Emma's POV
Sitting on the beach I pull my knees to my chest staring out into the ocean as the waves crashed along the shore. Tears start rolling down my face and I can't stop them. Why now? Why was I thinking about Sean? Sean is my past and Spinner is my future. The flashbacks keep coming back. The first time we met, the first time we danced together, the first time we kissed, the first time we intimate, and the first time we were in love.
"Emma?"I turn around thinking it's Sean, but it's Spinner. My heart aches a little. "Emma what's wrong?" He said sitting next to me putting his arm around me.
I try hard to cry. "Do you still love Jane?' I asked.
"Where's this coming from?" Spinner asked worried.
"Just answer the question," I said.
"Well yeah I still love her I will always love her like how I will always love my other ex girlfriends, but you are the one for me," he smiled kissing me on the cheek."So now where's this all coming from?"
"Well at the beginning of the week I thought I saw Sean," Tears start rolling down my cheeks Spinner gets a stern look.
"Sean as in Sean Cameron the one who last time you saw him told you he loved you?"
I nod, "But then he disappeared in a blink of an eye and I guess I will always love him there is so much history like you said, but I think I think," that's when I lose it. I bury my face into his chest. My tears soak through his shirt.
"Oh babe," Spinner said consoling me and continue to cry.
"Spinner what if he's dead," I continue to cry. Spinner pulls away and looks me directly in the eyes he looked like he was going to cry any minute.
"Don't think like that babe, Sean is tough he's fine and if he isn't we all know he would want you to be happy."
I nod, "That's what Manny said."
"See if Manny said that, then we know it's true," Spinner said.
I sniffle and nod.
Spinner kisses me passionately and I kiss him back. He wraps his arm around my waist and I wrap mine around his neck. We continue kissing. A single tear runs down my face because I know that deep down inside Sean was my one true love and now he wasn't in my life.
Spinner takes me back to his place which would soon be the both of ours. The entire car ride is quiet. I turn the radio on to break the silence and Sean's and Mine song came on over the radio. It had been years since I had actually heard it, but here I sat in my fiancé's car listening to a song that belonged to me and the man I turned down.
She was just Jane
The song goes on I quickly change the station before I start to cry. That song brought back the memories the wedding that almost wasn't the kiss we shared it was just, just too hard I finally break down. Spinner pulls over and looks at me worried. We don't speak he wraps his arms around me trying to calm me down. He knew that song was mine and Sean's, but he felt for me because nobody knew what had been going on with Sean in the past three years. Spinner and him were friends at one point.
Once I finally calm down Spinner starts to drive again. I yawn I hadn't realize I hadn't gotten much sleep the past couple nights because I had been thinking about Sean. I slowly drift off to sleep as the car moves peacefully down the road.
I wake up in my own bed I look around Spinner must of dropped me off when I fell asleep. I look at the clock it read two in the morning. I get out of my bed and walk over to my closet. I find a shoebox I had kept for years and take the lid off. There are pictures and small things I had kept over the years. I smile down at the picture of Manny, Liberty, Toby, JT, and me from seventh grade. It seemed like so long ago. Now Manny is upcoming actress, Liberty is working for a law firm, Toby is working with a huge tech company, and JT was killed. JT Yorke the class clown the jokester I will never forget him.
It has been six years since JT's death and every year on his birthday and the anniversary of his death Manny, Liberty, Toby, and I go to the spot where JT took his last breath. We crying, we hug, we talk about the good times we had with JT, and then we all go to his grave and tell him what's been going on in our lives. Liberty even gotten in touch with the family that adopted hers and JT's son and Liberty always visits them and alls tells us and JT how much he is like JT. I think JT would be really proud of how far we have come.
I smile at more pictures the one Craig had taken of me and my real dad, Shane. I love Snake he is my dad too, but this picture means so much to me because it was when I found Shane. I visit him every week on Sunday. He helps me with my knitting and I tell him what's been going on in my life. He is a good listener. The only person other then Craig who I had brought to visit my dad was Sean because Sean and I were dating at the time and we wanted to spend every moment together since he got out of jail and I thought it would be perfect for him to meet my real dad. Shane loved Sean and Sean seemed to really love Shane too. It was great knowing Sean was close to both my dads.
At the bottom of the box are two pictures. Two pictures side by side. I want to cry so hard it hurts I try holding back the tears. The picture from Sean and mine first date. It was a total disaster, but it was a memorable one at that. It was my first date ever I was so nervous and then my mom would not stop taking pictures. The picture next to it was the picture that my parents took of Sean and I before he left for Afghanistan. I pick up both pictures and take them out of the box and then put the box away.
I take the two pictures and lay in my bed holding both of them close to my heart. "Sean I miss you," I barely said in a whisper crying. I cry myself back to sleep. It was four o'clock in the morning and tomorrow was wedding day.
Sean's POV
Tomorrow was the day the day I was going to win Emma back. Win her back for good. Spinner was a good friend, but he knew how I felt for Emma. Emma was my world. I remember the last moments we were together when her parents had taken the picture for us. The look in her eyes she had feelings for me and I had feelings for her. She said she moved on, but I knew she wasn't over me and I wasn't over her.
I pace back in forth thinking of the perfect thing to say to Emma when I see her. Jay walks into the room.
"What's up my man," Jay said.
"I'm done staying in hiding I am going to get her back," I said.
Jay looks at me seriously. "Seany boy my lady will kill you if you ruin Emma's big day and then she will kill me."
"Jay I heard Emma talking to Manny yesterday saying that she still loved me and that she thought I was dead," I tried not to cry.
"She thinks your dead?" Jay asked.
"Apparently and she said that I was her one and only true love," I said. "I can't lose her again man not again," I look at him serious.
"You still go and ruin her wedding," Jay said.
"What if it was Manny getting married you would do the same thing," I said.
Jay looked down then looked back at me knowing I was right. "Probably do the same thing you are going to do," Jay murmured.
"I have to do this Jay," I said.
"Then you have my blessing, but I don't know how you are going to get pass Manny," Jay smirked.
"I got past her before when Emma was with Peter, I think I can do it again," I smirked back.
Manny walks into the room. "Sean you are going to leave tonight,"
"What! Why?" Sean asked. "I've been a good boy."
"That may be true, but Emma is going to be here bright and early in the morning to get ready for the wedding and we need the guestroom for people to get change and stuff," Manny said.
"Why aren't you guys doing it at Emma's place?" I asked.
"Well because all of the bride maids' dresses and the wedding dress are here and so is the hair pieces and everything so we are doing it here," Manny said.
"Then where am I supposed to go? I can't go to Emma's because Emma is there," I smirked.
"Well Jay and you can go stay at a motel for the night," Manny said.
"Why do I have to go with him," Jay said.
"Because unless you want to be in a household with a bunch of woman talking about hair make up and wedding stuff," Manny started to say.
"I'll go stay with Sean in a motel," Jay said quickly.
So Jay and I packed up my stuff and we went in search of a motel in Jay's car. When we came up to my old place and it was up for sale. I made Jay stop the car and I got out and went to talk to the landlord explaining who I was and he remembered and I told him how I was in the military and if there was any way I could get my place back for a reasonable price. The guy was a softy for guys in the military so I got the place and when we walked in it was as if I had never left. Everything was where it had been except it had been cleaned up a bit. I drop my stuff on my bed and smile remembering this place. The last time I had been here was right before I went to Wasaga.
Jay took the guest room and walked back into the living room. I sat on the couch.
"It feels good to be home," I said sitting on the couch.
"Yeah well I miss my home," Jay said.
"You don't miss your home you miss Manny," I smirked.
"Can you blame me," Jay said.
"Nah not really I haven't been with Emma in three years, how do you think I feel?" I said.
"Sorry man," Jay said.
"It's alright man," I said. "Tomorrow I'll get her back I just know it."
