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Chapter 7
Blaine went straight home from the restaurant that night. The apartment was quiet since Jeff was at Nick's and no one was present to make any reckless noise. Blaine wished Jeff was home with him right now so he could talk to him about what happened to Kurt; what happened with Kurt. He needed to talk to someone about it, otherwise he felt like he was going to explode.
Kurt was being abused by his husband. He was being hurt both emotionally and physically and he was devastated. Blaine would do anything to make Kurt feel better, even just a little. And what had it been? Sex. Kurt chose sex. And Blaine went along with it. Even if it was a bad idea, Blaine had no regrets. If he could help Kurt forget things even for a short time, he would be there for him. It wouldn't solve any underlying problems though.
But what about Kurt? Was he okay with what they had done? Blaine needed to know. He needed to talk to him. Blaine didn't think Kurt chose to have sex with him because he was attracted to him or anything like that. Kurt did it just because of the state he was in after what Frank had done and he couldn't make any rational decisions. This was only Blaine's theory after all, but if this was true, wasn't Blaine the one who should have made the right decisions for him? Oh God, Blaine was right, wasn't he? He should have stopped them. Since Kurt already had so much going on, he didn't need additional worry. What Kurt did with Blaine was cheating. And Blaine let him do that. Even though Frank was abusing Kurt, that didn't mean it was okay for Kurt to cheat. He had to talk to him and apologize to him.
Also, Blaine needed to talk to Kurt about Frank. This was about serious domestic violence. Blaine had never imagined Frank would hurt Kurt, his husband. This was not something Blaine could just leave alone. He was worried about Kurt. Kurt said the things between him and Frank were not good. That meant Frank had changed recently? Or was he always like this and it just got worse? Blaine didn't know what he could do about it, but he should talk to him first.
Blaine had been in his train of thought all night and had missed sleep due to mostly worrying about Kurt. He shouldn't have left him alone last night. When he went home, Frank might have hurt him again. Blaine cursed his stupidity and couldn't sleep. But he didn't care. He needed to see if Kurt was okay.
When the alarm went off, Blaine quickly got out of bed and got ready, going straight to the restaurant. When he got there it was around 9, the usual time he and Kurt had coffee in the morning. He wasn't sure if Kurt would even show up, but he took the chance. The restaurant's door was open, that meant Kurt was already here. When Blaine got inside he realized the restaurant was empty. Kurt wasn't here. Blaine assumed he might be out for some errands, so he decided to wait, sitting down at a booth.
Employees who had morning shifts started arriving at around 9:30 and Kurt still wasn't there. Blaine told them all good morning and started to think that Kurt would never miss work. What if Kurt was already here? What if he was in his office all this time? The back door was open. So Kurt was bound to be here.
"Where are you Kurt?" Blaine whispered to himself, looking around the restaurant.
What if Kurt was hiding from him? Blaine's heart dropped at this thought. He went to the changing room, changed into his uniform quickly and went to Kurt's office, knocking softly on the door
"Kurt?" Blaine calmly said, but there was no answer. He tried to turn the doorknob, and found it was open. He opened the door slowly, poking his head through the door to see inside. Kurt was lying on the couch, sleeping. He was lying on his side, resting his head on a cushion. His chest was heaving up and down peacefully. Although he didn't want to wake him up, it was almost time for him to start his shift and Blaine knew Kurt wouldn't want to miss that.
"Kurt," Blaine walked to the couch and called his name softly.
"Mm… Blaine? What time is it?" Kurt asked, rubbing his eyes. That action was so adorable and it made Blaine smile. It looked like Kurt was having a difficult time opening his eyes.
"It's past 9:30," Blaine said, sitting on an armrest of the couch.
"Shit," Kurt swore under his breath and sat up. "I'm sorry. I'll get ready quickly."
"It's fine. Take your time." Blaine observed Kurt's cheek and it looked smooth and normal. Blaine was happy there was no mark. "How's your cheek?"
"It's fine," Kurt answered simply.
Blaine looked at Kurt and noticed that he was wearing the same clothes as last night. "Kurt, did you sleep here last night?"
"That was the plan, but I couldn't fall sleep," Kurt said with exhausted eyes. "So I unlocked the back door at eight this morning and I was just going to lie down and wait for you guys to come in. But I guess I fell asleep." Kurt stood up and stretched, his back to Blaine. "I knew Frank would stay out last night but I just didn't want to go home."
Blaine sighed in relief. Kurt hadn't seen Frank since last night. He was safe. That was good. "Kurt…, about last night…"
"Blaine," Kurt cut him off. "Let me fix my hair and change. I'll be in the restaurant in ten."
"Oh. Okay," Blaine understood. Kurt didn't want to talk about what happened. Or he didn't want to talk to him. Blaine smiled nonetheless. At least Kurt was safe. That was all that mattered for now. "See you there."
"Yeah," Kurt turned around and briefly made eye contact with Blaine, looking away quickly.
Blaine walked out of Kurt's office, knowing he still needed to talk to him. He'll have to try again later.
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Hours had passed and that moment didn't come. Simply because the restaurant was extremely busy as usual and whenever Blaine actually had time to talk, he could never find Kurt anywhere. He did see Jeff though. It was good to talk to him since he hadn't seen him this morning. He caught up to him during his break between lunch and dinner time. Jeff wanted to go to a music store so Blaine tagged along.
"So, Nick's show's opening night will be on Tuesday next month," Jeff told Blaine, carefully searching for the title of an album he was looking for. "We need to get a day-off that day. You can take a day-off on Tuesdays, right?"
"Yeah, yeah, that's great," Blaine replied, but the answer didn't match the question Jeff asked.
"Are you okay, B? Something wrong?" Jeff asked, looking up at Blaine from the CDs, noticing Blaine wasn't even paying any attention to what he was saying.
"I had sex with Kurt last night," Blaine spoke fast.
"You did what!?" Jeff shouted, and realized they were in a public place. He lowered his voice and asked Blaine again. "You had sex with Kurt?"
"Yes, but it's not what you think," Blaine quickly added, knowing that Jeff probably took this news as good.
"What do you mean? What happened?" Jeff asked concerned, looking at Blaine's serious expression.
"Frank hit Kurt," Blaine was thinking if it was good idea telling Jeff this it but he decided to do so. Blaine trusted him.
"What!?" Jeff felt dizzy, not sure if he was following along with the story. He had been told two shocking things at the same time. "That bastard can't do that. Is he okay? I didn't notice that this morning."
"Yeah, he is," Blaine assured Jeff. "This is not even the first time Frank hurt him. I don't know what happened this time, but when I found Kurt, he had already been hit and… he was devastated. I don't know. It just happened. We had sex. He started kissing me and I just… I couldn't say no. I guess he just wanted to forget about what happened. But Jeff, I was the one who was supposed to stop us, and I didn't."
"Damn…" Jeff muttered after listening to Blaine's story. "Okay. First, you can't blame yourself for what you guys did. It wasn't your guys' fault. It was all Frank. He hit Kurt. Kurt couldn't think straight because of his fucking husband. And you probably just wanted to make him feel better, right?"
"Yeah. But I still feel like I'm an awful person," Blaine covered his face with one hand. "I feel like I took advantage of his state."
"I'm pretty sure Kurt doesn't think of it like that," Jeff assured him. "And second," he continued with a soft smile, knowing that Kurt was so lucky to have someone like Blaine to care about him this much. "You should tell Kurt to leave Frank. He's dangerous."
"I… I can't do that," Blaine looked down. He knew Kurt shouldn't be with Frank. Not after seeing what he had done to him. But it was still his marriage, his decision. He couldn't tell him what to do. He didn't have the right to do that. "But I want to talk to him about it. That's the best I can do."
"Okay, at least talk to him," Jeff sighed. "But Frank hurt Kurt? Man, what's going on between them? That's so messed up. I didn't expect things to be that bad."
"I know… I'm not sure if Kurt will even tell me, but I'll ask him," Blaine said and looked up to meet Jeff's eyes. His eyes were worried and hurt. "I'm just worried sick about him, Jeff."
"I know, B. I know." Jeff put his hand on Blaine's shoulder and squeezed it tight. He didn't want to see his best friend suffering like this.
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Blaine and Jeff went back to work and dinner time started. It was busy again, despite the cold weather and snow. Blaine didn't see Frank for the rest of the evening, which was probably a good thing since he was still so mad about what he did to Kurt last night. And in the morning, he looked so normal as if nothing happened and that made Blaine feel sick. Blaine didn't see Kurt's smile at all, except in front of customers.
It was at 8 PM when his shift was over. Blaine let out the umpteenth sigh today and gave up about the idea to talking to Kurt. He punched his time card in and made his way to the changing room.
"Blaine!"
Blaine turned around to the voice. Kurt was just coming out of the kitchen, following him.
"Are you done for today?" Kurt asked, catching up with Blaine.
"Yeah."
"Can we talk a bit?"
"Sure," Blaine said in surprise. He thought Kurt was avoiding him all day, and now what did he want to talk about?
"Good. Come to my office."
They both went to Kurt's office. Blaine closed the door and Kurt turned around.
"Blaine, I'm so sorry about last night," Kurt spoke. "I've wanted to talk about it all day but I wasn't ready until now."
"Oh," Blaine now understood why Kurt was avoiding him. It was not that he didn't want to talk to him, he just didn't know how to. That was a good thing. Maybe.
"Last night… I was a mess," Kurt looked down. "And I took advantage of you. I'm so sorry. I should've never…"
"Stop, Kurt," Blaine cut him off. "You didn't take advantage of me. I felt like I took advantage of your state. And I hate myself because I didn't stop us. So, I'm the one who owes an apology. I'm sorry."
"No, Blaine. It was my idea," Kurt said softly. "And even if I was a mess, I knew what I was doing. I'm responsible for my actions. It was such a selfish idea. I was just looking for comfort. And it wasn't fair for you. I didn't give you much of a choice."
"Maybe you didn't. But you're hot, Kurt. I really couldn't say no to be honest," Blaine smiled coyly, making Kurt blush. "But I knew it didn't mean anything. It was to take your mind off of things that were happening between you and Frank. I understand that and it's okay. As long as I could help you in some way, I have no regrets about what we did."
"You really did," Kurt smiled a little, feeling butterflies in his stomach at Blaine's sweet words. Kurt knew Blaine only said that to make him feel less guilty. But he felt relieved that Blaine didn't blame him. He was afraid that Blaine might have hated him because he cared about only himself last night and didn't care about how Blaine felt. "But still, Blaine. I feel really terrible. I used you."
"Like I said, it's okay, Kurt," Blaine said firmly. "You can use me as much as you want. I'll happily do anything for you, Kurt. I'll kick Frank's ass if that's what you want."
"No, don't do that," Kurt chuckled.
"I mean it, Kurt. You…" Blaine paused for a moment and took time before he spoke. "You shouldn't be around him. He's dangerous."
"I know," Kurt's smile disappeared. "I need to talk to him before deciding anything. But I can't do that yet. I need some time to think."
"Hey, it's okay," Blaine said. "Take your time. It's your marriage. I know it's important for you. But what are you going to do from tonight? Do you have somewhere to stay?" He needed to know if Kurt had a place to go, somewhere safe and away from Frank for a while.
"I… I have nowhere to go," Kurt replied in a hesitant tone. "But I can't stay here because there is no shower. I could go to the gym to use the shower there, so I might do that tonight and come back here to sleep. I need my clothes too. I can sneak in the house to get my clothes while Frank is out. He's usually out at night, so I can…"
"Come to my house and stay," Blaine blurted out, without thinking.
"What?" Kurt looked up with wide eyes, wondering if he had heard it right.
"Why not?" Suddenly the idea sounded perfect to Blaine. "I share an apartment with Jeff, so it's not that big and I'm sorry, but you can squeeze in. I mean, you don't have to share a bed with me, or Jeff. I'm thinking you can use my bed and I can sleep on the couch."
"I… No, I can't ask that from you and Jeff. This is my mess, and I don't want to drag you guys into it."
"I'm really worried about you, Kurt. If you stay with us, I know you are safe. So, please. Please stay with us."
"I don't know…" Kurt said confusingly. He really appreciate Blaine's offer but he didn't know what to do. He honestly wasn't used to such sweet gestures.
"Yes, you do," Blaine took Kurt's hands. "You have nowhere else to go. And we're your friends, right?"
"Right," Kurt smiled at his words. He really liked to know that Blaine still considered him as his friend after what they had done last night. He was already losing his husband. He didn't want to lose Blaine either.
"Then let us help you, Kurt. You shouldn't be alone in this. You can stay with us until you're ready to talk to Frank. And you can decide what to do next after that."
Kurt made up his mind. He breathed deeply and spoke. "Okay. I'll stay at your house. Thank you so much, Blaine."
"Anytime," Blaine grinned happily.
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After Blaine and Kurt changed into their clothes, they went to Blaine's and Jeff's apartment. On the way, they stopped at a store to get some clothes and underwear for Kurt. He did not want to go to his house to get his.
It was only a 10 minute walk to the apartment from the restaurant.
"Here you go, this is going to be your home for tonight," Blaine said, smiling and opening the door.
"Thank you," Kurt smiled back, going inside first as Blaine let him.
The apartment was not big as Blaine said. When they entered, there was a small kitchen and dining area to the right and on the opposite side was the bathroom. The hallway then led to the living room, followed by one bedroom on the right and the other bedroom on the far left. The room on the right had a bathroom inside, which was Blaine's bedroom. When Blaine and Jeff decided to rent this place, they did a game of 'Rock, Paper, Scissors' to see who would get the room with the bathroom. And Blaine won.
"Make yourself comfortable," Blaine told Kurt, smiling. "You probably want to take a shower. Am I right?"
"Yes, that would be great," Kurt laughed. It was true. He hadn't taken a shower for nearly two days. That rarely happened to him. He loved taking showers.
"Come with me." Blaine led Kurt to his room and went to the closet, taking out a white T-shirt and a pair of gray sweat pants. "Here. Wear these. Hope they fit you."
"Thanks, Blaine," Kurt said, taking the clothes from Blaine.
Blaine gave him a clean bath towel too and explained how to use the shower. "I'll be in the living room. Take your time."
As soon as Blaine closed the bathroom door he heard the shower start. He quickly moved to the living room and turned the TV on, trying not to think about Kurt's naked body. Although he was watching the TV screen, he didn't know what he was watching. He couldn't concentrate. Kurt was here, in his home, and he said he would stay with him and Jeff for a while. Blaine couldn't believe how things turned out. He was glad that he could convince Kurt to stay with them. Because there was no way Blaine would let him go back to his home with Frank.
Blaine realized he hadn't had dinner yet, so he picked up the flyers of various restaurants from a magazine rack beside the couch. Options were pizza, burgers, Mexican food, Thai food, Chinese food or Japanese food. They could eat something after Kurt was done showering.
When he was looking at the menu of the Chinese restaurant, he heard his bedroom door open.
"Hey, Kurt. Are you hungry? We can order something…" When he looked up, there was Kurt, standing with his hair was all wet and messy. His beautiful pale cheek was rosy pink from the hot shower and the fact that he was wearing his clothes froze Blaine. That shirt and sweatpants were a little big for Blaine, but they fit perfectly well on Kurt who was taller than him. Oh God, could he look sexier than this?
"Your clothes fit me perfect. Thanks." Noticing Blaine's gaze, Kurt smiled shyly. He sat down next to Blaine on the couch, looking at the flyers on the table. "I'm not that hungry. You can order anything you want."
"Okay," Blaine realized he was just staring at Kurt, and forced himself to look down at the flyers in his hand. "I'm thinking about Chinese. Does that sound good to you?"
"Yeah," Kurt answered. "Get me some spring rolls. That's enough for me."
Blaine picked up his cell phone from the coffee table and called the Chinese restaurant. After he ordered their food, he hanged up the phone and put it back on the table. "They said it'll be here in about 30 minutes."
While they waited for their food, they decided to watch some DVDs of a TV show called Friends. This was one of Blaine's favorite shows. He always watched this when he had a bad day or didn't feel like doing anything. The show was funny and he didn't have to do anything but just relax and enjoy it. So he was hoping it would make Kurt relax too.
"I love Friends," Kurt said, watching the screen.
"Do you? I love it too! I've watched the whole show maybe three times already," Blaine said with bright eyes.
"Are you kidding? I've watched it 50 times at least," Kurt smirked.
"No, you didn't!" Blaine nudged Kurt with his shoulder.
"Fine, I didn't. But I totally would if it was possible. For me, no matter how many times I've seen an episode, it's just as funny as the first time," Kurt said and both boys laughed.
As they were told, the food arrived within half an hour. Kurt said he wanted to pay but Blaine didn't let him.
Blaine and Kurt comfortably sat next to each other and ate the food, watching the show. As time went, Kurt felt more relaxed and he enjoyed the show with Blaine. They laughed together every ten seconds when something hilarious happened.
"Are you going to go to work tomorrow, Kurt?" Blaine questioned, when they finished watching the first DVD and he put the second one into the DVD player.
Kurt drank his water and answered. "I was thinking of taking a few days off. I'll call Frank later."
"That's a good idea I think," Blaine said, sinking back on the couch.
As he hit the play button, the front door opened and Jeff was home from work.
"Hey, Jeff," Blaine turned around and greeted him.
"Hey, Blaine… And Kurt?" Jeff was surprised to see the unexpected person in his home.
"Hi, Jeff," Kurt said to him from the couch with a smile.
Blaine spoke. "Jeff. Kurt will be staying with us for a while, until…"
"That's perfectly okay. You don't have to explain," Jeff stopped Blaine, walking into the living room and looking at Kurt. "Kurt, please stay as long as you need."
"Thank you, Jeff," Kurt smiled.
"Wow, you guys were watching Friends? Can I join?" Jeff said with excitement, looking at the screen. He loved the showas well.
"Of course you can!" Blaine smiled widely and moved over to make room for Jeff on the couch. Now Blaine sat in the middle between Kurt and Jeff.
The three boys watched the show together for a while, laughing and making comments. It had been one of the most fun nights Blaine had had, despite the circumstances.
It was past midnight when Blaine felt weight on his right shoulder. He smiled to see Kurt sleeping, resting his head there.
"Hey, Kurt. Why don't you go to bed and sleep?" Blaine whispered softly. He didn't want to wake him up but sleeping on the bed would be much better for him.
"Oh… sorry, I didn't mean to fall asleep," Kurt pulled his body from Blaine and sat up straight.
"It's okay. You must be tired. Just go to bed and sleep," Blaine told him.
"Are you sure you don't mind if I use your bed?" Kurt asked.
"No, I don't mind at all. Go ahead," Blaine assured him, smiling.
Kurt nodded with a smile and stood up. "Goodnight, guys. And thank you again for letting me stay here."
"No problem, goodnight, Kurt," Jeff said.
"Goodnight," Blaine said too and watched Kurt go into his room.
"I'm glad he's staying here," Jeff told Blaine. "Where we know he's safe."
"Exactly," Blaine agreed.
"What's he going to do now?"
"I don't know. He wants to talk to Frank first, but he said he needed time before that."
"Fair enough. I just hope he makes the right decision."
"Me too."
After a while of watching the show, Blaine felt a sudden drowsiness. He remembered he didn't sleep at all last night because of all his thoughts. It was better for him to get some rest now too.
"Sorry, Jeff," Blaine told Jeff yawning. "I think I need to sleep too."
"Yeah, no worries," Jeff said and looked oddly at Blaine who was putting a pillow against the armrest and pulling a blanket over himself. "Are you sleeping here?"
"Yeah. Why?"
"I thought… Never mind. Goodnight," Jeff smiled at Blaine, waving it off and leaving for his room.
Blaine knew what Jeff was thinking. Just because he and Kurt had sex, Jeff assumed they would share a bed. No way. Blaine couldn't do that. Kurt was still married and they were nothing more than friends. They both knew that sex didn't mean anything, even though Blaine would never be able to forget that moment. The moment he and his dream man came true. It probably really didn't mean anything to Kurt. Blaine would never tell Kurt this, but to him, it was a special moment. A moment he wished would have never ended.
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A/N
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