I like how everything feels right. It seems like everything is in its place. I've never felt like this my entire life and I'm enjoying every moment of it.
Carpe Diem.
Mike went back to the road though. He'd been off it for quite some time already and I don't want to keep him around here longer. It's not that I don't like him here but he needs to work for a living. For us.
I looked around trying to think what else do I need or what else I'm up for a purchase but there's nothing else left. I've been here for hours and my hands are full with different shopping bags. I've been trying to distract myself from my husband's absence but sometimes I just find it really impossible.
I walked out of the mall and headed to the parking lot. It's getting late but I'm not really in the mood to go home. It seems so empty lately. I unlocked my car and climbed in it and head home.
I got out of the car with my legs feeling weird. They always feel weird these days. I went to the trunk of my car and opened the lid and stopped.
There was something that I haven't noticed when I put all the shopping bags in there. It was a piece of paper and it was folded. I picked it up thinking it was a receipt even though it looked bigger than a receipt.
It was a note.
I'm coming back for you babe. Always here. Always waiting. Til you're mine again.
THAT sent shivers down my spine. I suddenly felt being watched. I looked around and found nothing or no ONE. I crumpled the piece of shit and dashed towards my house. I slammed the door and leaned on it.
Who is it?
Could it be Cody?
No, that can't be. The last time I checked he was moved to a more permanent facility. Why is that too hard to believe? I still am afraid of what there might be and what he might do. The whole idea is still friggin scary for me.
Why am I overthinking stuff? Maybe it was just a stupid prank? Maybe some guys think it's funny to put some random notes in some random person's car? I don't fuckin' know.
Breathe Eve. Breathe.
I looked around my house and started checking and locking all the doors and windows. I'm freaking paranoid at this point.
Hours later, I'm curled up in my bed. I just wanna end the day. I'm so tired to the bone and I miss my husband so much. This day has been wayyyy too weird for me.
Mike texted a couple of times and no, I didn't tell him. he would be rushing home if he knew and besides, I'm not sure if any of this is really meant for me so don't wanna bother him.
I laid there thinking about me and Mike, not really knowing how we got here and how all of this was possible for us. Even this.
I smiled as my hand found my stomach. This is sooo cool. I never knew having a baby feels this great but I'm loving every moment of it. With that though, I finally drifted to sleep.
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOOXOX
I don't know how long it has been since I fell asleep but I stilled as I felt someone climb in bed beside me and arms wrapped around my waist.
"Baby, relax. It's me."
I sighed and smiled. It was Mike. I relaxed into his arms. He kissed the back of my neck.
"You're back." I whispered
"Mmmhmm" he agreed
I slowly turned around and faced him.
"How long?" I asked running my finger over the side of his face.
"Long enough." He says
"How long is that?" I asked.
He chuckled and for some reason that made me smile.
"Stop laughing." I nudged him
"I'm sorry. It's just that…" he trailed off
"What?"
"You would find it stupid." He shook his head
"What? What is it?" I urged.
"I took a year off, Eve." He said and yes, he was right, I found it stupid.
"What?! Why did you do that?" I exclaimed.
"Cause…" He said
"Cause?"
"Cause you need me now more than ever and I have to be here when they come, okay?" he says trailing his fingertips over my stomach.
"But how about the expenses?" I asked my voice finally giving out. I know that of all the arguments we had and we'll ever have, this is one of those which I'm the sore loser.
"I'm the man, I'll take care of that. Don't sweat it okay?" he says moving a stray hair out of my face.
Then I started crying. I don't know why but I did start crying.
"Eve, what's wrong?" Mike says alarmed.
"I don't know. I think, I'm just happy cause you're back." I said feeling stupid. I've been really moody these days.
"Are you sure?" he says studying me intently.
I nodded.
"Okay. I'm here now so stop crying." He says wiping my tears with his thumb
"I missed you." I said
"I missed you too." He says and he leans over and kisses me. He pulled away but I grabbed him and kissed him once again.
"Easy." He laughs as we broke apart
"You have me here for a year, remember?" he says
"I know." I said and I kissed him again.
