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P/s: I think my boyfriend is a vampire
Blessed with good look, sharp mind and athletic body, my boyfriend is perfect. But wait, are those fangs?
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Chapter 7
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After sending a short email to Asagi, I quickly flushed the toilet. No, I didn't do no.2 in the toilet, I just pretended that I really needed toilet when actually, I was just buying some time. After the bachelorette party-turned-bloody party ended, Athrun had brought me to our previous hotel room and I lied to him, about throwing up all the alcohol in my system all while with the over-dramatic acting, flailing arms and shits… although part of it was true actually...
I did feel like throwing out my intestine out.
I turned off my handphone and stared at the door before finally pushed it open and found my boyfriend boring hole on my forehead. His hands were folded and his face was void of any expression. I was frozen as our eyes met, his eyes were cold emeralds while mine were the shocking gold. I almost took a step backward when he moved towards me with something that look like a red cloth and pulled me closer to him. My heart jumped and beat even faster than a minute ago as he wrapped the cloth around my waist to cover my exposed thighs. I could feel his breath across my ears as he tightened the cloth and his hands lingered on my waist. He was looking at me with a melancholic expression in his eyes and I couldn't help but feel bit guilty. But then, guilty for what? Guilty for knowing who he was or guilty for wanting to know more about him?
I just simply wanted to pretend all of this did not happen at all… but let's face it, shit already happened and almost irreparable.
"Sit" he said authoritatively while dragging a chair. I sat down and he towered over me, he looked like a stranger to me. So different with the usual Athrun, my dorky yet gentleman boyfriend.
"What's this Cagalli?" he said while holding up Le Creuset's journal.
I stared at the old journal in his hand and it reminded me that I had not read it yet! I didn't even pass the first page!
Screwed!
"A book?" I answered, playing dumb.
There was this suspicion in his eyes that killed me.
"You shouldn't keep this from me. Do you have any ideas what that does to me?" he asked and his voice was so raw and hoarse that it hurt me. But I would like to return that same question to him. Didn't he at least think about my feelings as he hid all these details from me? What was me to him? An object? A pet?
"Looks who's talking. Do you even think how I feels after knowing that someone that I love lying to me? Have you ever thought about what I feel whenever I tried to remember how we met but nothing came to my mind? Have you ever asked me whether I want my memories to be erased or not? Have you?"
His body jolted and his eyes mirroring guilt.
"How far did you know Cagalli?" his voice softened and his look suffocating me.
I sighed, "You're not human, a vampire I guessed…" I paused for a while and my eyes reached to his, "I think the event hours ago just confirmed to me that"
A muscle in the side of his face twitched. He sucked in a sharp breath and let it out slowly. "Sweetheart…" he started and I knew if he started calling me sweetheart, it meant that he wanted to confess something. I just sat still and waiting for his explanations.
"… I'm sorry for not telling you about who I really am. I feel so insecure whenever I thought about this and I just don't want you to run away from me—"
"Does it matter?" I cut him off. I was sincere about my feelings on him. How could it change even after knowing who he really was? He looked at me like he wanted to cry and he enveloped my hands in his. His hands were still cold as I still remembered, "…I will run even further if you don't explain at all"
I tore my hands off him and my eyes grew cold, "…and I will hate you even more"
His eyes dilating with horror and in a second, he griped my shoulders. Hearing me wincing, he loosed his grip and went kneeling in front of me, his hands rested on my knees and his face buried in between them. He was trembling and I was tempted to pat him but I just couldn't. I didn't know what to do, I was lost, I was confused, but I surely knew one thing… I hated seeing him like this. I hated myself for causing him looked so desperate.
"What can I do for you to forgive me?" his voice muffled against my knees and his lips brushing my skin, I was touched by his plead.
"Truth. I want them. I want to know everything"
He looked up and I noticed that his eyes were glassy emeralds, "I can't do that. I believe knowing nothing is better for you"
Angrily, I pushed him away, "..Or do you want me to get the truth from Creuset's Journal?!". How dared he decided what was good for me! I didn't want to live knowing nothing about him! It made me felt like I was blind.
"Give me back the journal" I demanded, my voice was pitching higher.
"This journal is dangerous, I can't let you have it"
"I don't care! Creuset said the truth is in the journal"
"Creuset? That guy is dead. The last time I saw him was when he buried this journal and I stood behind him at that time"
"…you know… who Creuset is"
"I told you, knowing nothing is the best for you"
I was hella angry. This was not fair for me. It was like he was standing at the other side of the fence with the thing I wanted but I could only stared at it because the fence was too high to be climbed. And the more he said –NO-, the more I wanted to have it.
Furiously, I made my way out of the room, ignoring his callings and when he gripped my wrist, I threatened him that I would commit suicide in this room. I was so pissed off with his lies and this madness and I needed to cool off somewhere where he was not around.
I swung the door opened and slammed it shut. I gave no fucks if the door ended up broken or whatever. I was so mad!
"Whoa..whoa… Still a mad bull Athha"
I turned my head irately at the source of that deep, male voice.
This guy had a pair of bloody red eyes, and his fair skin was stark contrasting with his shiny black hair.
I stared at him with a blatant disdain because mind you, I just fought with my boyfriend and I was so not in the mood. I could punch this guy in the daylight if he annoyed me.
"…Cagalli"
Athrun came out from the room, his face was full of regret before surprised mixed into it. He was staring alternately at the black haired guy and me. I decided that I did not need any more bullshits to handle and so, I stormed off towards the lobby.
It was just in a merely minutes when I reached my car. I guessed that was what madness had caused me. I was just enraged at everything right now.
A knock on my car's window startled me. It was the black haired guy again.
"What do you want gawddammit!" I wasn't actually asking him, I was actually telling him to screw off.
But this guy, totally unaware of my rage that actually could kill him right away, decided to ride a car with me.
He already opened the car's door when I was yelling him to get the fuck off and there was this irritating smirk on his face. I was baffled at his casual manner all while wondering what had gotten into me that I forgot to lock the door.
"Now you can drive" he said while looking at his nails ever so casually.
"You're joking right?"
"I said drive"
I pointed my index finger towards the door, "Get out"
"Drive"
"No. You get the hell out first!"
"Damn it Athha, just drive or I'll get your pretty ass boyfriend here!"
I didn't know how he knew my last name but heck I had no time to care about that, I was busy throwing him some punches on the shoulder to force him to get out of the car.
"You have no right to order me around! And I don't know you Mr. Stranger!"
He sighed and I was taken aback because it seemed like I was at fault here when it was him that barged into my car.
"You do know me. I'm Shinn" He fidget slightly and facing me. My mouth was slightly parted as I was trying to trace the memory of him, if there was any.
"…Asuka"
He smirked at me and somehow, a flash of someone in my childhood appeared in my mind.
"Shinn Asuka?"
"Yeah yeah...the snobby arrogant kid that you hate.. I pulled your twintails daily back then..." He paused for a phonecall and I noticed that he was speaking to Athrun. Oh shit, I could predict what would happen if I stayed around any longer. I supposed I should just drive now, while pretending that the stranger who claimed to know me wasn't even there beside me. I could just play dumb.
Shinn lowered the window and let the chilly night breeze into the car. I slightly glanced at him and saw him laid back oh so casually. This guy, was one of Athrun's comrades and possibly, someone from my past. Of course it was hard for me to believe him, after all, he was not a human...he was just like Athrun.
Could I believe him?
"It's been a while" he said after I stopped the car near the public park. I didn't know why in the blazen hell made me to drive there of all places. I glanced at the digits on the dashboard and it showed 4.30 am and I was so exhausted with all the fuckery that had happened hours ago.
He placed a hand on my head and turned my head to look at him. I gave him a glare before swatting his hand away, "Yeah… It's been like… 20 years"
"Still sarcastic as back then", He laughed and I harrumphed at him.
"Why are you here? I want to sulk alone and I don't need companion for that"
"I'm just looking after you. I promised your boyfriend that I'll make sure you won't do reckless thing"
"He's an asshole"
"Yes he is"
"He should die"
"Not after another 500 years"
"I hate all of you"
"You're one of us"
I stared at him in vexation, "I'm not"
"Come on Athha, I'm a werewolf. My nose can smell your inhuman scent from miles away"
"Then what am I? A vampire?"
"Didn't Athrun tell you at all?"
My lips stretched into straight line, "Knowing nothing is the best- he said", and I was fighting the urge to cry. There were lots of mixed emotions in me and I didn't know what I should right now. And I was starting to lost faith about myself.
"Well… I partially agree with him"
"What about the other?"
Shinn looked at me, "What do you think?", and there was something in his eyes when he looked at me. Sympathy?
Shit. I didn't need any of that!
"Then let's pretend this conversation and this whole deal never happened and I'm just who I believe I am- a human. Nothing more and nothing less"
"You can't run away. Your real self will soon claim you. Just like me. I never wanted to be a werewolf but it's just there in my blood. I can't run away from it," he paused, "And I learnt to accept it the hard way"
"I will not run away, but it's my choice to live like whatever I want. And no one, can take that from me"
"Choice and fate are two different things Athha! You can't fight your fate, deal with it"
Really, I wanted to punch this Shinn guy right here, right now. My fist already curling and I ended up punching the steering wheel instead of his face.
"You wanna bet? I can show you that I could have both"
A/N:
Thank you for all your patience and sorry for the delay, it's been a tough month for me. Thank you readers, reviewers (Miyu Nanami, popcaga, Cagalli Haruka Zala, summerain, Mrs. Zala, Nemui Neko-Chan, Ryuukou, Kkornelia, ladyle, Lennethia, CagalliRules and Jime)-you guys are so wonderful, love reading yur reviews, and sometimes they're a wake up call for me to be a bit more productive haha...
The grammatical errors, I hope they aren't too much... And this chapter is done quite in a rush..so...sorry for the quality..
It's almost nearing the end.. ALMOST.
