Sorry to anyone who was a bit confused lolol :S:S:S its confusing to right because wheneva I say Lily I mean Lily in Sirius's body but from an outsider perspective it looks just like Sirius and ohh so confusing to write lolol! Anyway despite all the confusion I hope you are all enjoyin the story!
Oh and BTW I haven't written a disclaimer yet have I?
Ok I don't own anything that relates to Harry Potter in this story lolol ok now enjoy!!
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Lily lay in the boy's dormitory that night, allowing the tears to stream down her (or should I say Sirius's) face, as though hoping the memories of that day would just wash away. She hated Sirius Black with a passion! Absolutely loathed him! She wiped away the tears as she sat up in Sirius's bed. But as she wiped her wet face, more tears seeped from her eyes to dampen it yet again. The images of that day's events clogged her mind. The picture of her leaving the classroom only to have the Slytherins laughing and jeering at the top of their voices, congratulating her on hitting that "jumped up mudblood". Then the image of James adding fuel to the fire as he started shooting hexes at the Slytherins, came to her head. At least she knew that Hailey and Alison had escorted Sirius safely back up to the girl's dormitory, where he could get changed, but as far as what he was doing at that precise moment, Lily had no idea. She groaned, allowing herself to fall back onto the pillow. She never wanted to show her face again, but of course she had no control over that (unless of course she tied Sirius up, therefore furthering his reputation as a woman abuser after that infamous slap). However, her thinking time on ways she could improve the situation was cut short by a knock on the door. She said nothing.
"Sirius are you in here?" James asked, opening the door and walking into the room.
"No," Lily groaned.
James stared at Lily, with both her hands covering her face. And he thought to himself is Sirius crying?
"Uh Sirius, I just came in to talk to you about what happened today," he started awkwardly. "I mean you and Lily have been acting really strange lately and I just want to know what's going on. I mean look at it from my perspective, please? Lily, the one who only draws attention to herself in class when she is answering a question, suddenly pours a cauldron full of potion onto herself in front of every one. And then there's you…" James elaborated. "The guy who may not have a lot of respect for women, but would never actually hit one of them suddenly turns around and slaps Lily! I know you both haven't been getting along lately but that gives you no right to hit her! Just please give me some kind of explanation."
Lily looked up at him, not caring that Sirius's face was now stained with tears. She took a deep breath.
"I-I can't," another tear leaked from her eye as she cleared her throat. "I can't give you an explanation. Things are just a little fucked up at the moment."
James looked at his best friend in shock. "Okay, Padfoot, are- are you… crying?"
"If you knew the reason why I was crying you would understand," Lily said quietly.
James paused looking at her with an odd expression on his face. He then said quietly: "No… I don't think I would understand. I don't think you have a right to cry. It's Lily who should be upset at the moment. You have no reason to cry."
"You'd be surprised," Lily said miserably. "I know exactly how Lily feels."
"No Sirius, no you don't. You don't realize what you've done. She has been humiliated, which somehow is linked to you as you were arguing with her just beforehand. Then you hit her and receive praise from all the Slytherins! They were shouting out the M word at the top of their voices. The whole school will hear about it before long. I can't imagine what it must be like for her right now!" James said angrily. "But funnily enough, I don't see her crying, whereas you're up here weeping your eyes out! I want answers, and I want them from you! You are my best friend; we are supposed to tell each other everything! I can't ask Lily because of course she doesn't hold me in high esteem, but I would expect you of all people to be able to tell me what's going on?"
More tears came. "It'll all be over in a couple of days, hopefully… then I can tell you the whole story," she said timidly.
James groaned. "You are killing me here Sirius! I need to know what's going on! You are my best friend! If something's bothering you this much that you need to cry, then I want to know about it. And I love Lily! I love her! And I know you can't understand why but I want to know what's bothering her so I can help her in anyway I can!"
Lily stared down at Sirius's shoes. She couldn't stand being in Sirius's body anymore. It was causing some serious damage to her life. Everything was changing! Her friends would now think of her as a freak. She had been completely humiliated in front of the Slytherins. The professor, who had once considered her as a model student, would now think of her as a destructive student. She also felt that on some level, she was starting to actually like James Potter. Even though she'd always considered him an immature prat who was only going for her because he thought she was playing hard to get, she had learned a bit more about him in the last couple of days; at least enough to change her perspective of him. She wanted to divulge everything to somebody, and after his short speech, she wanted that person to be James.
Lily sighed and wiped her eyes yet again. "James, if I truly am your best friend you'll just have to trust me when I say I can't tell you."
James looked at her for a moment. "Fine. Do whatever you want, but you usually tell me everything and I'm starting to think this whole thing is getting really suspicious. Anyway, you coming down to the common room?"
Lily shook her head. "No, I just want to be alone for a while."
"Fine."
With one last look at Lily, James descended the stairs into the common room. Remus, Peter, and Alison were sitting together at a table together.
"So what's up with Sirius?" Remus asked.
"Yeah, what's he been doing in the dormitory all this time. He didn't even want to come down to the kitchens when we offered this arvo," Peter said.
James sighed. "He's been up there… crying."
"Crying?" The three of them said in unison.
"Crying," James nodded. "I don't know what's been going on with him in the last couple of days but whatever it is it must be really disturbing for him."
"Wait, hold the phone," Remus said quickly. "Are you telling me that Sirius is actually capable of expressing normal human emotion?"
"Apparently so," James nodded in concern. "So how's Lily. Hopefully she isn't crying now as well."
"She's not at all," Alison said. "She seems completely fine, like she was this afternoon. Hailey's in the dorm with her making sure she doesn't do anything else crazy like today. I came down here to find out what's wrong with Sirius. So did he tell you anything?"
"No… he just said that if I knew why he was crying I would understand and that he couldn't tell me what was going on," James sighed.
"Hmm… I seriously would like to know what is going on with them two," Alison said before falling silent. She couldn't understand it. They both were behaving very strangely. Why was Lily acting this way? All of a sudden she had become arrogant and completely disregarded the fact she only had an ounce of dignity left. And then Sirius was participating in class and… crying… Sirius! She put two and two together. She suddenly had a strange idea. She had to talk to Sirius. She stood up
"I'm going to go talk to Sirius," she said to the others.
"What? Why?" James asked surprised. "It's not much use, he doesn't want to see anybody."
"Well, I normally comfort Lily when these kinds of things happen, but since Lily is fine, I figure Sirius could use my consoling more… so… yeah." She then walked up the boy's dormitory staircase.
James and Remus just looked at eachother.
Alison knocked on the boy's dorm door. She heard Sirius's voice reply: "James I told you, I don't want to see anyone."
Alison opened the door. "Not even me?"
"Alison? What are you doing in here?" Lily asked.
"Coming to talk to you. Why are you crying Sirius?" Alison asked.
Lily cleared her throat. "I'm not crying."
"Well maybe not now, but you were before. James told us," Alison added.
"Well, James is full of shit," Lily said trying to regain some composure. "I'm fine."
"You don't look fine," Alison said calmly. "Your face is red and puffy. You have tearstains all over your face. And Sirius, if truth be told, you've never looked worse in your life. Or less masculine," she added.
"Yeah well who cares how I look, I've already been humiliated in front of the Slytherins," Lily said glumly.
Alison raised her eyebrows. "How so?"
"You know! You were there! You saw when-" Lily sighed. She was on the verge of telling Alison the horrific situation she was in. "When Lily did that to herself. I feel partly responsible."
Alison looked at Lily. "Well Sirius, would it comfort you to know that Lily is completely fine? So you are crying for nothing."
"Not for nothing, no," Lily said quietly.
"Would you care to tell me why you were crying, then? Because it's not like you to cry Sirius," Alison said. She didn't want to directly confront Sirius about her suspicions, just incase they were wrong. She just wanted some kind of sign or explanation for Sirius and Lily's strange behavior.
Little did she know that that sign would soon be coming in a matter of seconds. As Lily opened her mouth to answer Alison question, the door banged open.
"Lily, I am sorry I spilled potion on your top but you have got to stop crying beca- holy shit, I didn't know you were here!" Sirius said very quickly as he entered the room.
Alison's mouth fell open. Did Lily just call Sirius Lily? Her suspicions were right, as strange as they were! Lily groaned.
Shit, I'm in trouble now! Sirius was doing some quick thinking. He then looked around the dorm in mock horror. "Hey! This isn't my dorm!" he then quickly made his way to the door.
"Wait!" Alison said quickly. Sirius turned to her impatiently. "Where are you going Lily?" she smirked.
"To go find my dorm Alison," Sirius said simply, opening the dorm door to leave.
Alison however, rushed to the door and closed it before Sirius could get out.
"What's the rush Lily?" Alison smirked. "I was just comforting Sirius here. You see he feels responsible for what happened today. You can help me talk to him. Tell him that your fine and hopefully make him feel better"
Sirius turned around and looked at his tearstained face. God, I look pathetic.
"Sirius, you look pathetic, now suck it up and be a man!" Sirius said before turning for the door once again.
"That's not comforting," Alison said.
"No Lily, you're the one that's pathetic!" Lily said, standing up and ignoring Alison. She would love nothing more than to throttle Sirius at that moment. "What the fuck were you thinking today? You don't think your actions have consequences! You don't think about anybody else but yourself do you?"
"I don't? What about you? Just answer the question, just answer the question, put up your hand, blah blah blah! Just answer the god damn question yourself, and stop bothering me especially when I don't know the fucking answer!"
"You poured potion down my- your front!" Lily quickly corrected herself, still aware Alison was standing there.
"Look guys, don't fight," Alison said warningly.
"Well, if you had of just made my potion better, you wouldn't be in this mess!" Sirius yelled ignoring Alison.
"Oh, please! That was a stupid potion! What about my dignity? The Slytherins are going to be giving me shit about this for weeks!"
Alison, sensing danger said: "Look maybe you both should stop yelling and just talk it out-"
"You stay the fuck out of this!" Sirius said.
"Don't speak to her like that!" Lily yelled at him indignantly.
"I'll speak to her how ever I want! I don't care who I vent my frustration on at the moment! I don't care about anything! I've had enough of this! I've had enough of you constantly yelling at me and telling me what to do. I just want to get my body back!"
Alison stared at him in disbelief. So, it is definitely true she thought to herself.
"Shut up, Lily!" Lily said quickly.
"No, don't tell me what to do! Hey Alison you want to know something really funny about us two?" Sirius asked.
"Shut up!" Lily yelled out angrily.
"No you shut up! I've had enough and want it all to end! I'm telling her and I don't give a shit what you say! Alison I'm not really-"
"Stop it!" Lily yelled, rushing over to Sirius. She had only meant to push Sirius to stop him from revealing their secret to Alison, but she had used more force than she had intended and sent him backwards against the wall. His (Lily's) head collided hard against the bricks and he fell to the ground, but not before his fore head hit the corner of a bedside cabinet. As he lay on the ground unconscious a trickle of blood ran from the roots of his red hair, down his forehead.
Alison squealed.
"Fuck! No!" Lily groaned. "Why does Sirius have to be so strong?!"
"Lily what did you do?" Alison said breathlessly, her eyes wide with shock.
"I don't kn- wait how do you know- who told you…?" Lily asked in surprise.
"It's kind of obvious," Alison said weakly.
"Ali, please don't tell anyone! This is bad enough without people knowing!" Lily pleaded, tears welling in her eyes.
"Okay Lily, we can discuss this later but right now we have other things to worry about," Alison said. "In case you haven't noticed, your body is kind of unconscious at the moment."
"Shit what am I going to do? I can't be seen like this! I need to move Sirius," Lily said approaching an unconscious Sirius.
"This is so weird!" Alison replied.
"Should I lift him?" Lily asked.
"Well, yeah you're stronger than me," Alison said. "Put him on the bed we can say he was very tired or something! Some bullshit cover up story until we figure out what to do."
As Lily reached out to try and lift Sirius's unconscious form, there came a sound of footsteps approaching the dorm door.
"Shit I think people are coming!" Lily said, panicking.
"Just back away from the body, and nobody needs to know it was you!" Alison said quickly.
Lily quickly retreated away from Sirius as the dormitory door opened. In came James, Remus, Peter and Hailey.
"Hey Ali there you are! I was looking for you with Lily but James said you'd came up here and then he told us that Sirius was up here crying so Lily ran up here and then we heard yelling and- OH MY GOD LILY!!" Hailey exclaimed quickly, as she saw Lily's body on the ground.
James yelled out in shock. "Holy shit! What happened to her?!"
"She just fainted!" Alison blurted out quickly.
"Fainted? Lily, get up!" James said in panic, propping her up in his arms and gently patting her face. He then noticed the blood across her forehead. "She's bleeding! Did she hit her head that hard?"
"Yes," Lily replied nervously.
"Shit Lily!" Still trying to wake her up.
James looked down at Lily's sweet little face, comprehension dawning on his. "She didn't faint did she?" he asked quietly.
"Yes, yes she did!" Lily said nervously, almost pleadingly.
"No, you were yelling at her, then we come up here and she's fucking unconscious!" James yelled furiously.
"You fucking bastard!" Hailey yelled at Lily.
"Look James, don't jump to conclusions mate," Remus said, trying to calm down James.
"How else do you explain what happened? You hear Sirius's voice yelling and then you see Lily lying on the ground! It doesn't take a genius to figure out what happened!" James said angrily. "And don't say Sirius wouldn't do something like that because you saw what he did to her today!"
"James just calm down!" Remus said.
"How can I be calm? I care about Lily so much! How do you think it makes me feel to have my best friend throwing punches at her all the time!"
"James let me explain!" Lily said desperately. She walked towards him. She just wanted to sort everything out. "I didn't mean to knock her out! I just wanted to shut her up! She was asking for it so I tried giving her a small push an-" WHACK!
As she had started trying to explain the situation, she had received a hard punch right across the face from James. She stumbled side ways and fell over. She felt extremely dazed. What had just happened? Her head felt like it was going to split open. She clutched her skull as though attempting to stop it from breaking open. She felt someone lean over her.
"Lily, are you alright?" Alison whispered urgently.
"No!" Lily groaned. Little lights were flashing before her eyes. She attempted to stand up but the pain in her head was too overwhelming.
James quickly lifted Lily and laid her on the nearest bed.
He raised his wand and muttered the incantation: Enervate
Sirius stirred, slowly opening his eyes. He looked up at the ceiling then at James's face at him.
"Prongs?" He asked groggily.
"Lily, are you okay?" James asked quickly.
"No, my heads a bit sore and… oh that son of a bitch!" He exclaimed jumping out of bed despite the pain in his head and tried to get to Lily. James however grabbed him by the waist.
"Let me go James! I'll kick his ass!"
"Lily, what's going on? Calm down! I handled it! I got him back for you, just relax or you'll pass out!" James said exasperatedly.
"That asshole knocked me out!" Sirius said angrily.
"You deserved it! I told you to shut up!" Lily said heatedly, still grasping her head.
"You want me to shut up, huh? Okay well that's fine I'll fight you without talking! I'll smack you down! I could've smashed you before if I was ready for it!"
"Lily c'mon lets get you back to our dorm," Hailey said quickly but soothingly, taken aback by Lily's threats to fight Sirius. She shot the real Lily on the ground a filthy look before leading Sirius out of the room. Sirius gave Lily a rude hand gesture before leaving.
Lily took a deep breath and opened her mouth to say something but James cut her off. "Don't talk to me Sirius," he said before leaving.
Remus and Peter both gave Lily odd looks before following James. They closed the door behind them.
Lily looked miserable. "You see why this is a problem for me?"
"For you?" Alison asked. "I doubt James will be forgiving Sirius anytime soon."
"What about me being humiliated in Potions?" Lily asked indignantly.
"That's true," Alison agreed.
"And did you see how angry James was with me?" Lily asked sadly.
"Yeah, well this has got to be weird for him. His best friend beating the girl he likes," Alison said. "Anyway, what do you care if James is angry?"
"I don't," Lily said quickly. "It's just he kind of let out some of that anger on me in case you didn't see."
"Oh yeah. Does it hurt?" Alison asked in concern.
"Yes, it's like throbbing," Lily grumbled. "Getting punched sucks. And my poor body's copping it too."
"How did you and Sirius end up like this?"
"You know the switching spell Flitwick made us study? Well, Sirius accidentally pointed the spell at me, and we kind of switched," Lily explained.
"So all those times in the dorm when Hailey and I have been getting changed, it has been Sirius with us not you?" Alison asked warily.
"Well yes, but don't worry I told him not to look!" Lily said.
"Wow well I'm certain he wouldn't have looked now!" Alison said sarcastically.
"Shut up," Lily said, actually managing a smile.
Alison shook her head, and let out a low whistle. "This is so surreal. I mean this is the strangest thing I've heard of even for Hogwarts. Better hope this kind of thing is common in this school."
"I know."
"Well you know what the best thing to do is?" Alison said.
"What?"
"Go to Flitwick."
Lily bit her bottom lip, thinking hard. As appealing as it was to try and get this problem fixed, she didn't want the teachers knowing about this as it would certainly make her look completely stupid. But then again, Sirius was already doing that…
Phew… that's over! Hope you enjoyed it! In the next few chapters im going to try and get james and lily going… but that's not going to happen unless people read and review!
