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Chapter 7: Separated
Ricky POV
I took John's hand and walked towards the door with the flashing red Exit sign above it. I drowned out John telling me no and picked him up because his little feet weren't moving fast enough. I had so many thoughts running through my mind that the whole rest of the night felt like I was outside of my body. I was watching myself feed and bathe John, I was watching myself clean up around the house, and I was watching myself cry as John slept.
I must have finally gone to sleep because I woke up to John's hands slapping my face.
"Wake up daddy" he giggled
"Hey buddy" I smiled "you didn't have to hit me so hard" I laughed as I got up.
He ran off to play with his toys because he knew a bath was coming. As I was going after him my phone rang, Anne. I know I shouldn't have but I debated whether or not to answer her call or not. I already knew what this would be about but I didn't want to go to the hospital. Its not that I didn't want to see Amy I had some things to do first.
Curiosity got the best of me though "Hello" I yawned out.
"Hi, Ricky sorry to wake you"
"Oh no, you didn't wake me, I was slapped up" I smiled thinking of John's wake up call.
"Huh?"
"Nothing what's going on?" I asked tired of the small talk.
"Amy won't admit it right now, but she wants you to be here with her, I want you to be here with her." she hesitated at the last part.
"I know and I'm gonna be there I know she didn't mean all that stuff she said I'm not upset with her." I replied in all honesty.
"Okay great are you coming now?" she asked impatiently.
"I wasn't planning to, me and John have a stop to make first, is everything okay?" I raised an eyebrow.
"Yea, you know the usual Amy's crying and I need you to make her stop."
I sighed as guilt started to creep into me. Truthfully, I imagine that when I get there the tears won't stop it will probably be more from me and her. Especially after she hears what I have to say.
"I'll be there as soon as I can" I rushed out and hung up before she could respond.
I showered and dressed me and John quickly and called a number I never thought I'd be dialing again.
Amy POV
"Are you sure it was a good idea letting him in there?" George asked Anne as they looked in on Amy and her company through the little window.
"Well someone has to get through to her at least till Ricky gets here." Anne whispered.
"I don't think he'll be too happy to know you called him to visit her." George accused.
Anne rolled her eyes "He'll get over it, it's for the sake of Amy egos aside." she said elbowing George in the side.
I laid still in my bed facing the window in my room. It looked so beautiful outside like any other sunny day in California. It felt the same, like all the other days before all the craziness broke out. Before everything changed. I put my hand on the stitched up area of my stomach where they did my surgery and I felt a tear roll down.
"Amy are you alright" he said coming to my side and holding my hand like the countless times he's done before.
I slid my hand out of his not to be mean or rude, but because I didn't want to be consoled I wanted what Ricky said to not be true. I wanted to go back to the sunny days that didn't hold pain. It was beautiful outside, but inside my mind it was ugly and raining.
"What are you doing here Ben?" I asked still looking out the window. "Are you here to bask in my pain?" I said as another tear slipped out.
"Of course not" hurt was written on his face. "I know over this last year we haven't been on great terms but we still have a lot of history, and although we're in love with other people I still care about you." he said grabbing my hand again.
"I don't want you to care" I whimpered out "your caring isn't going to fix me." I said coldly yanking my hand away.
"Amy look at me" he said calmly.
I shook my head and tightened my lips.
"Now!" he said sternly.
I forced my eyes to make contact with his "what!"
"You will get through this." he said attempting to get my mind right.
I rolled my eyes at him and gave him a sarcastic laugh.
"And how can you be so sure?" I asked him rhetorically, but he answered anyway.
"Because Amy you are strong and ambitious. You never give up or back down from a fight and so what the doctors said there's a chance you may not have children." He lectured. "There's an even greater chance you will only time will tell! So get it together and stop feeling sorry for yourself woman" he chuckled after the last part and I did too unwillingly.
"John needs you and if you're here feeling sorry for yourself who's gonna keep Ricky in line" he laughed.
I rolled my eyes and grabbed his hand. "Thanks Ben."
"I owed you" he said kissing my hand. "You were there for me so lets just call it even."
"Okay" I whispered.
"Adrian wanted to come but she couldn't get out of summer school" he said walking towards the door.
"Tell her I said hey" I gave a half smile.
"Take care of yourself Amy, be strong" he said giving me a wink and leaving.
I laughed and laid back in my bed. He was right there were procedures I could do if it came down to it, no use in thinking the worse I said as I drifted off to sleep.
Ricky POV
I watched John play on the jungle gym while I sat on the park bench consumed with my thoughts. I didn't want to do this but it was the only way I could think of to keep Amy and John safe.
"Hey Ricky" a voice said from behind me.
I gave a little smile and motioned them to sit down.
"So what did you want to meet about?" Karlee asked curiously.
"I just need to know if" I hesitated "If my fa- Bob touched Amy." I groaned feeling myself getting angry.
She looked at me for a minute before answering. "I honestly don't know" she gave me a sympathetic look.
"There were times where he would take her to that little room and it would be quiet for a minute, then there would be a bang or some other loud noise." She looked up at me to see my expression.
"Amy would scream then there would be more noises" she looked over at John who was now on the seesaw.
"He wanted sex. Not just any sex, he wanted sex from Amy. If she didn't do what he said then we didn't get any food" she said after a moment of uncomfortable silence.
"We got food one time." she said staring at me.
My hands balled into fists and I could feel my jaw clench.
"Ricky I'm not saying he raped her" she said trying to calm me down "I'm just saying he fed us one time. I don't think he wanted us to die, he just wanted us to torture us for ruining his plans."
"His plans?" I asked confused.
"He really wanted John, he thought he would be with Amy that night but he wasn't. You know he was going to the nursery while you guys were away and visiting John. The guy's sadistic but I know you know that." she said looking down.
"Yea I know" I replied softening my voice. "After today Amy and John will no longer suffer on my account." I said looking at John.
"What are you gonna do?" Karlee questioned.
Amy
I yawned and stretched the best I could not wanting to feel the pain. It was getting close to 5 and Ricky still wasn't here.
"Mom" I yelled as loud as I could. No answer.
I laid back and looked at the ceiling. I wanted to see John and I know Ricky is mad about what I said yesterday but I didn't mean it. I didn't mean what I said, I don't even know why I said it. I know he'd never lie to me, I guess it was the shock and pain talking.
What I really regret is hitting him I was really hitting him. Those weren't love taps or cute pats I was beating him as hard as I could. Thinking about it made my eyes water because I know he must have thought back to his childhood. Here it was another person who loved him hitting him. The tear fell down.
"How could I be so stupid" I thought out loud.
"You're not stupid" a voice said from the door.
I looked up and smiled. He smirked.
"Hi Amy"
"Hi Ricky" I said not able to hold my grin. I missed him.
"I'm sorry" we both said in unison then diverted our eyes elsewhere in shame.
He came over and sat by my bed and I seen John walking over as well.
"John" I exclaimed happily "How's mamas little man" he giggled.
I laughed then looked at Ricky he was smiling but his eyes were sad.
"Ricky I'm sorry for yesterday" I spilled out.
"Its okay Amy I know you didn't mean it" he said holding my hand that wasn't around John.
"No its not I had no right to hit you like that especially when.." I sniffled and looked down not able to finish my sentence.
He lifted my chin and met my eyes. "Amy nothing you could ever do would make me think of my past. I know you love me and I know your heart at that moment you were consumed with pain and I don't hold it against you so you don't hold it against yourself" I nodded and he wiped away a tear as he sealed his statement with a kiss.
"I missed you so much Ricky" I sighed.
He shifted uneasy like something was weighing on his mind.
"Is everything okay?" I asked taking his hand.
He looked down at the floor than back at me.
Ricky POV
I got off Amy's bed and stared out the window. I was dreading the words that were about to come out my mouth. You promised to protect her I thought giving myself a pep talk.
"Amy I can't do this anymore" I said quickly avoiding eye contact.
"What" she gasped lips trembling.
"I can't keep putting you and John in danger because of me. Because of my past you deserve better." I said hearing my voice crack.
Her face was getting flushed and she was staring at me.
"You're leaving me?" she muttered tearfully.
"I think when you get discharged you and John should stay at your parents house" I said numbly staring at random things in the room.
"No, Ricky I want to be with you." she whimpered.
By now John sensed what was going on he started to get fussy in Amy's arms.
"Ricky please" she started but I was backing away to the door.
"Ricky" she cried. As I turned around just in time because I could no longer hold my tears back.
"Ricky comeback please" I heard her pleading as I walked down the hall.
Mr. and Mrs. Juergens were just getting back as I got to the lobby. I called them before I got here and told them that Amy would need them tonight.
Amy
I held onto to John for dear life and we were both crying into each other's shoulder. He was crying because I was crying and I was crying because I was dying.
"Ricky" I screamed my vision blurry from tears.
My monitors start going off again but they weren't any louder than the ringing in my head or the sound of my heart shattering to pieces.
"Amy" my mother sighed sympathetically as my dad consoled John.
"Mom go get Ricky" I said hoarsely "tell him its okay, tell him he doesn't have to leave me" I cried as she put her arms around me.
"Amy he's doing what he thinks is right" she said rubbing my back. "He's putting your safety first."
I cried harder pissed that my mom wouldn't get him. How dare she think this was right.
"Get out!" I screamed at them "I don't want you here" I said pushing my mother's arms away.
"Amy we're just-"
"LEAVE!" I barreled out loudly as the doctors were putting something in my IV.
My eyes got heavy and I punched the mattress on my hospital bed upset that I couldn't fight my sleep.
A/N I'll be making corrections tomorrow when I do a re-read I was just so anxious to post.
