I'm Still But a Man

Chapter 7

She was intelligent but not geniously so, she was pretty as a summer day and strong as bedrock. And damn he wanted to rock her on a bed. He prayed to every god he could remember to give him strength not to reveal his feelings, his inner battle, the burning, all-consuming need to touch her. To tell her everything and confess his weaknesses and needs. Because L didn't think that rejection would sit well with him. He had never been a good loser and while confession of desire wasn't the same game as that of catching criminal masterminds, it did have possibility of losing, losing her acquaintance, her caring for him, losing...her, her brightness and darkness in perfect but fragile balance enticed him like nothing else. He knew he'd never be able to understand how the entirety that was her worked. It was like the forbidden fruit and he loved fruits.

However, it didn't change the fact that this wasn't supposed to happen. There had been no percentage on him feeling...anything. It wasn't supposed to happen. But the world's three top detectives was no fool. While the mayhem of feelings coursing inside of him was not predicted, that did not mean it wasn't real. L wasn't going to deny the fact. The obsession had been burning since day one. When he had first met her, he had thought nothing of it. She hadn't appeared to be anything special. What a false deduction that had been!

L sulked at the kitchen table. He had been sulking for the past week. Yu Ri walzed into the room while putting on earrings and snatched her handbag from the counter. "Make me tea, Yu Ri." L said, his eyes following her movements as she slipped her high-heels on. "L, I'm a bit busy right now. Can't you ask Watari to make you some? Or better yet, make your own tea, you're a grown man!" She huffed frustrated at his immature behaviour but started to boil water anyway. L crunched his nose up. She was wearing her favourite perfume. His favourite perfume on her. And all for that man. It left a sour taste in his mouth. "I don't think it is necessary for you to go out with the CEO, again." L said his face blank and grey-black irises cold. It just didn't seem necessary. "What are you on about? Of course it is necessary! I have to get him to trust me." Yu Ri said and poured L a cup. He trusts you alright. L thought and took a small sip from his cup. Yu Ri smiled at him and left for her third date with the CEO.

L looked sourly at his tea. No matter how many times she went out with undeserving criminals, she still made the best tea.