Chapter 7

Meditation

Regina arrived at Gold's shop a little out of breath. It was turning out to be one of those days. A day where she couldn't control her own magic let alone that of her unborn child. She took a deep breath, in order for Gold to help her she would have to come clean. She needed to tell him that her child was also a contributor to her being unable to control her magic. She hadn't intended that but after what happened at the diner and with Granny's inquiry into her baby's magic ability she needed to regain complete control of her body and her magic.

Gold felt it, the moment she was near his shop. That incredible power getting closer to him. The air crackled with magic, it was so powerful that it Gold felt it with each step he took. She was near. The door opened and Regina walked it, slightly out of breath having walked a little faster then she had intended.

'Something the matter Dear'

Regina took a deep breath and blurted out the thing she had been hiding from Gold since last night.

'The baby has magic and she uses it to get what she wants'

Gold shook his head. He had known that but it wasn't the baby that was the problem. Something had happened to Regina in Neverland while Pan had hold of her that was causing the problem.

'What' Regina wanted to know why Gold looked at her with a funny look on face.

'It isn't the baby that is causing all of this, dear . It's you. What did Pan do to you in Neverland'

'Can I take a seat please, I am getting rather exhausted and the walk over here didn't help either' Gold nodded and used magic to give Regina a comfortable couch to sit on. Regina sighed, sitting down felt good.

'He would drain my magic every two weeks or so for him so use on god knows what'

'Did he do it or someone else'

'The shadow would wrap himself around my left arm and drain it'

Gold wasn't surprised at this. 'that must have been a Painful experience'

Regina nodded but she wasn't willing that painful story with him.

Rumple looked at the woman in front of him. She had become so much more powerful then him, she was so much more stronger then the Dark One and she didn't even realize it.

'He took away your inhibitions concerning magic, he took the restrictions away so to speak. I don't think he did it intentionally but nonetheless he did. I don't even think he even knew what the hell he was doing, he just saw you as a means to an end, getting magic to work for him again. There is nothing wrong with you Regina, you just need to learn how to control all of this raw magic. You remember the first couple of lessons I ever gave you'

'Yes, I set just about everything on fire'

'Yes, exactly. That is happening right now, except on a much larger scale. You need to learn how to control the magic again. I can help you with that, for starters I want you to meditate again, I want you to reach within yourself, talk to the baby if that helps. Your volatile temper isn't helping you or her.'

'I did that this morning and she ended up hanging Grumpy upside down'

'You probably begged her not to do something. You need to tell her, she needs to get into sink with you. She needs to learn from you about controlling the magic that so obviously is within the both of you and she needs to know that mom is in control of all of it. She needs to know that what mom does is at least for the time being is the norm'

Regina left Gold's shop with a lot of instruction but no guarantee's. Rumple had been honest with her, they would learn along the way. She was walking deep in thought when all of a sudden Emma pulled up next to her in the squat car.

'Need a lift'

Regina hesitated but got in none the less.

'You wanna go home or do you want to wait for Henry to get back' Emma asked.

'Home please. I have much to think about'

'What did Gold say'

'That Pan's Shadow unintentionally took away my magic restrictions and all of these accidents that keep happening is raw magic. He told me to meditate'

'He wants you to want…..' Emma started to giggle.

Regina looked up at the somewhat surprised sound coming from Emma and then they both laughed. They laughed until both of them were clutching their sides but after a while Regina became serious again.

'He said that I should practice the way I did when I first started to deal with magic'

'and what did you do'

'Basically what I thought you to do in Neverland, lighting up a candle and maintaining the burn'

'Well, why don't you get some rest this afternoon and start with it tonight after you had a good rest. Don't worry about Henry, I'll pick him up'

Emma dropped off Regina at the mansion and drove off. Regina went straight to bed but not before she had a calming meditation session. Might as well start straight away. She took up seat on the floor made herself very comfortable with lots of cushions and sat down.

Talk to my daughter, Regina thought. She had talked to her earlier that morning but that was more of prayer instead of a talk. Alright here goes. Regina slowly calmed herself down, breath in, breath out. Clear your mind and after a while that's when it happened. A comfortable peace came over Regina, she hadn't felt like this in ages. So relaxed, she completely felt empty, nothing but tranquility. She felt like she had felt riding Rocinante, completely free.

'He little one, this is your mom, do you feel me' Regina felt a tug at her conscious, like someone was there with her, a joyful and curious presence. Regina smiled. She was there. She was present. Regina sat there for at least two hours sharing the tranquility with her daughter, sharing the magic, controlling the magic.

'Mom' Henry came bursting into the mansion.

'He, Henry, calm down. She is resting ok.' Emma just stopped Henry in time before he would run into his mother's bedroom. Henry knocked on the door and slowly opened the door finding his mother asleep in bed. He quietly turned around and was heading out when Regina called him back.

'He, how as your day' She asked while getting up.

'Good how was yours' Henry was practically bouncing up and down with excitement. His mother was home, she was here. Even after a nearly week of having her around again he still couldn't believe she was back.

Regina came downstairs after a shower and was met by Henry and Emma cooking together in the kitchen. She was pleasantly surprised that a somewhat healthy meal was served.

After the meal they shared together Regina told Emma and Henry what she had done after being dropped off by Emma. She told them about her meditation session and what she had felt. Henry's eyes were huge after she had shared that piece of information.

'You meditating Mom, that's impossible'

Regina laughed at him. 'That's exactly what Emma and I said after I returned form Gold's shop but it felt great. I will try something else tonight and when I do, I don't want you near me just in case, do you understand Henry. I don't know what will happen. '

Henry didn't like it but he understood. So after dinner and a view games together Regina excused herself and went upstairs. She light up a candle and once again sat down on the floor but this time not to meditate but to practice control. She sat in front of the candle and started to light up the flame higher, when all of sudden the flames seemed to get a life of their own. A figure appeared, a cute cuddly bear. Regina smiled, her daughter had made herself known. Regina slowly took control over the flames again, she had to let her daughter know that she was the one in control and behavior such as the incident in Granny's diner was uncalled for. Regina felt it the moment when the power over the flames was relinquished to her. 'That's my girl. Right now all you have to know it that Mom knows best for now'

Regina went downstairs after the fire 'incident'. Emma and Henry had made themselves comfortable in front of the TV.

'What are you watching'

'Ghostrider, it's a little weird but there wasn't much else on that we could agree on.' Emma said. Regina turned around and went to see if she could get something to eat. She didn't care much for TV and wasn't the least bit interested in what they were watching.

She decided to make an apple pie. Henry came walking in, his stomach was ordering him to see what his mother was making.

'Alright!, you're making apple pie. I haven't had a good one since ages' Henry was practically drooling at the sight of all the ingredients on the kitchen table. Regina laughed. 'He I am not done yet, you start peeling the apples and I'll see if I give you a piece when it's done.'

TBC…