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"You should start packing." Peeta said to me, "We are leaving tomorrow."

"I know, but what do I need to take with me?" I asked him.

"Clothes I guess, but we're going to the Capitol, so I don't think it really matters…" he said.

"Are you sure you will be okay." I asked him and looked deep in to his eyes.

"Of course, I'm just worried about you." He answered.

"Me? Why would you be worried about me?"

"Because it's a place with many bad memories, and I don't want to hurt you, my episodes will probably be worse than normal…" Usually he just sat down, got really tense, gripped hard around something, it could be the chair, or he put his head in his hand and tried to breath, there was not much I could do when he got an episode.

"Haymitch will be with us." I said. He gave me a light kiss.


I knocked the door twice, then Hazelle opened, I gave her the bird I had shot. She was very grateful.

"Thank you Katniss, would you want some tea?" she asked me.

"Yes please." I said and she let me in. Later that day I was going to the Capitol, Peeta was at the bakery a few hours now and I went out hunting. Gale came in to the room when I sat down.

"Hi, Catnip, what are you doing here?" he asked me with a smile, I hadn't told him I was going to the Capitol.

"Hazelle invited me in." I said and he sat down next to me, Hazelle started to make the tea.

"How are you doing?" he asked me.

"Good, eh, I'm going to the Capitol today." I said; his smile faded.

"Why?" he asked me.

"Because it's some interview with the hunger games victors…" I explained.

"Are you ready for this?" Gale asked me.

"I don't know, I think so, it has been many years and I want to meet Annie and Johanna." I said.

"Well, if you're sure." These years had really changed him, a couple of years ago he was such a fire, that's why I chose Peeta, Gale was like me, a fire, a flame, and what I needed was my Dandelion in the spring, my hope.
Still I saw he didn't like it, but he had kind of promised me to be my friend, and he couldn't break that promise after only two weeks.

Posy came in to the room, I hadn't seen her for quite a long time, but she was already 10-11 years old.

"Katniss?" she asked, I nodded, and it had probably been a year since I had seen her, I was always at home, and when I came here, she was in school. She hugged me quickly and then she sat down at a chair next to me. Hazelle laughed a little.

"Now it's just Rory and Vick missing." She said. And as she would have told them to come they came in to the kitchen. Vick smiled at me and looked happy and sat down next to me. Rory looked at me, he had grown a lot, he was about 17-18 years old, the same age as Prim would have been, he smiled a little, but his eye looked a little sad.

We all drank some tea and chatted and I had missed them a lot, my friends, my family.

"I think I have to leave now, so I can catch the train." I said with a little smile, "Thank you."

"You're welcome and please come here some other time." Hazelle said.

"I will." I said and she and Posy hugged me.

"Be careful in the Capitol." Gale said, I knew that he knew about Peetas episodes, and I was pretty sure that was what he was telling me to be careful of.

"Of course, don't worry." I said with a smile and hugged him, I thought about mine and Peetas jealousy talk we had a couple of days ago. But Peeta didn't need to be jealous, when I hugged Gale, it felt like hugging my brother.

"Bye." I said before I left, when I had walked for about a minute I heard someone running behind me, I turned around and Rory run to me. He hugged me and I didn't know what to do so I hugged him back.

"I saw you the other day." He said against my shoulder. "At your old house, you were looking at the flowers. They were from me." He continued, I didn't know what to say, but he still hugged me so I hugged him back. "I miss her so much" he said after a few seconds silence, and I felt him sob.

"Me too." I said and felt the tears coming. When he took a step back he dried the tears off fast, he was like Gale; boys should not cry.

"I just wanted to tell you, I really loved your sister, more than anything." He said. I smiled at him.

"I miss her every single day, but she is an angel now." I said, it probably sounded a little weird, but Rory nodded understanding.

"She was an Angel already when she was alive." He said and I saw that he dried away another tear. "Could we talk sometime when you get home from the Capitol?" he asked. "About her, there are not many people to talk about her with, everyone knew her, and liked her, but not like you." He said.

"Of course, anytime, but I have to go now."

"Thank you, I've tried to tell you before, but I couldn't." he said, I smiled at him and he smiled back, then he turned around and started to walk home.


The train rolls in at the station, a lot of people stares curiously at us, the people in 12 doesn't care, some of them said hi, but they are used to see us, at the train there is people from different districts, and they are probably curious about where we are headed, we're some kind of celebrities to them.

"Let's go kids." Haymitch said and started to walk towards the train, someone took our bags and showed us to our rooms, it was a train that everyone could go with, but we had our own rooms, Effie must have been talking to a lot of people to fix that. The room is not too big, and I got to share room with Peeta, but there is just one dining room in the entire train, so we'll have to eat with everyone else.

When we went to dinner Haymitch sat there alone in one table waiting for us, of course he was drunk. I sat down next to Peeta and we tried to talk to Haymitch, but he was really in an own world, he just stared at us. I took Peetas hand and he kissed my cheek, a lot of people were staring at us, but I didn't care.

"You two love-birds, stop that, it's disgusting." Haymitch said to us. I saw that Peeta smiled, he loved to tease Haymitch, since he always teased us.

"What? This?" he said and kissed me.

"Urgh, I think I'll go sit somewhere else…" Haymitch said. I just laughed.

A few minutes later a girl and a boy came up to us, they looked like they were a couple years younger than us, the girl had short brown hair, and the boy had short black hair, they both had blue eyes.

"Are you Katniss Everdeen and Peeta Mellark?" the boy asked.

"Yes." Peeta said, the girl smiled and I almost saw the tears come to her eyes, she got really happy.

"I just want to say thank you! Thank you Katniss, for being the mockingjay, and I'm so sorry for everything." The girl said, I got up from my chair.

"Don't say you're sorry, it isn't your fault, is it?" I said with a smile, Peeta rose up and stood next to me.

"No, but I don't know what to say, thank you, we are from district 10, and we were quite poor before the revolution, and now we have a whole new life." She said, and now her tears started running down her cheeks, but it was tears out of happiness. "Thank you, so much." She said with a smile. "Can I hug you?" she asked me.

"Of course." I said and hugged her back, they boy just stood there, smiling, he must have been happy, to see her like that.

"Please sit down with us while we finish our dinner." Peeta said. Of course they said yes and sat down with us. When we sat there they told us about themselves.

"My name is Marecia, and this is Emil, I'm 19 years and he is 21, we met under the revolution, and now we are a couple, my family loves you Katniss, and when I tell them I have met you, they will get so jealous, everyone in my neighborhood would like to meet you, we leave in a place that is a little like your 'seam' was, and we all fought with you against Snow…" she talked a lot, and she was probably a little nervous, Emil laughed a little and kissed her cheek.

"Let their ears rest a little, you're talking a lot again." He said to her with a smile.

"Sorry." She said and looked at me.

"Oh, don't apologize." I said with a smile, I liked these people. We talked for a while and she asked a lot of questions, more and more people gathered around our table to talk to us and ask questions, someone even tried to talk to Haymitch but he answered and left, he said he was tired, but I think he got tired of everyone talking to us. It was nice, even though I didn't like all of the questions. At last we needed to sleep, but those people were so happy that we even talked to them that they wanted to meet us the next day again.

When we came to our room I smiled at Peeta, he smiled back.

"We seem to be popular." He said. I smiled at him; it was nice being remembered by all these people. I changed to my underwear and put on one of Peetas old baggy shirts to sleep in. He smiled and changed to underwear and came to bed with me. I put my head at his chest so that I could hear his heartbeat. I loved that sound. After a few minutes I fell asleep.

I opened my eyes and everything was quiet and still, I was still lying on his chest, he was cold and then I realized it was too quiet, I couldn't hear his heartbeat anymore, I sat up and looked at him, all life had left his blue eyes and he was no longer breathing, I heard a little laugh and turned around, Snow was sitting in a chair watching me with a grin on his face.

"What have you done to him?" I screamed

"It's not so hard to poison someone…" he said with a little smile. First I just stared at him, then I broke down and started crying. He looked at me like I would have been crazy. "I thought you would fight, that you were strong… I was so wrong, you are an emotional wreck." He said. I started crying even more. Peeta was the only person I had left, Snow would not take him away from me, but then I realized that he was already dead.

My eyes shot open when I woke up.

"Peeta." I said out load. I immediately felt his strong arms around me, I almost started crying but then I remembered what Snow had said the dream, that I was weak and emotional. It was just a dream, but it was true, I was strong before, but now all I do is cry. I sat in his embrace leaning my head against his chest to hear his heart.

"I'm sorry I woke you up." I said.

"You now you can always wake me up, whenever you want." I nodded. "It was a dream right?" he asked me.

"Yes, it was just a dream."

"You want to tell me about it?" Peeta asked me.

"Snow killed you…" I said.

"Then you can be sure it was nothing but a dream." He said calmly, and kissed my head. We sat like that for a little while, but then we decided that we needed more sleep. I lied down, and Peeta put his arm around me, I yawned and kissed Peetas jaw, then his neck, and up to his cheek, after that I kissed him, right under his ear, I heard him moan when I did that so I kissed him there once more. After that it only took minutes before I fell asleep.

Next time I woke up, the bed was empty, I remembered the dream I had last night and looked around in the room, a few meters away from me, Peeta sat a chair, he didn't look at me, he had his head in his hands, gripping his hair, heavily breathing. He had an episode.

I looked outside and tried to guess where we were, but I didn't recognize the place, it was around 8.30 am, I wondered what had triggered this episode. I got up from the bed and walked over to him, and kneeled in front of him. He still didn't respond, but he knew I was there.

"Peeta?" I said softly, his muscles tensed and he pressed his eyes closed. "Peeta, can you hear me?" I asked as calm as I could. It took a few seconds and then he, barely noticeably, nodded. Sometimes when it was really bad, he didn't even hear me. He still didn't open his eyes.

"Peeta, it's not real." I said with a soft voice, I saw that he relaxed a little, but not completely. I put my hand at his cheek, first he tensed again, but then he really started to relax. After a few minutes he was completely calm.

"Did I hurt you?" he asked.

"No, not at all, when I woke up, you just sat here, looking really tense." I said.

"Good." He said, I planted a small kiss at his lips.

"Do you know what triggered this episode?" I asked.

"A dream." He said with a little smile, "Such a small thing, but the closer we are getting to the Capitol, the more sensitive I am to this kind of small things." He continues a little more serious. I kissed him again, but a little more passionate now, and he wasn't late to answer that kiss. I wanted to get closer, so I got up and sat down in his lap, I felt him smile against my lips. I opened my eyes and blue met grey. I saw nothing but love in his eyes; I closed my eyes again and continued kissing him. We kissed for a couple of minutes, and then we had to breathe. He put his forehead against mine, and we looked deeply in to each other's eyes.

"You are so beautiful." He said; I smiled and felt my cheeks go red; he smiled when he saw that. "Your eyes are so beautiful." He whispered, I thought they were boring, everyone from the seam had those eyes, his eyes were beautiful.

"I think your eyes are much prettier." I said with a smile.

"Why do you think that?" he asked me.

"Because, they are such a beautiful color, they are every shade of blue, they are deep and gorgeous." I said, I didn't like to express myself in words, but I could talk to Peeta. I didn't like to talk feelings or that kind of stuff, but when it came to Peeta I could say anything. He smiled at me, so I kissed him again. Then I got up.

"I think we should go out talking to our fans…" I joked, he smiled at me, a few years ago, I would never have been this happy about having people looking up to me, but now I feel quite flattered actually.

"Yes, but maybe you should change clothes first…" Peeta said. I looked down, and got reminded that the only thing I was wearing was my underwear and Peetas old baggy shirt. I felt so happy that morning that I had to joke a little;

"Why, does this bother you?" I said with a little laugh, but at the same time I got reminded about Finnick, when we were in 13, I missed him so much.

"No, not at all, but it bothers me if everyone on this train can see you like this…" he said and smiled and came and kissed me again.

I changed clothes and then we went to breakfast, we ate and Marecia and Emil waved to us, but today they didn't come to talk to us.

We got to eat without audience this time, Haymitch was probably still sleeping, because we didn't see him anywhere, but since he never slept at night, he had to sleep sometime…

We got closer to the Capitol, when I looked out a window I saw that we were passing district 3, which was Beetee's and Wiress' home. I thought about the Quarter Quell, when Wiress figured out that about the clock arena, a long time before any of us others had a clue. Beetee I would probably meet within a day.

We really had nothing to do at the train, so we, or most Peeta, talked to the other travelers. I sat there and answered questions, but I didn't really felt like talking, so as usual Peeta talked for me too.


About 5:30pm we came to the Capitol, when we came in to the city I remembered the first time I came there, I thought it was huge, and I was a little impressed by all its luxury, but now it just felt threatening. I shouldn't think like that, it was a better place now when Paylor was president, and she was a much better person than Snow.

When we stepped out of the train there was a lot of people, but the first person we met was Effie, she stood there waving at us, she came to us and hugged us and almost cried. I smiled at her reactions, so… Effie.

"Oh my God! How have you been? It's so nice to see you again…." She talked a lot, but I didn't really listen. Last time I was in the Capitol I lived in a woman's basement, saw my little sister die and shot president Coin.

We got showed to a big, black car. We all got in to the car. Peeta was sitting to the left, me in the middle and Effie on my right side, Haymitch took the front seat. We drove away to find the place where we would stay this week, of course Effie had already fixed all of that.

"Isn't it nice how the Capitol has changed the last couple of years? It's a lot prettier, and here are a few new buildings…" Effie just talked and talked. Peeta looked out the window and so did I.

I saw houses, department stores, all kinds of beauty salons… and I saw the president's residence. It felt horrible, the hair in my neck and on my arms raised, I couldn't take my off it though. Snow didn't live there anymore, it was all Paylor's now, I tried to convince myself.

Peeta was totally still, he didn't move, but I heard him start breathing heavier, his fists were clenched.

"Peeta?" I said softly and put my hand at his arm. He didn't answer. Effie stopped talking, but she was only silent for a few seconds before she kept talking, I didn't hear about what, and I didn't care. In the corner of my eye I saw that Haymitch was watching us.

"Peeta? Can you hear me?" I asked him, with a calm voice, he didn't respond. "Do you hear me Peeta?" now he responded, he nodded weakly, and finally managed to take his eyes of the residence. He shut his eyes instead, and put his hands against his head. He was still really tense and it wasn't over yet, I had to be careful.

"Take your hand off of me." He said silently. He didn't say it to be mean, he said it to protect me, and I did as he said.

"It's not real Peeta…" I said. he relaxed a little, and I remained silent for a while, I saw him relax more and more, and his breathing became normal again. He sighed once and then he opened his eyes. He looked at me.

"I'm sorry…" he said and hugged me, it was a little uncomfortable to hug someone in a car, but I didn't care.

"It isn't your fault." I said to him.

"You handled that good." Haymitch said to Peeta, "and you too Katniss, you even did as he said, I never thought I would see you do as someone asks you…" he said with a little grin.

"What was that?" Effie asked, Peeta explained the whole episode thing to her. When his 'story' ended we arrived to the building were we would stay during our time in the Capitol. When I stepped out of the car, I immediately recognized this place, we were standing outside the trainingcentre.


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