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Sheldon couldn't see any foreseeable future without Penny in it. The fact that he would be in Germany in a few short months made him a little bit nervous. Without noticing, Sheldon found himself preferring to go to Austin instead. Did he really have to all the to Germany?
Of course he had to go to Germany. Why would he want to stay in Texas? He didn't like Texas, he didn't like his town, and he didn't like his family, the only thing he liked was Penny. Was she enough to make him stay?
It startles him that he can't actually answer. Leaving her would feel bad, staying would feel bad. What would feel good?
Once again he didn't know the answer. That's something he's come across after spending copious amounts of times with Penny. After a considerable amount of consideration, a notebook full of incorrect solutions, he decides that she brings out the worst in him.
And he brings out the worst in her.
She relies on him too much, just as he relies on her. He doesn't like the feeling of dependency, he didn't like the fact that despite his best efforts he can't stop thinking about her.
"Oh god, I've become a hippy." He groans to himself covering his face with his hands. "I'm become an angst riddled, hormone driven, teenager!"
Yeah, he defiantly agrees that they bring out the worst in each other. When was the last time she studied for a science test on her own? When was the last time she studied any test on her own?
They aren't good for each other, and he thinks they should leave each other alone. But of course, since Sheldon's brain has been having some technical difficulties, he still demands that his mother take him into the city so he can buy Penny a present.
How Sheldon felt about Leonard was complicated. As was much of his life, he thought sadly.
Sheldon enjoyed Leonard's company, just as much as he liked Raj's. Maybe not so much Howard, but he was tolerable. Leonard, was his favourite. But he thought that Leonard was too clingy, with everything and everyone. He's never seen someone crave so much attention before, this is probably due to absentee parents, but Sheldon couldn't help but find it annoying.
Leonard clung to Sheldon like an unwanted piece of tissue on the bottom of his shoe. Sheldon didn't really understand, he knew that he wasn't the easiest person to like and spend much time with. Of course Penny being an exception.
So Sheldon didn't know why Leonard stuck to him so much, but unlike the rest of his problems and questions, this one, Sheldon was getting to the bottom of.
Turns out not much research, or even effort had to be put in, because the second Sheldon ran over to Penny to give her her present, Leonard's curious behaviour revealed itself.
He was spending so much time with Sheldon, to get to Penny. And for another unknown reason, Sheldon felt jealous. He felt downright territorial, he wanted Leonard to never talk, or even so much as look at Penny again unless under Sheldon's strict supervision. He understood that there was a scientific reason as to why he reacted this way, why his heart rate increased and his cheeked flushed with anger. He knew there was a reason he wanted to say mine.
Surely there had to be a reason, a purely scientific reason that Sheldon would get around to understanding just as soon as he fixed his brain.
And when Penny faltered, not answering Leonard's absurd question with a firm no, he realized that he probably wouldn't ever understand as to why he felt his ribs crush his heart.
He doubts there's a scientific reason for that happening. Nothing logical at least.
It's official, she's made him turn into a hippy. He's got to get out of here, out of this insanity. Lest he gets the urge to cry.
Sheldon turns quickly from the truly terrible situation in front of him, and does the only thing he thinks will make the ache in chest to go away. He runs, seems like he had just finally had gotten the hang of actually facing his problems.
While safely tucked away in the corner of his English classroom, he listens to his classmates attempting to read Romeo and Juliet. Maybe he doesn't know anything at all, maybe he isn't as good at solving problems as he thought he had been.
If he spends all his time being a petty teenager; that gets into fights with his father because he insulted his friend, that sulks in the corner of a classroom when said friend is asked out on what people call 'dates', then when will he have the time for science? The time to win the Noble? The time to prove String Theory, wasn't his entire mission to move the dust around him?
Die with something to his name. Not become a dead beat like the rest of his family were.
He didn't want to get feelings that distracted him from his true goal, how did a simpleton manage that anyways?
He immediately scolded himself for calling her that, he knew there was so much more to her.
Sheldon tortured himself like this for the rest of the day, he realized that Penny had some cheer meeting to go to at lunch and his mood worsened even more. To top it all off, Leonard had the audacity to sit with him in his regular picnic table.
"Hey buddy," Leonard mumbled, he was likely to be just as sullen as Sheldon was. "Where's Penny?"
"Cheer," Sheldon said curtly. He didn't want to speak to Leonard, he didn't even really want to look at Leonard. But he did what he must. Sheldon swallowed the urge to punch him, just like he had punched his father.
He probably hadn't climbed as high on the evolutionary tree as he thought he had after all.
"So...about this morning,"
"I don't understand it." Sheldon tells Leonard.
"What don't you understand?" Leonard asks carefully.
"I don't understand why you would do that."
"See!" Raj bursts, "See! I told you that Leonard had no right asking Penny out." He said while pointing an accusing finger at Howard.
"The way I see it, Sheldon and Penny aren't a couple. Penny's fair game."
"That's rather a crude way to put things. Penny isn't to be hunted." Sheldon muttered, hating the way he had the compulsion to defend her. "I just don't understand it, I don't think I ever will. So lets not talk about it."
They spend the rest of lunch ignoring the metaphorical giant, pink elephant.
He pretends not to care that they barely talk during science. He still waits by her car because his schedule has already been run a muck and he can't stand it change anymore today or he might just explode with fury and frustration.
"I didn't think you'd be waiting." Is the first thing Penny says when she approaches him. "What with you being mad and all."
Sheldon wasn't mad, not at her anyway. But it was apparent that she was mad at him. And Sheldon's entire family made it clear that whenever a woman is mad at you, you are supposed to spoil her with gifts.
"I want to present you with a gift." he tells her before opening his messenger bag and retrieving a piece of lamented paper.
"What is it?" she asks without reading it first. Sheldon represses the urge to roll his eyes, a habit he's picked up from Penny.
"I bought you a star." He informs her. Sheldon doesn't expect her to gasp and hug him so hard that he gets veered off course and has to clutch the car behind him to keep them both steady.
From what he understands this is a good reaction.
"Oh my god, that is so sweet." She gushes, her arms still wrapped around his neck. Tentatively he settles his arms around her back.
"Not really, I just recalled when I was seeing you to your house from game night at Leonard's when you told me that it would be so totally awesome to own a star. SO I got you one. It's named Penny."
"Oh jeez! How did you even remember that?" She asks, she reels back from the hug, but she still keeps her forearms on his shoulders. His hands drop to her waist, he finds that it settles nicely there.
"Penny," he mutters, "I remember everything."
"Everything?" she breathes in awe.
"Yes, I have an eidetic memory. I remember everything from the day I stopped breast feeding." He stops short, before going on to explain. "It was a deary tuesday..."
"Okay, I get it. So...you're like an elephant? You remember everything...so you only have to learn things once?"
"Yes. I find that-"
She cuts him off again, only this time it isn't with pizza or more witty words. It's with her lips pressed against his. At first, he's too scared to do anything but stand there. Germs, he thinks, Dear God, so many germs.
And then, he thinks about how soft her lips are, how they taste sort of like that strawberry lip gloss that she feels inclined to smear on every morning lunch and after school.
And then he lets his hands do what they've always been doing. He buries it underneath her blonde hair and sighs in complete contentment. Screw germs.
After a while he starts to do what she does and she nearly falls against him.
He grins against her mouth, he understands why she was so happy when she realized he only had to be taught once.
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