It was madding being a prefect doll for Ozai, she'd tried to escape this fate though the only means left, she had done her duty to marry the Prince, to make love to him as husband and wife often do, but she didn't want to continue being his wife.
She only went along with it in fear of Azulon and Ozai's retaliation. For the arranged marriage Azulon had promised her parents a good life for allowing their grand daughter to be handed over.
Refusal from her parents then would of been met with death, God she wish she could die. Ozai controlled her feelings for him, he had supposedly taken her true love away from her when she refused him, if she didn't dedicate her love to Ozai, he would hurt her parents next.
After her wedding night with Ozai she had used a sharp hair pin on her wrist. She'd had tried to cut deeply into her skin but it had hurt too much, Ozai had caught her cutting her wrist and the Royal Physician had to deal with the wound. Ozai would kiss the wound protectively cursing her for running her prefect skin at the same time.
She tried to escaping her fate by drowning herself in the pond but guards dragged her out after seeing her ' fall into the pond.', Ursa lied about what she did, Ursa gave the lie saying she had fell, Ozai kept her warm all night after that as he couldn't allow his wife to become sick.
She felt disgusted by his affection, to be at his whim under the royal thumb was madden. Ursa wasn't the woman Ozai wanted her to be, a quiet, obedient wife. It was her job to be by his side and to be a pretty face, however she feared Ozai more then loved him.
He never touched her in a hurtful way, no his touch was loving, but it was how he talked and loomed over her, the way he would yell and hold her. She was former shell of herself, if only she'd never called him her love, maybe she'd be speared his possessive nature.
He was jealous and God knows how many had paid for looking at her, for her taking to her for to long.
No she was Ozai's and no man could have the Fire Prince's trophy. He said she made him jealous on purpose and when she denied it he'd shut her down quickly, he'd yell and make her beg for his mercy if she didn't want him to hurt her parents.
She always gave in to spear herself from the outbursts. He controlled her with fear and when she brought children into the world she feared for them too.
She dedicated herself to showing both her children kindness, she gave Ozai everything. She even Ozai the title Fire Lord, yet after everything he brandished her and rid himself of her like a used toy.
He took her crown and princess-hood, he sent her away from her children to turn them into what he wanted.
They had been simple words, years had passed between them and now she was nothing more then a traitor like her grandfather.
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Ozai stood facing the fountain, she was gone his prefect wife was gone, why had she protected Zuko? She couldn't let him killed him could she? Ursa his wife had never truly loved him and he knew that, he made her love him, controlled her, but she was not trust worthy, she had to leave so he could reign.
Ursa had her freedom but he made sure it was disgraced freedom, she could plot to kill and who knows if she hadn't plotted that fate for him, she was like her grand father trying to deny the power the Fire Nation should have.
Zuko asked where his mother was and he lied saying she'd died. Ursa had no funeral, well she wasn't really dead but the new Fire Lord simply said he would mourned in private.
