Chapter 7
`Lavi
It's already night time. They're all probably asleep. They should all be already asleep.
Sitting up made my bones hurt. The wounds from before were still painful.
The cuts may have healed but the scars remain. I feel so disgusted with myself. Why did that have to happen?
Of all things, why that?
I hate it so much. I hate that bastard so much.
Some will say that I'm lucky to live through that and my innocence wasn't broken.
My other innocence though was taken from me and shattered what was left.
I hate him! I hate him so much.
I tried getting up but I can't move away from this bed without falling. It has been a lot of tries already and I was scolded badly every time.
It is nice that they're concerned but being this helpless irritates me. Why do I have to be this helpless?
I want to get up. I want to get up and see Tyki again. I'm sure things will be better if I see him again even if I'm this much in pain.
I really want to see him.
I want to see him again so much that I tried getting up again and again every night to try and sneak out. I accomplished it after so many nights.
I got up and was able to leave the order unnoticed.
I walked towards the same place.
He was there. I felt so happy and held onto him.
"Tyki!"
He wasn't though and suddenly pushed me on the bed.
"Tyki?"
"Did you think I wouldn't have found out, you slut?"
His voice is angry. His words were painful. Why did he call me that? Why is he angry?
"Tyki, w-what's g-going on?" I asked shivering.
I felt scared. It was like before. Don't tell me that it's going to happen again.
This is Tyki. I know it's him for sure but why is he angry?
He's eyes are a golden color filled with anger. He's in his black form. Why? Why is Tyki angry?
"You liar. How I hate you so much. Playing so innocent when you really aren't."
Liar? I know I've been called that way before but why did Tyki have to say that? I wouldn't lie to him.
And what is he saying?
Why did he say that he hates me?
Did he found out what he did?
No. I hope he didn't but Sheryl probably told him.
"Tyki, wait please listen to me."
"I wouldn't care to listen anymore to a liar like you."
His words hurt like a dagger. It didn't stung, it bled.
His hands tore my clothes away. He held me forcibly and looked at me with such loathing in his eyes.
I'm scared, why is Tyki acting this way? It's scary. He's doing it the same way as Sheryl did.
He's angry. He's angry at me.
Why? Please don't be.
Of all people, please don't hate me, Tyki.
He never heard my cries and went on with what he did.
It was more painful that he hates me than what he was doing. I stopped struggling and kept trying to make him listen but I was never heard.
Tyki hated me. He loathed me. He was disgusted with me.
My tears weren't because of what he did but rather the words he spoke and the hate he showed.
I kept trying to ask him to listen but nothing, nothing was ever heard.
After being done , he got up leaving me like some whore. I tried reaching out to him but my hands merely passed through.
I called out to him but my cries were useless. It hurt. It hurts. Why did this have to happen?
`Allen
We were all worried after finding out that Lavi had sneaked out.
I went out and searched for her. Yes, it's her. I found out when she was brought to the infirmary. Komui asked us though to keep it a secret.
I searched and searched for her. I tried going to the same place where I first saw her with Tyki.
I hurriedly got in. She is still injured. What if-
I walked faster until I reached the room. I had been too late though.
Upon arriving at the scene. I saw Lavi crying and torn out from her clothes, bloodied and abused all over. She had been raped and this time by the one she loved.
"I was fine with it, Allen. Tyki didn't force me."
"Then why are you crying? Why are you bruised up again?"
"He hates me now, Allen. He found out. And now hates me. That's much worse. I should have just let him back then. Maybe, he wouldn't have left me and come to hate me. Maybe that wouldn't have happened."
I just held her and tried to comfort her with words but they seemed useless.
"Tyki hates me now, Allen. What should I do? It really hurts. Should I just end it?"
"No, Lavi. Don't. Please don't."
"Why? What good reason is there for me to live? I'm already broken so much. It even hurts breathing."
I can't let her die. She is my friend.
I don't really want to tell her yet but I guess I'll have to.
"You have a child Lavi. They just confirmed it."
He looked at me with confusion.
"You're pregnant Lavi. Do you still wish to die?"
"No. I can't let that. My mother let me live. I should let the child as well."
Bookman told me about that. He said that I should tell Lavi this in case that she might feel like giving up on living.
It worked. Bookman is right. I'm thankful that he knows but why did this have to happen?
Lavi may choose to live now because of the child but she is still in pain.
I'll do my best so nothing tragic like this would ever happen again.
She is part of our family at the order after all.
`littlebunny1412: Thanks for reading.
Thanks to ''Larika12', 'sakura2112', 'Dragonfly', 'DeatheStar' and 'Lari' for reviewing ^_^
11/12/2011
