Le Cirque De Wolf.
Chapter Six: Memories.
Years ago...
The family trip to Disney World, Florida, had been cut short when I had an unexpected aggressive moment. My parents cut the trip short and took the first flight back home to La Push. On the flight my temperature started soaring. By the time I was off the plane and into the car I was in a sever fever. I never did end up in the hospital though. I barely remembered the days in the fever. The next time I became aware of anything is when the fever was gone but I began shaking. An overwhelming sickly sweet scent poured in from my open bedroom window. The need to follow it was so overwhelming that I jumped out my window - a feat I had never been able to do before - and bolted into the forest. It didn't seem long until I reached the source of the scent. The sight was overwhelming. I could see wolves, giant wolves, ahead of me with amber eyed people. Beyond them was red eyed people advancing. A redhaired woman seemed to be the leader of the red eyed group. What caught my attention most however was Jacob Black, and he was kissing Bella Swan. The last I heard was that she was engaged...
"No..."
I whispered, my heart breaking in my chest. Despite the fact Jacob had been avoiding me for a while now - ever since he got Mono which I never believed - a part of me still hoped that he would notice I was in love with him. The shaking worsened as the sight, something within me howling for vengence. I wanted nothing more then to rip Bella limb from limb, and then hit Jacob over the head until sense was knocked into him. I could have sworn a bronze haired male glanced at me but I ran off in the next second. I couldn't bare to see any more. I hadn't had any chance to look Jacob in the eye since it was said he got sick.
There was a fight roaring across the forest now, snow flying everywhere as giant wolves and amber eyed people fought red eyed people. The stench from the people was disgusting, and somehow I had found myself on the outskirts of the fight. I could somehow follow what was happening, but I had been so focused on watching the wolves I didn't see her coming. The tree cracked under my weight as I hit it, having been thrown against it, and before I knew what happened I felt a vicious rip tear through my body. Suddenly everything was smaller then before, I was warmer then before, and I was on four legs. I barely had time to acknowledge this before the redhead charged at me.
Instinct flooded through me, and despite my own panic in the background I ran at the female with determination. My blue eyes flashed; something scary must have been within them because the next second the redhead was running from me.
I had never been normal. Biologically I wasn't normal. On my last birthday my mother finally explained why I was different. She didn't tell me her own heritage, but confessed as to what my father was. It was a secret I never uttered, but as soon as members of our tribe began getting sick they started looking at me in disgust. Then there was verbal and physical taunts. They were even petitioning the Elders to have me kicked off the reservation. They may not have known what I was but they did know I was not normal and part of what I was, was infact their enemy. They just assumed I was entirely their enemy. They never thought because I was only part there would be a difference. Of course I didn't know then that the other part of me affected these differences too...
I ran after the redhead, throwing any red eyed people out of my way as I hunted her down. By the time I got close enough to her the battle was already close to its end with a lot of casualties on both sides. I was about to attack the redhead when I noticed Jacob - my Jacob - about to get hurt. I didn't even think before acting. I just threw my body between his and the red eyed male, letting my body take the brunt of the attack whilst protecting Jacob. The pain was excruiating. Somehow his hands had sunk into my flesh. It felt as if he was trying to find my organs, and with his hands up to his wrists in my body he probably could have. However his hands were soon ripped out of me. I never knew what happened in the next few moments due to the overwhelming pain. By the time I could focus enough to open my eyes I saw Jacob hovering over me. He looked confused as to who I was before our eyes locked. My world shifted. He became my world, more so then he already was, and I knew he was the one for me. I lived to make him happy. My body felt as if it was melting, and in a way it was. I didn't notice but my body changed from wolf back to human. What I did notice was Jacob's reaction...
"No! I don't want you! You disgust me. You're not Bella! You'll never be Bella!"
He spat, before turning away. I didn't think my heart could break twice in one day but it did. I just watched him leave whilst I was in physical and emotional pain. My eyes teared up, and after a moment I looked around for any sign of comfort. I spotted Paul in the background, one of the bullies that had tormented me. Our eyes met and my world shifted again. I never thought I'd feel anything but fear for Paul but in that moment I wanted him more then anything. His reaction was similiar to Jacob's, leaving me even more hurt then I was. The wolves left me without a look back. Two smaller grey male wolves did seem to hesitate but a snarl from a black wolf had them following quickly. The red eyed people were being burned in piles, and now only the golden eyed people were left along with Bella.
I passed out. When I woke up I was in a lavish house and as good as new physically. I felt worse inside. No one wanted me. I was the freak.
Half vampire. Half werewolf.
I ran from the house, my body exploded again and my humanity was buried as animal instinct took over. Before long my memories were buried so deep that I was nothing more then a wild animal. I put as much distance between me and La Push as possible, living life day by day like any wild animal.
Author's Note: Some explanations in this chapter for you dedicated readers. I hope you enjoy it.
