love you."

"I love you too." We smiled and I sat down next to her.

"Does Cragen know about us now?" She looked at me, concerned as she changed the subject.

I sighed before answering, "Yes."

"Well this day has just been amazing so far." She grumbled.

"I know, but considering the situation I don't think he's too mad. Right now."

"Fun."

"I know."

"Im tiered."

"Do you want me to leave?"

"No."

"Then I wont." And I didn't. While she slept, I sat holding her hand, thinking. Thinking about how the whole pregnancy thing would really effect her. If she would become worse or this would be about it. Knowing Liv though, she wouldn't show it on the outside. On the inside it could be killing her. And I could never know.

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