POV: Anakin Skywalker
I left Ahsoka in our dorm, locking the door from the inside. I went back to the Council chamber quickly, jogging down the halls. Obi-Wan was still unconscious and bloody. "You better wake up, damn it," I muttered.
I knelt down beside him, feeling his neck for a pulse. I sighed in relief when I felt his heart beating. "You're on tough bastard, Master," I chuckled.
"Ana… Anakin?"
"Yeah," I grunted, lifting his upper body into my arms. "It's me."
"What… what happened?"
"I'll tell you later, Master. Right now, I need to get you to the medbay."
He reached up, brushing over his face. He groaned as I continued to drag him. "Why am I bleeding?"
"That's part –" I grunted again. "Of what I'll tell you – later, Master."
One more hallway, I thought to myself.
I pulled him through the door and managed to pull him up onto the medical bed. The droid wheeled over to me. "Do you require more tablets, General?"
"No. I'm fine. Just help him," I said, pointing to my bloody friend.
The droid began to wash his face, clearing the blood away. His nose looked broken, his eyes puffy, and his mouth continued to bleed. I must have slammed him pretty badly with my mechanical hand…
The droid injected a sedative into him. His hand rose quickly, outstretching for me. "Anakin…"
I gripped his hand. "I'm right here, Master."
"Are… are you… okay…?"
"I'm fine," I sighed. "Just relax. We can talk later, okay?"
He nodded slowly, closing his eyes. Once he was completely out, I pulled away. "Contact me as soon as he's awake."
"Yes, General."
I left and stood outside the door. "Mother kriffer," I muttered as I slid down the door.
I pulled my knees up to my chest, wrapping my arms around them. I buried my head into my arms, beginning to give myself several reasons as to why I hate myself.
After a few minutes of wallowing in my self-loathing, I heard light footsteps coming towards me. A small, warm hand touched my hair. "Master, come back to the dorm."
Tears dripped into the fabric of my clothing. I was supposed to be her support, not have her realize that I was breaking. I couldn't let her see me cry, so I held completely still. She forced me to lean against her, wrapping her arms around my shoulder.
I wiped the tears away with the cloth on my arm. "Snips," I whispered, slowly raising my head. "I'm such a kriffing failure…"
"No, you aren't."
"I wish I would have died in that overdose…"
"Don't say that, Master."
"I hate my life…" I groaned, slamming my head against the wall.
She pulled my head back to rest against her. "Stop saying these things. They're hurting me…" she pleaded. She hesitated in what she wanted to say next. I tilted my head to stare up at her. "Master, do you hate me?"
I stared, getting hit immensely by those words. "No. I could never hate you."
"Come back to the dorm," she whispered. "You need some sleep."
She pulled me up, holding my hand as we walked back to the dorm. She led me to my bed and lay down beside me. She stroked my cheek lightly, smiling at me. "Do you mean what you said earlier?"
"I said a lot of things earlier. Be more specific, Snips."
She bit her lip, looking away for a moment. I reached up, pulling her face back towards me. "Do you really love me?"
"Yes," I said sincerely. "I really do."
Her smile widened as she scooted closer to me. She wasn't trying to push me now and I was glad for that. She cuddled up against me, pressing her palms against my chest. "I love you, too."
I kissed her forehead. "I'm going to try to stop the drugs."
"Really?" she asked, shocked.
"I don't want to hurt you the way I hurt Obi-Wan. I don't want to hurt anyone like that."
"You weren't thinking. You're trying to protect yourself and I'm trying to protect you as well. I just hope that you know how concerned we are for you though. Master, these drugs… they could kill you. I don't want to lose you. I've only known you for a few months, but we've bonded."
I threw my arm over her waist, rubbing her lower back. "I'm going to try to stop myself because I'm sick and tired of feeling uncontrolled and…" I sighed. "I just don't want to do anything stupid to you. I care about you, Ahsoka. I care more than you think I do. I know I'm a –"
"Human."
"What?"
"You're only human. I've heard the saying, but I never understood it until now. Master, you're going to make mistakes and do things you regret, but I'm always going to be here for you. I'm never going to leave you. No more tablets or purchases that you think I don't know about…"
I chuckled. "You would know about it, Snips. You are a very sneaky little girl."
"But you love me, so you'll put up with me."
I closed my eyes, cuddling up against her breasts. She was very warm for being so… exposed. I kissed the fabric quickly before relaxing. I heard her giggle as she ran her fingers through my hair. "Ahsoka?"
"Mm?"
"Do you want to be protected your first time?"
"What do you mean?"
I opened my eyes, tilting my head to stare up at her with a perplexed expression. "Do you want me to wear a condom the first time we have sex?"
I watched her face pale slightly. "I didn't even think about that."
I sat up, chuckling. "We need to talk about this. Without a condom, you might get pregnant."
She looked so sick. I pulled her into my arms, rubbing her back. "Are you having second thoughts now? I don't mind if you are."
"No," she whispered, clearing her throat. "I don't want you to use a condom for the first time. We'll see about it the second time."
"So," I laughed. "You're already planning on having more sex with me? We haven't even done it for the first time, you silly girl."
The stripes on her lekku darkened. "I think the first time will be great… for me anyway. I have no experience whatsoever…"
I shrugged. "You'll learn, sweetheart. No one is perfect the first time around. You just need to remember that this is me and I'm not going to judge you."
"Is this going to hurt me?"
"I have… no idea. It hurts some girls, I guess, but it doesn't affect others."
"Do you… do you think we could practice now?"
I smirked, kissing her nose. "I know you'd like that, but we'll practice when I say so."
She pulled her pouting look out and I chuckled. "Snips, you need time to think about this. Do you really want a baby at this age?"
"Would you help me take care of it?"
I raised my eyebrow, nodding. "I'd be its father, so yes. I'm not going to frak you enough times to get you knocked up just so I can leave you. If we have sex, we deal with the consequences together."
She smiled, putting the pout away. "Most guys wouldn't be caught dead saying what you just did."
I smirked, raising my hand to lightly stroke her cheek. "I'm not most guys."
"I figured that out after our first few nights together. I learned that you'd always be here for me. I scared you when I pulled out the knife, but you stay there to take it away from me. You held me in your arms as I cried and you didn't let go."
I kissed her lips quickly. "I felt like there was something about you when I saw you. I couldn't just sit there and watch you mutilate your body…" I moved my hand down to her hip, lightly rubbing the fabrics above the cuts and gashes. She shivered and I immediately pulled away. "Sorry."
"They don't hurt. It's just…" she stared into my eyes. "I disappointed you because I let the weakness control me."
"No," I whispered. "You didn't disappoint me. You worried me."
My comlink began to beep. I groaned, tapping the button. "Skywalker."
"General Kenobi has awakened."
"Thank you," I responded, closing the connection. We bounced off of the bed and began to head out of the dorm, walking towards the medbay.
"Master, how much do you know about Togrutas?"
"I only know what you tell me."
"When we make love for the first time, I'm committed to you. I can't have sex with anyone else. The Togruta way says that it would be considered as cheating if I left you. I know I'm so serious about you, but what if you decide that you love someone else, someone prettier? I –"
"Hey," I whispered, grabbing her hands. "If I wasn't serious about you, I wouldn't have told you that I love you. I don't want to trick you. And, for the record, no one's beauty can match yours."
She smiled hopefully, her eyes beginning to water. "I'm so kriffing in love with you, Master. If I lose you, I don't know how I'll survive…"
I wiped her eyes. "Don't think about that. You won't lose me. I can't just brush you off because you mean more than that to me."
Her eyes absolutely mesmerized me. I stroked her cheek. "You're my beautiful girl – inside and out," I whispered, leaning down to kiss her cheek. I held her hand as we began walking once again. "I'm always going to love you, Ahsoka."
She stepped closer to me, smiling widely. We released hands before entering the medbay. Obi-Wan was sitting up, holding his face in his palm. The door hissed behind us. Ahsoka sidestepped, hiding herself behind me. "Anakin…"
I tensed and felt sick to my stomach as he looked up at me. "Damn," I muttered. He actually looked worse now. "I'm so sorry…"
"I'm sorry for interfering in your life. I know you're very capable of taking care of yourself and Ahsoka is very capable of taking care of you as well. Can you tell me what's been going on? I want to help you, little brother."
"Master Kenobi –"
"Ahsoka," I whispered, looking over my shoulder. I turned back to Obi-Wan briefly. "I'm a recovering alcoholic, Master."
"Come here, Ahsoka."
She nervously stepped around me and walked towards him. "Has he done anything to you? Do not fear him."
I felt relaxed because I had nothing except the drugs to hide. There was nothing I had done to her. She shook her head. "He can control himself around me. He's actually helped me so much in the last few months."
He nodded thoughtfully. "Would it offend either of you if she were given a pregnancy test?"
"Go for it," I said quickly. I knew she'd say that it wasn't necessary, but that would draw an immense amount of suspicions around me. "We have nothing to hide."
He nodded and the droid wheeled over. Obi-Wan hopped off of the bed, motioning for Ahsoka to lie down. "It's going to scan you, Snips. We wouldn't be standing here if it were something else."
She stared at me with a very terrified expression. I walked closer to her – feeling Obi-Wan's eyes on my back – and gripped her hand. "Relax. It's just a scan. I promise you'll be just fine. Trust me."
She lay back on the bed, closing her eyes. The scan ran over her body, announcing that it was processing. "Results confirmed."
I felt Ahsoka panic. "That just means that it's done," I chuckled. "You have no reason to be afraid. You haven't done anything wrong."
We glanced back at Obi-Wan, now scanning over the results. "All right," he sighed. "I guess I'll start to believe you a little more now. There are no signs of penetration or… you get the point. Anakin, may Ahsoka and I speak alone, please?"
Wow. That scan could actually tell me if Ahsoka had ever had sex… Well, at least I knew she was still a virgin. That would probably make the first time a bit difficult for her…
"Certainly," I whispered. I let go of her hand. "Don't be afraid, Snips. He doesn't bite."
Ahsoka chuckled. "Call for help if you need me, Ahsoka," I smirked. "I'll be right outside."
"Get the hell out, Anakin," Obi-Wan snapped.
"Oh, stang!" I laughed. "The Negotiator said a profane word! That's not the Jedi way!"
"I'm going to commit another act that's not the Jedi way if The Chosen One doesn't leave."
I rolled my eyes, smirking. "I'll be in the dorm, Snips."
She was chuckling. "Yes, Master."
I spun around, leaving her with Obi-Wan. I could only imagine what he was going to say to her.
