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"Jocelyn, you alright darling?" she heard Frankie's voice through the door as she paced back and forth in her own bathroom. She had thrown up, but that wasn't what was making her stomach churn. She flung the door open, glaring at her best friend who looked a little sheepish.
"He didn't know Frankie! I think I gave him a heart attack when I blurted it out like that!" she brushed past him stomping her way towards her kitchen. She wanted ice cream and she wanted it now. She flung the freezer door open, grabbing out her chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream carton, then slamming the door shut angrily. She grabbed a spoon and dug the spoon in the ice cream eyeing her friend.
"I'm sorry Jocelyn I didn't realize we were talking about something else. I'm not sure what he was thinking, but I'm sorry."
"He was thinking you were talking about the dinner tonight."
"Okay I can see how he perceived what I said into that, especially since neither one of us actually came out and said anything."
"God I should call him back, and beg him for forgiveness for telling him like that. This is all your fault Frankie." she huffed stabbing her spoon back into the carton.
"I know! I said I'm sorry."
"Yeah, I know you are and you didn't mean it. Did he say anything after I handed you the phone?"
"No, but I heard a lot of coughing and gasping."
"I killed him!" she wailed flinging her head back in agony. "I killed the man I love by blurting out the fact that I'm pregnant."
"You didn't realize he didn't know Jocelyn, and for that I am truly sorry. I'll fix things for you Jocelyn."
"How?"
"I'll call him and see how he is."
"No you can't."
"Yes I can." he held out her phone, and she glared at him when he quickly hit redial on John's phone number. She hated technology. She watched as Frankie put the phone to his ear and he waited a few moments. "Well hello there John, it's me, Frankie. Jocelyn is a little worried she might have killed you so I was calling to make sure you weren't. So if you could give us a ring back that you are alive and kicking we'd appreciate it." Frankie pulled the phone away. "I think you might be right Jocelyn. He might be dead." They both looked up when they heard the doorknob to her apartment jiggle and then a rapid pounding.
"Joss, open this damn door!"
"Well good news Jocelyn John's clearly not dead, but he might need to talk with you about it."
"No duh Frankie." she huffed as the pounding got worse as she made her way to the door.
"Joss, open the door or I'll break it down."
"Oh god, that's so hot." Frankie fanned himself. She pointed at him, mouthing to behave before she swung the door open, forcing a smile on her face. John was standing there, looking panicked and concerned.
"Hi John what brings you by?" Okay, so pretending she didn't blurt it out to him on the phone wasn't the best idea judging by the way his face tensed. She allowed John to enter and she closed the door.
"Joss how are you pregnant?"
"Oh boy, now I need to explain the birds and the bees to you too?" Joss glared at Frankie when he spoke up. John looked ready to pass out and she didn't need him making jokes at a time like this.
"I thought you said it was okay-that one time we forgot the condom?"
"John you look ready to faint."
"I'm not, I'm just a bit surprised," an understatement of the year!
"Surprised? You were choking so hard we were worried you died." Joss glared at Frankie again when he spoke up. John looked at him himself, but she didn't see any anger at her friend.
"I-uh-wasn't expecting to hear that she was pregnant. Remind me never to call you while I'm drinking coffee again."
"You choked on coffee?!"
"Do you know a good dry cleaner Joss?" she eyed his suit and saw coffee stains on it. He spilt his coffee in his surprise and she felt terrible, he could have burned himself.
"Oh god, I think I'm going to be sick again!" This was the worst way for John to find out, and now he looked positively ill at the fact that he was having a child. She wanted to run and hide in her bathroom. But she needed to let him know she wasn't expecting anything. If he wanted to be involved he could be. He didn't have to be if he didn't want to be because she wouldn't hold him down if it wasn't something he wanted.
"Joss is it true? Are you pregnant?"
"John, you weren't supposed to find out like that I had it all figured out in my head how I was going to tell you. I'm sorry John, Frankie thought you knew, and it was a big misunderstanding."
"I'll say!" Joss saw the panicked look still clearly on John's face. If this was another time she would have teased him that something scared the hell out of him, but this wasn't it. Since it was the fact that she was pregnant with his child that was scaring him to death, she figured she'd better keep her big mouth shut.
"John, I'm not expecting anything."
"What are you talking about?"
"I'll understand if you want to leave me."
"Leave you?"
"Yes you never mentioned wanting children before, and I never really thought it could happen. You can go if you want I won't make you stay."
"I-is that what you want? Do you want me to go?" Joss stared at him and even though she saw the panic in his eyes, she also saw other emotions written on his face.
"No that's not what I want, John. I just meant if you didn't want our child I wouldn't force you into being a father if it's not what you want."
"The baby and you are probably better off without me anyway."
"John, I didn't mean it like that. I love you, and I want you in our baby's life. I just don't want to make you feel pressured into something you never wanted."
"How do you know I never wanted children?" Joss searched his eyes seeing the tears forming in his eyes, and she was too scared to hope he wanted their baby as much as she did.
"I don't know? Do you?"
"I never thought it would happen. I always thought I was destined to live and die alone."
"Well John you got me, and in nine months you will become a daddy. So I need to know now if you're in or out.
"Do you really think I could walk away from you or our child?"
"No, but I don't want you to stay with me when it's not what you want John. It's not fair to any of us if you do.
"I love you Joss."
"I know you do, John. So are you in or out?" She sighed as he tugged her into his embrace as he gently kissed her giving her his answer without needing to say a word. She wrapped her arms tightly around his neck as they kissed deeply, and passionately forgetting they weren't alone in the room. Joss felt tears of happiness burn behind her eye lids as she answered his raw emotions. John was giving himself over to her completely which she knew was probably one of the hardest things he had ever done in his life. She knew because it had been hard for her to give herself over to him completely. They'd figure everything else out later. All she cared about for now was that John was happy about the baby. Joss was teasing his lips with her tongue and John was sighing in her mouth when they were rudely reminded they weren't alone in the room.
"Where's some popcorn for the show?" Frankie sighed, and Joss pushed out of the kiss to glare at him.
"You know Frankie you can leave now." Joss huffed, but her annoyance faded when she felt a gentle touch on her stomach. She looked at John who was looking at her stomach, and touching her with a small smile on his face. "Get out now Frankie." she breathed, needing to be alone with John now.
"Okay a guy can take a hint. You two have some fun between the sheets, but don't forget about our dinner party tonight since you are eating for two Jocelyn my dear." Joss didn't look away from the awed look on John's face at the fact he was going to become a father, or the lone tear that slid down his cheek. She heard the door to her apartment open and shut while she grabbed his other hand, tugging him towards her bedroom allowing him to still touch her stomach. John kissed her again as he followed while they slowly left a trail of clothing in their wake. They made gentle yet passionate love with John showering her tummy with lots of butterfly kisses for the rest of the afternoon.
Author's note: I am working on a follow up to this story not sure how many more stories are left for this series I have the next one, and a following one that's right after that.
But about this chapter I love how Joss completely forgets about work I hope she called in hahahahahahahahaha.
Thank you to everyone that has taken the time to read this, or review its so nice which I appreciate.
