Now that Finnick had shown me the appeal, I couldn't get rid of it. I just wanted to keep kissing him again and again and again. But obviously, I couldn't. It would ruin our friendship. Last night was just Finnicks way of being Finnick, it didn't mean anything to him. But for some reason it meant everything to me. My feelings for Finnick were changing, I think that just maybe I'm falling for Finnick Odair. And what a very stupid thing to do that is.
When I woke up my muscular pillow was in the kitchen making me breakfast. I quickly get changed into a short, revealing dress (I'm trying to impress here) and walk into the kitchen. Of course Finnick is still only in his underwear. He's made heart shaped chocolate chip pancakes, how cute I think sarcastically. Last night showed me that Finnick Odair is never just cute.
"Morning Katniss" he says with a wink, passing me my plate of pancakes and sitting next to me "you really were a girl on fire last night you know."
"Very funny Odair. I knew you were just a slimy fish boy" I say with a wink of my own.
"Slimy fish boy? I went about it very tactically actually, and I don't believe slimy fish boy was what was going through your mind last night, i think it was more like 'oh Finnick, fuck me Finnick, oh-"
"-alright, alright. I just feel sorry for you, you can't have sex with me because I'm a virgin" I smile seductively, trying to tease him.
"It's not that I can't, it's that I won't. It's a moral thing, it should be special. I don't want your first time to be with me." He says, trying to smile but actually he just looks sad. Theres a moments pause as my mind assesses what he just said, did he just reject me?
"Good because I don't want my first time to with you either" I lie. I felt so angry with him, I don't know why. I felt rejected. I know he's trying to do the right thing, but maybe he just doesn't realise that I want my first time to be with him. He's my best friend and potentially even more than that to me. I let my feeling of rejection take over and turn to anger. I stand up and push my plate of pancakes away, "I'm not hungry. I'm going to get a shower and then I'm going to meet Peeta." I snap, making my way into the bedroom and slamming the door shut on Finnick and my feelings. Whatever is going on between me and Finnick has to stop. Now.
Half an hour later I emerge wearing my shortest dress, and best shoes yet still managing to pull off a casual look. I want to impress but I don't want to look like I'm trying to hard. Finnick has got dressed and has tidied up everywhere.
"Katniss, you stormed off before I could ask what was wrong?" He says, standing up and walking towards me. I avert his gaze and start sifting through my handbag as if I'm looking for something.
"I didn't storm off. I was just in a rush to see Peeta." I say, continuing rustling in my bag.
"Oh..." He looks a bit hurt.
"Well we're all leaving the Capitol tonight. I wanted one last hot dog from the Park stand. Peeta said he'd take me." I pause and gage his reactions, emotionless as per usual.
"I'd better go." I add and leave without saying another word.
I step out of the elevator and see Peeta is stood already waiting for me. Why couldn't I like him in the way of should've done? He'd of been so good for me. He'd of looked after me, he'd never lead me on like Finnick has.
Who am I kidding? Finnick never led me on. I knew what he was like, and I wilfully let myself fall for him.
Peeta notices me and his face lights up with a big, gorgeous smile. I smile back at him as I walk towards him. I only saw him last night, but it feels like so much has happened since then. I pull him into my arms and hug him tightly, he seems surprised at first but relaxes into my grip. I release him from my hug and we smile at each other for a moment.
"You ready to get some hot dogs?" Peeta says with a smile.
"Sure thing." I reply. I intertwine my arm with his, he looks shocked again by our touch, but relaxes as we walk out the door towards the park.
Finnick POV
I knock as hard as I possibly can on Johanna's apartment door and continue you until she opens the door angrily.
"The fuck Finnick?!" She snaps, opening the door wrapped in nothing but a short towel.
"You need to tell Katniss!" I snap back at her.
"Tell her what?" She replies dumbly. She knows what I'm talking about.
"About you and Peeta! She has a right to know!"
"We'll tell her on the tour of the districts at some point..." She steps back inside her apartment and starts drying her hair with a towel. I follow her inside and shut the door, taking a seat on the sofa.
"That's not soon enough. She's out with Peeta at the moment."
"They're getting hotdogs Finnick. I'm not exactly worried." She says with a smirk. I bury my head in my hands.
"But she's angry with me. Peeta is always there for her, that's why she's gone to him. God knows what she might try. And you honestly think Peeta will reject her? No offence, but he was in love with her for a hell of a long while. They went through a lot together, there's gotta be some feelings still there." Johanna suddenly looks worried.
"What the fuck did you do now Finnick?"
"I kissed her."
"Why?! You know that's dangerous ground!"
"I couldn't help myself Johanna, I like her... More than I ever thought I would. It started as a game, but I fell for her. It's getting worse, I might even lov-"
"-don't even say it! What about Annie, huh? Have you forgotten about her? Katniss obviously has feelings for you, you shouldn't of kissed her. It just makes things more complicated. Besides you know Isaac has his eyes on her."
"Things between me and Annie are over! I told you that. She's my best friend but that's all. But things with Katniss are different, I'm falling for her fast. I don't care about Isaac, I want Katniss and if he wants her too then, well, he'll have to put up a very good fight."
"Whatever. Then maybe you should be telling Katniss this? C'mon, I'll get changed and then we'd better find them before anything happens."
Katniss PoV
"Well that was the best hot dog I've ever eaten." I say, wiping the ketchup from my lips. Peeta just smiles at my attempt to be ladylike.
"You can take the girl out of district 12, but you can never take district 12 out of the girl." Peeta says, and we both start laughing hysterically.
"Are you looking forward to going back?" I ask him.
"Hmm. At the moment, we're in a dream world here in the Capitol. I guess reality seems a little scary right now."
"Yeah. Agreed."
I lay my head on Peeta's shoulder, and look up into his eyes. Our lips are so close. I mean its not like we've never kissed before, but its certainly been a while. And I kinda wanna kiss him... Although, mostly just to get the thoughts of Finnick out of my head.
Suddenly I hear Johanna and Finnick shouting our names, and we quickly put some distance between our lips but its clear they saw. Not sure why it'd matter to them though.
"Erm Peeta, what the hell are you doing?!" Johanna shouts at him.
"I, erm, we-" he stutters.
"-you know what. We need to tell her." Johanna replies defensively.
Finnick takes the seat on the bench next to me.
"Tell me what?" I ask, suddenly very confused.
"That me and Peeta are together." Johanna says, pulling Peeta into her arms.
I'm not exactly sure how to react. The only constant thing in my life, Peeta, isn't going to be constant anymore. I just stand up, and let the tears flood down my face and run. Run away from all of them. They'd all lied to me. How long had this been going on for? Is this why they'd been arguing at the interviews that'd day? Come to mention it, I'd seen looks between them and whispering to each other. Oh god. I run all the way back to my floor.
Finnick follows me.
"-you knew? You knew and you didn't tell me? Why? Is this what they were arguing about the day of the interviews, when Peeta said he was single...was he with Johanna?" I break down even more. I don't even know why I'm crying, I don't feel that way about Peeta. I suppose I'm just hurt because I thought he felt that way about me.
"They wanted to tell you Katniss, I'm sorry."
"Finnick I want to have sex with you." I say, honestly but scared of his response "I want you."
I pull him in for a kiss, pulling him on top of me. Our kiss deepens as I let his tongue enter my mouth, he wants me too I can feel it. His unties my dress and I let it slip down, leaving me in just my underwear. I take off his top and his jeans, leaving him in just his underwear with his erection protruding through it and pushing against my area. Finnick unclasps my bra, his lips never parting mine, and as we both slip of our underwear we stop to stare at each others naked bodies for a while.
Finnick POV
Wow. She looks amazing. All of this feels so right. I want to so much. And I know its wrong, I know she just wants to get back at Peeta but my own feelings for Katniss are getting in the way of stopping her from throwing herself at me. Whilst we kiss I move me hands all over her perfect shaped body, before settling by her lower lips and letting one of my fingers slide in an out of her. I listen to her gentle moans, that I knew would soon become screams. I move my mouth down to her breasts, and lightly nipple and suck them, her moans become deeper and louder as I quicken the pase with my fingers. She returns the favour I'm giving her by grabbing hold of my member and rubbing it up and down, I moan with pleasure.
"Now Finnick, now I need you." Is all she says, and that's all I need. I get on top of her and enter inside of her, "I'm sorry this is going to hurt." She lets out a little moan of pain, which soon turn to screams of pleasure. Our hands are all over each other, our lips kissing passionately. I can feel her tighten as she gets closer, her screams getting louder and louder. The passion is rising in me as I get closer, until we both release whilst screaming each others names. I fall by the side of her, out of breath. For the first time in my life I just made love to a girl, not just sex but something far deeper and more meaningful. And as I lay there looking at her I know that I, Finnick Odair, am in love with Katniss Everdeen, my girl on fire. Fuck. _
Katniss POV
I get up and change into a short black dress, and tie my hair in a plait to the side. Finnick is staring at me and I know what he must be thinking.
"Finnick this wasn't about Peeta, sure I was angry but I did this because I wanted to, because I like you, I trust you... It was special."
"Katniss, this was special for me too. You have no idea how much-"
"-but that's it. You made my first time special. But we're just friends right? This can't carry on." I try to act like it doesn't bother me, but really its breaking me.
"Yes, I know" Finnick says, giving me a slight smile, "Finnick Odair doesn't do relationships." He jokes.
Being with him would be risky, I love him, and he doesn't feel the same way. I need to just be his friend.
