A/N yup i know i said i won't continue this story but i was reading it again and felt kinda sad because this was my 1st fanfic and i want to complete this. So here is the mystery of joe's suicide

EPOV

WHAT!

Suicide…..

After bella said that Joe committed a suicide my mind went blank. But looking at her I don't know why but I got a feeling that there was more to it. My wicked angel looked broken and vulnerable at the moment. She was struggling to carry on. Though curiosity was burning within me I couldn't let bella hurt.

"You don't need to continue bella, you can continue when you are ready"

She gave me a sad smile and said;

"That's very sweet of you Edward. But the thing is I don't know if can ever be ready to talk about this and if I stop now I don't when I can gather up courage to talk about it again, so let me continue."

I just nodded.

"Joe was adopted, he wasn't my own brother. My parents tried to get pregnant but failed. Doctor said the possibility was really low. Apparently I am a miracle baby; my mother thinks that Joe was her lucky charm. He was 7 years older than me. By the time I was in high school he had finished his college and was well settled in Seattle. He was my best friend, guardian, and supporter all in all a best brother one could ask for" she said with a faraway look, most probably thinking about the good times with Joe. I gave her an encouraging smile and squeezed her hand.

"He was in a serious relationship with Jane. They met in college fell hard and fast for each other. It was the year Joe was planning to propose her when she died in a car accident. He was devastated he wouldn't eat anything or talk to anyone. I was the only person who could bring out some response from him. He left his job and came back to forks to stay with us. He was trying everyone could see that to survive, to live. And he did for six months." By now silent tears were flowing freely down on bella's face.

"It was the day I wasn't feeling well, I had a nagging feeling since I woke up in the morning. When I got too much I bunked school and got back. I called for Joe but he didn't answer I thought he must have went away to the beach like he does when he feels low. I went to room to crash down and get some sleep. But found a white paper lying there on my bed. It was a letter from Joe." God please tell me she didn't see it. She doesn't deserve it. I kept repeating this in my mind but some part of it knew this was what exactly happened

BPOV

Talking to Edward about this was really hard. But the harder part was yet to come. Talking about it felt like I went back to the day when I lost everything.

Flashback

I started to read the letter wondering why Joe wrote a letter to me instead of calling or texting me but the mystery was unveiled when I finished reading it.

"Bella,

By the time you will read this I may not be there to console you or give you my shoulder to cry on it. I can't do it any more Izzy bizzy it hurts every second feels like I am on fire. You know how much I love Jane I just can't fathom living in a world without her belly. I tried for mom, dad and most importantly YOU. I know you will be hurt and angry at me but you will understand it when you will find that person belly and I hope you do. I won't be there to threaten bodily harm to him if he hurts you but I know em and jazz will do it just fine. Please don't do anything stupid or reckless belly, and I am sorry I wish I could see your warm brown eyes once again before I close mine. But I don't its fair for you. I'll always be there watching over you. Take care, your stupid idiotic brother.

JOE "

NO! NO!

He can't do this to me, to mum, to dad! I won't let him. I ran out of my room but I was clueless where can he possible be! Then I remembered once when we were small Joe once said if I had to suicide I'll do it from this house because this is the place I got a life. I ran upstairs to the terrace. And there he was his hand was bleeding and he was on the verge of jumping when I screamed and fell on my knees.

He turned to look at me and smiled.

"God granted my last wish. Now that I have seen your face I can die happily"

"Please don't do this bro, PLEASE" I begged him.

"I am sorry belly" was the only thing he said and jumped.

And the only thing I remember was sitting beside his lifeless body covered in blood. Before everything went black.

I know the is kinda short but its important. It was very hard writing about joe's death :'(

I even cried a bit... Next chapter will be posted sometime in next week...

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