Disclaimer: CCS is not mine
Author's Note: Hey guys!!! I know its been so long since I have last updated but my life just got crazy when I entered college… The courses were tougher and me being the masochist that I was picked the Mother of all Killers which was B.S Physical Therapy!!! It was crazy man!!!
Anyway this was only the time I was free enough to update… well… I'm gonna sleep later since I seem to have missed out on a lot before… really I am sorry that it has been so long… I hope you guys enjoy this!
Chapter 7: Edward's Return
It has been two weeks since I have last shared that mind numbing kiss with Syaoran. I couldn't deny it any longer, even to my own ears all the lies I've told myself sounded weak, even I don't believe it. How could I? When my entire being sings when he's near, when my heart screams and tells me that I am irrevocably and unequivocally still in love with him, damn all the odds! Its silly and incredibly stupid, I know… how many years have I tried to delude myself into thinking that I have moved on when I know for a fact that I haven't.
"Sakura, I'm getting worried about you... is it Syaoran? What am I saying!?! Of course its him duh!!! Hello!!! Can you at least pretend that your paying attention to me… even just a little will be appreciated, SAKURA!!!" Tomoyo whined.
"I'm sorry! I hate this too, you know!!! I don't know what to do… its been driving me crazy, ever since that event at the skating rink and that skating routine leaking out in public… Everything just got so messed up! And between our shows, guestings and appearances we've been so busy and well we weren't able to clarify anything with each other… and… and…"
"Your rambling Sakura" she injected. "I know!!! But I'm really just so confused I don't know what the score between us is… I don't know what to think! I want to hold him and shake him and make him tell me that he loves me too but when I see him I just freeze up and I blush… I'm stupid… This is hopeless! I'm hopeless! Just kill me and end this all Tomoyo!"
"I can't do that! Killing is a crime! Besides I'm enjoying this! You two amuse me to no end… by the way have you heard of his new movie?" Tomoyo suddenly asked.
"Yeah! How could I not? Its practically the talk of the town… well… besides that issue that involves us skating… the media hounds here are just too good at recognizing us that they could easily give my constant Hollywood hounds a run for their money! Both our every move is being dissected under the media microscope… its crazy!!!"
"I agree… anyway!!! About this movie! I heard it was with this super hot actress Mei Lin Lee" Tomoyo said as she wiggled (or is it waggled!?!) her eyebrows at me.
"Don't start with me Tomoyo!" I groaned as my mind drifted back to the problem at hand. "I'm miserable enough that I haven't seen him in weeks… and now! There's this actress that I'm sure would be vying for his attention!" I added with a sigh. How can everything turn complicated after those three wonderful days together?
"Woah! Sakura look!!! Isn't that Edward? As in your ex-boyfriend Edward!?!" Tomoyo suddenly quipped as she turned the television volume louder. "Hey! Your right! That is Edward! Wow! What's he doing here?" I wondered out loud.
"And speaking of Edward! Sakura, he personally called me earlier to ask if you could be his guest on his concert here in China. I think that this would be a great exposure for you and well he could really use your help in selling his tickets… I kinda already said yes… you uhm… its okay with you right… his manager Ginny Weasley asked me… and well she was really nice…" My manager Harry rambled on as he played with his shirt looking extremely uncomfortable. "Oh… That's ok Harry… wow… she must have really been ahem… uhm… convincing!?!" I said as I smiled at him. "Well… yeah… she's really nice!" he replied. "Hmmmm… I wonder why Edward didn't say anything to me…"
"Oh and before I forget if you must know Edward's sister, Alice also asked if she could dress you? I told her that we already have Tomoyo on our team so I'll ask you ladies first…"
"WHAT!!! YOU MEAN ALICE CULLEN RIGHT!?! The extremely one of a kind! Johnny Depp alike recluse Alice Cullen!!! What the hell were you thinking Harry!!! You should have just said yes!!! She's a fashion goddess!!! Oh!!! Can I meet her Sakura!?! You'd have to bring me with you on your fitting!!!" Tomoyo gushed as Harry looked extremely perplexed. "Sorry Harry… you know how she gets when fashion is involved…" I told him apologetically as Tomoyo continued staring at the tv. I'm sorry for Harry really I am! But I'm just thankful that she hasn't realized that I also knew Alice personally since Edward nearly became my fiancée! Thank goodness for little favors!
"Yeah… that's okay Sakura! I'll just text Alice about the details" he replied which managed to catch Tomoyo's attention again. "You have her number!?! Give it!!!" she screamed as she dived for Harry's phone.
"Tomoyo!!! Stop it!!! Right this instance young lady!!! Or I will call your mother!" Harry threatened as he held his phone out of Tomoyo's reach. "Pish posh!!! I don't care about that!!! I absolutely need to confer with Alice!!! It's a matter of life and death!!!" she replied as she continued to scramble for the phone.
Yeah… my own personal circus… who needs cable when you have these two for company?
Edward was my first boyfriend. My first date, my first kiss… basically my first everything! Well except for that one thing that really matters. He was also one of my closest and oldest friends, since we basically grew up together in the entertainment industry.
From play mates we became America's "IT couple," only second to Bradgelina even. Although unlike Bradgelina we had some sort of on-off relationship going on for us which strangely enough, people loved. And it just shows when we produce duets, we always manage to get into the billboards and not to mention the awards those songs bring. Oh and no we haven't tried adoption either… wait does puppies count!?! Because we totally now have joint custody over Kero and Yue.
Anyway, Edward was also one of the reasons why I left America all those years ago. I loved him and he swore that he loved me as well but it was like there was always something missing in our relationship. I just had to get away then because our relationship confuses me and I couldn't think properly when he's near. When he wasn't with me… I miss him terribly but when he's always beside me we just seem to… settle…
It was like riding a rollercoaster that everybody talks about. You get super excited while your in line but after getting on it the excitement or… the thrill wasn't all there for you, and then you wonder what the hype was all about… was something wrong with you!?! To the point that you feel a little bit cheated at the end. That was exactly how it was for me! And I didn't want to resent Edward for it. Don't get me wrong! He's a great guy and our chemistry on screen was off the hook but this was beyond ratings and polls.
As I've said before, Edward and I were quite close and as one of my few real close friends in the business, I wanted to protect what we had and let's face it! As stars only a few things were real to us, so those few things were quite important to us! And our relationship with one another was one of those.
We both wanted to stay close friends no matter what happens and we didn't want to hurt each other so badly. So I decided to separate from him for a while to soul search as well as to find what that missing… well… thing was. And he was so nice about it too! He even assured me that it was the same for him and that he thinks that maybe this separation would be good for us, since it may help us learn and grow more as a person.
Separation wasn't easy, being without him shook me at first so when Tomoyo asked me to come back to Japan with her, I jumped at the first available flight. I thought the distance would be able to ease the pain of constant reminders… even for a little bit would be nice. Being in a lot less pain as I stew over our relationship and experiences together would be a blessing, I thought.
Until my car broke down and I met Syaoran for the first time! At that moment, I remembered saying to myself that, that was it! The thing missing between Edward and me was that spark, the same spark that seems to be present between Syaoran and me!
Spending time with Syaoran only managed to cement that sentiment in me, so after a careful and long deliberation I finally called Edward to tell him about what I discovered. He was so quiet while I explaining things to him which got me a little bit worried and when I reached the end, ready for an argument to erupt. he just laughed and told me that he understood me perfectly. And that was the end of that!
When I returned to America, thankfully we remained friends without any awkward phases. He just continually teased me about… well… Syaoran. As far as I knew he was reconnected with his first love but he was so secretive about her! But it was clear to anyone who knew him that he was so in love. He didn't even have to tell me about it! I can just see it in his face every time he talks about his Isabella! Hmmm… speaking of which I must remember to ask him how he is! And Isabella of course!
After a few weeks, it was finally time for Edward's concert and here I am sitting with the audience, watching him perform his best. I insisted to make my performance a surprise since I believed in Edward's ability to fill the stadium by himself. He's extremely talented and being insanely hot helps him too, I guess. I tried to pass for a simple audience at first but even then I was easily spotted by the media. I have heard some of their speculations with regards to my presence and as usual they never failed to amuse me, some were outlandishly funny while others were just plain weird… how they got to their assumptions were beyond me… Apparently no one had the sense to google us which would have saved them a lot of time if you ask me.
Kicking the media aside, I am so extremely proud of Edward! It was clear that we both have come a long way from our Barney and Kids stints before. He was just amazing and I was just so sure that this concert of his would be the talk of tinsel town for years on out as one of the best there ever was.
As a fellow performer I knew how hard it is for him to do what he does and ever the perfectionist, he was able to execute all those gracefully! His vocal range was clearly top class! He was capable of singing just about any genre! Truly he has proven to everybody tonight that he really is the Prince of Music! I thought as I clapped and gave him a standing ovation as he bowed and winked at me with his signature crooked grin on his face.
"Thank you everyone! Tonight it is my great pleasure to welcome one of my dearest and oldest friend to the stage with me tonight. She was with me since forever and I am truly thankful for her company and support, my life would have been such a bore without you love! Sakura Kinomoto everyone!!!" he said as he jumped off the stage and reached his hand out to me with a mic.
At the mention of my name the crowd went wild cueing my also signature blush as I took the mic from his hand and pulled him to me with a hug. "Edward! Stop it! Don't tease me!" I told him as I hugged him. "Sorry love! I just simply couldn't resist!" he replied with that thrice damned grin as he led me to the stage.
"Good Evening Beijing!!! How are you guys tonight!?!" I shouted to the crowd with a huge wave. "It's nice to see you again Edward! As always your awesome!!!" I told him as he bowed down to me.
"Thank you Sakura! But we both know that your awesomeness knows no bounds too!!! Isn't that right people!?!" he replied as he faced them. The crowd once again went wild with a lone trailing 'I love you Sakura' screamed at the end.
"See love! These people agrees with me so if you would just sit down here! I would be more than happy to perform for you! Wouldn't that be nice!?!" he asked teasingly to the crowd. "YES!!!" they screamed as I sat at a stool magically produced at the middle of the stage.
"This song was something I made for Sakura when I was younger. I was… so… deeply in love with her then… and I wasn't kidding when I told you guys how important she is to me! Sakura you know this… I've told you this before but I'll tell you again now, that no matter what happened before between the two of us you would always remain here in my heart as someone important. No matter who I love now, this song would always be meant for you… Thank you so much…" he said as he held my hand to his heart, his eyes never leaving mine.
"For everything…" he added. And as the first notes of the song flittered into the stadium he brought my hand to his lips to press a chaste kiss on the back of my palm.
I never thought that it be easy
Cause we both so distant now
And the walls are closing in on us
And we're wondering how
No one has a solid answer
But just walking in the dark
And you can see the look on my face
It just tears me apart
He sang as he continued to hold my hand to his chest with his eyes boring into mine, emerald into emerald the media once said. I remembered the time when he wrote this song, that was when we first broke up. We were younger then… We felt lost without each other… The confusion and hurt we felt were unimaginable… but we were fighters… we still tried to succeed…
So we fight (so we fight) through the hurt (through the hurt)
And we cry (and cry and cry and cry)
And we live (and we live) and we learn (and we learn)
And we try and try and try and try
"Sakura... I made this song for you... I... you are my life now and I can't deal with this on my own you have always been with me... I have made mistakes and I wasn't able to properly take care of you... I love you... please come back to me... I promise to do everything that I can to... love you... cherish you... like you deserve..." he told me before. We couldn't handle the pressure alone then. We were both so young… inexperienced… So we got back together and hung on tight, we thought a compromise was the answer then…
So its up to you and its up to me
That we meet in our middle
On our way back down to earth
Down to earth down to earth
On our way back down to earth
(back down to earth - repeat)
We tried to overcome the hurdles... The challenges of stardom were hard on us as teenagers as we struggled to grow… things can become surreal and over the top but we had each other to make things real for us… We rooted each other to the ground…
"Edward... do you think we'll last 'till forever!?!" I childishly asked him before as I clung on his arm. "I don't know Sakura... we're still young... we still have a long way to go but for now you should know that I can't imagine a future without you..." he replied as he kissed my forehead tenderly.
Mommy you'll always and somewhere
And daddy I live outta town
So tell me how could I ever be normal somehow
You tell me this is for the best
So tell me why am I in tears
So far away and now I just need you here
So we fight (so we fight) through the hurt (through the hurt)
And we cry (and cry and cry and cry)
And we live (and we live) and we learn (and we learn)
And we try and try and try and try
We struggled but we conquered it then… It was up to him and it was up to me to struggle for each other's sanity…
"Come with me Sakura... Let's face them... are you ready love?" he'd always ask before we face the media. "As long as you never leave my side, I'm ready for everything Edward" I'd always reply.
So its up to you and its up to me
That we meet in our middle
On our way back down to earth
Down to earth down to earth
On our way back down to earth
(back down to earth - repeat)
When everything was so crazy we had each other to run to… That's why he needed me… That's why I needed him… That was then as we both faced the world seemingly alone…
We fell so far away from where we used to be
Now we're standing and were do we go
When there's no road to get to your heart
Let's start over again
I understood you then Edward and I understand you now… I thought as I smiled up at him as I stood up and hugged him tight…
So its up to to you and its up to me
That we meet in our middle
On our way back down to earth
Down to earth down to earth
On our way back down to earth
(back down to earth - repeat)
It wasn't easy being who we were… It was a hard and heavy cross to bear alone so we shared it between each other… I needed you before because you were all I thought I had… you were the only one who perfectly understood me… I understand and I set you free… I love you then and I love you now friend… I hope for the best for the two of you… I thought as I hugged him tighter as tears of joys streamed down my face… I'm so happy for you… so very happy…
I never thought that it be easy
Cause we both so distant now
"Sing me my song again Edward when your sure... when your already happy where you are... no matter where you are I'd hear it... after all you made it for me..." I told him before I left him for Japan...
And the walls are closing in on us
And we're wondering how.
As the song finished I looked up to him and said "Yes! I love you…" while the crowd goes wild around us. Those words were enough for the two of us… he understood that I have approved of his decision and that I was happy for him. "Thank you love… Thank you so much…it means a lot to me…" he replied as he buried his face on my shoulder.
And with that we faced the crowd, once again hand in hand like before when we were kids… The only difference now was that we had other people in our lives. It wasn't just us now… we've… grown up…
Author's Note: So there you go… The next chapter is on its way seeing that I am just bumming around the house now a days… well if you liked or hated this chapter… please let me know via the reviews… The song Edward sang was Down to Earth by Justin Bieber whom I find cute! And before you guys ask no! Mei Lin isn't Syaoran's cousin in this story thus the different spelling of her surname (yeah!!! It makes a whole lot of difference!!!).
