It didn't seem like anything was going to change in my life. No matter where I went it was always going to be a factor that my family did not have a way of living that was normal. I came here to start a new but it doesn't seem like that is going to happen. Walking around the city just didn't have the same feeling anymore. I almost just wanted to go back home and having everything go back to normal, if I knew what normal was. "Sorry if things didn't go how you planned them. Unless they did go how you wanted it to go." I didn't know what his motive was. I just had to remind myself why I was here and what I was hoping this whole trip would lead too. I was here for myself not about my family or anyone who wanted to harm my family. "I really should get going. I really didn't plan this trip for people to bring up my family." I didn't want to sound rude but I had no option. I needed him to get the hint that I was not here to talk about the family he wanted to destroy.
I continued on my way, I figured I could find some building to go into or find a tourist spot that would have many people on it and get lost in the maze of people. I still knew that he had more abilities than me and if he really wanted to he could find me if he wanted. He could kill me right now if he wanted. No one was around that would be able to protect me from him and it was only a matter of time before what he wanted was acted out. "Renesmee let me ask you something. Do you really think I am here to kill you to get revenge for all those years ago? The Volturi knows everything they know that you are no danger to them. That you could be a weak link in the Cullen Clan; if they really wanted to go after them. I don't know the stories that you were told growing up but let me tell you that we are not the monsters that you have to hide from." He said that all with such confidence that it was hard not to believe him. Could I really judge someone without knowing them? They had done that to me in the past and wanted to destroy me because of it. Maybe we were all the same we always jump to assume the worst before we get to know someone.
If I sent him away and spent my whole time hiding from him then would I even really enjoy this trip? I would spend most of it worrying and wondering if he would find me out. Now I could just realize that he could be useful for me in the fact that he did know his way around here and could show me things that I probably would have missed if it wasn't for him. I needed to show him that not all Cullens were what he thought and that we didn't always judge people by what we know. "I only know is you did try to kill me when I was a young girl. You didn't know me and that scared you. You believed I could create great harm to you and your precious clan. How wrong you guys were about all of it. I am nothing but a human with a little more and a human that will never grow old. I guess you feel stupid for judging a book by its cover well I am not like that. I like to get to know a person before I try to kill them or write them out of my life." I just looked at him hoping I was giving off the same confidence that he was giving off earlier.
I could only hope that things would be different and that I wasn't walking into a trap. I wanted to believe he was good and that there was no other motive for him here. "I just hope you aren't setting me up. I want to believe that you are different." I told him that because I wanted him to know where I belong. For him to know where I stood with him and that I wasn't thinking or hiding anything else from him. Like it really mattered if I told him or not. It was up to me to make sure that after a few months here that I was able to make it home alive and not trapped somewhere. "Little Cullen if I wanted to do something then I would have done it by now before you knew it was me." I just rolled my eyes as he gave me a smirk. The thing was it was true, if he wanted to kill me then he could do it. He could kill me in a single second before anyone knew it. "Don't worry I don't plan on killing you. I don't think the dog boy would like that very much." I guess he was right, Jake would be furious if he found out I was dead by the Volturi. He was like my older brother and it was funny sometimes because he always seemed to be hiding this secret and it seemed everyone was in on it but me. Maybe it was for the best that I didn't know. I guess I shouldn't always know everything.
I felt someone pull my hand and the next thing I know I was in a building. I didn't know where he was taking us but I thought this would be the first step in showing that I trusted him and that he wasn't that scary. "I figured I would show you a little museum that not every tourist sees. I found it a few years ago and I love going to see if anything new ever shows up in this place." I could see the joy on his face. Maybe we did share one thing, the passion for art. Not many people around my home got the whole idea of art and the joys and happiness that you could get from painting or any form of art work. "Is this like your little hide-a-way from the rest of the world?" I had a few of those places back home. You needed to have them in my house. There is no place to call your own when no matter where you are they can hear you from any point of the house. It makes it hard to get away with things when I was growing up. "Yeah I guess you could say that this was my get away. I needed one to have my own little place and not have to worry about anyone else in the coven finding my little secrets. Everyone needs their own space to call theirs." It felt like we were connecting and that maybe we were not that different from each other like we thought.
