CPOV
I must have dozed off at some point during the movie because the next thing I know is that I'm being gently shaken awake by Sebastian.
I was still sitting on his lap and my head was resting on his arm while he cradled me.
"Good to see you're awake babe." Sebastian smirked at me.
I sat up and rubbed my eyes a little and looked around the room.
The TV was off and Jace was still nowhere to be found.
Sebastian started rubbing his hands up and down my arms slowly.
Still fighting to keep my eyes open I turned my head to look at him, "How long have I been asleep?" I asked biting back a yawn.
"Since Jace left." Sebastian answered.
I nodded my head, still tired, Sebastian placed a soft kiss to my forehead.
"Look, Sebastian, I'm still kind of tired so how about I see you later?" I asked quietly.
I held back another yawn as I looked at him.
Sebastian didn't answer immediately and his hands stopped rubbing up and down on my arms as he stared at me.
It was an uncomfortable stare and I fought to not squirm under it.
"Fine." Was Sebastian's only answer as I stood up.
He stood up as well and walked away.
Moments later I heard the door shutting.
What was his problem?
Too tired to care I slowly made my way up the stairs.
As I was walking down the hallway to my bedroom Jace called out to me.
"Is your boy toy gone now?" Jace asked crudely.
I sighed and turned around to look at him not in the mood for anymore shit today.
"He's not my boy toy, but yes he is gone since you did such a great job watching us." I informed scowling at him.
I looked up to see Jace standing outside of Jon's room with his arms crossed over his chest.
We didn't say anything, and after another minute I turned to go into my bedroom.
"What are you doing?" Jace asked suddenly.
He sounded a lot closer now than he had been.
I turned my head to see him now about two feet in front of me.
Glaring I answered, "I'm taking a nap. What do you think I'm doing? It doesn't concern you."
"As long as you're not sneaking Sebastian into your room then it doesn't concern me." Jace snapped out.
"I'm not a freaking slut. Damn." I growled.
I turned my head and hit my forehead on the door once before turning to look back at Jace.
He looked like he was about to say something, but I spoke up, "Could you just get off my case?"
Jace stared at me for a minute, "No."
"Excuse me?" I asked scrunching my face up in confusion at him.
"I said 'no.'" Jace reiterated, "you're Jon's sister and I told him that I'd watch out for you while he was gone. Jon still cares about you even though he can be a jerk and I'm just trying to keep that promise to watch over you." He explained.
"Whatever." I muttered pushing through into my bedroom.
Without a second thought going through my head I laid down and went to sleep too tired to care about arguing with Jace right now.
JPOV
After Clary told Sebastian and I to shut up and watch the movie I got up and went to Jon's room to get away from the two of them.
I'm not sure why I was so pissed off about Sebastian coming over in the first place.
Maybe it's because I don't want Clary to be another one of Sebastian's play toys.
Surely Jon saw this coming. How could he not have?
If he would have just kept his damn mouth shut Clary more than likely would have said no.
But of course Jon had to speak up.
Clary's always been defiant; she has been for as long as I've known her.
Jon used to try and boss her around and she'd turn around and do the exact opposite thing he asked, so of course when he said that she'd tell Sebastian no she'd turn around and say yes.
She didn't seem that objective to Sebastian though when he was here.
I stood outside Clary's door deciding whether or not I should try and continue to talk to her.
Jon should be back soon, and then I'd be free to go home or do whatever I wanted to do.
Jon wasn't that great of a big brother to Clary.
Their parents weren't ever really here either; however, it never appeared to affect the two of them.
I rarely saw my dad after we left him.
The one time I finally convinced my mom to go with me to see him I lost both of my parents.
-Flashback-
"Mommy will you please come with me to visit daddy?" I begged my mother tugging on her pants leg.
"No sweetie not today; I'm sorry." My mother smiled down at me sadly.
A frown formed on my face as I looked up at her expectantly, "Mommy please? You always say not today, but that day that you will doesn't seem to be coming anytime soon. I don't know understand why you can't just come with me? What's so wrong with daddy?" I asked stubbornly.
Mommy looked down at me and appeared to think about how to answer my question.
I flopped down on the floor in devastation at her not coming again. My eyes full of sadness waited her answer.
"Okay Jace, I'll come with you this once" I couldn't help the smile that consumed my face at her words, "but you must realize that your daddy and I don't get along anymore." Mother kneeled down so she was on eye level with me, "Your dad did a bad thing and I can't be with him anymore, okay sweetie?"
"No, I don't understand." I told her honestly.
Does this have to do with the cheating thing they were yelling about the other night? I don't know why it's so bad. I've cheated on my tests before and they helped me get good grades.
I know you're not supposed to, but is daddy cheating really that bad of a reason to leave him?
Fear struck through me: what if mommy leaves because I cheated on my test?
I looked up at my mom with wide eyes.
"What's wrong honey?" She asked cupping my face with both of her hands.
There was a crease between her eyebrows as she frowned at me.
"Are you going to leave me to?" I asked hesitantly.
I didn't want to be alone. I want my mommy to always be with me.
"No, sweetie, why would I leave you?" Mom asked confused.
"Well you left daddy because he cheated, and I've cheated too, mommy. I'm so sorry please, please, please don't leave me too. I won't do it again. I'm sorry mommy." I rushed out.
I was panting a little after saying all of that and stared at my mommy worriedly.
To my surprise she got a small smile on her face, "Oh sweetie, of course I won't leave you! Daddy's cheating was a different type of cheating baby. It's a worse type of cheating, but you're too young to understand about it right now. One day, when you're old enough, I'll explain to you. Okay baby?" Mommy asked me sweetly.
"Okay mommy." I answered relieved that I wouldn't be left.
"Are you ready to go see your father now sweetie?" Mommy asked me while she began to stand up.
I nodded enthusiastically at the prospect of mommy and daddy and I being together again.
Grabbing mommy's hand I started pulling her out to the car so we could get there as soon as possible.
As we were driving to dad's house mommy seemed to get tenser the closer we got to his house which didn't make any sense.
Was she still upset over his cheating? She forgave me quickly.
The type of cheating that daddy did couldn't have been that bad, could it?
Before I knew it we were parked outside in the driveway of dad's house, and I quickly unbuckled my seatbelt throwing open my door and rushing outside.
When I turned around, mom was still sitting in the car.
I ran over to her door and opened it for her, "Come on mommy, let's go see dad! You said you would you can't just leave me now!" I frowned up at her.
She looked down at me and smiled, "I supposed I can't."
Mommy took her time unbuckling her seat belt, turning the car off, and joining me.
As soon as her car door was closed though I grabbed her hand and began pulling her towards the front door.
Feeling really excited I knocked on dad's door quickly and was practically bouncing while I waited for him to open the door.
When he opened the door, there was a smile on his face that fell as soon as his eyes met mommy's.
"Daddy aren't you happy to see mommy?" I asked confusedly tugging on his hand to get him to look at me.
Dad looked down at me and gave me a tight smile, "Of course son."
His smile looked more like a grimace the longer he held it.
"Well can we come in and you and I can play?" I asked while I waited for dad to let us in.
This seemed to snap daddy out of whatever phase he was in because he was opening the door for us like he always does for me.
"What would you like to do Jace?" Daddy asked me kindly after he shut the door behind us.
"Hm… Could we watch a movie and then play games later?"
Maybe if we watched a movie the tension between mommy and daddy would go away sooner than if we played a game.
"Of course son; what would you like to watch?" Dad was looking at me and I dropped mommy's hand moving away from her to grab my dad's.
Daddy and I started walking towards the living room, and I turned around to see mother falling silently behind us with her hands clasped in front of her.
I thought about what I wanted to watch for a minute; there were so many options that I wasn't sure what to watch!
"Daddy?" I asked looking up at him.
I finally decided which movie I wanted to watch.
"Yes?" He looked back down at me with a smile on his face.
"Can we watch Thomas The Train?"
Dad let out a little laugh, "Of course son."
I beamed at him and sat down on the couch while he pulled out the movie.
Mommy stood in the middle of the living room looking around.
I smiled at her. Silly mommy you're supposed to sit when you watch the movie.
Hopping up from my spot on the couch I walked over to her and grabbed her hand.
Then I proceeded to bring her to sit on the couch to my right.
Daddy walked over after the movie started playing and sat down on my left.
We all sat there watching the movie peacefully in silence.
That peaceful silence soon ended though when the movie had finished and the credits were rolling on the screen.
"Jace?" Dad asked me.
"Yes daddy?"
"Can you go play outside, so I and your mother can have a word?"
I frowned up at dad and then looked at mommy who was giving daddy a mean look.
"I won't be for long, son." Dad said reassuringly.
"Well, okay, but not long because it's my day to spend time with you!"
Dad smiled at me, "It is your day to spend time with me so we'll make it fast."
"Okay." I smiled happy with the fact that it wouldn't be taking them too long to have their adult talk.
I hopped off the couch for the second time that day and turned around.
I walked over to mommy and gave her a hug, "I love you mommy." I said quietly.
"I love you too sweetie." She smiled at me and placed a gentle kiss on my forehead.
Usually I didn't tell my parents I loved them, but I felt like right now they needed to hear it.
There was just a feeling in the pit of my stomach that I needed to say it to them.
"I love you daddy." I said softly as I gave him a hug.
My dad didn't reciprocate the feelings, but gave me a hug.
Instead of saying "I love you too" he whispered, "To love is to destroy, and to be loved is to be destroyed."
Then he kissed the top of my head.
As I was outside swinging on the swing set in the front yard I heard a crackling noise.
I hopped off the swing set and turned to look at the house.
To my absolute horror daddy's house was on fire and it was spreading rapidly.
Neither of my parents were outside, so that meant that they were inside.
My heart began to race and tears began to prick my eyes.
"Mommy?" I screamed.
"Daddy?" I screamed again.
I kept yelling their names over and over hoping that they'd come outside.
"Mommy, daddy!" I yelled helplessly as my tears began to fall.
Distantly I could hear sirens going off.
I was close enough to the house that I could feel the heat of the flames against my face.
Sweat was dripping down my forehead and mixing with my tears.
Running closer to the house to see if I could find them I tried yelling again.
"Mommy, daddy, please come outside! Please, I love you! You said you wouldn't leave me mommy! I'm sorry for cheating! Daddy you said it would only take a minute come outside! Come outside, I need you! Please!"
I started to run up to the porch, but tripped over a rock and skinned my knees.
It stung a lot, but it didn't hurt as much as the constricting pain on my chest that was getting tighter and tighter with each passing second.
"Please come outside! I love you! Mommy? Daddy?" I begged and begged for them to come outside again.
Pushing myself up off the ground I started running towards the house again.
The fire was spreading rapidly and in my heart I knew that if they weren't out by now they weren't going to come out of their alive at all.
Before I could run any closer to the house I was being picked up and carried away.
"Mommy! Daddy! I need my mommy and daddy! Put me down!" I screamed horrifically at the person who had me captivated.
I began kicking, and thrashing, and punching my captor.
My kicking must have worked because when I kicked him one more time he groaned and dropped me.
The man was tall so I fell and hit the ground hard, landing on my wrist.
I screamed in pain at the fire that shot down my arm, but I knew it was nothing to how mommy and daddy must feel right now.
Pushing myself up with my left hand I began running again.
I didn't trip this time and thought I would be able to make it to mommy and daddy's rescue only to be caught by somebody else.
The smoke that was rolling off the house was stuck in my lungs and I began coughing.
My hair was matted with sweat.
I began screaming again though.
"Mommy, daddy! I love you, please don't die, I need you! Don't leave me, please!" I cried and screamed.
Fighting my captor was useless though.
As I looked around I saw police officers, and fire fighters, and an ambulance with medics running around.
Suddenly the fight left me and I knew the situation was hopeless.
I gave up on screaming and let the tears fall down my face silently.
Why did I have to bring mommy with me today? Why couldn't mommy and daddy have just stayed in their old home together?
My captor walked me over to one of the two ambulances parked on the curb.
"Son, what's your name?" My captor asked as he set me down.
I held my right arm awkwardly because my wrist still hurt, but now it was hurting a lot more.
Trying to fight back the tears I answered, "J- J- Ja-ce." I hiccupped out.
"Well Jace the paramedic here is going to check you out okay?" He asked kindly.
"What about mommy and daddy?" I wailed.
I tried to jump off the ambulance to run towards the house again, but the man holding me grabbed me and set me back down.
He gestured quickly to the paramedic and told her something to quiet for me to hear.
Next thing I knew there was a prick in my arm and then everything went black.
All of my pain was gone, and my brain wasn't thinking.
-End of Flashback-
Shrugging off the horrendous memories of that day I knocked on Clary's door.
When she didn't answer I slowly pushed the door open and peeked in.
She was asleep on her bed lying on her back.
Clary looked a lot more at rest that way than she had when Jon was here and when she was awake this morning.
I wonder what thoughts go through Clary's head when no one's looking.
I wish my thoughts didn't go through my head.
I could still feel the heat of the flames and feel the sweat or my forehead now.
I was still able to feel the soot on my face and the pain of breaking my wrist.
To this day I could remember how it felt to even scrape my knees.
That was only the beginning of a life of hell though.
When it happened, I thought it couldn't get worse.
As I grew older, to my dismay, it got a whole lot worse.
That was only the beginning of a life of hell.
The last thing that my dad said to me that day stayed in my heart from that moment on, and now I still remember it.
To love is to destroy, and to be loved is to be destroyed.
I feel that I got my groove back on towards the end of the chapter. The beginning was all bleh. :/ God.
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