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When I feel like this, when I get so sick of myself
Where are you going then, without me
And not knowing then, that we're slowing down
You've got to turn right around
And tell me that I'm taken then
Tell me if I'm yours

Are You Ten Years Ago- Tegan and Sara

Day after Valentine's day, 6: 59 pm

She wakes up suddenly, jerking in her chair and sitting up straight. She listens closely to the noises in the hospital, she hears the nurses talking quietly outside the door at the nurses' station, the occasional voice over the PA paging a doctor and finally the steady peeping from her dad's machine. She studies the dark room and finally her eyes settle on a dark figure near the door.

It's Justin.

He walks toward her slowly, obviously wary of this action. "Hey," he whispers and hands her a Styrofoam cup filled with hot coffee.

She doesn't say anything, just takes a sip and burns her tongue. He sits on the foot of their father's bed and stares at his prone figure on the bed. Alex follows his gaze and watches the steady rise and fall of her father's chest with relief.

"I need to tell you something," he finally says, he doesn't look at her as he says it; instead he glances guardedly at the door.

"Okay, tell me."

He opens his mouth to begin but another person enters a room, some person she's never seen before. But the blonde can't be a nurse, she isn't in scrubs. "Baby," she coos her voice phony and husky, she sits in his lap wraps her arms around his body and kisses him forcibly on the lips, "Are you okay?" she finally asks after she pulls away.

Justin nods stiffly in the direction of Alex, "Jessica, this is my sister, Alex, Alex; this is Jessica, my fiancée."

He definitely doesn't look at her as he says this. Alex feels like she just swallowed a ton of ice. Jessica smiles at her and Alex hates her. She hates her name, and her long blonde hair, and her bright green eyes, and her long legs and she especially hates the possessive way she looks at Justin.

"Your fiancée?" She asks and tries to keep her tears at bay.

Justin doesn't answer her question, instead he asks, "Where's mom?"

Alex shakes her head, trying to gain some sense, "Umm, she went home. She needed to shower. And I told her…" she can't finish, she looks at Justin, "Your fiancée?"

Jessica bites her lip and looks between the brother and sister, "I thought you told them at Christmas?"

Justin looks at her briefly and swallows, "I did. But Alex went back to school early that morning. She was sick."

"Oh."

"Justin," Alex bites out, "Can I talk to you? Alone?" She sends Jessica a pointed look.

"Alex—"

"Now."

"Fine."

She drops her coffee in the trash as she storms out of the room, past the nurses and through a door leading to a deserted staircase. "Are you kidding me?!" She yells and pushes him back as hard as she can.

"What did you want me to do?" He asks her, his face full of conflicting emotions, "Sleep with you and then, 'Oh, by the way Alex, I'm getting married in the summer.' I couldn't do that to you."

"You could have told me no!" She exclaims.

"You were throwing yourself at me like some little slut! 'Come on Justin, just one night, that's all I need,'" he mocks, and it's almost like they're teens again, arguing about her doing magic when she wasn't supposed to.

Her mouth falls open and it only takes a second before she's slapping him, putting all of her weight into it. "I am not a slut! And you wanted me just as badly as I wanted you. You're the one that said yes!"

"It was a mistake, Alex! God, how thick are you?"

She begins to cry, slumps against the wall and falls to the floor, "I thought you loved me."

He crouches down beside her and tries to take her hands in his, she pulls away roughly and glares at him, "I do, I love you so much. But what I said that night, about wanting to marry you and have kids with you. You and I both know that can never happen. But I can have that with Jessica."

Her tears are steady now; she looks him in the eye and says, "I would wait forever for you." And with that she stands up and marches back to their father's room.

*****

Three days after Valentine 's Day, 2:35 pm

Jerry's sitting up in bed with Alex curled up by his right side, her head resting on her shoulder, he's back to his old self, telling Max some lame joke he heard from a nurse earlier that morning.

Theresa and Max laugh from their seats near his bed. Justin chuckles half heartedly from the end of the bed, his arm wrapped around Jessica's waist.

Alex tries hard not to glare or pay any attention really, she sighs contently and kisses her father's cheek, "I'm so glad you're okay, daddy," she says. And she calls him daddy because it comforts both of them. Jerry sobers mid laugh and brushes back his daughter's hair, kissing the top of her head before he glances around the room at his family, "Me too," he murmurs. They're all silent for a moment before Jerry starts a new joke and soon laughter fills the room again.

*****

End of February, 9:26 pm

She was invited to a few parties but she politely declined all invitations. She really didn't need to be surrounded by smoke and drunk imbeciles all night.

Instead she stays at her dorm, alternating between episodes of A Baby Story on TLC that make her cringe and reading from a pregnancy book she has hidden under her bed that makes her sick with worry. Who knew so many things could go wrong in a pregnancy?

*****

Later that night she's resting on the bathroom floor, breathing heavily after just puking everything in her body (well, that's what it feels like anyway). She doesn't understand why they call it morning sickness and she wants to punch the bastard that coined it that, she only ever gets sick at night. When she's sure she's done, she brushes her teeth and crawls back into bed.

She lifts her shirt up and stares at her abdomen; she has a small, barely noticeable bump there. She runs her hand over it and sighs.

*****

She goes to the doctor at the beginning of March. They tell her the size of the fetus, how much it weighs and tell her that today she gets to hear the tiny heartbeat.

She listens closely and cries when she hears the steady thump thump thump.

*****

Beginning of April, 10:28 am

Her baby moves now. How insane is that? She actually feels it doing stuff in there. She cries sometimes when she thinks about it. God, she hates these hormones. She hates her lack of sleep and she hates that her waistline is slowly disappearing, but she loves this baby.

The nurse comes in, they exchange a few pleasantries before she's asked to lift up her shirt and that freezing jelly stuff is squirted on her belly.

"Would you like to know the sex?"

She thinks about it briefly before she decides, "Yes," after all, she'd like to at least call it, he or she.

"Congratulations Ms. Russo, you're having a baby girl."

*****

Easter, 3:56 pm

The Russo's and Jessica are gathered around the table, finally sitting down to Easter dinner.

Alex is wearing a mid-length, loose dress that hides her extending stomach.

Conversation is going on all around her and when she sees Jessica rest her hand on Justin's thigh as he reaches for the potatoes she just blurts it, "I'm pregnant."

She almost laughs when Justin drops the bowl of potatoes in Jessica's lap.


A/N: I love you guys; you are so awesome, lol. So this chapter is a thanks to you and all of your wonderful reviews. Hopefully the next chapter will be up in a couple of days.