Hello, everyone! I bet you thought it would be a lot longer for the next chapter to come out! HA! This one is a bit shorter but is still packed with the usual drama. Enjoy~

Previously:

Julia

I cross my arms from the slight chill in the room and continue to pace when I suddenly bump into something and stumble back slightly.

I catch my balance and look up to see Koenma.

My eyes widen drastically and my thoughts start to race.

Oh, God...! It's really him! Koenma! In my room! This is really real! I still had my doubts, but...!

I try not to start hyperventilating out of extreme anxiety.

This is really happening! It's really happening!

I clench my fists out of frustration for myself.

Get it together! You're here to convince him to let Kurama see you!


I blink down at the girl in front of me and grin a bit from her anxiety, "Hello. I am Lord Koenma, ruler of Spirit World."

I bow a bit before raising back up. "You must be Julia."


All I do is stare at Koenma with probably the most bewildered expression I've ever made.

He's actually real...!

I practically scream in my head, and blink before nervously yet quickly bowing back to him. Also, I'm pretty sure I'm blushing too.

He's handsome...!

After my bow, my entire body freezes. I don't know what to do. My mind goes blank.

"U-um... Uh... Uh..."


I smirk at her and gently place my hands in my pockets. "You wanted to speak with me?"


I swallow hard and squeeze my eyes shut for a few moments to gather some courage.

I have to do this...

I take a deep breath and open my eyes again, trying my hardest to hold eye contact with the ruler in front of me.

"Y-yes..." I clench my fists to stop them from shaking.

Damn it... Quit being a baby!

I furrow my brows, staring Koenma directly in his eyes.

"I want to see Kurama physically, in this dimension."


The smirk on my face remains as I watch her try to gather her courage to speak to me.

Am I really this awesome? Heheh...

My smirk quickly vanishes, however, upon hearing her request, and I narrow my eyes slightly at her.

"...I see. Why should I allow this? I am not sure if you are aware, but travel between our dimensions is entirely forbidden."


I swallow again, losing all of the courage I had just built up.

"I... I know... B-but..."

My stomach knots itself in pure anxiety and my mind goes blank.

What do I say...?

"I-It's just... Um..."

I look down to the floor, tears starting to well up in my eyes from nervousness and just plain sadness at the fact he probably won't allow it. Especially if I keep acting this way...


I watch her stutter and once I see tears forming behind her eyes, a dull pain emerges in my chest. Letting out a small sigh I quickly glance away to stare out her bedroom window. My eyes then fall on Kurama who is staring at the girl with a heart-wrenching expression.

...Can I really be cruel enough to keep this relationship from being possible? I know it is what I'm supposed to do as the Ruler of the Spirit World, but...

My gaze softens a bit before I let my eyes fall back onto the deeply saddened human girl before me.

They clearly love each other more than I had originally thought... It's almost like... They were made for each other...

Sighing once again, I gently rub the back of my neck and start sucking on my pacifier roughly out of anxiety.

...Gah! What should I do...?!


I wipe my eyes roughly, feeling mad at myself and the situation in general. Despite my efforts to not cry, the tears continue to spill and I look up at Koenma with a mixture of anger and sadness.

I'm tired of all this... I've gone through so much pain... I can't do it anymore...

I glare at Koenma and grab him by his shirt, bringing his face down to my level.

"Are you really so cruel to do this?! After everything I've been through?! Did you come here just to say "fuck you" to my face?!"


As she begins to cry, the pain that had begun to form in my chest accelerates.

...Oh, boy... Please don't cry...

Quickly trying to regain my composure, I let out a surprised grasp as she yanks me down to look into her eyes. Blinking back at her in shock and suddenly feeling slightly afraid for some reason, I try to register what she had just said.

After a few seconds of staring at her with wide eyes, I narrow them again.

"Listen... It isn't because I don't like you or because I want to keep you apart. It is because it could allow some very bad things, or rather beings, into this dimension. If they were to discover that a portal could lead them here, then demons could begin making a home of this place. This world is under very different rule than ours, and there is no Defensive Force to protect this world from the beings in our own."

Sighing again, I place a hand gently on her own and give her a sympathetic look.

"...I understand that you have endured a lot of pain, and I am incredibly sorry for that. Honestly, I do personally wish that you and Kurama could be together. After seeing the both of you together just a few moments ago, I feel as though you were made for one another."


My body starts to shake and I feel the usual depressive numbness start to come over me again as I release my grip on him and fall to my knees on the floor.

I stay quiet for a few moments, my eyes and face remaining wet.

"I... I know you mean well..."

I stare at my colorful rug, though my vision is blurry.

"I... j-just..."

I pull my knees to my chest, burying my face in them.

"I just want to be happy... for once..."

I quietly sob, feeling totally hopeless.

"T-there has t-to be a way... There has to... E-even if I have to go to his dimension instead..."


I watch her sadly as she collapses to her floor and the tears streaming down her face further tug at my heart strings. I can only stand there looking down at her, not knowing what to say. Kurama kneels down beside her and attempts to hug her close, his arms only going through her.

...They both seem so miserable without each other...

Swallowing roughly, I take in a deep breath and let it out slowly as she mentions going to our dimension. Blinking at her in slight surprise, I think it over.

"...You would be willing to leave your family and everyone here to be with Kurama...?"


I feel a weird, tingling, cold sensation come across me but I ignore it, looking up at Koenma miserably.

"Yes... I would..."

...It's not like I have anyone here anyway... Except my mom and nana...

"I w-would give up everything..."

I can't tell if he was asking out of surprise or if he's really thinking it over, but his response plants the tiniest seed of hope in my heart.

I want to be happy...


I stare down at her for a long moment, even more certain now that they should be together.

If she were to come to our dimension, then Kurama would have no reason to travel to this dimension... Thus, no Demons would be able to pass through after them...

Biting on my pacifier, I continue to ponder it over.

However, there will be the problem of erasing her family's memories of her... She would have to be completely erased from existence in this dimension. She could never be allowed to return, either...

Sighing, I begin to feel extremely frustrated.


I let out a long, shaky breath, attempting to stop crying.

Crying won't help anything. So stop.

...That thought reminds me of my father. He used to just scowl at me and say "Stop blubbering." How comforting.

I wipe my eyes again and again, trying to dry them. My face feels puffy.
After a few moments of trying to calm myself, I weakly stand up, looking out the window at the street light.

...If he says no... I don't know if I can take it...

I then look to my Kurama poster, remembering all the times Jessica and I role-played, me fussing over him and getting furious when I saw him paired with someone else... It makes me let out a breathy and bitter laugh.


I watch her as she stands up and follow her gaze to see a poster of Kurama on her wall. Blinking at it for a few seconds, I turn to look at her once again and sigh heavily.

"...I can allow you to come to our dimension, if that is what you truly desire. However... all evidence of your existence here will have to be completely erased and you will never be able to return to this dimension..."

Giving a small sigh, I continue.

I can't believe I am allowing this... but I feel like a monster to be keeping her from Kurama...

"...If you are certain you are okay with that... I will bring you back with us. I will give you some time to think it over."

Furrowing my brows a bit, I start to wonder what I should do about Hiei and the ghost girl he has fallen for.

...Hiei isn't one to fall in love easily... But perhaps his feelings for this girl aren't very strong and he will give up...?


I look at him, feeling the hope grow. I feel like crying again; this time from happiness.

"You... You'll really do that?"

I can't believe this is happening and out of my joy I walk forward and hug (more like squeeze) Koenma, more tears coming out now but for a different reason. I let a small smile creep onto my face, but it doesn't last long as I ponder what he said.

My existence will be erased...

I continue to hug him, not really realizing it.

I wonder if it would even change anything...

And I'd never be able to come back... Would that be... Okay...? His universe has just the same thing as ours, right? So it wouldn't be a problem...right?

Starting to feel anxious, my mind forces me to imagine the things that might happen if I had never existed at all.


Blinking down at her, I can't help but smile a bit as she hugs me. Soon after, though, I feel like I can no longer breathe.

"Yes, I would do that... But it is only if you are alright with it. This is quite a big decision to have to make, so you will need time to think it over..."

...This girl has quite a strong grip...!

"Ah... I'm... Having trouble breathing...!"


I snap out of my thoughts and look up at him.

"I don't think I need any more time to decide."

I blink at him a bit and let go with a nervous laugh. "Sorry..."

I try to cast the more nervous thoughts out of my head and attempt to focus on what good may come of this.

I'd be with Kurama... The only person I'll ever love...

And I'd be able to meet everybody... I could start my life over... Hopefully for the better.

My thoughts stop for a second.

...Well, I think anything would be better than this...


Smiling a bit, I try to catch my breath after she lets go of me and my gaze falls on Kurama, who gives me a gracious smile. Nodding my head to him, I wave my hand to cast a temporary spell on him. Turning back to Julia, I shove my hands into my pockets.

"...I have made Kurama visible to you while you give this matter some thought. It will only be temporary, however... I am going to give you until tomorrow night to make your decision."

Turning my back to her, I give her a slight wave as I exit her bedroom and make my way back outside.

...Now there is only the matter of Hiei and his "Spirit Girl"...

Sighing a bit frustratedly, I look around for the two of them; not exactly looking forward to the next conversation.

Why do I get the feeling I will be getting yelled at by Hiei? Before getting beaten to a bloody pulp...? Well... Maybe his feelings for her aren't very strong...?


Kurama

I watch Koenma as he waves his hand and raise a curious brow. My eyes light up a bit and I feel a small smile form on my lips as he explains that he has made me visible to her and I quickly turn to gaze down at her.

...I wonder what she will choose...


Julia

I blink at Kurama as he suddenly appears, making me jump slightly.
After quietly watching Koenma leave, I turn to Kurama, looking up at him with the most hopeful face I've made in a very long time.

"Did you hear all of that...?"


I give her a small nod and raise a hand to stroke the side of her face.

"I did..."


I take his hand in mine, pressing my face into it.

"I want to be with you, in your dimension..."

Gazing into his eyes, I lean forward and press myself against him in a hug.

He's so warm...


I can't help but gaze down at her with a bright smile on my face upon hearing those words. Burying my face gently into her hair, I close my eyes; breathing her in.

"Are you certain this is what you want...?"

I raise my hands to wrap my arms around her; pulling her closer to me.


I nod and press my face against his chest, closing my eyes.

"Yes, I'm positive..."

I lay my hands on his chest.

"I know it'll be hard... It'll be like I never existed here. I won't have a past anymore... But... I'll do anything to be with you."


I gently kiss the top of her head before burying my face into her hair once again.

"...Thank you..."

An idea suddenly comes to my mind and I pull away slightly to gaze into her eyes.

"...If you would prefer... I could be the one to stay here... That way you wouldn't have to part ways with your family."

I blink at him before shaking my head slightly.

"I wouldn't want you to do that... You have a lot more friends and family there than I have here..."

I reach my hand up to rub his cheek gently.

"Don't worry about it... It'll be starting a new life for me. One that's better than the one I have here."

I lower my hand again and nuzzle my face into his neck.

"Yeah, I'll be sad about it... But all in all, the only thing I want is to be with you... Even if it means wiping out my existence here."


I lean my face into her warm hand gently, and smile down at her.

"As you wish..."

Pulling her back into my arms, I sigh into her hair happily.

I am excited to be with her, yet I still feel saddened to make her leave her loved ones...


I close my eyes again, enjoying being able to relax even if only a little.

"You'll let me stay with you, right...?"

I try my best not to worry, but I start to think of things like money and clothes. And does he have two beds?

I blush a little at the thought.

...He probably only has one...

I close my eyes a little tighter.

We'd sleep in the same bed together...

I smile a bit, starting to think of other things.

We'd both go to school, and at home he could help me with math... and then I'd make dinner, and then we could go to bed together like a married couple...

Though...I will really miss my family... But... I shouldn't worry about it, since they won't even know I exist...

I start to frown again.

All those memories, gone to waste... All this stress and abuse I've had to deal with... All for nothing?


A soft chuckle escapes my lips and I gently nod my head.

"Of course... Where else would you stay?"

My heart flutters a bit, imagining living with her. Like a married couple...

...We would have to share a bed... Unless I sleep on my couch. I guess I will leave it up to her when the time comes...


Jessica

Fumbling a bit with the ruffles of my white dress, I stare nervously down at the ground.

...Koenma seemed really upset... I mean REALLY upset...

I let out a deep worried sigh, when I see movement coming from Julia's house. Raising my eyes to look, I see Koenma walking toward us and tense up a bit.


Hiei

I gaze at the woman beside me before following her line of vision to see Koenma. I feel my body tense and stare at him, slightly curious as to how Kurama's situation went.

Great. He looks frustrated...

I try to remain hopeful but I know that that will probably make things harder for us.


Koenma

I slowly make my way toward the two of them, seeing they are still in the tree they were in before. Trying to figure out how to go about this situation is beginning to make my head hurt.

...Well, let's get this over with...

Narrowing my eyes a bit, I focus my vision on the dead human girl at his side.

"...I assume you know that Hiei is breaking our rules by coming here to see you. I came here to observe you and see if it would be tolerable for you to be together. However..."

I focus my gaze on Hiei, and give him a slight glare.

"...He failed to mention that you are DEAD."


Jessica

I nod my head to Koenma, feeling incredibly nervous and afraid of what he has to say. A sharp pain enters my chest upon hearing him say the word 'dead' so bitterly. Lowering my head sadly, I open my mouth to speak in a quiet tone.

"...It's not like I asked to die..."


Hiei

I glare back at Koenma, putting an arm around Jessica protectively.

"And? What are you going to do?"


Koenma

My gaze softens just a bit upon seeing Hiei wrap his arm around the girl.

Hm... He is protective of her... This may be more difficult than I had thought.

"I have allowed Julia to come to our dimension if she chooses. However..."

I turn my eyes back to the sad looking spirit beside him once more.

"...You are dead. A spirit. Because of that I am afraid I cannot allow you to be together."

Jessica

Raising my eyes again to look at Koenma, the pain in my chest grows stronger. Feeling tears fighting to escape from my eyes, I feel my hands begin to tremble in my lap.

...He won't let us be together... I...guess I'm just fated to be miserable for the rest of my existence...

Trying to hold back my tears, I swallow roughly. Within seconds, though, I feel them burning my cheeks as they escape from my eyes. Staring down at Koenma through my blurry vision, I can only silently cry.


Hiei

My grip on Jessica tightens as Koenma responds, anger building up in the pit of my stomach.

I look at her out of the corner of my eye before turning my vision back to the toddler king with a glare.

"So that's it?"

I growl slightly, hopping off the tree to see Koenma face-to-face.

"Can't you revive her?!" I clench my fists again, not even bothering to keep my voice down.


(Meanwhile)

Julia

I smile warmly at him and look up to see his face, but flinch slightly when I hear a voice outside. I turn to look at the windows before looking back at Kurama.

"Was that Hiei...?"

...Oh, shit...
I start to feel nervous. And worried. About Jessica.


Kurama

My eyes widen a bit as well, hearing Hiei's angry voice from outside. My stomach knots up a bit as I remember that Jessica is dead.

Koenma might not allow her the same offer...

Giving Julia a worried expression, I gently nod my head.

"Yes... It seems Koenma is not so lenient with him..."


Koenma

I tense a bit, feeling a bit of fear from the fire demon's anger.

He may be short, but he could disintegrate me in a matter of seconds...

"I can... But if she is dead, then she needs to move on and be judged. Not revived."


Jessica

My eyes widen a bit from hearing the anger in his voice and I hesitantly float down to stand at his side. Nervously resting a hand on his shoulder, I look back at Koenma.

"...I know that you don't know me and I know that I probably don't deserve any happiness..."

I try to blink away more tears as they roll down my cheeks.

"...But, please... Let me be with Hiei...!"

My lower lip begins to tremble, along with my entire body. Feeling my knees shake underneath me, I tightly close my eyes and drop to my knees. Hanging my head, I can't help it as more tears force there way out mixing with my heart-wrenching sobs now escaping from my chest.

"...I'm begging you, Koenma! Please...! All I ever wanted more than anything when I was alive... was to be able to be with Hiei... So, please..."


Hiei

I look over to Jessica, and blink as she falls to the ground. I step over and put a hand on her back before turning to Koenma again.

"Don't you care what she wants?! What I want?! Why would you give Kurama a break, but not us?!"


Julia

I gently let go of Kurama and get on my bed to look out the window cautiously.

"Do you think... We should go out there...?"

I can tell from here that the news wasn't good... at all. Hiei's anger just adds to my anxiety, though I can't help but feel a bit of sadness for him. I look to Koenma but his back is facing the window.

"This isn't good..." Turning away from the window, I cast Kurama a nervous gaze.


Kurama

I follow her gaze and stop beside her window, eying the scene before us.

"I am unsure... If we were to step in, it might just make things worse..."

I look back at Julia, seeing her nervous expression and rest a hand on her shoulder.


Koenma

My eyes widen in shock as she begins to beg me, and her sobs make me feel a pain in my chest again.

..It's just like with Kurama's girl... She really does love Hiei...

Attempting to ignore the accelerating pain in my chest, I turn my gaze back to Hiei.

"I never said that I did not care... As I said, it is different in her case than with Kurama's, since this girl is a ghost."

Sighing frustratedly, I kneel down in front of the girl before me and rest a hand on her head.

"Hiei... If I bring this girl back to life and allow her to be with you... What do you plan to do?"

I give him a very serious look.

"You live in the Demon World and work for Mukuro. She cannot stay in the Demon World with you... and if you were to change your mind about your feelings for this girl, it will put me in quite a predicament..."


Jessica

I gasp a bit past my sobs and slowly raise my head to look at Koenma as he rests his hand on my head. Slowly turning my head, I let my teary eyes gaze into Hiei's.

...He's right... We would be apart for weeks at a time, if not longer...

My heart clenches in pain and I begin to become overwhelmed with even more sadness at my next thought.

...What if he gets annoyed with me...? What if he changes his mind, and decides he doesn't love me...?


Hiei

Huffing, I continue to stare at Koenma, refusing to break my gaze.

"I'm not going to change my mind about her. I never will."

I let out a long breath, trying to sort out my mind.

"...I'd be willing to give up living in Demon World. I'd tolerate Human World just to be with her."

I look down to my feet, suddenly feeling a bit defeated.

He isn't going to allow it, is he...?


Jessica

My heart flutters a bit from hearing Hiei's words and I stare up at him in shock for a moment.

"...Hiei... You would do all of that...for me...?"


Julia

I put my hand on his before taking his other and pulling him onto the bed with me. I open one of the windows and lean a bit close to try to hear what they're saying.

...Hiei's not shouting anymore... I can't tell if that's good or bad...

A frown stays on my face as I watch the scene, cold air blowing through the window that makes me shiver a bit.


Kurama

My eyes widen a bit as she pulls me down on the bed with her, but I give her a faint smile.

"Don't worry... If I know Koenma as well as I think I do, he will allow it. As long as he knows that Hiei will not make him regret his decision."


Koenma

I stare back at Hiei in shock as well.

...He would be willing to remain in the Human World... for this human girl...? The one place he hates more than anything... with the the beings he hates more than anything...

I turn to stare at the Ghost girl, still in shock.

He cares about this girl that much...? She is even a human! He despises humans with a passion!

Swallowing a bit to try and regain my composure, I look back at Hiei.

"...Then..."

I pause a bit, and sigh with a small smile.

"I will allow it. If you care that much for this girl..."


Hiei

I nod at Jessica, rubbing her back gently, then turn back to look at Koenma.

I can see the surprise on his face, and to be honest I'm a little surprised, too. But it's how I feel.

Staring at Koenma, I feel like my heart is going to burst out of my chest at his answer. I quickly look down at Jessica with wide eyes to see her reaction.


Jessica

I quickly turn to stare up at Koenma with wide eyes, surprised by his answer.

"...You... You will...?!"

A bright smile forms on my lips and I turn to gaze into Hiei's eyes happily.

We can be together...?!


Julia

I lean closer to the screen of the window, narrowing my eyes to try to see any change.

Hey, they seemed to calm down...

I motion towards the window. "Hey, look..."


Kurama

Seeing Jessica smile, I feel overwhelmed with relief and smile back at Julia.

"It appears he has allowed them to be together."


I sigh in relief and look at Kurama, giving him a tired smile back.

"I'm glad..."

I crawl closer to him on the bed and lean my body on him, closing my eyes.

"This is all so stressful..."


Nodding my head, I gently pet her hair.

"Indeed, it is..."

I smile down at her gently.

"At least it's almost over now..."


Koenma

Looking between Hiei and the ghost girl before me, I smile a bit wider.

"Don't make me regret my decision, Hiei."


Hiei

I let out a long, deep breath of relief, deciding to sit on my knees next to Jessica on the ground. I gently take her hand and give her a small smile before noticing Kurama and his girl in the window. I shake my head a bit before looking at Koenma.

"When will you do it...?


Jessica

Smiling back at Hiei, I give his hand a small squeeze out of happiness, and turn back to Koenma.


Koenma

I raise back up to a standing position and smile down at them.

"I can do it whenever she is ready."